real thing

Chapter 10 is really over

Chen Xi:

It's really over.

I have a hunch that Tang Yuting and I are really coming to an end.

I knew in my heart that Tang Yuting would not cheat. He asked me if I would go back, and I didn't want to go back either.

"Tang Yuting, have you ever thought about breaking up with me?"

I heard Tang Yuting breathing heavily on the other end of the phone, and he didn't speak for half a minute, but I also knew that acquiescence was equivalent to answering this question.

After thinking about it, Tang Yuting hesitated a few more times, followed by a long silence.

I said: "Tang Yuting, I thought about it, I thought about it many times, I think both of us should have thought about it, the boss sent me a video tonight, I was thinking, we had such a good time In the past, I was always thinking about the past. In the past, I thought that if there was a next life, I would still be with you, but I didn't expect that the days in this life would be so long. I seem... I can't go on... "

"I know you won't cheat, and I also know that even if we really want to break up, it can't be because of this."

"Because we can break up for any reason, but not because you cheated, even if it was me."

I talked a lot, very calmly, as if I was chatting with an old friend, I knew that Tang Yuting could understand my harsh words, I didn't expect that I would say it now, maybe there should be a better way to communicate, We sat down, face to face, and said that our fate might really be over.

I don't know what the reason is, I just want to take a needle and pierce Tang Yuting's heart. In the end, I want him to feel pain.

I don’t remember how the phone was hung up, but I only know that it was past one o’clock, I didn’t turn on the lights, I didn’t draw the curtains, there was no moon outside, and it was very dark inside and out.

It turns out that black has weight, and it weighs me down.

I took a picture of Li Quan on Friday morning, this time he didn’t grin his teeth, he showed his professional ability, the shooting went smoothly, and it was over in three hours, and then he came to me and asked for my mobile phone number and WeChat, I was like I believed what A Jiang said before.

I didn't add him, and then Li Quan went to find other colleagues. He didn't know how to get my phone number, and sent me a message, asking if I had time on the weekend, and wanted to invite me to dinner.

I'm not free, I haven't returned, and I won't go if I'm free. I'm bored now, and I don't want to know anyone.

I went to work for another week, and my next job was location shooting, and this time I had to go to Yunnan.

I haven't accepted a location job for more than two years. It's not that the company doesn't have any location work to do, it's because Tang Yuting doesn't let me take it.

In the first year of the epidemic, after the unblocking of various places, I took a trip to the location. Before leaving, Tang Yuting was not very happy. He wanted me to put off work, or simply resign. It is safest to stay at home. I think he was too worried. Yes, work still needs to be done.

The filming has actually been delayed for too long. On the morning of departure, Tang Yuting sent me to the airport and insisted that I wear the protective clothing he bought. I don’t know where he took it out. I don’t want to wear it. He He locked the car door directly, and said that he would not let me down if I didn't wear it. I couldn't unscrew him, so I still wore it.

On the entire plane, I was the only one wearing protective clothing, which was very conspicuous. Fortunately, the protective clothing was tight, and no one knew me, so it was good to be covered in it.

As a result, as soon as we got off the plane, we were told that there was a positive on the plane.

It was over, everyone on the plane was in close contact, and everyone was dragged to a designated place for isolation. I was quite thankful that Tang Yuting put on a protective suit for me, and I said in my heart that I would listen to him in the future.

It was supposed to be quarantined for 14 days, but two more people were detected in the middle of the quarantine. Later, we both added 14 days. I stayed in the hotel for a total of 28 days.

The place where I was quarantined was quite far from Tang Yuting. During that time, Tang Yuting and I had been making video calls every day. Later, I found out that I was not crazy after 28 days of quarantine, but he was going crazy.

His mental state is less stable than mine, and he scares himself all day long. One night he couldn't sleep, so he drove to find him directly, and kept driving around the hotel where I was isolated.

He ended up parking across the road from the hotel, and I could see him from the window.

A tall man with a hunched back, his shoulders leaning against the car door, and a cigarette dangling from his mouth. Although I can't see his face clearly, I guess he must not be shaved.

He said: "If I could fly, I would just flap my wings and fly into your room right now, and we will die together."

I called him crazy crow's mouth, and said that I don't want to die with you, but in fact, I was very moved.

He must not be able to enter the hotel. He stayed in a nearby hotel for two days, drove to a place where I could see him every day, and called me. Later, I insisted on letting him go back.

As soon as the 28 days were over, we couldn’t shoot on location. As soon as I got out, I saw Tang Yuting’s car. He was standing next to the car door and wanted to hug me when he came up.

But I pushed him several meters away. I was afraid that I still had bacteria and germs on my body. Let him stay away from me.

I asked Ah Jiang to spray me from head to toe with his disinfectant before getting into Tang Yuting's car. I was wearing a mask in the car and he was not allowed to take it off.

When I got home, I put all my clothes in a bag and threw them away. I hugged him only after taking a shower. I had a solid sleep that night.

It was also after that time that Tang Yuting forcibly restricted me and forbade me to accept location shooting in other places. The pick-up is only in the urban area, at most in the suburbs, and the others are in the company's studio.

I asked Ah Jiang to take the initiative to shoot this time, and Ah Jiang asked me jokingly: "What? Your old Tang doesn't care about you anymore?"

