this life

Chapter 8

In a blink of an eye, it is New Year's Day.Just finished the year-end closing yesterday.I didn't get home until ten o'clock in the evening, and basically slept through most of the New Year's Day.Looking at the snowflakes floating outside the window.Thinking about how to go out and have fun.Looking through my cell phone address book, I couldn't find anyone who could accompany me to celebrate New Year's Day.Feeling extremely desolate, I dialed the number at home.At critical moments, I feel that family members are the best. "Mom! I wish you and my dad a happy new year and good health." I heard my dad laughing on the phone.My mother wished me success at work on the other end of the phone, and then hung up after chatting a few words about homework.After putting down the phone, there was another burst of emptiness and loneliness in my heart.I have been thinking about working for more than half a year, and I have saved some small money in my hands, but my heart has always been empty.The longer I work, the more I find that everyone is alone in front of interests.No friendship, no affection, just money.The indifference between people sometimes makes people see the ugliest side of human nature.It turns out that all the good things will eventually collapse slowly as time goes by.Zhang Yuzhu's oppression, Li Xing's interests come first, and Sun Furong's stinginess and irresponsibility.Only Zhao Jiajia is better, except for that indifferent face.Thinking of the content of the conversation that President Cai Shengnan talked with me at the end of the year yesterday, I feel unspeakable sadness in my heart.I thought that I had worked very hard, even if I didn't say I was good, it would not be bad to have a child.I never expected that President Cai would say, "I am a little disappointed by your recent performance. I still had great hopes for you. If you continue like this, it will be very bad for your development. Go back and think about it yourself. , what should I do next." Cai Shengnan spoke as if I were a heinous sinner, which lowered the mental outlook of the entire network to a new height.She also said some things that were ugly, and I don't know why she said that to me.She has always had a bad temper, so naturally when she talked about the anger, I was deafened.I only remember that the voice was loud, but I have no memory of what was said.Faced with doubts about my leadership ability, I felt rebellious for the first time.I have worked very hard, just because the mysterious person said that I handed over the goods with one hand, because the customer terminated the transaction midway, and because my marketing data is not ideal, I am denied the whole person?Negate my other efforts?I don't know why I am the first one to clean up every day, the last one to leave, take out the garbage, call the number every day, and try my best to market every customer.If you don't know the business, you have the cheek to ask, and you have to take out accounting books to study when you go home at night. Are these all bullshit?I'm a newcomer, and I don't understand many things. I can't do as well as the old employees.But I want to catch up with everyone on a rocket.I want to give my best effort for the collective common goal.Not to mention how good the results can be, at least I don't want to hold everyone back.But, do I really have no advantages at all?I'm stupid and a slow learner, I admit it.But I worked hard and worked hard, and I always knocked out my teeth and swallowed the complaints and accusations of others.I have never hurt anyone's feelings, or saved anyone's face.Even so, you still trampled me on the soles of my feet.Last week, Sun Furong complained to Li Xing that I was too slow in handling business, which affected their car delivery after get off work.Say I'm not smart, I don't know how to read other people's faces.She thought I was eating in the back at noon, but she didn't hear me.She didn't know that it took me only 10 minutes to finish the meal just to come back and change her shift so that she could eat earlier.As a result, I strictly implemented the lunch break for the first time that day, and I took a half-hour break before returning to work.These I told myself nothing.It's nothing more than the meanness of the old employees to the new employees, and the dignified man can't bear to be a man.

Looking out the window at the branches swaying left and right in the wind, I opened the window and lit a cigarette.A burst of cold hit and got into my room, my clothes, and my heart.The cold winter night has frostbitten my fiery heart.I believe that gold will always shine, but in a group of scrap iron, the light may not be seen until the day it is melted.Time wears away my enthusiasm day by day, and polishes my sharpness, leaving only a robot-like repetitive boring life, let's take a look at my life again.No, there is no life anymore.In my world, only work, food and sleep are left.Only online, friends.Parents are only on the other side of the phone, and I am only happy in my sleep.The weather is getting cooler.I had no time and was too lazy to buy clothes, and I still didn't survive the cold wind with my thin clothes.The next day, I fell ill.However, I still insist on going to work, and when there are no customers, I go to the back table to lie down.No one cared what was wrong with me, they would only call me up front to do business when there were a lot of clients.I had a cold for a week, and I didn't get any better without taking medicine or injections.It was another busy day, and I dragged my tired and sick body home.I am very glad that I can take a rest the next day, and I feel relaxed when I think of this.It may be too tired, it may be some fever, it may be hungry.As soon as I opened the door, I fell to the ground.When I opened my eyes again, I saw the administrator downstairs sitting on the sofa next to my bed and looking at me.I felt pain all over my body and sat up with difficulty.The administrator saw that I was awake.I got up and said, "Since you're awake, I'll go back." I didn't know what was going on for some reason, but subconsciously nodded my head and said yes.Just as the administrator was about to open the door, he turned around and said to me, "If you want to keep a dog, we can do so, but you have to register and take the dog for injections on a regular basis so as not to affect other people." "Keeping a dog?" What did you say.I was dizzy, struggling to get off the bed to drink some water.As soon as my feet touched the ground, I heard a scream, which scared me to the bed again.When I looked down, a pair of poor eyes were looking at me. "Hey, isn't this the Jingba that I scared away that day?" I was surrounded by the whole process, and I didn't know what happened.Looking at the dog, he said: "Why are you at home? What happened to me?" Looking at the dog, he still looked at me with big watery eyes.I know I must be sick and confused, what answer can I ask by talking to a dog.I felt weak all over, so I walked to the refrigerator and opened it to see that there were only hairy bread and a few bottles of unopened mineral water inside.Hey, let's cook noodles.Dizzy, I managed to take a mouthful of hot noodles, and the power of the food finally allowed me to breathe life-saving air again.The Pekingese followed me throughout my recovery.It doesn't bark or make noise, as long as I look at it, it wags its tail at me. "Your boy is quite good, but I can't raise you, because I can't even raise myself, let alone you." I comforted the puppy with these words, as if I was talking to myself.The puppy seemed to understand what I meant, and became depressed.Lie on the ground and stop looking at me.I ate and took medicine.Lie back on the bed again.After a while he fell asleep.This sleep was very comfortable, and I didn't get up until the alarm clock rang for the third time the next morning.The soreness all over my body has improved a lot.Probably because of taking the medicine last night, I sweated a lot and felt a lot lighter.I took a shower in the morning and blow-dried my hair neatly.Get dressed and go out.By the way, I brought out yesterday's guests together.Walking to the place where I met it last time, I squatted on the ground and said: "Brother, let's go here, go back to your residence, we are not suitable to live together, let's break up here, goodbye." After I finished speaking, I got up Leave, keep the back of the puppy staring at me as I leave.When I came to the corner, I couldn't help but look back and found that the dog had really gone away.I still had a little bit of reluctance in my heart, thinking, I seem to owe it and ham sausage, but then I was covered by the sense of freedom and relief.