Just a Bit Unhealthy

Chapter 10: The Wisher Takes the Bait

It was a dinner that seemed to last forever.

Jared kind of wants to leave early, but it looks like he's running away from Gabriel in a hurry—his cousin and Christian will think so, and he doesn't want to.Besides, this would arouse Oscar's suspicion.The appearance of Gabriel made Oscar very confused, and he kept talking about him: Oscar was a little confused when he met his idol.It's a pity that it was Gabriel who came, otherwise it would be interesting to see him become like this.

Gabriel.

Jared looked across the table.Gabriel stared blankly at the plate, lost in thought.What is he thinking?

Jared realized he'd been staring at him and forced himself to look away.

He found that Alexander was observing him seriously, and frowned slightly.Christian leaned close to his ear and whispered a few words, and his frowning brows gradually relaxed.Alexander gave his boyfriend a wry smile, shook his head, and put his finger on Christian's neck.Christian smiled at him too.

Jared looked away.Sometimes watching Alexander get along with his boyfriend makes him uncomfortable.He was happy for his cousin--he had urged Alexander to go on--but . . .

Jared's eyes fell on another couple, who sat across from each other: a stern-faced, dark-haired man and a handsome, blond man.He didn't know them well, only two names: Drake and Sean.

"Don't be such a spoiler," Sean said to the other man, rolling his eyes. "Smile once in a while and you won't lose a piece of meat." He immediately showed a big smile to the bitter face next to him. "See? It's not that difficult."

Drake looked at the blond man, still not smiling, but his dark eyes lingered on Sean's smiling face, revealing his affection.This couple is a bit of an odd couple who don't quite get along, but then again, they're a perfect match — a perfect fit.

Although he didn't want to, Jared's eyes still came to Gabriel.

This time he found that Gabriel had been watching him too.

Gabriel stared at him intently, eyes burning, and nodded toward the door.

He pursed his lips and shook his head.He had said all he had to say.They have nothing left to talk about.Jared knew in his heart that he didn't trust himself, and if he was alone with Gabriel again, he might not be able to say no to him.As long as Gabriel looks at him with big green eyes and whispers his name softly, his willpower will be gone.Jared had thought—and hoped—that everything would change when Oscar came into his life, but he was wrong.The moment Jared saw Gabriel in the kitchen, Jared's first reaction was to push Oscar away, as if he had been caught cheating. Isn't that ridiculous.Gabriel was not his, hadn't been, and never would be.Jared already has a boyfriend, and his boyfriend is not Gabriel.His boyfriend is Oscar.

Jared looked at the young man sitting next to him.Oscar also smiled at him.Jared forced a smile back.When he met Oscar two months ago, he thought they were just a one-night stand, like he slept with other people.

Jared felt a little sad when he thought about it.At that time, he slept with every handsome guy who threw himself into his arms.He wanted to prove that he was still sexy.He wanted to prove that he was out of the past.He wanted to prove that he was no longer the glassy-eyed man he saw in the mirror.

But after the one-night stand, the second night, and the third night, after sleeping with Oscar for a week, he found himself liking him.Not only is he handsome, but he's also a down-to-earth, nice guy.Compared with Gabriel's violent temper and domineering, Oscar is a saint.Oscar is kind and uncomplicated.Oscar is the antithesis of Gabriel.Oscar was the kind of boyfriend Jared wanted, and Oscar wanted him.

"...Jared? Jared!"

Jared shuddered.Oh, it's Oscar. "What's wrong?"

Oscar's gray eyes were full of doubts. "What's wrong with you? You're not listening to me."

"I'm listening," Jared said. "I……"

Gabriel was no longer in his seat.He leaned against the door leading to the bedroom and quickly disappeared after seeing Jared watching him.

Jared hesitated for a moment, his reason and the desire to catch up kept fighting in his heart.

Oh shit.He lost.

He casually said sorry, and followed Gabriel out of the room regardless of Alexander's objecting gaze.

Gabriel was waiting for him in a guest room, arms folded across his chest.The expression on his face was strange: there was a determination mixed with other emotions.

"You say you have no place in my life because I can't give you what you want," Gabriel said without warning. "What if I could give it?"

"what?"

Gabriel lifted his chin. "I said what if I could give it? What if... What if I let you kiss me anytime?"

Jared stared at him. "You're not serious. I don't want your charity."

"It's not a handout. I think it's fair: I meet your needs and you meet mine."

