i don't think i will love you

Chapter 16

After half a year of tossing around, I was finally able to practice some simple dance steps. I don’t know when Zhigang followed me every day, even when I asked him to go to the bathroom, he followed me.

"Teacher, please slow down and watch your feet."

"It's okay, Zhigang, look, I can dance."

"It's better to pay attention, you may be injured just after recovering."

"Zhigang, why do you care about me so much? Let me tell you, don't think about anything else."

"Teacher, I won't, I'm just worried about you."

"Really"

"Yeah, really."

Huiwen said that if I was a soldier, I would be unbeatable if I went to the battlefield. I laughed and took the towel from her hand to wipe off the sweat on my face.

"You have been resting for more than half a year, and the invitation letters can fill the whole room. I said, what is your fate? If you don't go out to show your face, you will become more and more valuable. I thought about it for a while, and I am afraid that you will be tired. Ah, it's not a big performance, we won't go to a performance that can't be brilliant, it's important for you to take good care of your body."

"Okay, you arrange it."

Originally, I also wanted to gradually reduce the amount of performances, but now I have achieved my expected goal. After Huiwen came out of the dance room, Wade stepped forward and picked me up from the floor. He said: "Worriless, you are too light." It’s almost becoming a trend.” He looked at me affectionately with his beautiful blue eyes, and I nodded after looking at each other for a long time.

When I appeared in front of the public again, I lost less than [-] catties. At the press conference, I smiled politely at the reporters present.

"Excuse me, are the rumors on the Internet true? Some people broke the news that you are gay, and you once crazily pursued Ji Ruobing, but after you got it, you ruthlessly abandoned him. You went to the United States for your own dance career. Is this true? "

"Sorry, give me a break."

I don't know what happened during the time I stayed behind closed doors. Huiwen didn't tell me, and Wade didn't mention it to me. Even Zhigang, who listened to me the most, kept his mouth shut in front of me.

In the face of doubts and various comments from the outside world, I chose to remain silent. It is meaningless to mention the past. Whether it is right or wrong, the past cannot change the fact that I abandoned Ruobing and left alone. I think, So I have nothing to say.

When I met Ruobing again at an event, I looked at her face and said, "People are really afraid of being famous. Good things don't go out and scandals spread thousands of miles."

Those gossips are gradually dissipating in the lace news that keeps popping up, I will still appear in the recording hall of the TV station, I will still guide my students in the dance troupe, I will still appear on the dazzling stage, and I will still be Stand by your side without admitting defeat, until the day when you can't stand up at all.

I gave up participating in the remaining two International Dance Gold Grand Prix competitions, but I still watched Ruobing’s special interview after the competition on the tablet. The host asked her: “What do you think of the judges’ high evaluation of you? "

"I just finished the action according to my own standards, and there is no other opinion."

"You are predicted to be a dancer with a bright future after Wen Wuyou, what do you think?"

"Happy, but I don't think she's that good."

"Are you making a blatant afternoon call? Wen Wuyou didn't participate in these two competitions. Do you think you would win consecutive gold medals if she came?"

"I am looking forward to being able to compete with excellent dancers on the same stage. If I compete on the same stage, I don't think she will win."

"Although your tone is not small, congratulations on winning the gold medal, congratulations."

"Thank you"

Ruobing, if you and I compete, I may not necessarily lose, and you may not be sure of winning.

On the day my mother officially announced her retirement, I went to the press conference. When the host introduced me to the stage, he said: "We invited a famous young dancer, Ms. Wen Wuyou, to the stage." At the beginning of Yu's Daughter, I also completely broke away from the aura of my mother and had my own name.

Many big names in the dance circle came that day, and of course Ruobing was there too. I don't understand why my mother and Ruobing have been working together for so many years.Later, when I thought about it, maybe my mother thought that Yi Ruobing's strict and responsible character must have been killed by me, just like the rumors outside, I took the initiative first, I shamelessly insisted on it, and I was the one who hurt her heartlessly she.

After my mother retired, she didn’t take time off to travel around with her father. I think her living conditions are quite good. She leaves the same place and goes to every corner of the world to see different scenery. Maybe go out Only then will you discover that the essence of things is not single but multifaceted.

The TV station opened a column in my name, called Worry-Free Dreams.

In each issue, we will invite a celebrity friend to chat casually, talk about our views on things, talk about our feelings about other things, talk about gossip, and talk about ordinary life.

Before the opening recording today, the director gave me a topic, the taste of secret love. Before the guests came out, I stood in front of the camera and said: "Today our theme is another way to like you, secret love. I don't know what everyone thinks about liking you , how many levels can be divided, a little bit of temptation, obsession, or incomparable nostalgia. In my opinion, liking is actually a very simple and straightforward feeling. My heart was pounding, and I forgot myself for a moment.

Many years ago, I remember that when I was a little girl, one day I suddenly felt that the smile of the person next to me was so beautiful. When you saw her smiling warmly at yourself, you would suddenly lack oxygen in your brain, and you would Trying to get so close when she whispers to you, you will feel your heart stop when she blows softly on you.My love starts here, but there is no end. The feeling is a bit astringent, and it makes you scratch your heart. From time to time, you will feel annoyed, and from time to time you will sigh because of your small mistakes.

In front of the person you like, you just smirk or smirk, you dare not say you like it, you dare not say you don’t like it, because you are swaying because you are afraid that once you say it, the last tie between you will be broken.You are apprehensive, you are worried, and you feel that it is enough to just stand still and look at her quietly. This is another way of liking, the so-called secret love. "

I choked up in that episode of the show. At the end of the show, I sang a song "I don't think I will love you" by Hebe Tien. The lyrics read: I don't think I will love you, just maybe, you The sighs are scattered all over the ground, making me hysterical, getting too close accidentally, hurting myself, thank you, what you give makes me addicted, makes me trap myself, and I don’t want to leave when I get lost, I don’t think I will I love you, if this goes on, my small self-esteem is about to be abandoned, I don’t think I will hate you, the traces of the wound live in my heart and become a secret, I don’t think I will love you, I’m afraid of losing, so I stay far away Looking at you, I don't think I can love you...

After stepping down, I still couldn't help crying, I want to continue to love you, Ruobing, what should I do, I really feel that I am extremely ridiculous.

That night I made an exception and went to the bar to drink heavily. The spicy liquid made my brain less clear during the chaos. In the chaos, I actually saw your fair face appearing in front of me like a magnified one. I smiled. Stretch out your fingers to caress your cheeks, then lean into your warm arms and pass out completely.

I don’t like to dream, but I had a very long dream when I was drunk. I dreamed that you were holding my hand and walking in the lush campus. I dreamed that you gently embraced me in your arms Said to me in a soft voice: "In the future, my Wuyou doesn't need to do things I don't like, just let me do it." I dreamed that I was riding a bicycle and driving you to eat, your favorite spicy skewers Shop to eat Xiaochuan, I dreamed that you were dancing in front of me, and you said to me: "Wuyou, I hope my Wuyou will live carefree forever, I hope my Wuyou can get the freedom she desires, I like the way my Wuyou spins and jumps, but I don't want my Wuyou to lose the most innocent smile because of dancing."

The dream is really beautiful, but I know that the dream is a dream after all, and it will wake up when it grows up.

At 04:30 in the morning, I opened my eyelids that felt rustling and hurt, looked at the ceiling, and my thoughts were churning.

In fact, they were all wrong. My bones are not suitable for dancing, and I don’t have the so-called talent. I was beaten out by my mother, and I was forced out. The name of the really talented person is Ji Ruobing.

I don't like dancing, but dancing has made my warm and worry-free life, which is ridiculous.