sorry i left

Chapter 10

It has been five full days since the last diary incident. Five days ago, Su Qing took Qiu Yuqing back to her home, which is the residence of Su Zhenhua, the mayor of Su University.Su Qing's house didn't become extremely extravagant just because the male owner was the mayor, on the contrary, it was just better decorated than ordinary people's house. In a building of more than 100 square meters, the furniture is arranged in an orderly manner, which will not make outsiders feel humble.In addition, Su Qing's father should like to collect some antiques and the like.Because after Qiu Yuqing accepted Su Qing's invitation for the first time and came to this place that was much larger than her house, her first thought was to go around, when she went to Su Zhenhua's exclusive bedroom At a glance, I saw the antiques and antiques neatly arranged in a bookcase. At that time, Qiu Yuqing's mouth was so big that an egg could be stuffed into it. If Su Qing didn't just invite her to go out to play, Qiu Yuqing would probably stand there stupidly. until dark.At that time, she was still thinking, no wonder Su Qing didn't have a little airs of a young lady, it turned out to be hereditary.

But after reading someone's diary, Qiu Yuqing no longer had the heart to marvel at the exquisiteness of this house, instead, she was filled with endless sadness and discomfort.

When Su Qing came to her house with Qiu Yuqing, the other party had already changed from crying loudly to silent crying, with bottomless black eyes and a face without sadness or joy. Although the voice had stopped, but Tears continued to flow from the sockets of my eyes, and finally fell hard on the floor.This frightened Su Qing. She had never seen Qiu Yuqing in such a posture. In her heart, the three words Qiu Yuqing represented happiness, happiness, and a lot of positive energy. Will resolve with a smile.But now Qiu Yuqing gave people a feeling of powerlessness and frustration. She only felt that even the air had become sad.

Su Qing was so frightened that she could only hug the person in front of her tightly, wipe the tears from her eyes with her sleeve, and asked her again and again what was wrong and what happened.Qiu Yuqing didn't mean to make her anxious either, she told about what happened today and what happened three years ago without emotion, and Su Qing was listening carefully without interrupting.

The more the story went on, the more Qiu Yuqing cried, and Su Qing's anger became more and more intense in her stomach. At the end of the story, after Qiu Yuqing finished speaking, Su Qing rushed up, threatening to avenge Qiu Yuqing, and went to find him. What An Jiayue took revenge, and directly "accused" Qiu Yuqing that slapping her was too cheap, if she were herself, she would directly slap the other party all over the place.Later, it was Qiu Yuqing who hugged Su Qing tightly and refused to let her go.Qiu Yuqing knows this best friend of hers too well, Su Qing has always kept her word, and she will never agree to what she can't do, if she goes out of this door, Su Qing will really pick that person out and beat her up pause.

Now that she and An Jiayue have spoken, they won't go to her again.From then on, the two of them will be strangers on two parallel lines, and there will never be any intersection again.

Su Qing turned her head to look at this woman who was much taller than her. At this time, she was holding her tightly and crying, saying not to go, and the anger in Su Qing's heart gradually turned into distress.While greeting An Jiayue in his heart, he hugged Qiu Yuqing into his arms again, feeling the trembling body of the other party like a frightened bunny, the distress in his eyes gradually amplified, and finally turned into a heavy sigh, touching her He touched the soft long hair of the person in his arms to show comfort.

Qiu Yuqing told herself in her heart that even if that person doesn't like her, even if she falls in love with a mistake, even if the whole world abandons her, at least she still has her parents and Su Qing, as long as she has these people by her side, It is enough.

I used to think that you are my everything, and now I think so, but you are already my everything in the past.

