unobtainable warmth

Chapter 1

After helping Ning Xiao's funeral, Xu Zhou looked thinner and thinner. He had joked with him a few days ago, so no one said it would be gone.Ning Xiao is Xu Zhou's best friend since he was a child, and also his only friend.Xu Zhou was in poor health since he was a child, and he developed a dull personality when he stayed at home all the time. He was depressed all day long, until one day, when he was reading in the room, Ning Xiao from downstairs hit him with a ball, and he met the first a friend.In the kindergarten, the children were unwilling to play with Xu Zhou because they thought he was boring, and only Ning Xiao played with him, ate together, and went home together.Maybe it was because of his bad personality, or maybe because of his poor health, Xu Zhou still only had Ning Xiao as his friend in elementary and middle school.Just a few days ago, Ning Xiao had a car accident on the way home, but the rescue failed, and Xu Zhou lost a single friend.The moonlight was dim, Xu Zhou walked home alone after coming out of Ning Xiao's house, his face was blank, like an ignorant child, there was still a drop of clear tears in his red and swollen eyes, it was too late to fall, now, really I was left alone.

By the time Xu Zhou returned home, it was already midnight, there was no light in the room, and no one was waiting for him. He said a few words of comfort, and smiled at himself. Xu Zhou went back to his room in the dark, not daring to Turn on the light, just sit on the bed, staring at the outside without moving, as if you can still see the young Ning Xiao downstairs smiling and calling his name, waiting for him to go to school together.It’s just that that person is still gone, there are unpredictable circumstances, and now I understand the meaning of this sentence, but it’s too late, why didn’t I cherish the time with him at that time?Why wasn't I the one who died?These are just thoughts, and the reality cannot be changed after all.

After Xu Zhou spent two months of summer vacation in a daze at home, and skipped military training due to physical reasons, his high school life began.

After finding the dormitory and packing up all the things, Xu Zhou went to his own class for the class meeting. Class [-] on the third floor of the Boxue Building is Xu Zhou's classroom in the first year of senior high school.Holding the book, Xu Zhou entered the class with a blank expression on his face. Because of the military training a few days ago, most of the students in the class formed their own small groups, and they all gathered together to chat and laugh.Xu Zhou found his seat, sat down quietly, opened his book, didn't talk to others, just sat and read, as if everyone and everything had nothing to do with him.

After a while, the class teacher walked into the class, first introduced himself, and then began to talk about the general direction of life and study in high school.After speaking for about half an hour, the squad leader was selected. There should be only one person in the class who raised his hand to express that he wanted to be the squad leader, because after a minute or two, Xu Zhou heard the squad leader's self-introduction from his seat. "My name is Yang Shan. I will be your squad leader from today. I hope we can get along well this year. If you have any problems, you can always come to me. Although I may not be able to solve them, I will try my best to help." After that, Xu Zhou heard the girls in the class talking, "So handsome", "So white", "Tall", and other words kept floating in his ears.The head teacher selected the class representative and the secretary of the league branch, and after explaining a few words to the monitor, he left the classroom.

"Xu Zhou", when Xu Zhou heard someone calling him, he looked forward in half-surprise and half-hesitation, and the monitor, Yang Shan, was calling him, "Xu Zhou, you are the best in the class, you should be the school committee member. "Xu Zhou saw the person standing in front of him, with a sunny smile, fair but healthy complexion, and sparkling eyes, completely different from himself. "I'm not interested, I don't want to be one." Xu Zhou heard his own voice in his ears. Yang Shan seemed surprised for a moment, but he recovered quickly, so he had no choice but to say, "Let's keep it for you first, this The position is yours." Xu Zhou frowned, but did not refuse on the spot, as if he was not used to others staring at him, and thought he was discussing this matter with him after class, so he replied "Yes".After Yang Shan said that he could leave, the students all left the classroom, and Xu Zhou also slowly returned to the dormitory.

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This is my original work. I posted it under another pseudonym yesterday. Now that is locked, I only use this post. I still need a lot of support.Weibo ID: a Jinjiang little transparent