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Chapter 32 Injury

She didn't know how she fell down in the end, but she could vaguely hear the sound of fighting nearby and the noise of passers-by.

Before she was completely unconscious, the last voice she heard was Zhang Yang's.She didn't hear what she said, she just remembered that sentence she seemed to have heard somewhere.

Before fully waking up, she vaguely heard Zhang Yang's voice.Opening his eyes, Zhang Yang was sitting beside him.Seeing her wake up, he stood up quickly, held her hand, and said a lot to her, but they were all insignificant things like breakfast and dinner, except that the reason for her admission was not mentioned.

"Sister, tell me, why am I here?"

"Are you afraid you won't be able to eat delicious food? It's okay, I can buy it for you. What do you want to eat? A few days ago you said delicious pies, or..."

"Why am I here?"

"Don't worry, it's just overly frightened. It's okay, I'm with you."

"Disfigurement...is it okay..."

"Does it still hurt?"

"Ah."

It hurts, it hurts so much.

She spends too much time on her face. The beauty she has always valued, the thing she is most proud of, has been ruined.It seems that the most cherished toy is given to other children by parents.Heartbroken, but helpless.

She can't make trouble, she will be said to be ignorant; she can't come back, she will be said to be stingy.So what can she do?

What can be done, there is no danger to life, and then it is over, and everything returns to calm.Victims live in peace, perpetrators are free.

"How is he?"

"he……"

Seeing this, Zhang Yang lowered his head, took a deep breath, raised his head again, and looked directly into her eyes: "He has schizophrenia, and finally..."

"End up in a mental hospital and get away with it, right?"

"……Um."

"It's a good thing it's not life-threatening."

Qin Anpei didn't continue to ask, but turned on the phone, "Fortunately, there is no danger of life... Heh... If I hadn't dodged at that time, some of them were life-threatening, maybe I wouldn't have woken up and endured all of this, that would be great... ..."

Looking back, some people said, "That woman must have provoked others, otherwise why did they hurt her for no reason?"

There are many unprovoked malicious things in the world, and all we can do is to protect ourselves. This is a tragedy for the whole society.

The dark side of human nature has always existed, and it has not been discovered because of the constraints of the law. Once it is out of control, it will be stimulated, and its harm will never be imagined.

Is mental illness a justification for hurting someone?

People will forget one day, but the scars on her face will never be forgotten.

When the knife cut across the skin, the burning pain on the face was the same as the helplessness in the heart.

She forgot how the blood flowed out of her cheeks at that time, and only remembered that when the bright red blood flowed out, it was already black.

"Sister, am I really wrong..."

Zhang Yang looked at the bandaged wound, and the scene that happened not long ago appeared in her mind.

Qin Anpei was lying on the ground, his fair skin was stained with bright red blood.The smiling face of the former lover seemed to have turned into this expressionless face, the wound was bleeding profusely, and the face could hardly be seen clearly.

When the ambulance arrived, she was beyond recognition.

Thinking of that scene, Zhang Yang's eyes watered, his eyelashes trembled faintly, and his thin lips parted slightly, as if he wanted to say something.

After hesitating for a moment, she finally fell silent, without saying a word, and burst into tears.

Whether it was wrong or not, she couldn't say.

I just feel that such a long wound should be very painful.

Qin Anpei raised his hand and gently wiped away Zhang Yang's tears.She couldn't bear to watch her lover cry for her, so she tried her best to make her slightly hoarse voice look normal.

In the end, she couldn't hold back her tears, and burst into tears: "Sister, don't cry... I don't hurt anymore... It doesn't hurt anymore..."

"If I hadn't left then, wouldn't you be here..."

Zhang Yang lowered his head and said sobbingly.She pressed her wrist to her temple, and tears fell uncontrollably, soaking a large piece of the sheet.

Qin Anpei tried his best to comfort her, even though he did not accept the result: "You told me that the most important thing is what is in front of you..."

Zhang Yang didn't reply, still weeping uncontrollably.

Qin Anpei looked at the crying person in front of him with red eyes, clenched his fists, and said to Zhang Yang, "Let's break up...my heart is broken into many pieces, and I can't put myself together, so what can I do?" love someone else..."

Zhang Yang seemed to raise his head, was silent for a while, wiped away the tears on his face, and suddenly told a story: "I had two good girlfriends before, and then... on a later vacation, I came to my hometown, and they stayed in the city.

One of the girls, Mu Yi, was sexually assaulted, and since then she hasn't gone out all day.Under Qin Feng's persuasion, she would go out, but every time she went out, she would wear a thick coat, hat and scarf...

She is now suffering from depression, autism, and persecution delusion. Except for Qin Feng, almost everyone is included in the list of those who hurt her.Even relatives and strangers.

