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Chapter 34 Compounding

This was the second time Qin Anpei came in, and he didn't expect it to be in this way.

Qin Anpei looked inside, Zhang Yang was sitting at the stone table in white, surrounded by withered roses in the front yard, like a bright white camellia among roses, clean and elegant.

"The roses that symbolize love are all withered... Alas, it's not the right time..."

Qin Anpei shuttled among the roses, sighing while walking.Walking through the cobbled path, he came to sit next to Zhang Yang.

"coming?"

"coming."

It seemed like a perfectly normal conversation, but it was weird and awkward when it happened between them.

Zhang Yang brewed a cup of tea and pushed it to Qin Anpei's eyes: "Taste it."

"Ah."

As he spoke, Qin Anpei took a sip of his tea without making any comments.

Zhang Yang also poured tea for himself, and then savored it carefully.

They kept silent for a long time, and no one talked about the tea.

Zhang Yang stood up leisurely, "There was an accident last time, and I couldn't show you around, let's go and have a look now."

"it is good."

After a short walk along the cobblestones, they entered the arched gallery together.

The Lingxiao flowers on the vines are in full bloom, and the green leaves are dotted with some bright colors.Full of vitality, it spreads on this small vine, inviting to the sky.

In a trance, Qin Anpei couldn't help but lost his mind.

She turned her head and looked at Zhang Yang who was walking with her beside her. In a daze, Qin Anpei held Zhang Yang's hand involuntarily. Before her brain had time to react, she blurted out: "You are going to marry me, right?"

Zhang Yang looked back in astonishment, his brows furrowed slightly, and the light in his eyes moved slightly, as if moving away for a moment.That moment was too short, and Qin Anpei couldn't help but suspect that Zhang Yang's escape was her illusion.

After realizing what she was talking about, she lowered her eyes, the light in her eyes dimmed a bit, she fell silent, letting the paleness sweep across her cheeks.She desperately held back the tears in her eyes, her body swayed slightly.His heart tightened, as if he had been hit, and his entire chest ached.

After a while, Qin Anpei said in a low voice with tears in his voice, "I'm sorry..."

She didn't dare to look up to see Zhang Yang's expression, but just lowered her head and said nothing.Hearing Zhang Yang's soft answer, the tears in his eyes could no longer be held back, and fell to the ground with a "slap".

Zhang Yang made an excuse to go to the bathroom, and left wisely, leaving space for each other to be alone.

Qin Anpei squatted on the ground, tears soaking his sleeves.

After an unknown amount of time, she stared at her soaked sleeves and lost her mind.

Responding again, the wind blew the leaves down, and one piece was blown to her feet, falling steadily.

She picked up the fallen leaves and saw a gap in one of them, so she lifted it up to the sky, and accidentally saw a face.

She froze in place, feeling more and more sad in her heart, "Only in illusions and dreams can I show my love again, it's sad, sad..."

She removed the leaves in front of her eyes, and the face was truly and fully displayed in front of her eyes.

Is that... Zhang Yang? !

It's not an illusion, it's really Zhang Yang! ! !

Qin Anpei seemed to want to rush forward, hugged the person on the terrace tightly, and bravely told the latter: "We repented, let's get back together..."

Maybe there is still room for redemption...

The feet on the ground seemed to be tied to a jack ball, and they couldn't move no matter what.

She froze in place for a while, then thought about it: No, she likes to be mature, maybe we are destined to separate, because we are predestined... Is it possible for us...

She raised her head, Zhang Yang was no longer on the terrace, she sighed, turned around and left the place, and finally gave up the idea of ​​getting back together.

Not long after walking, a voice came from behind, mixed with the panting of running: "Take some white camellia back, just treat it as..."

Just when Qin Anpei turned around and the decision just now wavered, Zhang Yang stopped her words, shook his head, and handed her the bouquet he had just picked not long ago: "Forget it, it's nothing."

