miss the rain

Chapter 18 Come to my love!

I used to talk to Nian Nian often, I said: If my love cannot be expressed in words, I will prove it to you with actions...

Niannian left me, and I couldn't get out of that pain for a long time...

When I come back from work every day, when I see the key hanging on the door of the house, I will think of Nian Nian. It is a house key left for her. I want to let her know that in Anshan, she still has a home... …I saw the red box next to the bedside table, which was filled with 360 five thousand paper cranes, and a small red box, which was a pair of silver rings I bought when I passed by Chow Tai Fook… ...It was used when I wanted to propose to Nian Nian... It seems that I can't use it anymore, I read it every day before going to bed, and my heart is full of Nian Nian... Do you know?24 hours a day, not a single cent of you leaves my mind...

I still remember that when I bought the pair of rings, I only had 500 yuan on me.Since the bill was not paid back, the 500 yuan was our living expenses. As a result, I bought this pair of silver rings with 310, which was very cheap.But as you said, as long as it is a gift from me, even if it is made of straw, you will always wear it... So, I bought it...

As a result, this pair of silver rings can no longer be used... Hehe... Just looking at her left us with a good memory...

I remember an old man once told me that she said that around September 2012, I could meet someone who would marry me, but that year, I only had one relationship with her, and we broke up in the end... ...Is it the opposite of what the old man said?But the other two things the old man said have become true... I finally believed in the old man, I will wait for her!I believe she is just uncertain, when she is tired from playing, she will come back...

I still go to her space every day to see our previous moments and our happy sweetness... As a result, she told me on QQ once that she wanted me to delete everything about her in my space, and she said I was like this It will affect her normal life... There is no way, I put away everything about her in the space... The photos will also be encrypted, so that she can no longer see everything in my space with you, because I love her, as long as she is truly happy, I will be willing to do whatever she asks me...

Until one day, when I entered her space, she deleted all the memories about us, and I knew she had really given up on this relationship and me... And that harsh sentence made me completely It is clear that she has really started a new relationship, and her happiness is also going on... I feel that no matter how much I wait, it is futile, she turned around and put me where I am...

I spend my days in a muddle, and I have two good buddies who have been with me all the time, for fear that something will happen to me.If I didn't surf the Internet on time after work, they would call me and ask me what I was doing and why I didn't surf the Internet... For more than a month, I spent my life under the eyes of that stupid guy... Later, I and that guy named Yi The two grandfathers of Cheng and Yulin became life and death brothers, we formed our own group called: "LES life and death friends"...

There are only three people in "LES Friends of Life and Death", one is the group leader, a grandfather T named Wu Yu on the Internet, because of a woman named Niannian, she keeps quiet all day long, and the other is the manager, a grandfather named Yicheng T, she is afraid that something will happen to her brother, so she guards Wu Yu every day, and the other manages Yulin. These three bachelors talk about their sad past every day, and the three bachelors encourage each other to move forward...

The three of them are single, videoing together, drinking together, getting drunk together...then waking up to keep each other warm...this is buddies, this is brothers, this is friendship between life and death...

There are not many people, but you can talk to each other, and there are not many people, but you can live your life!Have you ever had a brother like this in your life?If there is no one to speak your mind, that is the biggest failure in this life!

My most devoted love has gone through more than 100 days, and it is over, leaving me alone in sorrow...

On January 28th, I fell ill. I was getting an injection outside, and my mobile phone was bored on the Internet... Suddenly I saw a netizen named Xiaonian in a group, and said in the group that he wanted to chase me, and the mobile phone was slow to chat. , but another phone call came in, so I don’t know what they were talking about in the group... The next day I asked my brothers to copy the chat records for me to see, but the brothers got anxious and sent them to the group again... It provoked the whole group all laughing...

Now that she has turned her head, what's the point of me keeping watch alone?I agreed to Xiaonian without thinking too much... During the chat, I knew that Xiaonian also had a lot of stories. She would write posts on the forum. Post, it turns out that she is a person with a great story, and her story is far beyond my imagination...

I still couldn't let go of Niannian, so I re-applied for a network account, ran to that group, read Niannian's chat records, and looked at those dazzling names, my tears were silently flowing... It's really like The most classic sentence: You can see the words I type on the screen, but you can't see my tears falling on the keyboard...

