An old cat's breeding diary

Chapter 11

11

Master's funeral was very simple, a solitary grave deep in the snow mountain, looking at Chang'an in the distance.

When Li Chengfeng and his disciples came to Huashan, the master had already been buried.Master is only 59 years old at the end of the year. Lao Mao and the others came here originally to prepare for Master's [-]th birthday, which is about two months away.But I never thought that people would disappear like this.

Zhang Yuanshan was a little worried that Zong Xun would seek death again, the old cat laughed.No, Senior Brother is not that kind of person, he just wants to be with Master.How could he have the idea of ​​suicide, he just wanted to be with that person all the time.

A group of Zong Xun's disciples of the same generation or below knelt on the cold ground, and they stood quietly at the end.Watching that person preside over the Rituals of the Rites.Zong Xun stood in the front wearing a solemn and formal Taoist robe, holding a soul-inducing bell that vibrated regularly from time to time.The surrounding is very quiet, no one will make a sound, only the clear ringing of the bell echoes in the valley, and gradually dissipates in the wind.Zong Xun opened his mouth slowly, and when the snow started to fall, he stood in the snow and sang ancient and melodious scripture tunes as a farewell.

From the beginning to the end, Zong Xun didn't show too many expressions, his expression remained solemn, and his manners were elegant and well-mannered.In the wind and snow, his voice was low but clear.There is no need for extra emotion to sing this kind of scriptures, and he just composes the melody with ups and downs.But these words seem to contain friendship at the moment of being recited, like weeping and complaining, like a lover's whisper, telling parting.

The pure Yang lineage is for cultivating the Tao, what is the Tao?Only those who have the Tao will understand.The merits and virtues cultivated are for longevity, for not being burdened by desires, and suffering from the suffering of wandering in the world.Longevity can also be regarded as a sign of success in cultivating the Tao, and it is naturally impossible to fail to become an immortal.Since we are human, we are mortal.How many people have practiced Taoism for thousands of years, and how many people can become immortals?Therefore, chanting scriptures to the dead has become a great merit and virtue, which can make them break away from the world of mortal delusions as soon as possible and get out of the nether world.

Lu Jiang didn't know what Zong Xun was thinking.

The pain of a lover dying in front of his eyes is unimaginable and powerless.No one can bear it on his behalf, not to mention that people's hearts are different so there is no empathy.

Zong Xun has been mature since he was a child, and others are not able to pry into his heart.It's even worse when he grows up. If he doesn't like Master and doesn't hide what he likes, no one will know what he is thinking.The old cat is not worried about Zong Xun's death, he still has this understanding, he is afraid that he will do something wrong.The old cat didn't know it, but felt uneasy. The senior brother looked fine, but the love he kept in his heart was gone. Ordinary people would feel sad and sad.The disciples who don't have much contact with each other on weekdays also want to take care of it with a sigh.How can Zong Xun be safe?But since he was pulled up from the grave by himself that day, he has been normal.Seeing Zong Xun solemnly preside over the funeral ceremony, the old cat thought, what kind of feelings can be suppressed for more than 20 years?Thinking about Xiao Yuanshan being by his side, joking and making friends with others, but not being able to get close to him is really unbearable for a moment.Lu Jiang couldn't help being a little worried. He always felt that this was not the case. The more perfect he was, the less perfect he was. Such an excellent senior brother, the paranoia and madness in his bones were probably deeper than anyone else.

Lu Jiang was still staring at Zong Xun's figure in a daze, when a sudden hand climbed onto his shoulder.The old cat saw that Zhang Yuanshan was struggling to hug his shoulders, and smiled at him when he saw him looking at him.The heaviness and fear in the old cat's heart were relieved immediately, and he patted the hand on his shoulder, while signaling that he was fine, while seemingly inadvertently embracing Zhang Yuanshan's waist, he moved to the side, slightly lifted him up and pulled him away. Stand up a little.There was a gap between the two of them in stature, but Zhang Yuanshan was slightly shorter.Normally, he couldn't see anything, but the terrain where he was standing today was uneven, and Lu Jiang was standing higher. Zhang Yuanshan felt uncomfortable when he saw him staring at the altar with a gloomy expression.Subconsciously, I hugged his shoulders, and I didn't know what to say, I just wanted to hug him and let him know, Master, I am here, you still have mine.

Normally, Zhang Yuanshan would be ashamed and annoyed if he gets close in front of others.But at this moment, his son only wanted to keep his master from being sad, and he couldn't care about anything else.Besides, the four of them stood at the end, and no one was watching.Li Chengfeng didn't say much today, he just watched his master silently, Lu Mingshi's eyes were red, he only held hands with his master, and didn't care about it.

Zhang Yuanshan didn't say anything himself, but he knew in his heart that there was no need to talk between the two of them after that old cat's confession kiss.In the past year, the two have been getting close. Although they haven't reached that point yet, the old cat often holds people down and kisses them in a proper way.Zhang Yuanshan is used to being an old lady, so I really like him.Now in addition to serving the master's basic necessities, he is also responsible for washing and lying down for his mother to rub.The old cat was fair-looking, but he was unequivocal when he did that kind of thing. He often made Zhang Yuanshan's muscles turn red from kneading.

It's true, the two of them became enlightened late, Zhang Yuanshan was still a kid when he came here, the old cat couldn't think much of it at all.Later, when I grew up slowly, I didn't know how to express my thoughts.There is always a sense of disobedience of incest between the master and the apprentice, and it is even more difficult for the two of them to not communicate with each other, so they have been dawdling for several years.Now that the two of them are in the same mind, and they are at a young age, just kissing and touching is not enough for this kind of thing.

