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Chapter 9 Crying

Sometimes Ye Shun finds it unbelievable that he and Gu Sizhi are together like this.At the beginning, I always felt that getting along was weird. At first, we were just friends, but suddenly they became lovers. Sometimes I wanted to do some intimate actions, such as holding hands, such as hugging, or... kissing, looking at each other always I feel very uncomfortable, a little looking forward to it, and a little afraid.Later, it might be that Gu Sizhi saw through his thoughts, and got very close to him during the walk, and then held his hand naturally, the warmth in his hand made Ye Shun agitated, and he shook it back forcefully. past.Gu Sizhi smiled invisibly, and held his hand even tighter.

What is love?

Ye Shun thought, Gu Sizhi must be what love looks like.

It's not that I didn't worry that this relationship would not be accepted and blessed by others, but Ye Shun and Gu Sizhi always love each other and live very hard, and record the happiest appearance of each other and themselves in the time they can have down.

In the second year after confirming their relationship, Ye Shun and Gu Sizhi moved out of the school and rented a room in the middle of the two schools to live together.Although you may have to get up early every day and go to class in different directions, in your spare time, the two of you can stay at home and watch movies, play games, cook and wash clothes together, or go shopping and travel, just like any ordinary couple Generally, living a warm and sweet life.

After graduation, the two did not work in the same city. Ye Shun and Gu Sizhi also discussed and quarreled and had a cold war because of the problem of their future. The two young and vigorous hearts have lofty dreams and pride, and neither of them would First bow your head and compromise, so the two have a long-distance relationship for a long time.Later, after experiencing a lot, their thinking became more mature, and they gradually understood what is the most important thing. The two finally ended their love life in different places and lived together.

The days after being discovered by family members are always difficult.Unable to bear to hurt his family and unwilling to compromise, Ye Shun often sighed in the middle of the night and could not fall asleep.Gu Sizhi would hug him and pat him gently as if to comfort him, and then give him a kiss.Ye Shun knew that Gu Sizhi was not much better than him, even though he looked calm and breezy, how could Ye Shun not see his forced smile and the deep wrinkles between his eyebrows?The two are like climbers trapped in the ice and snow. Only by hugging and supporting each other can they gain warmth and strength to support themselves to go on.

After the hysteria at Ye Shun's family, he found that he couldn't get a satisfactory answer, so he let it go as if he had never had this child. During the holidays, Ye Shun went home with a gift and could only knock on the door, put the things at the door and leave silently. There was never any phone or text message. Be answered and answered.If it wasn't for Gu Sizhi being by his side, Ye Shun thought that he must have collapsed.He never thought that one day he would be in such a mess with his family, it was as if he had never existed in that family, and there was no place for him.

Gu Sizhi would occasionally talk to Ye Shun about the situation in his family, but most of the time he kept it in his heart.Ye Shun understands that Gu Sizhi has always been a very rational and forbearing person, he needs to be independent, and he is used to solving problems by himself, because there is never anyone to rely on, and he has always been the one to be relied on.He is the man of the family, and has always been a mature, sensible and responsible child. When he grows up, he has become a big tree, sheltering the family from wind and rain, so that his mother can rely on him with peace of mind.Ye Shun knew that Gu Sizhi never wanted to hurt his mother's heart, his mother's life was too difficult.Just because he knew, Ye Shun often felt guilty about it, it was he who dragged Gu Sizhi onto this path, and he was the one who put him in this difficult situation.He wanted Gu Sizhi to relax, but he couldn't let him go.He finally met Gu Sizhi, and finally got to be with him, how could he give up?he can not.He wouldn't make Gu Sizhi sad, he wouldn't leave Gu Sizhi alone, he didn't want Gu Sizhi to regret his decision, regret agreeing to him back then, and feel that he had mistrusted him.

It is agreed that we will be together forever, we must be together forever, and no one can be left behind.

The dark times are finally over.Gu Sizhi's mother accepted her son, Ye Shun and their relationship.This strong woman has suffered too much, and her son has also had a hard time. She doesn't want to embarrass her child anymore.Life is already very difficult, how can a mother deprive her child of the hard-won happiness?After Ye Shun followed Gu Sizhi to meet her and called "Mom" in her gentle smile, he felt relieved and wanted to cry a little. His heart, which had been restless and guilty for a long time, was finally redeemed.He didn't destroy Gu Sizhi's family, didn't make Gu Sizhi regret his decision and trust him in vain, he could finally say frankly that he could give him happiness.

As for Ye Shun's family, over the years, no matter how hard a rock is, it will be pitted by dripping water, let alone a family whose blood is thicker than water?Although it is not like Gu Sizhi's mother who can get their blessings, Ye Shun can open the door to collect things when he returns home, and sometimes he will return a few greeting calls and text messages.Ye Shun believed that everything was going in a good direction, and he and Gu Sizhi would be happy.

When the ending song of the movie sounded, the sky that had been suppressed for a long time finally couldn't bear it, and the heavy rain poured down.Ye Shun hurriedly closed the window, some parts of the floor were wet by the rainwater that drifted in.He found a towel to dry the floor, then changed into thicker clothes, poured a cup of hot water and curled up on the sofa to watch the tidbits.Ye Shun felt that it was not scientific at all why it was so cold this day, even holding a cup of hot water, he was shivering from the cold, his fingers were so stiff that he almost lost consciousness.

I don't know what the weather is like at Gu Sizhi's place, and whether he has brought thicker clothes.

Called Gu Sizhi but was not connected, Ye Shun was so cold that he couldn't stand it, so he turned on the air conditioner and took a hot shower.Wrapped in some thick pajamas and nestled under the quilt, Ye Shun called Gu Sizhi again, but no one answered.

Ye Shun was a little worried.

