real thing

Chapter 17

Chen Xi:

I'm so ashamed.

The life in the mountains is really comfortable, the air is good, there are not many people, every day I go up to the mountains with Xi You and the others to pick tea, take pictures of the sunshine, rain, dew, and fir forests, and live a leisurely and comfortable life.

I haven't been so relaxed for a long time. I thought this state would last for a long time, but emotions are really out of people's control. The state of sunshine and rain only lasted for three days, and the more time was the inexplicable emptiness in my heart. A sense of dangling, as if a piece of my chest has been dug out, empty, dangling as soon as I walk, I don't feel safe at all.

I know in my heart what this feeling is because of, maybe it's my empress dowager's hindsight.

I stood beside the small stream and squatted down to look at the figures floating up and down in the water. In the water, my face was covered with earthy gray. I really didn't look like I was on vacation, but rather like I was fleeing.

Thinking in my heart that it was a mess, I would definitely not be able to continue with the work at hand, and Xi You didn't expect me to do anything, just thought I was here to play.

The small tea field in Xi You's house was finished, and someone came to collect the tea that day. The three of them worked hard for three days, and finally only had less than 2000 yuan.

Xi You took me and Ling Zijun to the town, and all the money from selling tea was used to buy medicine for his father, and there was some left over at the end, Xi You happily said to invite us to dinner, but I said I was not willing to invite him, I laughed Saying yes, the corners of Xi You's mouth never closed.

It was an expression that hadn't appeared on me for a long time, it was contentment.

This child Xi You has always had that kind of simplicity, but I hope he will remain like this forever.

Over the years, Tang Yuting and I have also sponsored many other children until they were unwilling to study or graduated.

But most of them have not been in touch until now. Tang Yuting and I have never thought about reciprocating. We didn’t think about it when we were doing this, but many people are lost in the greed and materialism of people. In reality, our help has become a matter of course. Some people came to Tang Yuting to ask for money after graduation. After Tang Yuting refused, they came to him for trouble. Some people lost money after gambling and came to Tang Yuting. Yuting borrowed money, but in the end he became an enemy.

At the beginning of the student foundation, Tang Yuting did it himself, but later he was disappointed and let other people in the company manage it. He no longer directly contacts those who are funded except for the annual due appropriation and checking the report at the end of the year. People, Xi You is the only one who keeps in touch with us now.

Xi You took me and Ling Zijun to a mutton restaurant. The mutton restaurant in the small town is really delicious. They don’t use fake mutton, nor thin slices of mutton. The mutton is big and boiled so soft. , thick white soup, the door is full of mutton fragrance.

I couldn't help but took a photo and posted it on a circle of friends.

I'm someone who hasn't posted a Moment for thousands of years, but when I suddenly post it, there are quite a lot of people who like it.

I replied to a few comments from our dorm boss, second child, and colleagues. Just as I was about to quit WeChat, I saw a new like.

Tang Yuting's WeChat avatar was changed to a photo of the grassland, the green grass, a few Gesang flowers were blown by the wind and tilted their heads to the east, blooming just right.

……

Yao Yao sent me a photo of Tang Yuting, Tang Yuting was standing on the grass, the wind messed up his hair, he was holding a cigarette butt, his eyes were a little slack, he seemed to be looking into the distance, and he seemed to be looking at the distance. remember.

I know that Tang Yuting and his company have traveled to Inner Mongolia, which is what Yao Yao told me. They told me the day they left and asked me why I didn't go.

Yao Yao is a funny girl, and she is really good at spreading information. The next day, she told me that an intern in the company went around telling people that Tang Yuting wanted to rule him out, and Yao Yao said don't worry about it. It was the intern who posted it up, and anyone with a discerning eye in their company could see it, and said that Mr. Tang definitely didn't like that kind of person.

As soon as I heard it, I knew what the intern said was false. I didn't believe that Tang Yuting would do such a nasty thing. Although he owed a lot in front of me all day, he was not that kind of person.

As for the intern, I don't even need to guess, it must be the one I saw in Tang Yuting's office last time.

At first glance, his intentions are not right, his belly is full of gossip, and he doesn't have a good heart, so it's fine if he doesn't drug Tang Yuting.

Yao Yao seemed to be more nervous than I was, and told me earnestly that I should also go to Inner Mongolia to play, so as not to give other people the opportunity to take advantage of loopholes.

As we talked, I really began to fear that Tang Yuting would suffer. He, to put it bluntly, sometimes looks like a fool.

I remembered that time when we went back from the mountains, and not long after that, the school would be on holiday. Tang Yuting came to see me all day. We maintained a certain understanding between us. Every day, we ate together and watched movies together like other couples. , Go to the library together, go to the concert of my favorite singer together.

In our dormitory, except for me, everyone else is from other places. They all left on the second day of the holiday. I have been moaning in the dormitory, because Tang Yuting hasn’t come home yet, and my parents have also returned to my grandparents’ house. , I have been living alone in the dormitory.

I asked Tang Yuting if he would go home, and Tang Yuting said he would go back a few days later.

He still often asks me out, what he thinks, what I think, we both know each other very well, but neither of us said it out.

