bedtime counseling

Chapter 25 Waiting for you for a lifetime

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In public, Wu Ke couldn't do anything to Liang Ze.But when he opened the door of his room, the man behind him boldly followed in again, and his footsteps finally stopped suddenly.

"Who let you in."

Liang Ze closed the door and turned around slowly: "I have something to tell you."

Again.

Why does this person always appear at such times, always selfishly breaking into my life, shaking my hard-won resolution.

Not wanting to look at him again, Wu Ke threw away his briefcase and tie, and pushed open the French windows of the balcony.The night outside is dark, scattered stars dot the horizon, and the neon lights of the city in the distance are bustling.

He took a deep breath, suppressing the boredom in his heart.

Behind him, Liang Ze approached silently, but he didn't really cross the line, he just looked at him not too far away, "You obviously didn't leave, why did you lie to me that you had already left?"

How dare you ask.

"Please make it clear that when I want to leave is my business, I don't think I need to explain to you." Wu Ke said bluntly.

Unexpectedly, Liang Ze said, "It's not your business."

"What?" Wu Ke turned and stared at him.

"It's not just about you." Looking at each other, Liang Ze seemed to have regained some courage in vain, "You left because you misunderstood me, so this is about you and me, not about you alone. "

"you--"

"I know it all. He Feng talked nonsense to you that night. Ake, you want to know why you didn't ask me. Do you think I will lie to you?"

Wu Ke was quiet for a while, and said sarcastically, "Have you never lied to me?"

There was something in his words, Liang Ze understood immediately, and moved his throat with difficulty: "I have my difficulties, I hope you can understand. But please believe me, my relationship with He Feng is not what you think, he is just me. Just a friend of mine."

"Friend..." Wu Ke smiled, "You seem to like to use these two words as a cover. Does it mean that you don't count if you haven't been together before, and even if you have a one-night stand, you are still called a friend?"

Liang Ze's face turned pale suddenly, and he raised his eyes blankly: "What do you mean by that?"

"Did I guess wrong, that person is not him?"

"Which person..."

"For the first time." He threw out two key words.

"Of course not!" Liang Ze hastily denied, "You, who told you it was his? He said it? Don't listen to him, he was just joking with you on purpose, it's not him at all!"

"If it's not him, then who is it?" Wu Ke's eyes were tight, and he didn't relax for a moment.

"Yes……"

"who is it?"

That matter cannot be explained clearly in a few words, let alone have no face to say it.Liang Ze was at a loss for words for a moment, but his heart suddenly became clear. He raised his eyes, and their gazes collided with each other impartially.

"But Ake, why are you so curious about this question?"

"I--"

"Is it because you care about me?"

The air suddenly solidified.

Liang Ze looked at him, his heart filled up little by little, followed his gaze and continued to ask: "Is it because you are jealous?"

"That's enough, what nonsense are you talking about." Wu Ke turned and walked into the room, Liang Ze could see his face clearly under the not-so-bright light.There was boredom and avoidance on his face, but there was no disgust.

"I'm not talking nonsense, you care about me. If you don't care about me, why would you be angry because of He Feng's appearance, and would rather stay in a hotel than go back?"

After being silent for a while, Liang Ze put all his eggs in one basket, and his voice was as soft as a whisper: "You are afraid of me."

Wu Ke couldn't bear it anymore, and was about to lose his temper.But Liang Ze walked up to him, raised his eyes and stared at him: "You are afraid of seeing me, and you will get angry and feel uncomfortable when you see me, aren't you?"

Only when you care about a person will you be emotionally affected by this person, and you will be led by the nose by him.It was precisely because Wu Ke couldn't tolerate himself like this that he didn't want to stay any longer, so he packed up his things and went to the hotel.This kind of mood, Liang Ze probably understands better than himself.

"You don't want to say that I won't force you, but..." Liang Ze grabbed his wrist, "But I just want you to know that I have only liked you from the beginning to the end, and my heart will follow you wherever you go. As long as you say a word, don't say three to five years, I am willing to wait for you for the rest of my life, I—"

Wu Ke suddenly broke free from his hand and walked away, interrupting his last confession.

Looking at the cold back in front of him, Liang Ze turned his head away and talked for a while, his face was hot.There was silence for a while, but I still couldn't help asking in a muffled voice, "Do you believe me?"

Wu Ke stood by the floor-to-ceiling window, his back stiffened: "Liang Ze, how can you even say such things."

Yes.

Liang Ze didn't know how he said such shameless words just now.But when I really said it, my heart was relaxed and happy.He doesn't care what others think of him, as long as Wu Ke doesn't misunderstand him and alienate him.

"It's not too difficult, as long as you are willing to face up to your own heart."

But he will still be embarrassed.

After standing at a loss for a while, he said "borrow the bathroom" and ran into the bathroom to lock the door.

Really, everything is almost screwed up, right on the edge of a precipice, precarious.But Wu Ke's reaction was also very ambiguous, saying that being angry is not like being angry, saying that being happy is not like being happy, a situation in between.

People inside are tangled and distressed, and people outside are not at ease.

Wu Ke didn't expect that Liang Ze would come to him directly, and he didn't expect that Liang Ze would dare to say anything in order not to misunderstand him, without any euphemistic intentions.After standing silently on the balcony for a while, he walked over and knocked on the bathroom door: "How long are you going to stay in there?"

"I want to take a shower. I sweated a lot from cycling just now."

The veins on his forehead were throbbing: "Why don't you go back and wash?"

After a few seconds of silence, Liang Ze said softly, "I want to stay tonight."

When one person goes far, the other should catch up, so that the two can continue to be together.

"Don't worry, I don't mean anything else, I just want to spend more time with you before you leave."