Now think about it, as soon as you get home, there will be someone who warmly hugs you, you cook, he hangs on you, you make the bed, he sticks behind you, you go to take a shower, he also squeezes in... a The big cat shows its soft belly towards you, and keeps getting close to you and showing its kindness to you.This is really, no matter how I think about it, I feel my heart soften into a ball.Zhang Yuanshan was really happy in his heart, although the master was not working hard, so what, the apprentice should be filial to the master.He likes him so much, so why not follow him?I am very happy to have such a big lazy cat.

Thinking about it, Zhang Yuanshan couldn't help feeling uncomfortable.For such a good person as the master, the relationship for so many years... I am afraid that the master must not forget it.How bitter is it to have feelings that cannot be expressed in words in this life?If the master also goes before him... Zhang Yuanshan really can't imagine whether he can still hold on, whether he still has the energy to support a funeral.Thinking about it, Zhang Yuanshan slipped his hand from the old cat's shoulder.

The old cat didn't care too much, so he took the man's hand and put it on his waist.

Looking at his master's natural movements, Zhang Yuanshan blurted out, "Master, I, I don't care, you have to die after me."

Hearing this sound at first, the old cat looked down at the child who was nervous and regretted his slip of the tongue, but still couldn't help but secretly looked at himself with hope in his eyes.Laughed immediately, Xiao Yuanshan of their family is so obedient, he has learned to be petty?It's so cute.

As soon as Zhang Yuanshan said this, he knew that he was willful, not to mention what occasion it was.Just say that Zeng Shizu just passed away, and he said such outrageous words... Zhang Yuanshan felt regretful and embarrassed, he really didn't feel ashamed to say such nonsense.

The old cat didn't say anything, just lowered its head and stole some incense.With his head slightly lowered and staggered, he kissed Zhang Yuanshan's tight lips, with the smile still in his eyes, and replied softly, "Okay."

Zhang Yuanshan felt ashamed and embarrassed when he heard this, he just hugged the old cat and didn't speak, buried his face in it, leaving a pair of red ears.Seeing the old cat was filled with joy, he couldn't help but stroke the soft hair on the back of Zhang Yuanshan's neck to comfort him.

Not far away, Lu Mingzhi frowned, met Li Chengfeng's eyes, and motioned him to look over there.At a glance, Li Chengfeng saw the old cat, his master and his apprentice hugging each other greasy, and the sadness disappeared immediately, but when he was about to say something, he felt his sleeves being ripped off.

Pulling at his master's sleeve, Lu Mingzhi frowned, "He, why is he so sad? I didn't even cry, isn't that too good?" He remembered that the funeral ceremonies of the people in the Central Plains were very grand, and those with children and grandchildren The children and grandchildren should kneel down and worship the crying spirit, and those who have no children should spend money to hire people to be filial sons and grandsons.Just because he is a Taoist, Zong Xun presided over the ceremony himself and paid attention to solemnity, so he didn't get these secular regulations.Seeing Zhang Yuanshan like this now, he must be crying.Lu Mingzhi felt that it was not good for him to be so good, and obviously his great master treated him so well, but he couldn't cry for him when it happened.I was anxious and sad in my heart, the originally red eye sockets were filled with tears after a while, against the jade-like little face, I really felt pity and felt wronged.

The pain and stagnation in my heart was completely dispelled now.Li Chengfeng put his arms around his apprentice angrily and amusedly, "Silly boy, why are you crying, your great master certainly didn't want you to be sad." As he spoke, he bowed slightly to wipe Lu Mingzhi's tears.

The funeral was over in one day, and the four of them kept vigil for nine nights.Now that all the rituals have been done, it's over.Lao Mao and the others meant that they would stay with Zong Xun for a while longer, but Zong Xun was not unusual.To put it bluntly, it is enough to have a master, and no one else is needed.So they rested for a few days, and prepared to leave when they recovered completely.

The old cat was still a little worried, but Zong Xun didn't appreciate it.The master was gone, so he naturally didn't need to be gentle and polite, so he was cold and unfriendly, directly expressing his annoyance and driving them away.He followed the old cat and the others down the mountain, preparing to tidy up the old house of the master in Chang'an.

Li Chengfeng invited Lao Mao and the others to Luoyang, the eastern capital, to see the vibrant Tiance Mansion, and to stroll around the prairie racecourse to ease their mood.

Lao Mao, his master and his apprentice, and Li Chengfeng returned to Tiance and lived there for more than a year, when they received a letter from Zong Xun.After Zong Xun cleaned up the old Chang'an house, he went back to Chunyang to observe his filial piety.After keeping it for a year, I felt that there was something foreign in my body and my heart was in the world of mortals, so I went out to travel.Of course, this was said by Xiao Daotong, who delivered the letter. This silly boy was honest. He ran to the mountains and found that the old cats had never been back. The letter is not finished until it is delivered.

Zong Xun's letter was extremely simple, just one sentence: the one-year filial piety period has come, let's go.

The old cat didn't know where Zong Xun had gone or where he wanted to go.I just remembered that when I was young, they would follow Master wherever he went, and Zong Xun only looked at Master's back and never asked questions.I thought, actually, that's fine.

Everyone has their own destination, and they should not stick to the form. If people can do what they want, they will be at ease.If the heart is bitter, what is the difference?

So be it, that's fine.