Jiang Hao

Chapter 15

I definitely support you, even if I am an idiot on this point, I have to give my heart and soul to you once. "I said it with righteous indignation. The cold wind was biting, but my heart was even colder.

"Sun Yikun," Jiang Hao said after a long time, "Do you like that boy?"

"What?" I didn't respond immediately.

"That boy you were with, do you like him?" he asked again.

"..." I couldn't answer, I couldn't be so cruel to myself.

Jiang Hao finally hung up the phone, after the silence between us did not know how long.

Listening to the blind tone on the phone, I feel relieved, as if all the burdens have been thrown away, I finally retreated outside the safe zone, quietly watching everything that once stirred up waves in my heart like a spectator .

During the Chinese New Year that year, Jiang Hao and I sent greeting messages to each other, and then started chatting.

[I drank some white wine with my dad just now, and the white wine is much stronger than foreign wine. ] I said a sentence without saying anything.In fact, the conversation should stop after the greeting, but I don't want it to end like this.

[You say so, I really want to drink, let me find if there is still wine in the cabinet. ]

[You have to drink on New Year's Eve, you really are an alcoholic. ]

[Say it as if you don't drink at all. ]

I never asked him if he was alone at home, just like the Chinese New Year that year.I was afraid of Jiang Hao's answer, no matter 'yes' or 'no', I couldn't bear it.

I can't bear to have someone by his side to celebrate the New Year. That person may be Yuan Rui, whom I have never had the chance to meet. They may nestle on the sofa and watch TV together, then kiss, and then drink up all the wine in Jiang Hao's house.

I can't bear it even more that he is alone now, and I think I can't control myself to go to his house to celebrate the New Year with him. I promised that year, but I didn't do it.

Both Jiang Hao and I consciously did not bring up each other's relationship issues, as if avoiding the countless tit-for-tat situations before.

From the last phone call to the Chinese New Year, I had contact with Jiang Hao once or twice, and it was surprisingly calm.

It was probably the involuntary strangeness between the two of them, lingering, lying in the middle like self-protection, insurmountable.

20

After entering the second half of my junior year, my dad talked to me.

For the first time ever, my dad asked me if I wanted to work or study after undergraduate.

I was surprised to see my father, who has arranged everything for me since I was a child, and started to respect my ideas.There was a lot of helplessness in my father's eyes. I knew that there was nothing in me that would satisfy him, and he didn't need to open his mouth for this realization.

People are very complicated. I longed for the opportunity to choose by myself since I was a child. I imagined countless times that my parents could not be so arbitrary in making arrangements for me.

But right now, when my father asked me for my opinion, I suddenly realized that I had no ability to choose.I was never trained to make decisions on big things since I was a child, and now I feel like a cripple without a cane, and every step feels difficult.

Seeing that I hadn't said a word, my father frowned, "Why don't you think about it recently, there are only a few ways, directly looking for a job, going to graduate school in China, or going out to see outside."

I nodded, eager to end this awkward conversation.

Jiang Hao also asked me a similar question, but I didn't even think about it at that time.

I insinuated and asked Jason what he planned to do next.He thought about it, and began to talk nonsense in a serious manner: invest in a hot pot restaurant or start a company to engage in engineering.It is not difficult to understand that Jason will become a completely different person from me after leaving school. He already has another world outside the school. From the beginning to the end, the him in the school is just an accessory.

I feel heavy because of the question of what to do in the future. I can't tell anyone about this matter. No one can share it for me. I can only think about it myself.

When that semester was about to end, Lu Zhengyang told me that Jiang Hao and Yuan Rui had started.

I called Jiang Hao almost without thinking. I hate this feeling. Others will always tell me about Jiang Hao.

"Where are you?" I asked when he picked up the phone.

"At home, today is the weekend."

"I'll go over right away." I still can't stand Jiang Hao being bullied, but it was Yuan Rui who fought with him, and this incident made me explode immediately.

"What's the matter with you?" It can be heard that he doesn't want me to go there.

"Stop talking nonsense, don't pretend to me, open the door for me later." I hung up the phone.

"Why did you do it?" I looked at the wound on Jiang Hao's face, he turned his face away and didn't want me to move.

Jiang Hao's injury was not serious, and he vaguely felt that Yuan Rui didn't do anything cruel or that Jiang Hao was the one who did the murder.

"..." He lowered his head and lit a cigarette for himself.Jiang Hao's hair has grown a bit longer, and he has a bit of curly hair, which was not obvious when he was short, but now the length is fluffy and casual, and he looks very foreign.