After a while, the person in her arms slowly stopped crying and fell asleep in Su Qing's arms.Su Qing glanced at Qiu Yuqing, who was tired from crying, with slight tear stains on her face, she shook her head helplessly, laid Qiu Yuqing flat on her big bed, covered the quilt carefully, not sparing any part.Just as she was about to turn around and go out, Qiu Yuqing, who was sleeping soundly, grabbed her arm firmly, her brows that were originally stretched were tightly frowned, and she muttered something.Because the voice was too small, Su Qing didn't hear it, so she leaned over and brought her ear to her mouth. The next second after she heard it clearly, Su Qing's originally stretched eyebrows raised her eyebrows on her cute face like a doll. They converged in the middle because of the name Qiu Yuqing called out in her dream.

"Xiaoxia...don't go, don't go...please...Jiayue..."

Maybe everyone has lied, to relatives, to friends, to lovers.But I want to say that even if it is a person who has never said a word of truth, in the dream, what she said, the person she called, I think, we can believe without doubt.

Or maybe, people often only show their truest thoughts in their dreams.

Without hesitation, she took away the hand that grabbed her, and Su Qing walked out of the room without looking back.She didn't walk too far away from Qiu Yuqing, she just stood against the wall next to the door, crossed her arms, and looked ahead.After 10 minutes, as if thinking of something, he took out his mobile phone from his pocket, and dialed the number he had memorized by heart.

"Hello." A heavy man's voice sounded.

"Dad, I want to stay at a friend's house for a few days."

"how long."

"It won't be long. Something happened to her family. I'll go and stay with her."

"be careful."

"Oh, I see."

Looking at the hung up phone, Su Qing took a deep breath and let it out heavily.Her father also had such a harsh tone in front of his own daughter, so couldn't he be gentler, really.

Putting the phone back into her pocket, Su Qing closed her eyes, clenched her petite hands into two seemingly powerful fists, her thoughts gradually became clear, and the three names gradually became active in her mind.

An Jiayue, Xia Lingxuan, Han Wei.I don't care who you are, as long as you are bullying my Su Qing's friend, I will make you pay the corresponding price.

Only now did Su Qing realize how wise her original decision was.

Ever since I told Qiu Yuqing that he wanted to go to her house to take care of her for a few days, the latter didn't refuse, but just nodded blankly.Thus, Su Qing was successfully "promoted" from Qiu Yuqing's best friend to her "bodyguard" and "nanny".In the past five days, except for Qiu Yuqing who would come out for school and meals, the rest of the time she just locked herself in the room, doing nothing, just curled up on the edge of the bed with her legs crossed, and stared blankly ahead .

Su Qing has also seen Qiu Yuqing in such a daze many times. Although she will close the door every time she enters the house, she will not lock it. Gap in the room.Every time it comes into view, it will be like this, a girl with draped hair, doing nothing, just sitting quietly on the bed like a wronged child, without making a sound.

The first time, the second time, until Su Qing couldn't count the number of times Qiu Yuqing "greeted" her in this way, she got used to it over time.Su Qing doesn't know how to cook, but she will considerately go out and buy ready-made and nutritious breakfast and dinner for herself and Qiu Yuqing, and she will still knock on the door and tell the people in the house to come out for dinner, and then wait for the door to "voluntarily" open for herself , watching the girl who was much taller than me put on a happy skin, and said good morning and good afternoon to herself with a smile.Then I will eat with her, and no one will speak with a tacit understanding, and then I will hear that I am full, and then I will shut myself in a room like a cage.

When she was in school, Su Qing would be "promoted" to become a "bodyguard". Every day she would go to school and ask Qiu Yuqing to go with her, and would accompany her home after school.She still has that happy face, she still looks like a good student, she looks like a good girl, nothing seems to have changed, and she, Qiu Yuqing, will still be Su Qing's good best friend, good friend, and will still fight with her as usual Nao, laughing heartlessly.She is still the girl who will resolve everything with a smile no matter what she encounters.But when Su Qing stopped sleeping and playing games in class, and saw that the good student who used to desperately follow the teacher to take notes, now turned into a Qiu Yuqing who only rested her chin on her hands and stared at the blackboard in a daze, Su Qing knew that everything was wrong. It's changed, it's no longer the same.There will no longer be Qiu Yuqing who won't rest even on weekends by her side. Instead, she will be replaced by this seemingly lifeless her. What makes all this change is different from the usual people. It is undoubtedly Qiu Yuqing in her sleep. Shout out the name.

