i don't think i will love you

Chapter 29

It has been raining outside the window for a few days. I have not gone to school or other outings since I got home. After Lin Yu went to work in the morning, I sat alone on the sofa in the living room or hugged her. Sitting on the bed with knees staring at the white wall in a daze.

In order to calm my mind, I took out a book and read it, but after turning over a few pages, it was really difficult to continue reading. I turned on the player downloaded on my phone, and then put the phone aside to listen quietly. , the love story told by the announcer was very touching, and my eyes were moistened by the music played at the end of the story.

Suddenly, the sky is dark, the world can suddenly have nothing, I think of you, and then think of myself, why do I always miss you when I am very fragile.I understand, I can't let go of your love, I'm too familiar with your care, I can't separate, thinking of you is comfort or sadness, but now even if the clock is stopped, even if life is like dust, we can't separate, maybe we believe in love more .If this world will eventually disappear, I don’t want to cherish the memories along the way without you.

Karen Mok's "Suddenly" reminds me of Wuyou dancing in the heavy rain, reminds me of the bright smile she showed me, and she put her forehead on her knees and then had a splitting headache. It was the second time I felt such a strong pain after you left, the first time was the day Wuyou left me, I wanted to hit the wall to die because of the headache.

If Linyu hadn't entered the room and lifted my face buried deep in the quilt, I wouldn't have known that I was crying silently. Linyu hugged me in her arms and comforted me: "Ruo Bing , it doesn't matter what happens, I'm here, I won't let anyone hurt you.

"Ruo Bing, why don't you answer the phone, today we..." Ms. Lu's voice came into my eardrums when the door was pushed open again, and I looked blankly at the person who suddenly appeared in front of me.

"what happened"

"Don't you know that you have to knock on the door before you enter?" Lin Yu also turned cold when she heard the voice behind her, and Miss Lu then said innocently: "I've always been like this, you can change your face as soon as you say it. "

"Get out, I don't want to see you, get out."

"Hey, Jing Linyu, what's the matter with you, if you're angry and don't leave, I'll vent your anger." Seeing that Linyu and Miss Lu were about to quarrel, Mr. Gao knocked on the door a few times and coughed a few times before walking into the bedroom. She threw Miss Lu out of the room and comforted Lin Yu: "Don't worry about her, she is not sensible, Lin Yu, come out and I will talk to you."

"Okay" Lin Yu then followed Mr. Gao out of the room and closed the door. The two of them talked outside the door for a long time before Lin Yu came back. When she entered the door, I stood by the bed and looked at the dark night.

"Have you eaten yet? Let me get you something light, okay?" Lin Yu hugged me from behind and her kiss fell on my ear. I didn't move or respond. She let go after I was silent for a long time I went out and got me some gruel and came back.I only drank this bowl of porridge all day, but I didn't feel hungry.

When I watched Linyu carefully feed me the porridge, I suddenly felt a sense of guilt. Is Linyu's love for me not as good as Wuyou's eyes, and my heart was confused.

"Ruobing, don't think about anything, I'll take care of the outside affairs."

Linyu's endurance and ability to solve problems have always been stronger than mine. I told myself, Ji Ruobing, look how kind the person in front of you is to you. How can you still think about others in your heart? Don't feel sorry for her, don't .

That night Linyu hugged me and fell asleep, her arms wrapped around my waist, but I really didn't understand what was wrong with me. In my dream, Wuyou's figure appeared, and she was lying in my arms. Looking happy while eating candy in the house, Wuyou, Linyu, thank you for treating me like this no matter what.

Today, the rain stopped and the air was fine. Linyu said that she would go shopping with me today and she would not go to work. Linyu took my hand and walked around the shopping mall. She bought me a lot of new clothes, When passing by the cinema, we followed the flow of people and bought two tickets to go in and sit down together.

I remember that the movie was "One Life and One Life" starring Gao Yuanyuan and Nicholas Tse. I don't know if the actors performed too well, or I thought of something while watching it. In short, when the tears slipped, my heart also ached. , Missing the encounter many times, I will still say the words I love you for the rest of my life.

But worry-free, in real life we ​​are not filming and filming. You didn’t give me a reason seven years ago, so how could I wait for you? Seven years later, you don’t know, so how can I abandon the people around me and follow your footsteps of freedom again.I'm sorry Wuyou, even though my heart is still beating for you, the person who has been by my side since you left is Linyu. I want to give her my promise, just like I promised you back then, to be with you You go to the end of the world.

After coming out of the movie theater, Lin Yu took my hand to eat hot pot. She sat quietly beside me and picked up vegetables and boiled beef for me. When she saw me staring blankly at the empty bowl filled with food, she went He picked up the chopsticks and held them to my lips.At the next moment, I raised my head to meet Linyu's concerned gaze with red eyes, and Linyu said, "Ruobing, don't hurt yourself for other people's affairs, okay." I nodded and ate the food with my mouth. I went to my mother first. My mother also likes Linyu very much. She always said that Linyu is a sensible and educated woman. When my younger brother saw Linyu, he called her sister. People in my family have a good impression of Linyu. Naturally, they The impression of worry-free is extremely bad.

"Sister, have you ever cried? Why are your eyes so red? Did you meet that Wen Wuyou? Did she bully you again? When I meet her someday, I have to teach her a lesson. What? , I’m still not human anymore, I want to torture you to death, don’t I?”

"No, you think too much."

"Sister, look at how kind Sister Linyu is to you. Wen Wuyou is so good that she knows how to make you suffer. You must not affect the relationship between you because of that scum."

"I know, no."

"Sister, I really didn't say you have a bad eye for people."

Linyu and I sat at home for a while and got up to leave. When we left, my mother brought us a lot of food. Linyu took it with a smile and said to her brother: "You, don't just play games all day long. Work hard, you know.”

"Hehe, I see, Sister Linyu, you are here to help me." Linyu helped find my younger brother's job, and she also made up a lot of money for the new house at home, otherwise it would be estimated based on my salary. I can't afford such a good house in this area for a lifetime.

Linyu is really kind to me, so I don't think I should think about those ethereal things. No matter what kind of mentality Wuyou has when facing me now, she and I are old things and old people in the past. Is not it.

On the recording day of the semi-finals, Wuyou didn't come. Instead, she was replaced by a blond American man, very handsome.

After the recording of the whole program was finished, the man came over to me and said: "Hi, my name is Wade, one of the guardians of Wuyou." I was surprised that he openly mentioned his relationship with Wuyou in front of me, After I had no extra reaction, he said again: "The year I met Wuyou, she was penniless. At that time, I fell in love with that girl at the first sight when I saw her dancing on the street. I have been in love with her all these years. I watched her come to this day by her side. I don't want to remind you, I just want to tell you that Wuyou is not the kind of girl who will do whatever it takes to achieve her goal as rumored by the outside world. Over the years, we are willing Paving the way for her is because of her firm heart and tenacious belief.

Miss Ji, I know that you already have someone who loves you, and I also know that Wuyou doesn't intend to get involved in your current life, but Miss Ji, don't tell me when you look at Wuyou's lonely figure? Are you really indifferent, sorry, I have talked too much today, sorry. "

The man named Wade gave me an envelope before leaving, which contained Wuyou's photos. The first one was the image that the man mentioned when he saw Wuyou for the first time on the street. The worry-free and lonely and sad time.

In the photo was Wuyou, whom I had never known before. When I saw the fifth photo, I clenched the photo in my hands. It was a cheek with slight tear stains. She was holding the little doll I once gave her in her hand. Hollow and hopeless.