For a day or two, I didn't take it seriously. After a long time, my heart was always up and down, and I was muttering in my dreams, and I was a little confused.

I used to think that according to Tang Yuting’s initial enthusiasm, he must have told me after we went back to school, but he never did, until he said that he would go home after booking the plane ticket, I was still thinking, he must be there Tell me before you go home.

The day before he came home, he invited me out to dinner and a movie.

I was quite beautiful at the time, and I made a special effort to tidy up before going out, but in the end, I finished my meal and watched the movie, and I didn’t do anything else until he sent me back to the dormitory. Everything was normal, and there seemed to be nothing else. arrange.

We talked for a long time downstairs in the dormitory, and finally he waved to me and asked me to go upstairs to rest early.

I stood still downstairs in the dormitory, raised my head and asked him: "Are you okay?"

Still puzzled, he shook his head and said no.

"What time is the flight tomorrow?" I asked.

"It's past nine o'clock," he said.

Our school is far from the airport, I said, "Do you want me to drop you off tomorrow?"

The big stupid guy still shook his head, saying that he didn't need me to send it, but he could do it himself.

At that time, I called him a fool eight hundred times in my heart. I didn't say anything more to him, but turned around and went upstairs, one step at a time, two steps.

For me, I don't really care who should say that sentence, but I just have a twist in my heart that Tang Yuting has to speak first.

I can't tell what was the psychology at that time, everyone was a man, so what's the hypocrisy?But I just screw up.

After returning to the dormitory, I took a shower. It was past eleven o'clock, and the more I washed, the more awake I became. At night, I tossed and turned and couldn't sleep. My phone ran out of battery when I wanted to play a while. I lay on the bed and started thinking about it.

Has Tang Yuting not figured it out yet?

Tang Yuting actually doesn't like me?

This period of time is actually just wishful thinking on my part?Am I wrong?

Isn't Tang Yuting gay?

Is Tang Yuting a liar?

……

Later, the more I thought about it, the more chilling I became, and finally I couldn't fall asleep at all. After charging my phone, I ran out again in my slippers.

I ran to the door of Tang Yuting's dormitory, stood under a thick sycamore tree, and called him.

Tang Yuting came down soon, he was also wearing slippers pajamas, his eyes were dim, obviously just woke up, he was woken up by my phone call.

I saw that he was so dazed and so angry, but he could sleep, but I still couldn't sleep.

I started right away: "Tang Yuting, what do you mean now? Are you playing with me? You don't like me. Why have you been provoking me all this time? Are you gay? Are you a liar?"

Blah blah blah blah, I didn't know what was wrong with me at the time, maybe it was when I was lying on the bed and thinking about it, I just felt sad, the more I talked, the more angry, the more angry the more sad, and the eye sockets became hotter and hotter.

Later Tang Yuting told me that he was so frightened that he stood there listening to me, he said that I was about to cry, my nose was shaking when I breathed, and he didn't know what he did wrong, It hurts to see me like that.

He was so anxious that he didn't know what to do, so he hugged me very hard, and my back rubbed against the sycamore tree trunk behind me, and my back hurt, but I only hurt for a while. After that, my whole body could feel Tang Yuting's particularly strong hug.

"what happened?"

"Why did I become a liar in less than two hours?"

"Why don't I like you? I like you so much, I like it so badly, I like it so badly..."

Later he just hugged me like that and whispered in my ear for a long time.

After I calmed down, I felt so ashamed, so fucking shameful, shameless, and completely lost.

I was too embarrassed to raise my head, so I lay on Tang Yuting's chest and lowered my head vigorously. If people's thoughts had the power to penetrate, the ground must have opened a gap three feet wide. Nobody can stop that.

There was a street lamp above my head, and my back felt burnt when it shone.

Although there were no people in the dormitory during the summer vacation, occasionally someone still looked towards us.

The sycamore tree is very big. Tang Yuting hugged me between him and the sycamore tree, blocking me very tightly. No matter how others looked at it, they couldn't tell who the person in the middle was. At most, they thought it was because they were reluctant to part for the summer vacation. lovers.

When no one was there, I pushed Tang Yuting away, with my head still down, my face still hot, and my eyes wandering, but I just didn't look at Tang Yuting.

Tang Yuting said I was blushing, so I gave him a look and said, "You're not much better."

"Tell me, why do you suddenly think so?" Tang Yuting grabbed my arm and asked me seriously.

"I..." I made an excuse casually, "I was dreaming."

"Oh."

"..."

Finally, Tang Yuting finally came to his senses: "It's been so long, and I haven't explained it to you, right?"

Having been seen through by him, I just felt even more ashamed, laughed dryly twice, and wanted to change the subject.

Tang Yuting let go of my arm and replaced it with two hands holding my chin, forcing me to face him squarely.

When the overhead light came down, Tang Yuting smiled, "Chen Xi, I like you very much. Would you like to be my boyfriend?"

I didn't speak, Tang Yuting asked me again: "Will you?"

"Okay... let's go..." I could hear it myself, and the ending of the "okay" almost went up to the sky.

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Here comes the babies~