I simply told my own story in the group boringly, but Nian Nian found out that I looked like another person.So she added me in private and asked me about my past.Of course I made it up, but Niannian told the story of her and the "third child"... and that third child was me... Niannian was talking and crying at the same time... In fact, she still loves me in her heart... …Hearing her cry, I really want to hug her… But, now I am another stranger who doesn’t know her…

Since then, I have never used that account again... I was playing with Xiaonian in the group, because I knew that Niannian would definitely come back, and Xiaonian and I were an impossible thing, everyone was just playing for fun.Love must have an emotional foundation, how can it be possible to say that love is love...

Although Niannian and I broke up, we became friends... When she was shopping on Taobao, she would ask me for advice on what color clothes to buy... I even told her jokingly, I am tired of aesthetics, I dare to believe it me?Hehe... Then she would ask me from time to time, "How are you and Xiaonian?" Hehe...Fool, why do you have to be duplicity when you are clearly concerned!

I'm afraid it will affect the relationship between her and the boss, so I just said it's okay.

Finally, the story of me and Xiaonian was in her waywardness, I proposed to break up... because of a trumpet incident, she lost her temper with me, how can I bear her anger.I proposed to break up, there was no love in the first place, and I insisted on being together, what good results can there be... Although Xiaonian also admitted his mistake to me, I still didn't look back.It's already February [-]th... It's almost the Chinese New Year...

On the morning of the [-]th, when I just woke up, Niannian's phone came in and asked me: "Say, you found out that your lover lied to you..." Before she could finish speaking, I said, "Just tell me , Did she lie to you?!" She stammered... I knew that something unpleasant must have happened between them... Under my repeated questioning, Niannian still said...

It turned out that the boss was chatting with other Ps, and it was done without telling Nian Nian... As a result, there were cached chat records, which were discovered by Nian Nian...

"Did you listen to her explanation?" I said to Niannian...

Although we broke up, although I still love her, her love is her own choice, I can't say anything deeply, I just persuade her... At noon, Niannian called me:

"Yu, how is Xiaonian with you? Is she sincere to you?"

"I don't know, she's pretty pretty anyway, we're just playing around. I'll be hurt by her at most once..." In fact, at this time, Xiaonian and I have already proposed to break up...

"Yu, if I go back to find you now, will you still accept me?"...

I don't know how to choose... The person I love the most in my heart, the person I love the most, is finally waiting for me to turn back, of course I have to agree, but suddenly I think of that dazzling sentence , It hurts me so much that I can't express it in words... We talked on the phone for almost a whole morning... We both cried to each other, crying so overwhelmed...

In this way, I agreed to Niannian's turning back, after all we are still in love, I have no reason to refuse her, because I have been waiting for her to turn around, waiting for her to turn around...

In this way, she talked about online dating at 28, and then returned to my side... I thought my happiness had begun again, and I could still be as happy as before... But in the end, it was not what I thought...

It's Chinese New Year, I originally planned not to go home, but I have to go back to my hometown because of something urgent, just happened to have a few fellow villagers going home together, so I came to live at my house at night, when Niannian called me, I heard something Male voice, hehe...she started to misunderstand me...

I think this kind of misunderstanding is so ridiculous. If she wants to marry a man, if she wants to marry a man, why should she wait until now?I think this kind of misunderstanding is too childish, and I won’t even explain it to her. In the end, even this little trust is lost in love. Is this still love... I went home the next day...

In this year, except for the first day of junior high school, I have been intoxicated every day. During the day, Nian Nian is a gentle little sheep, but at night, he becomes another person, who has the desire to do everything I do and die...

This is my lover, the person I love the most, a person who makes me cling to my whole life, suddenly becomes like this...I don't know if I woke up from my dream, or my dream went astray...Why? That's it, why must I be punished like this, what did I do wrong?

"The taste of longing is like this cup of bitter coffee. Although you can add some sugar, it still makes people feel haggard. The past is unrecoverable. Memories are like cold wind. It was all my fault at the beginning. It made you sad and never looked back. Now I stay up all night Regret, how I hope you can return, without you in the future, how should I face it, God please give me a chance to compensate my sweetheart for some comfort, if life can be reincarnated, I would rather go back in time, and I will suffer tomorrow, regardless of my mood Surrounded by loneliness, I hope you can understand my heart and forgive me for what I have done..." The song "Back to My Love" by Yang Yi rang in my ears...