silent you

Chapter 11 1. I don't know

On the day of the parent-teacher meeting, my mother arrived half an hour early as scheduled.

Gu Xia ran towards his mother with a slight smile, not hiding his good mood at all.

In recent years, my mother hardly wears makeup except for important and necessary occasions.

But she dressed up carefully for his little parent meeting.

The cold beauty who was so famous in the whole school back then was still radiant and elegant.

As soon as it appeared, it attracted the attention of most people in the class.

What's more, she was accompanied by a tall and handsome young man.

Well-dressed and well-behaved, on the surface he looks personable and gentle—Lin Yan.

The smile on Gu Xia's face remained the same, his eyes were curved, he first said hello to his mother, then pretended to be casual, and greeted Lin Yan.

Lin Yan smiled like a spring breeze, and nodded in response.

A harmonious scene of brotherhood and friendship.

Gu Xia walked in to meet her mother, pretending to introduce her the situation in the class, and deliberately ignored Lin Yan who was following behind them.

Lin Yan smiled slightly, and gave Gu Xia a meaningful look.

Whether Jiang Pei wears a school uniform or not is very random.

He didn't wear it today.

Dressed in black clothes and trousers, with a tall and slender figure, cold eyes, and a sharp and sharp temperament, he stood on the edge of their seats, unmoved by foreign objects.

Therefore, when Mother Xia entered the classroom, Jiang Pei was the first to notice among all kinds of people coming and going.

Seeing that Gu Xia led her there at this time, he felt a little surprised, and asked knowingly, "Who is he?"

The predestined classmate who has been at the same table with Xia Xia for three years does not look like the "kind" person who is willing to help others in Xia Xia's mouth.

Gu Xia first glanced at Jiang Pei quietly, pursed her lips, and then pretended to be nonchalant and said to her mother - my deskmate, Jiang Pei.

So my mother's expression remained unchanged, and she smiled and said, "I finally saw myself."

No wonder.

A good son has grown up, but he doesn't tell his sweetheart.

I will hide it from my mother.

Gu Xia's sexuality is not a secret to Gu's mother, even before Gu Xia herself is aware of it, Gu's mother has seen the clues early.

So one night, when her son, whom she brought up with one hand, knocked on her door with nervous eyes, there was no surprise on her face.

After Guxia broke down a sentence into three sentences and finished stumbling, she stroked his hair as usual, said "Mom respects the baby", and told him to go to rest.

Seeing that her mother was so calm and composed, Xia Xia was worried all night, tossing and turning, unable to sleep all night.

When I woke up the next morning, my eyes were still red.

Mom really didn't care, and while she was having breakfast, she handed over the materials she had prepared in advance to Gu Xia.

It is not objection, nor interference.

Not to mention disgust, incredible.

Instead, he told Gu Xia in a normal tone that it is normal to like boys, even though most boys like girls, it doesn't mean that he is wrong, and he doesn't have to worry about it.

At the same time, he unabashedly reminded him of the various unequal situations and unfair treatment he might encounter in his later life.

Some people agree, and some people discriminate.

If someone respects, someone will abuse.

Some people don't care about it.

Some people will avoid it like a scourge.

If you are wronged, unhappy, or uncomfortable, just tell your mother, and your mother will help Xiaxia solve everything, but don't retaliate in private, let alone hate.

Later, Gu Xia often thought that if he had not received the maximum tolerance and love from his mother, he would not have had the courage and determination to pursue Jiang Pei.

As for why he didn't tell his mother about him and Jiang Pei——

At first I didn't realize that I fell in love with it, and then I finally realized it. It has been years and months, and there is no exact time to mention.

Gu Xia looked as usual, and introduced each other for her mother and Jiang Pei respectively.

At this time, Lin Yan had already gone to look at the grade rankings posted at the back of the class.

Therefore, Xia secretly breathed a sigh of relief. If he can deal with Lin Yan less, it is the purpose and principle he has always followed.

Even though Lin Yan specially asked him out privately during the New Year's Day holiday, and told him sincerely that he beat him up in a hurry, framed him in various ways, and made fun of him, but he was too young and ignorant to accept his own His father suddenly had another woman, and that woman had a dumb child with him, that's why he made those unforgivable mistakes.

He doesn't expect Gu Xia to forgive him, but he hopes that Gu Xia can accept his apology and promise not to do it again in the future.

From the three days when they hung out together to now, he has indeed done it, even with very little verbal offense and impoliteness, it seems like a different person.

But Gu Xia didn't believe a word, and instead became more wary of him.