I just smiled and didn't say anything.

I didn't tell my parents about my breakup with Tang Yuting. My mother asked me why once, and I just said it was a quarrel. My father saw that I was not energetic, so he didn't yell at me to persuade me to break up. thing.

After living with my parents for three days, I moved out.

The place I lived in before was bought by Tangyu Court. A few years ago, I saved money by myself and my parents sponsored me. I also bought a small set, but the decoration has been delayed for two years, and it was only installed half a year ago. Well, I have been opening the windows for ventilation in the past six months, and now I can live in it, so I just dragged the suitcase and moved there.

The new house, which has never been lived in, is cold and unpopular, so I went to buy a lot of decorations, one by one to place and one by one to hang.

The lighting is warm yellow, the paintings on the wall are very warm, and the newly purchased carpet is very soft and comfortable, but I lived alone for a week, and I still don’t feel like a home, and I don’t feel like home.

The bed is very big. I like to sleep in a big bed. There is a bear doll beside me, and I hug it to sleep at night, but I will still be kicked under the bed in the middle of the night.

I know that I will definitely not get used to it at first. After all, the two of us have lived together for so long, and I have already done psychological construction and preparation for myself.

I envisioned living alone a long time ago, so when I was awake during the day, there was nothing special except that the house was a little too quiet.

But in the middle of the night, after waking up from a nightmare, I would still unconsciously sway to the side, and the swaying was covered with cold sheets, only to realize that I no longer live with Tang Yuting.

The boss of our dormitory came to Beijing once, and we went out for a meal. He asked me to bring Old Tang with him. I said Tang Yuting was busy and went by myself.

Our boss is usually careless, but his thoughts are the most delicate. After a few bites with me, we can see it, and asked me: "Tell me, what's the matter with Old Tang?"

I didn't speak, but the boss said: "We were chatting in the group last time, and you didn't reply. I also sent that video to Lao Tang. You both responded in the same way. At that time, I felt that there was something wrong between you two."

I drank a few sips of wine and said with the strength of the wine: "Boss, we both think that it was too good at that time, so I don't know how to respond, because now it's a bit, bad."

"Break up?" The boss hit the nail on the head.

I didn't say a word, the boss stared at me for a while, then sighed and said: "It's not easy in life, you both know what's going on between you two."

The day before I was going to Yunnan, I found out that I had been driving Tang Yuting’s car all this time. He picked me up that night, and then I drove the car. After delivering Tang Yuting to me, he drove away. , We usually don't know much about each other. If anyone goes out, he can drive whichever car he wants, and the car keys are placed on the porch cabinet.

I never contacted Tang Yuting again, Tang Yuting didn't contact me, and I didn't pack my things. In fact, I was a little afraid to go back.

I called him and his phone was off so I just drove over and I saw my car was still parked in the basement.

Before going upstairs, I thought a lot. If I saw Tang Yuting, I should say something to him. I gurgled back and forth in my stomach for a long time, and I was still muttering when I got out of the elevator.

It's easy to get together and leave, and you don't have to be like enemies when you meet. Maybe you can be friends in the future and have a meal together.

I stood at the door for a long time before I took out the key and opened the door. The words in my heart that seemed to have been boiled in a boiling water pot were useless. There was no one at home, and Tang Yuting was not there.

Tang Yuting probably hasn't been back for many days, the coffee table is covered with dust, and my car keys are still in their original place, untouched.

I was a little worried about Tang Yuting, so I called him again. I was worried that something might happen to him.

Tang Yuting's cell phone was still turned off, so I called Ye San'er again, and Ye San'er answered quickly.

I don't know that when I called Tang Yuting that day, Ye San'er was by his side. He didn't hide anything, saying that Tang Yuting had returned to his hometown and his mother was hospitalized.

I was taken aback, "What's wrong? Why are you hospitalized?"

"There was a car accident, it was not life-threatening, but it was fractured, and I have to live for half a month," Ye San'er apologized to me again, "Chen Xi, I didn't figure it out before, and you heard the nonsense on the phone. Actually, Old Tang..."

"I know," I interrupted Ye San'er, "this matter has nothing to do with you, it's between me and Tang Yuting."

Ye San'er probably didn't know what to say, so she said a few good words for Tang Yuting and hung up the phone.

Tang Yuting’s family is from Chengdu, and his parents live in their hometown. A few years ago, he wanted to take his parents to Beijing, but his parents were used to living in Chengdu, and they went back after a few days when they couldn’t adapt to Beijing’s weather. up.

And I could tell during the few days when his parents came, that his parents had a bad relationship, they were like strangers, and they usually didn't talk to each other.

Tang Yuting told me before that his father had cheated before, and his mother committed suicide after knowing about it. His father regretted it very much, but he would never go back to the past if he regretted it any more. The scar on his mother's wrist will last a lifetime, like A thunderbolt struck their home, and the home was no longer home.

Tang Yuting couldn't get through on the phone, so I sent him a message asking how his mother was doing.

I didn’t get his reply until I got off the plane in Yunnan. A text message with a total of six words, cold and polite: “Thank you for your concern, everything is fine.”

One sentence is fine, tell me everything about him and his mother.

I wanted to ask him again, but now I don't have to.