Jared smiled instead of anger, shaking his head constantly. "Damn, you're still playing for real." He wiped his hair. "You're just fucking unbelievable."

"Why?" Gabriel's voice was calm, without any ups and downs, as if it was Jared who spoke the outrageous words. "Think about it, it's reasonable." His face became softer. "You know you mean a lot to me. I don't feel sick when you kiss me sometimes. I'd love it if I could have you."

"This... this is too fucking messy."

Gabriel was back to his usual stubbornness. "No. I like it when you touch me. I don't feel sick."

Jared chuckled slightly. "Do you think I can be satisfied with this? As long as you don't feel sick? You can bear it strong? Gabriel, are you serious?"

Gabriel's expression became very complicated at first, and then suddenly became very firm.

Gabriel walked over to him.

"Come on," Jared rebuffed, and Gabriel fixed his face and tiptoed for them to kiss.

Jared was stronger and taller than him, and he could have pushed him away.

However, he can't.

Gabriel's lips were soft and full—this was Gabriel, his Gabriel.Jared simply couldn't say no.He can't beat himself.His lips moved unconsciously.At this moment he let himself go, he was too sad and desperate, for so many years, he could only watch from afar, longing, the backlog of desire made him lose control, let him devote himself to this kiss without reservation middle.He has too many difficulties and feelings that cannot be told.

Gabriel didn't respond to him.He just stood still and acquiesced to his kiss, and Jared burned with anger like he had never felt before.Jared deepened the kiss, almost ravaging his lips.He pushed Gabriel's mouth away, and stuck his tongue into the warm and moist mouth of Gabriel. The original superficial touch became lustful and full of desire.He wanted to scare him, he wanted to hurt him, he wanted him to quit.

But Gabriel didn't push him away, he accepted everything and believed in him.

It made him stop.

Jared snapped his lips back, resting his head on Gabriel's forehead, gasping for breath.Hold.

He felt Gabriel touch his hair and cup his face tenderly.

Jared looked up at him.

Gabriel's cheeks were stained a little pink, and his expression looked a little erratic, but there was no trace of disgust.He licked his lips. "How do you like it?"

Jared started laughing.He slid on the ground, put his head in his hands, and kept laughing, laughing uncontrollably.His laughter was harsh, as if his throat had been slit, but he just couldn't stop.He felt so empty, so devastated.He didn't know what he was expecting before.He probably didn't expect Gabriel to find out that he was gay because of such a kiss, but...

But maybe he really thought so.So stupid, he is a big fool.

Gabriel sat down next to him and put his arms around his shoulders. "Jay—I'm sorry."

Jared didn't speak.

Gabriel rests his face on Jared's shoulder. "I love you," he said softly.

Jared closed his eyes. "do not do that."

Gabriel wraps his other arm around Jared's waist. "You can't say I don't feel it just because I don't respond to you. I—" His voice tightened. "I really love you, I love you so much that I'm afraid of myself." His voice was lower, almost inaudible. "I shouldn't love you any more than I love Jules and Claire."

"Don't be silly, you don't love me more than you love them."

Gabriel smiled dryly. "Tell you, Jules was born with blue eyes and dark hair. Claire told me that eye and hair color might change, but I don't believe it. But the color does change, and I... I Disappointed. You don't know how ashamed I am. I tried to hide it from Claire, I didn't want to upset her, but she found out somehow and was very angry. We had a big fight. She yelled at me and said she knew I was so If you want a child who looks like you, then let me give you one."

Oh my goodness.

"It's not what I thought it would be," Gabriel mutters, leaning on his shoulder, fingering the buttons on Jared's jacket. "I always thought it was a wonderful thing to have a family, but—but it wasn't beautiful at all. The baby was always crying, and Claire... would fight with me every now and then, just over trivial things, like our Always misunderstood what the other person said - it's a small thing like that, but it's been getting worse lately. Really serious. I don't know why, I feel like everything is wrong and boring, you know? Sounds very Shit, but sometimes...sometimes I really wish the two of them would disappear together, and I feel like an asshole just thinking about it."

Jared reached out and stroked Gabriel's knuckles.

Gabriel sighed and entangled the other's fingers.

Jared stared blankly at the carpet, wondering how he could feel so at ease with someone he'd never have.Just holding Gabriel's hand like this is already very satisfying, it shouldn't be like this.But his hand was just right in his own.