The country is easy to change, but the nature is hard to change. How can a beast who is used to eating raw meat and seeing blood retract its sharp claws and become a vegetarian.

——Gu Xia’s feeling is not wrong.

Lin Yan's temporary departure was not because he was suddenly interested in these test scores that had nothing to do with him and seemed meaningless to him.

Rather, his face was so gloomy that it was uncontrollable.

Gu Xia thought that she had covered it up very well, but she didn't know that the casual look just now had already told the caring person everything.

He likes that boy, very much.

Lin Yan stared at the thin piece of paper stuck in front of his eyes, burning with anger, his teeth clenched together so tightly that he was about to bleed.

To him, Guxia is a toy that can never be broken in the distant rebellious and inextricable youth, a twig that can't be broken no matter what, and clean water that tries to get dirty with all its strength.

Before his mother passed away, she spent a whole year on the sick bed.

To the end of his life he was thinking of the man he called his father.

But what about him.

The bones of the deceased wife were not cold, and half a year later they remarried.

He wishfully hated that cold and cold woman, and even took care of her innocent child with a disability who was taken care of by her side.

The little boy loves his mother eagerly, believes in what he hears, and also has the narrow-minded, assertive and arrogant personality since he was a child. He can't see through the cruel truth that is buried behind the obvious appearance and has been waiting for many years.

Until now, the face of the birth mother in the memory is gradually blurred, and all the relevant details have been erased by time, only the strong and surging hatred that has accumulated continuously has been accumulated throughout half of his life, burning more and more intensely, until at a certain moment, it completely started a prairie fire.

"Hi, may I ask if you are Gu Xia's brother, can you show me my grades..."

A sweet voice beside him asked timidly.

Lin Yan came back to his senses, smiled, apologized politely, gave up the space in a very gentlemanly manner, walked slowly, and walked towards Gu Xia at a leisurely pace.

The girl looked stunned, turned her head away, her eyes subconsciously followed the leaving figure.

Recalling the man's frightening and angry eyes and the instant change of expression in his mind, his body trembled uncontrollably, and a little fear and uneasiness surged in his heart for no reason.

Therefore, the mother chatted with Jiang Pei seemingly casually but tentatively. On the surface, she was calm, but she reluctantly admitted in her heart that her son's discerning eye was still passable.

The boy is not very old, but his style is calm, neither humble nor overbearing, he speaks and behaves well, he is a rare mature child.

Not as sharp-edged as he looks.

But that's all, Gu's mother has read countless people, and she thinks she hasn't found anything special about Jiang Pei that can make Gu Xia fall in love with her.

I can only be sure that it is true that my son likes others.

The person who could sit quietly and study for a whole day without moving, is now pulling her clothes frequently, and trying to change the topic over and over again.

Lest the powerful mother bully the other party.

Not much better, the elbow turned outward.

Gu's mother was angry and funny, and was planning to end the conversation with the child as Gu Xia wished.

But Lin Yan who didn't know when to come back, stood behind said in a deep voice: "This is?"

Gu Xia frowned imperceptibly, pursed his lips and ignored.

So my mother turned around and glanced at Lin Yan, and said lightly, "Xia Xia's tablemate."

Lin Yan had a proper smile on his face, whether intentionally or not, he took a step forward, placing his strong arms against Gu Xia's body.

Jiang Pei stood opposite the three of them, his expression and posture unchanged.

Lin Yan glanced at Jiang Pei casually, and said inexplicably, "Oh? So it's the same table, no wonder my aunt chatted with him for so long, but I thought he was Xia Xia's good friend."

Not everyone can understand Gu Xia like Gu Mama and Jiang Pei.

Since he couldn't speak since he was a child, it is naturally much more difficult to communicate with others.

So even if he looks good, has a good personality, and has good grades, he doesn't have any good friends to bring home.

Lin Yan is specifically poking at people's painful spots.

So my mother withdrew her gaze, without changing her face, and said neither salty nor indifferent: "Three years at the same table, we can be regarded as good friends."

Without saying a word, Jiang Pei glanced at Gu Xia calmly, and then looked at Lin Yan's eyes, a clear chill slowly condensed.

Gu Xia lowered his eyelids seemingly calmly, and his dense long eyelashes well concealed the changing emotions in his eyes.

He is very uncomfortable now, but he can't show it, so he can only endure it secretly.

Originally, he, his mother, and Jiang Pei were standing by the side of the aisle, and they still felt very spacious and comfortable.

Now that there is only one more Lin Yan, he feels that it is difficult to breathe and it is extremely crowded.