The sudden frankness made Wu Ke helpless.

Yes, there is only one bed in the room, how can I sleep?If you don't agree, is it true that you will drive people back forcibly?

But Liang Ze never gave him a chance to refuse.In just half a minute, the sound of the shower came from the bathroom, and the quiet room suddenly became noisy.Wu Ke went straight to the balcony to smoke without saying a word.

After washing, Liang Ze took off the dirty clothes in his hands, wrapped himself in a large bath towel, and stepped on the carpet with his bare feet.Wu Ke didn't even look at him, and just turned his head away.

Of course, Liang Ze didn't look at Wu Ke either.

Under the dim light, he occupied a quarter of the bed, and the fluffy quilt was pulled over his face: "I've blown my hair. You should go wash it too, I'm so sleepy, let's go to bed early."

Familiar trickery.

Wu Ke pinched the bridge of his nose irritably, almost wanting to pull him out of the quilt, but in the end he resigned to his fate.When he entered the bathroom with a pale face, the only sound in the room was the sound of the air conditioner running.Liang Ze held back under the blanket for a while, and when he couldn't hold back, he stretched out his head to breathe.

The air smelled of a hotel bath set, which, although not as familiar as the one at home, was inexplicably reassuring.

Fortunately, he was not kicked out.

Wu Ke turned off the main light after washing, leaving only a bedside lamp.Then he randomly found a T-shirt from the box, stood beside the curtain, raised his arms, and put it on over his head.

Liang Ze was watching from behind, almost jumping off the balcony with a heartbroken heart, it was very difficult to get his breath back.

"I was wearing a skirt that day because I lost a punch," he explained dully, his voice getting softer as he spoke, "Don't worry, I'm not a pervert."

Perhaps it was because he spoke too shockingly, Wu Ke froze for a few seconds before turning around and humming expressionlessly.Liang Ze looked at it for a while, and then his eyes began to look around: "So you can come here, I won't eat you."

It turns out that explanations work.Wu Ke didn't get angry, he lifted the quilt and fell asleep.There was a big gap between the two, but there was a big living person beside him, and the temperature inside the quilt was still much higher than usual.

"Just this time, not next time."

Wu Ke lowered the air conditioner by two degrees.

"Is it okay until next Monday? I will move back after you leave on Monday. I promise not to disturb your sleep, as long as I live here."

He also knew that he was a little too close, but the matter had come to this point, and there was no reason to back down.What's more, if Wu Ke really couldn't bear it and pushed him away, how could he let him get so close?

Sure enough, Wu Ke's breath was muddy, but he finally acquiesced to all this.

Liang Ze moved slightly behind him, moved to a position only three or four punches away, stared at his back and whispered: "A Ke, do you know? I didn't fall asleep last night, and I was thinking about what to do .”

Wu Ke's tone was cold: "What should I do?"

"What will you do when you leave?" Liang Ze smiled, "I figured out how long it would take me to save up enough to buy a plane ticket, and how long it would take to see you."

The discomfort of last night is still painful when I think about it now.

"I know you won't take the initiative to go back to China to see me, but it doesn't matter, I can go to find you. I have already figured it out. Starting from this month, I will have an extra job. It should be possible to go to the bar to make fruit plates at night. I'm not tired anyway. I'll go to Qi Siyu when I have saved enough money, and I'll fly over to see you as soon as I get the address, no matter..." The voice trembled slightly, "Whether you want to see me or not."

That's how he's survived the past six years.Save money every penny, a pack of instant noodles to pay for a meal, and come to Linjiang as soon as you save enough money.If he was not so lucky and never met Wu Ke, then he would stay here forever.

In fact, when he first liked Wu Ke, he liked it very confusedly, and he didn't understand why.

The real reason is understood after separation.

People struggling in the mire, covered in mud, yearn for purity and cleanliness, and yearn for one day to climb back to the shore and take a breath of fresh air.One day Wu Ke passed by there, reached out to him, and said he was willing to give him a hand.From that day on, Wu Ke was his ladder, his rope, the only thought in his mind when he was struggling repeatedly, and the belief that he was unwilling to give up until he died.But faith is so precious that everyone is willing to sacrifice their lives for it.

The breathing changed from slow to fast, and then from fast to slow, Wu Ke never opened his mouth.Liang Ze waited for a while, knowing that there was no time for a response, so he said good night.He thought he couldn't fall asleep, but in fact he felt extremely at ease and soon fell asleep peacefully.

It was Wu Ke who really couldn't sleep.

Time passed slowly, and the night outside the curtains became darker and darker.He thought about many things in the past six years, from the moment he separated from Liang Ze, thinking about going to university, thinking about his grandma's death, and working.The pain and loneliness in the past were like a revolving lantern, all the pictures were black and white, and he was the only one, until that day when he reunited with Liang Ze at the alley.

There is one more person beside me, one more hand.

That hand occasionally holds a peeling knife, occasionally a cooking spoon, and occasionally holds nothing, just touches his hand lightly.That person is occasionally in the kitchen, occasionally in front of the washing machine on the balcony, occasionally on the bicycle, and occasionally by his side.He had just left for a day when that person chased after him and chased him into the room, lingering on his heels.

Wu Ke was upset, but he had to admit that this feeling of being dependent was so nostalgic.

He took a breath silently, and was about to close his eyes to rest when he suddenly noticed a low, painful moan behind him.Turning around, Liang Ze was curled up into a ball in the darkness, his hands were pressing on his waist, and at some point his head was sweating from the pain.

"Liang Ze—"

"Ake..."

Reluctantly opening his sweaty eyelids, Liang Ze's lips trembled slightly: "Ake, I'm not feeling well..."