The surroundings are almost completely quiet, only the distant voices of people outside the porch can be heard, and it is very easy to pretend that the outside world does not exist.Even if it's temporary.But the thing is, temporary is temporary.

"Come back with me," Gabriel whispered suddenly. "I beg you."

"No, there is no result at all."

Gabriel squeezed his hand. "We'll create results."

Jared gave a nonchalant laugh. "How to create?"

Gabriel took a moment to answer. "You like to kiss me, don't you?"

Jared blinked slowly, then looked at Gabriel's head resting on his shoulder.

Gabriel looked a little embarrassed, a blush came to his cheeks, but he still looked at him steadily. "I'm serious. Come back with me, and then I'll do whatever you want as long as you're happy."

Jared's mouth opened and closed several times before words came out.Finally he spoke. "Anything goes," he said quietly.

Gabriel nodded and bit his lip. "It can't be too much," he said awkwardly.

"Can't go too far," Jared mimicked him.

Gabriel gave him a wary look. "Why are you mad at me?"

"Can't you guess yet?"

Gabriel lifted his face, which had been buried in Jared's shoulders, and sat up straight. "Listen to me," he said, still shaking Jared's hand.

"Listen to me," Gabriel said again. "I know it sounds crazy, but when you think about it, you can pretend you're 'happy' around that person, but it won't last long. I tried to lie to myself before. I pretended to be happy for Claire, Sometimes I can do it, but it's tiring and harder than it was before. You're not happy. If you were really happy with him, you wouldn't treat me like you did." Gabriel's voice He softened, a little suspicious, with a thoughtful expression on his face. "You won't look at me the way you do now."

Jared didn't even want to know how he looked at him. "Xiaojia—"

"Stop, listen to me," said Gabriel, squeezing his hand and looking him in the eye. "I can make you happy. I can do it, and I will do it, at least I will really try to do it with all my strength. Let's not break the can, we will definitely have results."

Jared cursed in a low voice, let go of his hands and stood up.He hated himself for being like this, always being fooled by Gabriel by accident, no matter how crazy or unrealistic the other party's proposal was.

"It's not going to work," Jared said.

"Why?" Gabriel's voice was getting frustrated now.

"Because you're straight," Jared said through gritted teeth. "You may think that sex is not important, but you are wrong. Sex is important. Don't let me touch you just because you pity me."

Gabriel sighed in annoyance and stood up too.He moved closer to Jared, so close that his chest almost touched. "I didn't pity you, fool," Gabriel said, taking Jared's hand to his face.He kissed Jared's wrist sideways.

Jared froze.

"I like it very much," Gabriel said, looking a little shy. "I love it when you touch me. Yeah, yeah, I don't like it that much, but I enjoy it. I always love the way your hands run over me. And then when you kissed me... ...Although I feel a little strange—a little—but...but I like it. I like it, you know?"

Jared stared at him. "How could you feel like it, but not to that extent? A kiss is a kiss, you only have two choices, like it or not."

Gabriel shrugged and ran a hand through his hair. "It's—it's hard to explain. You know I like it when you hold me. I feel so good, like I'm on drugs."

"It's not abnormal," Jared explained to him. "Hugging triggers your body to release oxytocin, which lowers your—"

"Come on, I see," Gabriel grinned and rolled his eyes in passing. "But that's not the point. When you hold me, I feel good, but I want to do other things, understand? For example, I want you to go deep into my skin, into my body."

Jared gasped, and the blood flowed backwards all over his body.His cock was instantly hard, hard with desire, and his heart beat violently in his chest.

Gabriel blushed and smiled awkwardly. "Well, I'm not that explicit when I'm rehearsing it in my head." He scratched the back of his neck. "In short, I... That's why I like you to kiss me. I'm not being patient. Although I don't have a physical reaction, I still feel very comfortable. If you want to do it again, I don't mind." Gabriel's eyes suddenly came to Jared kissed his lips for a while, then moved away, scratching his ear with his thumb in embarrassment. "I'm definitely not pitying you, I swear."

"What the hell are you implying?"

"Come back to me, and I will try my best to meet your various requirements when interacting with people."

"Except for sex," Jared said.

"Well," Gabriel said, shifting his weight from his left foot to his right, not looking at Jared. "Well, if you feel horny, you can find someone to solve it-just sometimes. The rest, I will satisfy you."

Jared didn't know whether to cry or laugh. "There's a difference between having sex with someone you love and having sex with someone you don't."

Gabriel pouted. "So there's no difference between your one-night stand and being with Moen."