Yes, that's right, it's all her fault, the one named An Jiayue.Without her, how could Yuqing become like this?How could it be possible to turn a person who studied hard day and night just to get into a good university into a person who is as unmotivated as himself?An Jiayue, why are you so hateful?Aren't you already gone, why are you still coming back?Do you know how much you hurt her?Your skin is really not that thick.Now that you are back, then one day, I will ask you for all the sufferings and sins she has suffered now.

Many times, people tend to regard the ancient saying "hearing is believing, seeing is believing" as the truth, which is sacred and inviolable.But there are also things that seeing is not necessarily believing.I don't think what the ancients said is wrong, I just express my inner thoughts.Some things, you will not find its real material until you go around to the other end of it, just like seeing a small durian candy, which looks bright and bright on the outside, but the real taste will definitely make a lot of people feel uncomfortable. People refresh the record of taste buds.

"Qiu Yuqing, Qiu Yuqing!" In Class One and Three of Experimental High School, a female teacher with shoulder-length hair and a perfect figure wanted to ask Qiu Yuqing, a top student, to answer a question, but unexpectedly no one answered after calling out. She raised her head in doubt, and what she saw was Qiu Yuqing who was in a daze with her hands on her head, and she didn't even hear herself calling her.In a rage, he patted the table and squeezed out these three words again with his teeth, which made other students feel cold all over.

Reverse reverse reverse reverse!Even the good students don't attend the lectures anymore, will there still be teaching after that?

Seeing that the teacher was angry, Chen Xin, Qiu Yuqing's deskmate, immediately pushed her arm. The latter came back to his senses as if waking up from a dream. Seeing that most of the students in the front row turned their heads to look at him, naturally There was also Su Qing who cast a caring look, and then looked at the teacher who was supporting her body with her arms and stared at her like a torch, as if she wanted to pierce a hole out of her body.

In an instant, Qiu Yuqing became the focus of the whole class.

Standing up reflexively, she looked at the teacher on the podium with a confused face, as if telling her, I was slipping away just now, what did you say?After a while, the female teacher saw that Qiu Yuqing showed no sign of saying anything, and she was afraid of delaying the time of other students, so she sighed and told her not to leave after school, then let her sit down, and continued to talk about her future. finished course.

"Hey, Yuqing, I see that you haven't attended much class these days, and you start to be in a daze almost as soon as you start class, what happened?" As soon as Qiu Yuqing's butt fell on the chair, Chen Xin immediately came over and asked she asked.

"It's okay. Maybe it's because I've been studying a little late these days. It's okay." Qiu Yuqing explained to her with a smile. As usual, she couldn't see any flaws.

"Okay, okay." Chen Xin replied with an expression that I knew.

"Ah."

Feeling a bunch of scorching eyes looking at her, Qiu Yuqing turned her head and looked forward. The episode just now did not attract too many people's attention. The head teacher was still lecturing on the podium, and the students should Listen when you should, sleep when you should, without disturbing each other.There was only one girl who was supposed to be sleeping or playing games, because of some of her personal incidents, she was silently looking at her at this time, with a worry on her face that couldn't be concealed no matter how hard she tried.

Give the other party a smile that I'm fine and I'm fine, until Su Qing turned her head with some reluctance, and faced her again with short black hair, Qiu Yuqing slowly put away her smile and continued to be in a daze.

Only Su Qing knew how far-fetched Qiu Yuqing's smile seemed to her just now.