Gu Xia couldn't help stretching out her hand, and gently pushed her mother, with a soft and sweet smile on her face, beckoning her to sit down and rest for a while.

At the same time, she said silently, Mom, let me get you a glass of water.

Gu's mother naturally wouldn't brush her son's face, raised her hand and patted Gu Xia's hair, and sat down obediently.

"Thank you baby."

Gu Xia smiled softly again, and was about to leave when Jiang Pei turned his body and said to him expressionlessly: "Gu Xia, who is he?"

Gu Xia's footsteps paused, and he raised his hands to make gestures to him.

— is my half-brother.

Gu's mother raised her eyebrows slightly in surprise, she didn't expect Gu Xia to speak so straightforwardly without concealing it.

Jiang Pei nodded as expected: "I see."

This time, Gu's mother was even more surprised - before she opened her mouth to explain for Gu Xia, the boy in front of her already knew what he meant.

Lin Yan's complexion was a bit ugly - although he could guess what Gu Xia was talking about, he couldn't understand Gu Xia's gestures.

Gu's mother is familiar with all of Gu Xia's sign languages, so she didn't realize that the gestures that Gu Xia used just now are not conventional expressions.

Even Gu Xia himself didn't realize that when he answered Jiang Pei's question, he subconsciously chose the least common and most difficult hand gestures.

——He didn't want Lin Yan to know what he said to Jiang Pei.

Jiang Pei understood it, and noticed it.

He raised his eyes coldly, staring at Lin Yan for a moment, and the aura around him suddenly underwent some earth-shaking changes.

Sharp and cold, imposing.

"Gu Xia and I are better than ordinary classmates. He will basically say a word or two to me about anything that happens in his life."

Lin Yan's eyes changed, guessing what he was going to say next.

Jiang Pei twitched his lips coldly: "But I've never heard him mention it. He also has an elder brother. I think it's not because Gu Xia is ignorant and deliberately concealed it, but because my elder brother is usually too busy and doesn't have much time to care about my younger brother."

The nominal elder brother who has been absent for three years has no right to mock Gu Xia's life secretly and point fingers.

Gu Xia looked at Jiang Pei's side face and opened his eyes a little bit.

He tried his best to restrain himself, not wanting to reveal more emotions.

But my heart is about to explode.

The smile that rose from the corner of his lips couldn't be suppressed, it was silent and bright.

So my mother smiled unceremoniously at the same time, and looked at Jiang Pei with interest in her arms, thinking, she had missed her.

When this kid talked to her, he obviously hid a lot.

Now it's finally time to see the truth.

Jiang Pei could naturally sense the gazes of Gu Xia and Gu's mother.

He stared at Lin Yan expressionlessly, and said coldly: "Besides, Gu Xia has a lot of good friends now, not just me. You might as well learn more—if you understand."

Lin Yan's face was cloudy and cloudy, and the ruthless emotion in his eyes flashed past. After three or four seconds, his face returned to normal, and he smiled slowly: "Of course, I will naturally take care of Xia Xia's matter." of--"

After that, he turned around with a sullen face and strode away, not knowing where he was going.

Gu's mother smiled, stretched out her hand and patted the back of Gu Xia's hand.

"Baby, is Mom's water still enough to drink?"

Gu Xia suddenly turned her head, her eyes were bright, as if filled with thousands of stars in the dark night.

He froze for a second, then looked at his mother with regret and sweetness, smiled and nodded.

Before leaving, he glanced at Jiang Pei quickly, then turned around and ran to the podium, took a disposable water cup, and went to the office to fetch boiling water.

So my mother sighed faintly.

Guaibao is a fan of the authorities, but she is clear to the bystanders.

There are many good friends, not just me.

Intentionally or unintentionally, they are already drawing a clear line in disguise.

Jiang Pei nodded at Jiang's mother: "Auntie, please do yourself, I will..."

So my mother smiled and said, "Listen to me if you have time?"

"Soon, before Xia Xia comes back."

Jiang Pei assumed a listening attitude: "Of course."

So mother smiled, and said slowly: "Xia Xia is lucky to meet you, he likes you, you have feelings for him... after all."

The tit-for-tat defense just now was just because Lin Yan said something that didn't hurt.

Jiang Pei's eyes changed slightly, and he immediately denied it: "Auntie was joking, we are all boys..."

So my mother looked calm, and interrupted gently: "Xia Xia's eyes can't deceive anyone, and neither can yours."

I have to say that Gu's mother's expression is very similar to Gu Xia's, or in other words, Gu Xia is very similar to his mother.