When I went to bed at night, I kept this in mind. Ye Shun kept waking up and turned on his phone to check. There were no missed calls or unread messages, and he didn't sleep well all night.

Ye Shun felt that he had lost contact with Gu Sizhi.The slight worry before continued to swell and turned into fear, he was afraid that something would happen to Gu Sizhi.Busy, he understood, but when Ye Shun approached Gu Sizhi, even if he didn't have time to reply at that time, Gu Sizhi would always find time to reply on that day, even if it was just a word.But this time, Ye Shun made so many calls, and after so long, he didn't receive any reply from him.Even if it's just a punctuation mark.

Gu Sizhi, what happened?

Ye Shun kept comforting himself, according to the schedule, Gu Sizhi should be back at noon today, anyway, it's only four or five hours away, maybe that guy has no time to go back because he's too busy finishing work?Or did he forget?A big man, are you afraid of losing it?

Reassuring himself repeatedly like this, the panic in Ye Shun's heart was reduced a lot.

After all, Gu Sizhi didn't come back, Ye Shun stared blankly at the table full of cold dishes.All the dishes on the table are Gu Sizhi's favorite.Ye Shun wanted to reward him, but Gu Sizhi didn't come back.

Fear swelled wildly, Ye Shun grabbed the phone and called Gu Sizhi repeatedly, but there was always a busy tone on the other end of the phone.

Gu Sizhi...

Gu Sizhi.

Gu Sizhi!

Why don't you answer the phone?What's wrong?What's wrong?

Ye Shun called a colleague in Gu Sizhi's unit, but he still couldn't get through.

The sky outside the window was dark, without a single star, it was so dark that it seemed to be swallowed by darkness.Ye Shun was startled, and quickly stood up and turned on all the lights in the house.The room was full of light, Ye Shun stood in the middle, but he still felt that the darkness was tight, and he couldn't explain the panic in his heart.

I want to Gu Sizhi.

want to see him.

I would love to see him.

But why hasn't he come back?

Ye Shun curled up the quilt and curled up on the sofa overnight, holding the phone tightly in his hand, for fear of missing a call about Gu Sizhi.

When the next day was slightly bright, the sound of the door opening woke up Ye Shun, who was in a light sleep.Ye Shun looked at the door, and slowly began to feel joy and anticipation in his heart.

Is Gu Sizhi back?

The moment the door was opened, Ye Shun saw the familiar corner of his clothes and confirmed who was coming back.

Gu Sizhi is back!

He breathed a sigh of relief, followed by questions and anger.This has never happened before, and Ye Shun doesn't know why, he cares so much about Gu Sizhi's "being late" this time, and his mood fluctuates like this.It was as if standing on the edge of a cliff precariously, and would fall if he didn't see Gu Sizhi.

Ye Shun got off the sofa, his legs and feet were very numb because he kept one posture for a long time, Ye Shun almost fell down, but fortunately he supported the back of the sofa.He looked at Gu Sizhi at the door, who approached step by step.When Gu Sizhi walked up to him and sat down on his own as if he didn't see him, Ye Shun found that the other person's face was full of depression and sadness, and the stubble had not been shaved.He just sat there quietly, without saying a word, his eyes were barren.He threw the suitcase in the porch, stumbling around.

Ye Shun was a little worried about him.Gu Sizhi like this made him feel very distant, powerless, and at a loss.He rarely saw Gu Sizhi like this.It should be said that he had never seen him like this.

What happened during the few days of business trip?

Ye Shun didn't know how to ask and comfort him, he was never good at doing such things.Seeing the food on the table, Ye Shun reckoned that Gu Sizhi probably didn't have breakfast so early, so he went to the kitchen to make him a breakfast.

Putting the noodles on the coffee table, Ye Shun called out to Gu Sizhi.During the time when he entered the kitchen, the other party slumped on the sofa as if he was powerless. With his eyes closed, Ye Shun could see the exhaustion on his face.

Maybe there is something wrong, Ye Shun thought.

Ye Shun didn't want to wake him up, and wanted him to take a good rest, but even if he wanted to rest, he had to fill his stomach.Ye Shun called him again, but Gu Sizhi still didn't respond.Ye Shun thought he was asleep, so he gave up on waking him up to eat, and went into the room to get a quilt to cover him.Ye Shun's quilt on the sofa last night was a little thin, and it was cold in the early morning, so he was afraid that Gu Sizhi would freeze.

When Ye Shun came out with the quilt in his arms, he heard a somewhat suppressed whine, which was clearly audible in the quiet room.He walked to the sofa and found that Gu Sizhi's face was full of pain and despair, and tears flowed from his closed eyes, wetting his face.

Gu Sizhi... crying?

After so long, Ye Shun has never seen Gu Sizhi cry.All along, Gu Sizhi was the kind of person who gritted his teeth and silently carried on even the saddest and most painful things. He was never a person who would show his vulnerable side.However, such Gu Sizhi actually cried, in front of him, so fragile and helpless.

Ye Shun panicked, he put the quilt on Gu Sizhi's body, asked him repeatedly what's the matter, comforted him not to cry, and told him something, but Gu Sizhi didn't respond as if he didn't hear, even He also refused to open his eyes.Ye Shun had no choice but to hug him, hoping to give him some warmth, and hoping that he would know that he was not alone.

Gu Sizhi clutched his heart tightly, whimpered, and said something fragmented in his mouth.Ye Shun approached him and listened carefully several times before he could discern what he said.

Gu Sizhi was calling him.

What he repeated was his name.

"I'm here, I'm here. Gu Sizhi, open your eyes and look at me, look at me, am I not here..." At the end, Ye Shun couldn't help crying.

Gu Sizhi, I'm here, why don't you look at me?

What happened to you?

What the hell happened?

You...don't cry...