At eight o'clock in the evening, the school bell rang on time.Every day at this time, the students of the Experimental High School are as if they have been beaten into chicken blood. Those who study well, those who study poorly, and those who have been lying limply on the table for the last second, there are students who will never get up if they die After hearing the bell, he immediately jumped up, packed his schoolbag and left, fleeing from school like the plague.This is not spectacular. If you look downstairs from the upstairs window during school hours, the scene, to use Auntie Song Dandan's words, is quite spectacular.

Quite different from others, Qiu Yuqing packed her schoolbag and put on her coat without any haste, without any expression in her movements, her eyes inadvertently caught Su Qing, who was as unhurried as she was, at this moment Su Qing just raised her head, The two happened to meet each other, looked at Qiu Yuqing who was expressionless, Su Qing strode towards her without hesitation, and said to her in a voice that only the two of them could hear, "I'll wait for you outside ".Seeing that the latter just nodded dumbly, Su Qing turned and walked out the door helplessly.

"Qiu Yuqing, come here." A shrill voice sounded in the classroom. Qiu Yuqing looked at the head teacher who was already sitting on the office chair waiting for her, and walked over helplessly.

In the classroom, a student and a teacher, one standing and one sitting, face to face.Other than that, there is no one else.

"Qiu Yuqing, it's not that the teacher is specifically picking on you. It's because you've been sneaking around too much these past few days. Several teachers have told me about your situation. You saw it today, and I called you twice. You just heard it, what are you thinking in your heart? Thinking that you don’t even have to listen to the class? You are also ranked among the best in the class, and the teacher is also very optimistic about you. As long as you work harder, you will definitely be admitted to a good school. University, isn't that why you've been studying so hard for the past few years? Also, I don't know what happened to you, but I want to say that if it's just some trivial things, I hope you don't let these things disturb your mind Learning, after all, there is nothing more important than a person's future except life."

"Mr. Zhang, don't worry, I won't delay my study because of some insignificant things. I understand what you said, and I know that you are doing it for my own good. I also want to understand, today's matter is just Take it as a lesson for me, starting from next Monday, I will definitely return to the Qiu Yuqing who listened to the class well, and nothing similar to today will happen again. I am sorry to make you worry." After finishing speaking, Qiu Yuqing She bowed heavily to that teacher Zhang to represent her determination.

"Oh, it's good if you can understand. I just don't want to see a good seedling who has studied so degenerate. It's getting late. You can go home and don't let the family worry." With a demeanor, he replied with a smile.

"Well, then teacher, I will go first."

"Be careful on the road."

As soon as Qiu Yuqing went out, she met Su Qing's worried face, feeling guilty all of a sudden.Qiu Yuqing, Qiu Yuqing, if you are still wasting your time with such an unexamined attitude every day, first of all, I am sorry for your parents. They have already left their hometowns and went to other places in order to save enough money for you to go to college. What you are willing to wear is just to make your life better.Secondly, it should be Su Qing standing in front of you. If you can't cheer up quickly and become the same as usual, you will feel sorry for her these days because of you. You buy food, accompany you to school, and now you are so worried about you.

However, Su Qing.Why don't I want to forget it, but I can't bear it!That's the person I've loved for three years. If I could let it go, I'd have forgotten it three years ago, and I wouldn't be in such a mess even if I knew she was a woman...

After reorganizing her emotions and walking over, Su Qing spoke before her.

"Yuqing, let me take you home first. My dad called me this morning. He was very angry at me for not coming home for so many days. I could tell that he must be very angry at that time, so... ..."

"It's okay, you go home, don't worry about me, it's not without reason that uncle is angry, it's not safe for a girl to live outside, I'm fine, really."

Early this morning, before the sky was fully lit, Su Qing received "greetings" from Su Zhenhua, and these greetings were undoubtedly about when you will come back, how is your friend, how are you going these few days Okay, although the voice on the other end of the phone has been suppressed, Su Qing can still hear something is wrong.In the end, he directly said what you want to say, Su Zhenhua didn't hide it, after all, he is the mayor, and he still can't lose his dignity, so he simply said, either come back from school tonight, or never come back.Then, regardless of Su Qing's reaction, she hung up the phone without any regrets.Although Su Qing looks fearless on the outside, she still has a little fear of her father who is so tough and unreasonable.