Qin Anpei wanted to ask, she really wanted to know what Zhang Yang left to say, but she was afraid that what she heard would not be what she wanted to hear, but something different, so she hesitated to speak, and finally did not ask.

With the continuous accumulation of knowledge, we become more cowardly and timid.The older we get, the more things we can fear.

Qin Anpei accepted Zhang Yang's things, smiled politely, turned around, shed tears silently, and left.

Qin Anpei was afraid that if he met Zhang Yang again, he would miss her, so he went to other cities.

As soon as she got out of the car, an old man asked for help to find her child.At that time, although Qin Anpei was exhausted physically and mentally, but he was in a good mood, so he insisted and agreed.

But halfway there, she suddenly felt something was wrong.

Looking for children is no longer nearby, why did they take the path instead?She felt uneasy, and when she saw a public toilet next to her, she lied that she had a stomachache and wanted to hide in it.

The man didn't do anything when he saw it, and quickly moved his hands and feet, which were not so convenient just now, and grabbed Qin Anpei tightly.

A big brother passed by, rescued Qin Anpei from the old woman, and said to take her to a safe place.

Qin Anpei remained vigilant because he was often harassed more often.How could she have the guts to point to the public toilet and tell the man that this is a safe place.

In the next second, the man took out a knife out of nowhere, and said fiercely from behind: "Who told you to mess with someone you shouldn't! Back then you deserved to die!!! Now our boss is in a mental hospital, it's you This si mother-in-law did it!"

Just when Qin Anpei was about to be chopped down, the grandfather of the public toilet gate pulled out a nearby wooden stick, and several men nearby also held longer things to stop him.

But after all, he still didn't stop him, the man's knife pierced into Qin Anpei's body, his back was close to his heart.

At that time, Qin Anpei didn't feel too much pain, but felt that the place where the knife was hit was poked by something.She didn't react until the blood flowed out and her back was sticky. She saw the blood on the ground.

"It's not true...it's not true...beauty should be respected...it shouldn't be like this...shouldn't be hurt...no...no...no..."

She squatted on the ground, covered her ears, and tried to persuade herself.

It wasn't until she heard the sound of an ambulance wandering around that she suddenly realized that all this was not a dream.She stared closely at her trembling hands, crying bitterly: "Why me...why me again...why it is me...I..."

Speaking of the latter, her heart beat a little faster, her breathing was difficult, and her head began to feel dizzy.

She didn't know how she got to the hospital. After she arrived, she felt severe pain from the wound, which was hot, as if the pain flowed from the blood vessels to all parts of the body, from the inside out.

As for the specific plot at that time, she couldn't remember clearly, but she only remembered that in the end she signed for herself in a daze, went to the emergency room by herself, woke up by herself, and spent that long, dark and boring patient time by herself. I left the hospital by myself.

During the middle period, Zhang Yang still kept in touch with Qin Anpei, but only limited to festival blessings.

After her injury healed, she returned to her hometown.

This time I came back to attend her mother's funeral.

She was dressed in sackcloth and filial piety, but there was no trace of sadness in her eyes, and even a bit of indifference and resentment.

Her sister Yu Huaijiang is similar, but only indifferent, without other emotions.

Relatives who attended the funeral secretly discussed behind their backs, saying that the two sisters were cold-blooded animals, rebellious, and ungrateful.

After finishing all the busy work at the funeral, Yu Huaijiang finally got some free time. When he saw Qin Anpei, Yu Huaijiang leaned over him, looked up and down, said coldly, "You're fat?"

Usually, Qin Anpei paid the most attention to his image, but now he has gained a lot of weight, and he is wearing loose clothes, which are completely different from the ones that highlighted his figure before, and he didn't even put on makeup.

She used to put her image first, but now she is sloppy, with oily face and dull eyes.

Yu Huaijiang's seemingly ordinary words were actually a question about what happened to Qin Anpei.

"En." Qin Anpei said calmly.

