Dream or truth...

Chapter 17

Chapter No.17

Yuxiang always followed Ryosuke after school.

He just watched from a distance, didn't step forward and didn't speak, until Ryosuke stepped into the door, and then stood at the door for 5 minutes, as if thinking about something, and then turned back to his home.

This situation has been going on for almost a month, does Yu Xiang feel a little abnormal?But Ryosuke rejected almost all his contacts, so watching him go home safely was probably the only thing he could do.

But this day, Ryosuke didn't follow the original route, but wandered outside casually, going in and walking around every store, but it didn't look like he wanted to buy anything.

Seeing Ryosuke turning a corner and disappearing, Yuxiang was a little anxious, quickened his pace and followed, and was taken aback by Ryosuke who was leaning against the corner with his arms crossed just before turning the corner.

"Yuxiang Nakajima, how long are you going to follow!" Although he didn't speak or step forward, the feeling of being followed all the time was really annoying.

Moreover, I don't know when, he started to develop the habit of quietly watching the other person turn and leave before he can feel relieved.

"...Mountain ..."

"Nakajima Yuxiang, didn't you say don't interfere with me anymore? Follow me all the time, don't you think this kind of behavior is abnormal?"

I hate myself who still cares about this person, I hate myself who still cares about his every move

I hate myself, who I still can't let go of.So he did not hesitate to use cruel language to force the other party to leave completely.

"I just want to see you, Shan..."

That kind of pitiful look like being abandoned would never appear on the former Yuxiang.Even though that young man was gentle, he still had an innate pride engraved in his bones. How could he be so humble as to beg someone?

So the prepared refusal turned into completely different words when it came to his lips: "... up to you, but don't come within five meters of me, don't interfere with my actions, otherwise..."

"En! Absolutely! No problem!" Afraid that the other party would go back on his promise, Ryosuke was in a trance for a moment with his shining eyes.

Is it because you fell into that look?Shiny, flamboyant, but not annoying.

The person with a sunny and warm smile, the person I will never forget and don't want to forget in my life, the person I hate the most but also love the most, the person I can no longer accept.

"Shan...?" Seeing that Ryosuke suddenly started to be in a daze, Yuxiang was a little worried, and habitually reached out to check the temperature of Ryosuke, "What's wrong? Are you uncomfortable?"

But it was slapped hard.

"Don't touch me!" Backing away defensively, Ryosuke's originally dazed eyes instantly turned into Amakusa-style fierceness.

"...I'm sorry..." Yu Xiang withdrew his hand, feeling a little bitter in his heart.

It turns out that Ryosuke has already started to hate his touch?I still remember the way the child held his hand for comfort because he was afraid a long time ago. I still remember the way the child was sleeping soundly in his arms in the hospital. I still remember the child saying that Yuxiang’s temperature made people feel very comfortable. , very reassuring.But are you tired of it now?Already complete, don't you want to be touched by yourself?

Ryosuke, what can I do to bring you back...

Without saying anything, Ryosuke turned around and walked, and Yuxiang who was following him couldn't see him biting his lips to prevent tears from streaming down.

Are you starting to soften up so soon?It turns out that I love him more than I imagined.

Can't resist his tenderness even though he's been hurt badly?

It's just a box of strawberry juice at noon every day, isn't it?It's just following the escort from a distance after school every day, isn't it?It's just silent and gentle watching, isn't it?

Ryosuke Yamada, have you forgotten?Those days of waking up from nightmares, those days of secretly crying alone in the middle of the night?

All because of hope in this person.

He was the one who hurt himself, wasn't he?

Still feel like you haven't been hurt deeply enough?Do you still want to give him another chance to hurt yourself?

Moreover, even if Nakajima Yuxiang really doesn't hurt himself anymore, he no longer has the courage to bear the pressure that such love needs to face.

The things that homosexual love has to face are too heavy, and all my courage was burned out in that crush, and there is not even a little bit left to face the reality that I feel breathless just thinking about it up.

Because of myself, I have never been as brave as Yuxiang...