"Then... let's go, I'll take you home." Seeing that she was interrupted by Qiu Yuqing before she finished speaking, instead of being angry, the worry on Su Qing's face deepened.

Alas, my best friend is good at everything, but she is a little too kind. She always thinks of others, no matter how bitter she is in her heart, she doesn't say anything.Just like last time, if I hadn't inadvertently asked about her family's situation, I might never have known that Qiu Yuqing's life was much more difficult than that of her second generation official.

In fact, Su Qing has mentioned more than once that she wants to help Qiu Yuqing, whether it is in terms of life or economy, after all, she has a father who is the mayor, and in this society, it depends on personal connections. The owner of money and power?Although her father is a bit dignified and a little unreasonable, but no matter what, she is her own daughter.When he gets old and reaches the age of retirement, won't the money, the position of mayor and so on, all have to be managed by Su Qing, the only child?As long as Su Qing opens her mouth, it shouldn't be difficult to find a good job for Qiu Yuqing's parents again.But Qiu Yuqing, a stubborn girl, refused to accept Su Qing's kindness no matter what she said, she said that she must rely on her own hard work to make money, and she must never go through the back door, etc. Su Qing was so angry that she vomited blood on the spot. The ancestral grave went up.Qiu Yuqing, Qiu Yuqing, are you stupid?Now that the society is so realistic, if you don’t go through the back door to make your life better, it is equivalent to leaving the good life to others.

Shaking his head helplessly, he retracted his thoughts that hadn't drifted too far, took Qiu Yuqing's slightly cold hand, turned around and walked out the door.

Speechless all the way.

"Then I'll go back first, Su Qing, thank you for taking care of me these few days, and being a nanny and bodyguard, thank you." When she got downstairs, Qiu Yuqing turned her head and said this to Su Qing Although the latter was somewhat at a loss for what to say, he managed to cover it up and was not discovered.

"Oh, what are you being polite about? There's no need to say thank you just because of our relationship. It's windy outside, so you go upstairs." Su Qing returned to her previous appearance again, and touched Qiu Yuqing with her arm indecently. , beckoning her to go up, but the other party just gave her a smile back, moved away and walked forward.

"Yuqing." The familiar voice came from behind again, Qiu Yuqing didn't turn around, but stopped and turned her back to Su Qing, waiting for her next words.

"I hope you are well."

Sometimes, a word from a person will poke all your tears inexplicably.

I hope you are well, I hope you are well, Su Qing, why don't I want to live a good life?Go to school every day, listen to lectures in class, play with you after class, and then get admitted to a good university, living up to my parents' expectations of me.Work, marriage, and a simple life for the rest of my life, why don't I want it?But now, the appearance of that person has broken the life I had planned long ago.I don't want to make my parents sad, and I don't want to let the teacher down, which means I have to forget her, as if she never came to my world.Only then can my life get back on track.

However, it has been three years, and the person who lied to me for three years has taken root in my heart, and it is firmly rooted in it. Only when I die can I completely forget her in my world and never remember her again.

"I've always had a good life." Yes, before I met her, I had a good life.

The pupils dilated rapidly at a speed visible to the naked eye, and he looked helplessly at the girl who turned her back to him. It could not be considered that the wide back was covered by the orange-red down jacket, and the streamlined ponytail was tied up high, creating a Such a perfect Qiu Yuqing.Sometimes Su Qing even felt that such a beautiful and optimistic girl should be spotless and intact no matter in terms of family, friendship, or love.Because this is the only way to be worthy of this person, but the reality is always so unsatisfactory. Except for friendship, God is always like a child, naughty and hesitant to complete the remaining two.