This move was too harsh, but what Gabriel said did make sense.To be honest, Jared felt that Gabriel's explanation really made sense.

But Gabriel forgot one more thing.

"What about Claire?" Jared asked. "What would she say?"

For a moment, Gabriel wavers.But he didn't falter for long. "She's sensible. She knows you're important to me, always has. She knows I love you first."

Jared shook his head. "Do you really think she doesn't care?" How could Gabriel be so blind-eyed?No woman wants to share her partner with another person, even if the relationship between them is pure.

"I think she'll take it," Gabriel said. "Besides, life is still going on for her." He gave Jared a wry smile. "I bet she'd be glad to have you back. She gets impatient with me when I'm in a bad mood."

Jared didn't laugh with him.He looked at each other for a long moment, squeezed Gabriel's chin, and lifted his face. "Do you know what happens when you say that?"

Gabriel swallowed. "Yeah, I know." He leaned forward, his lips touching Jared's.

Jared's body tensed, covered in waves of desire.

"I want it," Gabriel said softly. "Come on. Kiss me." His lips brushed Jared's again.

Jared was completely out of control.He pulled him over and hugged him tightly, kissing Gabriel's lips hard.Gabriel's body was leaning against him, a little stiff, but his lips opened consciously.Jared's tongue took the opportunity to slip into Gabriel's mouth, which surprised Gabriel and let out a small cry.

It took all of Jared's strength to pull himself back temporarily.

Gabriel stared at him dumbfounded.He also looked a little confused this time.

"All right?" Jared said, noticing that his voice had changed.

Gabriel smiled softly and nodded.

"Are you sure you want to continue?"

Gabriel nodded again, and licked his lips with his tongue.

Jared sighed, sucking his tongue into his mouth.Gabriel let out the same gasp of surprise from before, gripping Jared's shoulders tightly with both hands.He doesn't kiss Jared back, just accepts it and lets Jared ravage his lips as he pleases, but it turns him on.Jared licked the inside of Gabriel's mouth and hugged him harder, kissing him more and more, hungrily, as if no amount of kissing was enough.God, he wanted him so badly.He wanted to push Gabriel onto the bed, tear his clothes off, and kiss him all over.He wanted to lick his cock, to make him talk about making love.He wanted to thrust his cock into Gabriel's body, fuck him into the mattress, the desire was too strong for him to think.He hugged Gabriel tightly again, kissing harder and harder, the accumulation of desire almost took away his sanity.He even started shaking, but couldn't stop.He couldn't control his body anymore.He felt like there must be a broken part in his body, if only he had kissed Gabriel once - he couldn't stop himself anymore, he would kiss him again and again.God, he really wanted to have him, he had to have him.

Someone nearby cleared his throat.

Oops.

Out of breath, Jared jerked his lips away.

"Jared."

Alexander stood outside the door, his face almost expressionless, but Jared knew what his cousin was thinking.

"Oscar has been looking for you," Alexander said.

Jared shuddered, guilt and apology welling up in his heart.Hell, he's almost completely forgotten about Oscar.

His lower part was painfully stiff, but he nodded quickly, trying to leave the room quickly, but an arm stopped him.

Gabriel stared at his face. "Then we'll meet in London, shall we agree?" He asked uncertainly.

Jared stared at Gabriel's red lips from his kiss, and his beloved green eyes.

"Jared, don't go." Alexander silently reminded from the side.

Gabriel looks over Jared's shoulder, gives him a hard look, then looks back at Jared. "Jay—"

"Go home," Jared said, hiding his trembling hands in his trouser pockets. "I have to think about it."

Gabriel opened his mouth and was about to refute, but he held back after thinking about it.He stepped forward and hugged Jared. "I love you," he whispered. "Remember it."

Jared nodded, still allowing himself a casual kiss on Gabriel's forehead.

But Gabriel certainly wouldn't just let him go.He leaned over and kissed his mouth tenderly.Jared had a hard time holding himself back from deepening the kiss.

"I'm waiting for you," Gabriel said, letting go of him slowly.He smiled, gave Jared a meaningful and wistful look, and walked out.

"Don't say anything," Jared preempted, now that it was just him and his cousin. "I know what you're going to say, and you're right. I shouldn't."

Alexander let out a long sigh. "I just hope you know what you're doing. That kid will still break your heart if you spoil him like this."

Jared looked at the pair of eyes that were very similar to his own and smiled, but he was not happy at all. "I know."