Before that, she had always been a confident and free-spirited girl who liked sexy clothes but was always self-respecting.

But since that time, she has become cowardly and withdrawn. Even me, who used to be a best friend, would feel afraid when approaching her... Qin Feng seldom interacts with me in order to take care of her.And then, the relationship came to an end...

The friendship I once cherished the most, still broke up...

It's not that I haven't thought about the end of friendship, but I never thought that it would end in this way... If I was there at the time, wouldn't the situation be different...

I used to be obsessed with maturity, thinking that by becoming more mature, I could protect important people... I didn't expect... In the end, I still failed to protect you..."

Speaking of the latter, Zhang Yang burst into tears again.

"I may never get better, and I may never get out again... My Princess Yueyue is so good, she deserves someone better... I'm already like this... You give me up... I don't blame you of……"

"Can you...don't just...forget it..."

Qin Anpei heard a hint of humility from her tone, which she had never seen before.Perhaps it was because she was used to the stable and mature Zhang Yang, but seeing her like this, she was actually shaken.

For example, when people who quit smoking see cigarettes, they both want to be healthy and want to smoke. There is no such good thing in the world.

Qin Anpei was choosing between the two, and this psychological game lasted for a long time before it came to an end.

She was silent for a long time before she spoke again: "I have already delayed your brother, I don't want to delay you anymore..."

"So, you want to just leave me like this?" Zhang Yang said.

Qin Anpei didn't dare to look Zhang Yang directly in the eyes, she was afraid that she would not be able to resist the temptation, so she agreed with Zhang Yang.She lowered her voice, lowered her eyes and sighed: "I really don't want to delay you..."

"Then if I say, I am willing to pick up the pieces and put them together piece by piece..."

Zhang Yang carefully lifted Qin Anpei's chin, forcing the latter to look at her.

The sincere and fiery gaze made the latter a little unbearable, and his heart had already begun to waver.Noticing the thoughts in her heart, she hurriedly looked away: "But..."

"Even...even if I love you, doesn't it matter?"

As soon as Zhang Yang finished speaking, Qin Anpei fell silent.She no longer judges what she thinks is good for Zhang Yang, maybe accepting is really good for the latter.

Among the many doubts, there is always someone who chooses you firmly.

Maybe it's not the prince holding the stars, or maybe it's the princess sent by the star universe.

That night, she had a nightmare.In the dream, all the injuries were staged again.

When she opened her eyes, she was covered in cold sweat.

"Why is it always me! I didn't do anything! Why do they all hurt me! What's wrong with me! Ahhhhhh!!!"

Qin Anpei held his head tightly and screamed again and again.

After a while, Zhang Yang arrived, she opened the door and ran in, asking Qin Anpei "what's the matter".

At this time, she didn't want to explain, didn't want to say any unnecessary words, she just wanted to release the recent negative emotions in this normal and abnormal way.

This move quickly attracted nurses.

They all tried to calm her down, but now Qin Anpei was annoyed when she heard this. She shouted angrily, "It won't get better at all! What I have experienced, you have not experienced; the person I like, you have not liked." You didn’t experience it when I was scolded by others! You are not me, so why do you say you can understand my feelings?! Why persuade me to look away?!”

The nurses who were comforting her just now fell silent, speechless.

At this time, Zhang Yang stepped forward, raised his voice, and reprimanded loudly: "I know you are resentful in your heart, and it would be impossible for anyone to be calm, but you can't take your anger out on these innocent people!"

"I'm terrible, I know, if you can't bear it, just leave! My nature is bad, and it's unreasonable. You can leave, but I didn't force you to accompany me! It's all your own wishful thinking! I'm not good at all. Yes, you insist on staying! You go! You all go!"

At this moment, the anger overwhelmed Qin Anpei's head, everything in the book was thrown away, and only resentment remained for the former lover who treated him like a guest.She took a big breath and yelled at Zhang Yang.For a moment, her mind really went blank.

Zhang Yang tried his best to control the volume so as not to disturb the rest of other patients: "I don't want to see me now, that's fine, I'll just go. But they are innocent, and they are the ones who help you treat you. You have no right to lose your temper with them! Let's go now , think about it on your own!"

Saying that, Zhang Yang let a group of medical staff go first, she glanced at Qin Anpei, turned and left.

After Zhang Yang left, Qin Anpei breathed heavily, and she gradually calmed down. Looking around, there was no one in the room.Except for the place where the moonlight shines, the surrounding area is all gray.

She hid in a dark corner, hugged her legs, and sobbed in a low voice: "It's nothing... It's nothing... I don't want to be like this... I'm sorry... I'm sorry..."

She kept repeating "I'm sorry" under her breath.