I reached out to take the cigarette he was holding in his mouth, "Why did you do it? You and I are so wasted if you don't tell me."

He looked at me, then lit himself another cigarette, "Yuan Rui called my mother."

I took a puff of the cigarette in my hand, "Then you beat him? What does he mean?"

"Come on," Jiang Hao sighed helplessly, "Why don't you feel uncomfortable?"

I feel sorry for Jiang Hao who said this, "Has he been like this since you came back last year?"

"Everyone thinks I'm sorry for him," Jiang Hao put out the cigarette in the ashtray, and then lit another one for himself, "All the friends he and I met before came to accuse me, It’s like he was the only victim back then. Now even I feel like he’s the victim and I’m the one who did it.”

Yuan Rui's mother committed suicide, and Jiang Hao couldn't refute this matter, morally kidnapped, "Then what is he planning to make a fuss about?"

"I don't want to let me go abroad." I remember that Jiang Hao's plan to go abroad was decided a long time ago, long before he got entangled with Yuan Rui again.

"Do you keep making him trouble?"

"..." Jiang Hao raised his head and looked at me with grievances in his eyes.

I remembered the phone call I made last year, and I said to Jiang Hao, 'Be more forgiving'.How can the third person be clear about the matter between two people, "What are your plans?"

He looked away and shook his head, "I don't know, I don't know how to deal with my mother's reaction afterwards, and I don't know how to make Yuan Rui get back to normal."

While talking, the doorbell rang.

Jiang Hao rubbed his temples, not intending to open the door.

"Yuan Rui?" I was inexplicably angry.

"It should be," Jiang Hao said while smoking a cigarette, "He's been here every day for the past few days, but I haven't seen him."

I stood up from the sofa, walked towards the door without hesitation, and opened the door before Jiang Hao could react.

Seeing that the person who opened the door was someone he didn't know, Yuan Rui's eyes were full of surprise, "Who are you?" He looked a few years older than us, wearing a shirt with rolled up sleeves and slender fingers.The slightly stubble on the chin is very masculine, and a man with such a look may really be attractive in high school.Lu Zhengyang said that I look like him at that time, I'm afraid it's flattering me.

Jiang Hao came over and stood beside me, and spoke first, "You go back." Then he wanted to close the door.

"Xiaohao..." Yuan Rui stretched out his hand to pull him, "I let you beat me too, don't ignore me." He said neither humble nor overbearing, not as feminine as Xiao Cai was when he flattered me.

"Give him some time, and talk about it after the anger subsides." I said to Yuan Rui, wanting to ease the atmosphere between the two of them.

Yuan Rui looked at me vigilantly, ignored me, and then said to Jiang Hao, "I won't leave, we've been together for so long..."

As soon as I heard these words, I became angry, as if I was afraid that others would not know about the previous nonsense, as if that nonsense was capital, and it consolidated his unshakable and supreme position in Jiang Hao's world.

"I said, brother, you should go back first, you are the one who is angry and say that you are disgusting, if you do it again, it will be ugly." I stood in front of Jiang Hao and met Yuan Rui's eyes.He is taller than me and Jiang Hao, and for sports students, he is indeed a good body base.

"This is between me and him..." Yuan Rui was obviously emotionally unstable, and he immediately became aggressive when I said this, "It has nothing to do with you."

"It's really not a coincidence, I have given Jiang Hao my heart and soul for this matter." I have mixed feelings in my heart, first a faint sense of catharsis, and soon anxiety, probably only at such times, standing next to Jiang Hao It became my exclusive right.

Jiang Hao pulled my arm to make me go backwards, then walked up to Yuan Rui and said to him, "Stop making trouble here, you go back first, let me think about it." The Jiang Hao I am familiar with is sensitive and reserved, like It is as comfortable as a sponge, but Jiang Hao standing in front of Yuan Rui is full of edges and corners, showing his sharpness.

After closing the door, Jiang Hao turned and looked at me. After a long time, he said, "What are you trying to open this door for?"

21

"Help you out." I said without thinking.

Jiang Hao frowned and looked at me.He did feel aggrieved that no one in the world was on his side.I can imagine that an insider like Lu Zhengyang must protect Yuan Rui all the time.

"To tell you the truth," I said again, "I will do my heart and soul for you. If you really want to break up with him, I will walk with you no matter how difficult it is..."

Jiang Hao's mood fluctuated because of my words, his breath was heavier than before, "What can you do with me..." It sounded very soft and emotional.

"Anything is fine..." I didn't just talk, I really wanted to help him, but I was tired and knew, what