that boy said he loves me

Chapter 20 Donation on a whim

Xiaoxing told me online that day that he wanted to donate bone marrow. I don't know why he suddenly had such an idea. Donating bone marrow is actually not harmful to the body, but it takes a while to recover.

Even if there is not too much harm, it will have a certain impact on my body. I insisted that I don't want him to donate. He told me that he was just talking, not necessarily donating.

I said that if you really want to go, then I have to accompany you, in case something happens, it would be good if there is someone nearby to take care of you.

I imagined that one day Xiaoxing would donate bone marrow, and I would take care of him in the hospital. Then he told me that he wanted to eat the rice noodles next to the school, and he wanted the one next to the school. He wanted more spicy food. vinegar.

He didn't like to eat other people's food, so he begged me pitifully.

Thinking about it makes me feel happy, will he pout his lips hypocritically and let me feed him, will he say that the skin of the apple is too thick and let me peel it for him to eat?

I don't know. I really don't know. With his character, he shouldn't, but I hope he does.He always says I'm stupid, and I like when he says I'm stupid.

When I go to his house, I always don't let him do anything, and he will always say, whose house is this going to!

I said I can't do more for your family.Xiao Xing seemed to know that my feelings for him were not just between friends and brothers, but he never said it, and he never pierced this layer of window paper.

We are tacit to each other, but we enjoy the feeling of happiness brought by each other, which is a bit like Zhou Yu's willingness to beat Huang Gai and suffer.

It would be somewhat hypocritical for two boys to stick together all day long.

But who cares about these!

As long as each other is happy, I will sometimes ask Xiaoxing, "Will you be sad when I die?"

Every time he replies to me, "it's okay, don't talk nonsense".But I just want to ask him, in fact, I really want to ask him "Have you ever loved me?"

I didn't dare to say it when I got to my lips, and I didn't dare to ask this sentence on the day of my death.I asked Xiaobu that day, would you be sad if I died?

Xiao Bu told me without reservation that "he will cry to death".I also asked casually, and he just answered casually.

It is not a principled substantive issue, but is treated with a playful attitude.

☆, 20

I don't know why my nose and ears are bleeding very frequently recently. The doctor said that my platelets are poor.

After a period of observation, I may have to be hospitalized for treatment. This result was actually something I had expected a long time ago.

But I didn't tell my family or my friends, and I didn't even mention Xiaoxing.

There is also my boyfriend "Xiaobu". Since the day we broke up, Xiaobu has come to see me again. Now we have become a couple again. It is airtight, and there is no room for a little gap.

Xiaobu is a handsome guy, a little childish. I love and hate him, and he walks around me like a "little angel" every day.

Now I start to like him a little bit, it is completely different from the feeling at the beginning, he once said that there is no feeling of falling in love with me, after a long time of tempering, I also have some feelings towards Xiao Xing towards him

I feel it, this may be what people often say "love with each passing day"!

Besides, Xiaobu is indeed the type of boy I like.

Cute and machismo, hypocritical and arrogant, I want to center on him, he is the sun, I want to revolve around him, if I

If you show him some attention, he will be very happy, and he will do what I ask him to do, the calf is called a "slip".

He often taps my forehead and says I'm stupid, but in fact I think he's so stupid!

It's just that there is a little more tenderness in this stupidity.

I was lying in the hospital on an IV drip, and Xiaobu was lying on my bedside and fell asleep. I looked at his pink face with an imperceptible smile.

Maybe Xiaobu feels that he is happy at this moment, just like I once thought that Xiaoxing would take care of him after donating his bone marrow.

Does Xiaobu feel the same now as I did then?

What a blessing to be able to take care of the people you love.

I tap the corner of his mouth and the guy is drooling again.

He woke up and wiped the corner of his mouth, I said I woke you up!

He didn't seem to have reacted, he wiped the corner of his mouth with his cuff, and said, "It costs 980 just for this rag." It seems that the "good" in front of him hasn't woken up yet!

Sleep is so good, it is said that heartless people sleep well, this is true.

Turning my head, the old man went back to sleep. The nurse came to help me change the fluid and said, "Where's your family?" I made a "shh" gesture.

Tell him in a low voice "I didn't tell my family, they don't know I'm sick".

The nurse said softly, "He's your brother, he's so handsome." I said, "Well, everyone says we look alike," but I didn't say he wasn't my brother.

