quarrel for three days, fight for two days

Chapter 4

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My mother is a very traditional person, which made my coming out process extremely slow.

It is said on the Internet that coming out should be done step by step. When I was in high school, I brainwashed my mother that I didn't want to get married.

My mother said at first that she was too young to understand anything.

Later, I simply stopped me from talking about this topic, and asked me not to spoil her mood every time I brought it up.

The most outrageous thing I've ever done in my life is getting together with Lu Xiu without telling my mother.

Later, I told Lu Xiu that I didn't know how to confess to my family. He shook my hand and said he wanted to be with me.

The day before I took Lu Xiu home, I asked my mother what to do if I like men.

At that time, I was already twenty, and I couldn't use any words like young and ignorant to prevaricate. My mother paused, and only said that if you dare to like men, I will break your legs.

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She didn't break my leg, she hit Lu Xiu directly.

When she saw me and Lu Xiu holding hands, the air pressure was very low. After hearing that Lu Xiu was my boyfriend, she pointed to the door and let Lu Xiu go out.

Later, when we wanted to explain, she picked up the broom and beat Lu Xiu.

I was in a hurry and called out mom, I have never spoken in such a loud voice in my life.

My mother's eyes were red, she pointed at me and said, if you dare to be with him, don't enter this house.

I'm more anxious, and I won't enter if I say I can't.

Then he led Lu Xiu and walked out. Lu Xiu pointed to the thing at the door and said that Auntie bought it for you.

My mother picked up a box and threw it at him.

Lu Xiu didn't hide, and took a hard hit. I closed the door immediately, and patted his back in the corridor to ask him if it hurt.

He said it hurts, but it deserves it.

"If you get beaten up, you can take away your precious son. It's not a loss."

At this time he was still joking, I wanted to scold him, but I opened my mouth but couldn't speak.

"Don't cry," he touched my face, "Lu Ran, don't cry."

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Lu Xiu got a room in the hotel, and I ordered him to take off his shirt, and then went to see the piece behind him that was smashed.

It's a bit green, but it's okay.

I touched it and asked him, "Does it hurt?"

He turned around and hugged me: "It doesn't hurt."

"What to do, I should persuade you to go home at this time," he buried his face in front of me, "but I don't want you to go."

I said I didn't want to go.

At this time, my mother sent a text message asking where I was.

I don't want to go back, so Lu Xiu came over to have a look, and said back.

I just returned one at the hotel.

My mother sent another sentence, let me think about whose money I am living now.

I suddenly felt a suffocating feeling of being strangled in the neck, and I replied that I would pay it back.

Lu Xiu hugged me from behind and kissed my ears comfortingly.

"Lu Xiu, I'm sorry." When I think about what happened when he came to my house today, I feel a little suffocated.

"No need to apologize," he pressed his forehead. "You are not wrong, I am not wrong, and your mother is not wrong. I will let my aunt accept me. You have to believe me."

I nodded and kissed the corner of his mouth, suddenly feeling relieved.

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I didn't go home that night, so I bought towels and underwear at the supermarket next to the hotel and made it for the night.

Lu Xiu came out in a pair of underwear after taking a shower, holding a hair dryer in his hand and asking me to dry his hair.

I agreed and asked him to sit down at the table. His hair was soft to the touch, completely different from his prickly personality.

Neither of us spoke as he read the hotel brochure and twirled a pencil with the other.

After I finished drying my hair, I wound up the cord and tried to put the hair dryer back. He put a hand on my waist and pulled me back. He lifted my shirt and bit me on the side of my waist.

If this is normal, I will definitely scold him.

But today is different, I turned around and stroked Lu Xiu's hair.

"Lu Xiu, do you want to do it?"

Lu Xiu was stunned for a moment, then pulled my hand over and put it on his forehead, lowering his head to prevent me from seeing his expression.

"Wait," he said, "until everyone you care about accepts me."

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But it is impossible not to go home all the time during the holidays. After staying in the hotel for two days, I decided to go home and talk to my mother.

Lu Xiu also knew that I should have a chat with her alone, so he just asked me to push my mother's WeChat to him.

I frowned and looked at him, not wanting to push it. He looked at me, smiled, and said it was okay, it was through a screen.

After returning home, the first thing my mother said when she saw me was: "I still know how to come back."

Now that I think about it, she should be worried about me, but since I was a child, she never expresses it directly, and there is always a sense of awkwardness in her words.

If it was before, I might not care about ignoring this sentence automatically, but I was also in a bad mood at the time, and I turned around and wanted to leave.

"return!"

My mother yelled behind me.

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Then it became a situation where she was sitting on the sofa and I was being questioned by her standing in front of the TV.

In short, they checked Lu Xiu and even their family as if checking their household registration.

I answered her questions one by one.

"How long have you been together?"

"For almost two years, we were together in freshman year."

My mother's face was a little ugly again, and she took a breath: "Then why did you say it now?"

"I was going to tell you step by step, but you didn't listen to me at all."

My mother didn't speak for a long time, and her shoulders slumped, as if she was very tired.

I know it is difficult for her to accept this fact, and she will definitely be criticized when she returns to her hometown in the future, even people who know her well in the community will definitely gossip.

"Mom, I'm sorry." I sincerely apologized to her, feeling sorry for her from the bottom of my heart.

If I like a girl, get married and have a child, she may be very happy.

But I can't do it. My life has been planned since I was a child. Meeting Lu Xiu is the biggest surprise in my current life. I can't give up the happy life he chose to define.

I feel very sorry for my mother, but I don't regret it.

She waved her hand and sighed: "You don't need to apologize. Did he chase you first?"

I shook my head: "I liked him first."

She was a little shocked and asked me since when.

I say from high school.

She was silent for a long time, and said to let her think about it again.

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The most difficult thing was actually those few days, the air in our house seemed to be dead during that holiday.

The day before school started, I packed my luggage, and my mother called me out suddenly, and handed me a bag of fried fruit, and asked me to share it with Lu Xiu.

I held the bag of fruit, my heart beat fast for a moment, and I couldn't help laughing: "Thank you, Mom."

My mother was a little embarrassed, held back her smile, and patted me on the back: "Go to bed early, and get up early tomorrow morning."

I smiled and said yes, and felt that the whole person was much lighter.

Go back to the room and send a message to Lu Xiu: My mother made fried fruit for you to eat.

Lu Xiu replied: Mom is so kind.

I was really happy, and Lu Xiu seemed to feel it too, so he called directly: "Are you so happy?"

Listening to his voice, my mood couldn't stop rising: "Mmm! I'm happy."

He laughed on the phone: "I really want to see what you look like now."

I also laughed: "I won't show it to you, I'm proud of it now."

Then we chatted for a while and said see you tomorrow and good night.

I thought I would sleep soundly, but I was still too excited to fall asleep.

He also got up and ate a few pieces of fried fruit for Lu Xiu.