Looking up at the window of the house in front of me, it was pitch black, with no light in sight, as if there were countless demons living there, waiting to spew out the moment the door opened, threatening to never come to this unpopular house again .If it were an adult, living alone in a house, with only himself every day, and letting the darkness swallow him up at night, I am afraid that no matter how good the psychological quality is, he would not be able to bear the loneliness and complain a few words.

Qiu Yuqing, you are just a freshman in high school and a minor, how did you do these things that perhaps even adults can't do?At least, you should complain, or maybe, you have no reason to bear these at all.

Footsteps sounded behind him, unhurriedly.Then someone patted him on the shoulder, as if to comfort him.After a while, when the footsteps sounded again and slowly faded away until they could no longer be heard or seen again, Qiu Yuqing finally understood a truth that should have been understood a long time ago.

Some things are destined to be borne by yourself, and no one can help you.

A few minutes after Su Qing left, Qiu Yuqing did not go directly upstairs to go home, but re-integrated into the dark night, walking blindly on the street alone.

where to?She didn't know where to go either.She just didn't want to go back home, no one, just herself and an empty house all day.There is no one to take care of you when you are sick, no one to comfort you when you are sad, and even when you are tired from studying, there is no one to have a cup of boiling water.Can such a home still be considered a home?In the past few years, in order not to worry her parents, she has done enough. She is really fed up. She just wants to go home every day and have a table of cooked meals waiting for her and her parents to accompany her. Is the request too much? If not too much, why can't it be realized?

He stopped suddenly, and stood alone in the middle of the road with dull eyes. At this time, the nightlife had just begun, and the pedestrians on the road were almost the same as during the day.Obviously there are so many people, but Qiu Yuqing feels as if she is the only one left in the world, so quiet, she is the only one wandering in the street, no one cares, no one asks, there is nothing, only herself.

Finally, the plot of bloody blood appeared.A truck was galloping on the road, and the route happened to be where Qiu Yuqing was standing. It might be because it was night, and most drivers wanted to drive faster so that they could go home as soon as possible. In addition, it was winter. If there was no urgent matter, some homeless people would I won't go out in the cold.Perhaps it is for these reasons that many drivers have paid a heavy price for their "as soon as possible".Seeing that she was about to hit her with more than 100 meters away, Qiu Yuqing didn't dodge, but smiled. The driver also found a person in the middle of the road and desperately honked the horn and stepped on the brakes.It seems that because of the snow, the ground is slippery, and I drove fast before, and the brakes didn't work.

This is the end, no more headaches because of studying, no need to go back to face the cold house, Su Qing doesn't need to move here to take care of herself because she is worried about something happening to her, and her parents don't need to go out to work for herself, everything should be It's like this, if I die, all people don't have to be shackled because of me, they should all live happily, it should be like this... An Jiayue... Hehe, why? Will think of her, she should wish that she disappears forever, never appear in front of her.Well, that's not bad, at least there won't be someone named Qiu Yuqing bothering her anymore, she can go to school with Han Wei, Cheng Yiqian and the others, go to school together, leave school together, go shopping together... I didn't expect to solve a problem for her. Big trouble, haha!

Everything was so beautiful, she told herself, she shouldn't destroy it...

At this moment, Qiu Yuqing had put down everything, closed her eyes, and quietly waited for the invitation from the god of death...

She can even hear the sound of the truck speeding towards her...

She's not afraid, she's not afraid at all, really...

She's just, a little bit reluctant to let her...

What if she hadn't found her diary...

Maybe, she will continue to hide it, watching her jokes...

also possible……

Forget it, that's it...

What a boring life...

"An Jiayue!!!"

Um?What?

boom! ! !

The screeching sound of emergency braking, the screams and onlookers of passers-by, and Qiu Yuqing's completely collapsed world, all unfolded in the air unsuspectingly on this winter night.

If I love someone, I can give up everything for her, including my life.