She continued, changing the subject: "Sister, do you know anyone who is good? As long as it is suitable, I want to get married. "

Yu Huaijiang wanted to pat her on the back, but he didn't want the latter to take a heart-piercing gasp.She asked anxiously, but unexpectedly Qin Anpei would just mention it lightly, like a bystander, narrating a cruel incident: "I just got stabbed with a knife, it's nothing, really."

"why did not you tell me?"

"I said it was a minor injury, it doesn't matter. The research you do is at the national level. How can I delay the prosperity of the country? I am still waiting to be supported by my good sister! I can't disturb you at critical times. In case you What will you do when you get angry and regret it, right?"

Yu Huaijiang asked the question just now again, Qin Anpei was silent for a while, and said his true thoughts: "I don't want you to worry."

"You are my sister, you can rely on me for the rest of your life."

It seemed that he had secretly made up his mind, Yu Huaijiang frowned slightly, his eyes were firm, as if no one could question him: "I won't let you get hurt again, no one else."

Qin Anpei changed the subject: "What did I tell you just now?"

Yu Huaijiang reacted for a moment before realizing that Qin Anpei was talking about the marriage. He nodded and remained silent.

Three days later, everything about the funeral was done, and the blind date arranged by Qin Anpei and Yu Huaijiang made an appointment to meet in the previous cafe.

Familiar room, familiar location, familiar window, familiar her.

The ancient wood and old tiles have not changed, but the window sill was first stained with wind and frost. After years of ruthless baptism, it looks a bit old.I don't know when the fallen leaves on it were, but they blended with the window sill without being obtrusive.

Time flies by for several years, slipping away quietly without knowing it.Her youth was actually spent in the hospital.

Qin Anpei stretched out his hand, and no more parrots landed on his hand.

She was a little disappointed and sighed deeply.

In the next second, a cold touch fell on the palm of her hand, ciji tingling the nerves in her body.

Qin Anpei raised his head suddenly, his eyes were wide open, filled with astonishment and disbelief.

Under Qin Anpei's surprised gaze, Zhang Yang said slowly, "Long time no see."

"Long time...no see..." Qin Anpei replied.

The two fell silent, and Zhang Yang was the first to raise the topic: "That day, I didn't finish what I said, do you... still want to hear it?"

"Ah."

"Take some white camellia back home, take it as... the proof that I still love you deeply."

"At that time... you still love me?!"

Qin Anpei's pupils trembled, and he froze in place in disbelief.

She still loves her? !How can it be? !She obviously left when she wanted to get back together, how could she still love her? !

Qin Anpei asked, and Zhang Yang replied: "I went downstairs and wanted to ask you to get back together, but seeing you left, I thought... thought you wanted to reject me, so I didn't continue..."

"so……"

So, she misunderstood, misunderstood for several years, and delayed her whole life.Just because of the inner fear of being rejected, both parties missed many years.

"So, the answer to your last question is: not only then, but also now, and never stopped."

"us……"

Before Qin Anpei finished speaking, the curtain was lifted, and a gentleman came in and interrupted her.

"You are Ms. Qin Anpei, right? I am the blind date introduced by Dr. Yu."

Zhang Yang hesitated for a moment, and finally withdrew his hand, "Hello, I am."

Zhang Yang froze in place, couldn't bear to watch anymore, and left soon after.

"Why does Miss Qin always look out of the window? Is there anything attractive outside the window?"

"No...nothing...flying over a parrot..."

"We just talked about our living habits and hobbies, and they are pretty much the same. Now it seems that our personalities are also compatible. It is a rare encounter. Since we are so suitable, why don't we get the certificate as soon as possible and hold the wedding!"

"……it is good."

Afterwards, they talked about the wedding. The man respected Qin Anpei's wishes, and at the same time put forward his own ideas, which did not conflict with the former, and the two agreed quickly.

The man paid the bill and left first. Qin Anpei sat on the seat, looked out of the window with his face propped up, and said to himself: "My sister said that she likes mature people, and mature people need to take responsibility... maybe , being suitable is really more important than liking...I can't...I can't choose you anymore...Sister, I will mature...I will become what you like..."