When it was almost five o'clock, Xiao Bu woke up and said that he would go out to buy food for me and told me to be back in a while.

At this time, there was no one in the ward. Director Gao of the Hematology Department came in and gave me a "death sentence". He said, "If your current situation is good, you still have half a year at most. If it is not good..." He asked me what I planned to do. Tell the family?

I shook my head, as tears welled up from the corners of my eyes.

I was choked up and couldn't say a word, my whole body was shaken by the horror after the trial, I was depressed and uncomfortable, I couldn't believe what happened before me was real, I hoped it was a dream, the dream woke me up

Then he became the "lively and alive" Xiaobin again.

Hearing Xiao Bu's footsteps, I came back to my senses and said, "You must not tell anyone about Director Gao."

Director Gao did not speak for a long time, I lowered my voice with tears in my eyes and said, "If you promise me, just treat it as if I begged you, okay"?

I don't know what kind of sound it was at that time, I only know that my lips were trembling non-stop.His whole body was numb, Xiaobu opened the door and said with a big grin that he bought my favorite shrimp dumpling today.

Eyes saw Director Gao again and said, "Ah, Director Gao is here, my brother is alright! I bought shrimp dumplings, let's eat together."

I shook my head at the director of the hospital, and Director Gao said, "Don't eat, you can eat. I'm off work now, and I have to pick up the girls later." I hurriedly said that I won't keep you, and I will invite you when I have time eat

Great meal!Director Gao smiled and said, "Both of you, eat quickly." He turned his head and walked out of the ward.I said let's eat together, Xiaobu said I'll feed you!

It's over, now I'm hypocritical, I said no!

He said husband, I don't use a spoon, I feed you with my mouth.This little cloth started making fun of me again.

I said let me feed you, he laughed.He said "no", I said forget it, it's not my husband

I don't feed you!I said that I can eat it by myself, and I ate it after I finished speaking.

The little kid still wanted to fool me, he thought I would say, no thank you wife.

Then I lowered my head in shame and waited for him to feed me.Or what a nice wife!It's a pity that his plot didn't succeed. This is called "treating others in the same way".

I'll tell him to go back quickly when it's too late, and come back tomorrow!

Fortunately, he sat down on another bed and said that he would not leave tonight.

Pick up an apple and start peeling it. Xiaobu can always peel the apple's skin very long and thin, and continuously.

I admire him for having such a "unique skill". Compared with him, I look a lot clumsy.

And I can peel a half-pound big apple into two taels, and it's not even worth it.

I couldn't hold him back and had no choice but to give up. Now that Xiao Bu is here, I am also very happy.

Even though I don't have the company of my family, and I don't have Xiaoxing's concern, I still have a silly boy "Xiaobu" by my side!I don't know whether I came here for Xiaoxing or Xiaobu.

At the beginning, I didn't regret choosing him, nor did I regret becoming a couple with Xiaobu. He is a nearly perfect boy.

What reason do I have to refuse his kindness to me!

During the vacation, I didn’t dare to tell my family that I was sick. I just said that the school had something to do to take the postgraduate entrance examination, so I wouldn’t go back this semester. Then I asked my family to remit a sum of money to me so that my medical expenses would be covered. Landing.

These days seem to be very happy. I read books when I have nothing to do in the hospital. I like the feeling of touching a book. It is very real in my hand, just like having love.

You can smell the faint aroma of paper, listen to music when you are tired from reading, and live a leisurely and happy life.

I said to Xiaobu, I'm out of the hospital, let's go to worship Buddha!His voice was extraordinarily clean. He was engrossed in reading, and he answered "Oh" casually.

I looked at him by the window, shrouded in a faint layer of sunlight.The body is trimmed with golden light.Under the warm sunshine, a perfect outline was drawn and imprinted in my mind.head

The hair hangs down to the eyelids, and the twin moments under the shadows are particularly clear.

I am obsessed with the picture in front of me. If I were a painter, I must paint this beautiful scene.Give it to the boy in front of you.

As a gift I gave him in this life, I hope he will like it... When he is sleeping, I will take a brush to draw Xiaobu when he is sleeping soundly, and occasionally write some letters, all of which are handwritten.

In this way, I feel that he will look a little more cordial. I hope that on the day I "leave", I can express in letters what I have never said before.

Let him know that my feelings for him are also true and pure, and there is nothing false...