Dog Diary

Chapter 42 Tao Ying

I am an orphan, an orphan who was never wanted since childhood.

But I long to have a family, and I really want someone to love me.

The children in the orphanage, who are good-looking and obedient, may be taken away by kind people and have their own home again.

I know I'm good-looking, and I try to be good.From a very young age, in competition with other children, I learned to read my words and how to express myself.Therefore, I have had many opportunities to leave the orphanage.

But at the end of the day, the adults didn't know what they were talking about, and the chance to talk about me was gone.

The repeated disappointments made me gradually give up the extravagant hope of being led away.

I gradually came to accept the fact that I was unworthy, that people like me were not born worthy of love.

As an adult, such thoughts have been ingrained in my blood.I try my best to please everyone around me, try to show my best side, and enjoy the eyes they cast.Their admiration makes me happy and satisfies me.

But it also scares me.I am afraid of being discovered that I am not as beautiful as they seem on the surface. I am afraid that they will be disappointed, that they will leave, and that they will no longer like me in the future.

Over time, when I get along with people, I am used to unconsciously seducing each other, rejecting each other, seducing and keeping a distance... I know that I am a green tea bitch in some people's mouth, but there is no way, their love is what keeps me alive Nutrients, I must work hard to maintain the state that makes them all love me.

Until the appearance of Ling Bu, I began to shake this idea.

I know a lot of guys like me and just want to sleep with me.

He also wants to sleep with me, but I feel like he cares more about my heart.

Like others, he can help me regardless of the cost and do various things to make me happy.The difference is that no matter how much I refuse or play tricks, he is always there.For more than three years, the people around me have changed and changed, but he is still by my side.

But I don't deserve love after all.

Holding the inspection report from the hospital, I finally understood why I always missed every adoption from the orphanage.It turned out that it was really because I was not perfect - under my beautiful skin, there was a congenitally damaged heart.

I am very worldly, I have materialistic desires.Especially in this life that is starting to count down, I don't want to wrong myself anymore.

I happily spent money on myself, trying to forget the pitiful eyes that I envied others when I was young, so as to make up for the inferiority complex caused by the lack of material since I was a child.

I found that there is another advantage in this way. The exposed material desires easily help me block some unnecessary entanglements.

I even found a benefactor and offered marriage as a deal.

Because I need money more than ever.I need a lot of money to go abroad for an operation to save my heart that I don't know how long it can beat.

My patron is a client I'm developing.

It stands to reason that with my status, I am not qualified to directly discuss cooperation with the boss of Lei's Group.But under my careful preparation and design, a chance encounter caught me in Mr. Lei's eyes.Afterwards, I successfully became a VIP guest who went directly to President Lei's office.

Even the heavens are helping me, Mr. Lei's old man is seriously ill, and the flirtatious Mr. Lei decided to get married in order to win the old man's final favor.I successfully became the partner of this marriage transaction.After the old man dies, I can divorce and leave with 100 million yuan.

My newlywed husband is not interested in me, and he is still busy with his Yingying Yanyan after marriage.He chose me only because I know the advances and retreats and the general situation better than these men and women. When we break up, I will not be insatiable and have unreasonable thoughts like other people.

His family didn't like me either, but I didn't care, it was just a deal.

After being newly married, I am still like a free bird, free to fly where I want to go.

After seeing the gift money Ling Bu gave me and seeing him appearing at my wedding, I knew that this time I might lose him completely.I lost someone who was willing to respect me and fulfill me.

Only after I lost it did I know how to cherish it.

I regretted it, and I couldn't help but want to go back to him.If I could go back in time, I wouldn't take this deal again.Even if there is only one day left in my life, I would like to use it to enjoy a complete love.

I quietly did something for Ling Bu, even though I knew he would never look back, but I just wanted to make him happy.

I don't know when, my husband in name started to make more demands on me.I asked to terminate the contract, he said dreaming.He is the one who is greedy and has extravagant thoughts.

He even wanted to send me to the hospital and push me onto the cold operating table.

This is absolutely not possible!I still have people I can't let go of, and I don't want to go to that place where it is very likely that I will never return.

I escaped.I regained Ling Bu's mercy, and when I was busy happy that Ling Bu was willing to start over with me, the surname Lei warned me that if he wanted to, he could have a thousand ways to deal with Ling Bu.

I compromised.

After I went back, the person surnamed Lei agreed not to force me anymore, and he would let me go when the old man passed away.I have renewed hope to continue waiting by his side, only wishing that my life was a little longer than this day.

But he broke his promise, and after the funeral he didn't keep his promise.The high-ranking president of the group asked me ridiculously how he could not compare to a brat.

After fleeing for the second time, Ling Bu found me again.The days in Wuyuan were the happiest time in my life.

He is like a brilliant and gentle rape flower, giving me hope and making me peaceful.For him, I mustered up the courage to go back and make a break.I want to be with him with a clean and pure identity, even for a day.

Mr. Lei didn't stop this time, he made a proposal to me.

He arranged for me to go to the best hospital in Beijing for the operation, on the condition that if the operation was successful, I would not be able to come back and see Ling Bu for a year.If Ling Bu changes his mind, I have to stay by his side forever. If Ling Bu doesn't change his mind this year, he will let us go completely.

If you win the bet, you can get your true love back, and if you lose the bet, you will be rich in the rest of your life. This proposal doesn't sound too bad.

Mr. Lei should have seen through my mind long ago, he knew what I was afraid of.

I have never dared to tell Ling Bu about my illness, even during the days in Wuyuan.

I'm not sure if he can accept a relationship where he doesn't know if there will be a tomorrow after today.The experience in the orphanage reminded me repeatedly that he might regret it even if he knew the truth.

Lingbu, I love you too.From the beginning to now and forever.

Sorry, my inferiority complex and my fear made me accept this offer.

If I am still alive, if you still love me, I will spend the rest of my life responding and making up for it.

Probably exhausted all the luck of my life, this time, I won the bet.

Finally, I grasped the long-awaited happiness.

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