Jiang Pei frowned tightly and said nothing.

So my mother smiled slightly when she saw this, and put her hands together in front of the table, her posture was elegant and generous.

Rao Jiang Pei was used to seeing his mother's demeanor, so he had to admit that Xia's mother was much taller than his mother.

"You don't have to worry too much. I fully respect Xia Xia's choice. I won't interfere with whoever he likes, let alone yours."

"By the way, what you may think is incompatible with the world, to me, is just a normal small probability event."

Jiang Pei was silent for a moment, then slowly said: "You are very open-minded, so Xia is lucky to have a mother like you."

Gu's mother is noncommittal about this - for her, Gu Xia is her luck, even though he was different since he was a child.

Obviously she was sitting and Jiang Pei was standing, but the initiative of the conversation was always in her hands.

"From the short conversation between Lin Yan, Xia Xia's brother in name, and me just now, you can accurately judge the relationship between the three of us, and quickly respond correctly to it, which shows that you are a Observant, intelligent and calm child."

"Don't refute me specifically, this is the truth, don't be humble."

"Therefore, I guess you're not the one who would push Xia Xia away because of the flimsy reason of 'same sex shouldn't be together'—"

"I'm sorry, Xia Xia is coming back soon, please allow me to finish at once, before that, I need you to tell me—"

So my mother raised her eyelids, her eyes were soft and firm, and said slowly: "Tell me, yes or no."

Jiang Pei paused, and finally said: "...Yes."

So my mother looked slightly relaxed, and smiled faintly——

"Then here comes the question. You obviously like Xia Xia, but you refuse to admit it or accept it. Why?"

So my mother smiled and added: "If you didn't realize it before, then now, I have told you."

Jiang Pei's brows showed no signs of loosening, and he asked in a deep voice, "Then why did Auntie ask me this question?"

Therefore, my mother's smile remained the same, and her voice was very steady: "I'm just doing my duty as a mother—you know, Xia Xia's situation is a bit special, and I must be cautious about his matters."

Jiang Pei lowered his eyes quietly, wondering what he was thinking.

So my mother said softly: "Sorry, I didn't intend to pry into your privacy. If you feel offended, I can apologize to you again, but please tell me the truth, this will determine my attitude towards this matter."

It's all about this.

If you hide it any more, you will feel a little ignorant.

At this moment, Jiang Pei was slightly lost in thought.

It turns out that not all mothers are the same as his mother.

It turned out that the care he received was less than one-thousandth of what Gu Xia's mother gave Gu Xia.

He was silent and did not speak.

So my mother is not in a hurry or impatient, and waits patiently.

It seems like a long time.

It seems that it hasn't been long.

He finally spoke.

The voice was low and authentic: "...I don't know."

So my mother stared blankly: "What?"

She actually heard it clearly, which is why she was so stunned.

The answer turned out to be unclear.

Jiang Pei didn't speak any more.

Instead, he stared at the empty seat next to his old mother.

Recalling the night of the cultural performance in my mind.

At the end of the game, Gu Xia said those four words to him.

The expression is gentle and open, and the eyes are serious.

His mood is the same as now.

Distraught, at a loss.

Back home, I sat in my room overnight.

I saw Gu Xia the next day.

Still treat him as a tablemate.

As usual, there is no need to see clearly.

So my mother turned her head following Jiang Pei's gaze.

His eyes flickered slightly.

There are less than 5 minutes before the parent meeting begins.

But the person who should be sitting in this seat has not appeared for a long time.

So my mother sighed slightly, her eyes were a little complicated.

If possible, who wants to be young and precocious, ruthless and absolute.

Being a child is no better than being an adult.

Those four words just now are probably the limit for this child.

If I ask again, I can't find anything.

She raised her hand and rubbed her forehead, deciding to end the conversation.

Turning to look at Jiang Pei, he was about to speak.

But he didn't know when he was staring at something through the glass.

The child's mother or father is coming.

So my mother followed his gaze again and looked away.

But in the next second, he was firmly on the seat.

Probably because the parent meeting is about to start.

The wide corridor was empty.

Parents took their seats in the classroom one after another, while the children stood in twos and threes at the back of the classroom, ready to listen.

Gu Xia came from the end of the long corridor, holding a paper cup between her slender and white fingers, and her pace was a bit hasty.

His expression was cautious, gentle and meticulous.

She seemed to hear Jiang Pei whispering.

"...Old Summer."

Very light very light.

Like a sound.

A sigh blown away by the wind.