we are the same

Chapter 22

gloomy.

Unknowingly, he walked to the pastry shop where he and Youhyuk went for the first time, that is to say, he had been walking for a long time, and his empty stomach was protesting to him with dissatisfaction, walking mechanically, the same as last time The location, the difference is that he sat on the seat where Youhe used to sit, and then a waiter asked him what he wanted to order, and he said without thinking, "It's the same as last time."

Noticing that the waiter stood there awkwardly, he pointed to the matcha cake in the glass case, "That's it."

Sheng Hao held the table spoon, stared at the matcha cake in front of him in a daze, and sat there for half an hour, until a song came out from the loudspeaker:

Alli want that be with you,

Whatiwantistoloveyou,

What will never be changed,

That was you are always mine.

The soft voice of the Korean singer leejaewon sang in a loop throughout the store, maybe the cd player was broken, and it was stuck on this song called "Fallin"-Whatiwantistoloveyou, I just want to love you.How ironic, but, Yoo Hyuk, how am I supposed to face such a good you now that I am so broken?

"Sir, this sir?" The waiter whispered cautiously in his ear.

"It's ten o'clock sharp, we're closed, sir"

"Can I not go?" Sheng Hao raised his head and looked at him sleepily.

"Sorry, sir, we are only open until ten o'clock." The waiter smiled embarrassedly.

"Understood." Shenghao raised his body, it was ridiculous, he didn't drink alcohol, and he couldn't see anything clearly, how could he be short-sighted due to the sequelae of sweat medicine?

Should I go home, or just find a hotel?

Shenghao didn't have the energy to ridicule himself, he didn't eat a bite of the matcha cake, he had no appetite, and he didn't want to do anything, it seemed that he would be the one who had his stomach pierced this time. Hi, Xiaoha, it’s good that you’re fine, isn’t it?

Although he didn't have a watch when he got near his home, he reckoned it was already midnight.

Sheng Hao didn't go upstairs immediately, he sat on a bench in the park, looking at the darkness from the window on the fourth floor in the distance, sitting in the park at this time, he is not a homeless man but also like a good friend waiting to catch a hook.

He lit a cigarette, and suddenly a stray cat jumped out, almost stepped on his foot, his heart seemed to be hit hard, he missed Yoo Hyuk so much, even though he pretended to be a good smoker, He also changed his hairstyle and kept away from contacting Youhyuk. Even though he thought he could comprehend the true meaning of dissociative amnesia, he was still not strong enough to erase Youhyuk from his memory in time.He's not Rilakkuma, and neither is anyone.

Maybe it was a sign of schizophrenia, Shenghao seemed to see someone coming out of the corridor of his house, hehehe, that person really looked like Yuhyuk...why did he walk this way?Why?

Sheng Hao lost his hands and feet for a moment, threw away the cigarette and hurriedly hid in the rockery behind. The man got closer and closer, and finally sat down on his previous seat.Seung Ho stared at his back steadily, already schizophrenic, that person is Jang Woo Hyuk, even if he forgot himself, he would not mistake Woo Hyuk!

Shenghao didn't want to let go of the opportunity to spy on him for a second.He took out his cell phone and dialed someone's number, but the other party didn't answer, cao!Maybe it was for An Shenghao, and it would be even worse if someone answered.Fortunately, it was not connected.

Then he redialed another person's number.

"Hee Jun, um, don't worry, I'm fine, I'm just downstairs at his house..."

"Okay, I see, you go to bed early, and I will contact you again."

Hanging up the phone, Yoo Hyuk caught a glimpse of the sparking cigarette butt on the ground, Sheng Hao subconsciously retracted his body, feeling guilty, for fear that Yoo Hyuk, who had ADHD, would see him, a lunatic who stayed out of the house in the middle of the night.

The wind picked up, and Yoo Hyuk's hair was blown messily by the wind, and he sneezed inadvertently, Seung Ho watched him sniff his nose, then put his hands on his forehead, in a tired posture.

"Little monkey, little monkey, have you evaporated from the world?" Youhe started talking to his own shadow, his voice was actually hoarse, how could this happen, is it all his fault?

"Is it true that I don't even have the qualifications to love you, otherwise why would you hide and refuse to see me?"

Stop talking, please stop blaming yourself!

"I've searched all over the place, ha ha... like a lost lunatic..."

To be continued

struggle

Stop talking, please stop talking!

"If you don't like me or hate me, you can stand in front of me and tell me yourself."

An Shenghao, tmd you are really not human, you tortured Yuhyuk like this, are you satisfied?

"However, even if you hate me and don't like me, I still want to see you and see your smile. I always feel that God can only allow me to love you alone..."

Look, listen, An Shenghao, didn't you just have a fucking cerebral palsy and automatically ran to your ex's house, where you were sent to your door and raped all night!What does this have to do with Yoo Hyuk!What does this have to do with Yoo Hyuk loving you!

He couldn't listen to it anymore, and he couldn't watch it anymore. Sheng Hao planned to leave You Hyuk alone and sneak away, but this plan made him too hesitant. He greedily stared at Yu Hyuk's back, imagining that he once lay on it. A sense of happiness that is easily satisfied, fantasizing that time can go back to before the incident, take care of your hands, and don't answer strange calls from the damn plague.

"Who's there?" Youhe was silent for a while before realizing that there seemed to be someone hiding in the dark behind him.

He turned around and looked at the place where Shenghao was hiding. It was terrible. If he walked a second late, he would find him. Even if Shenghao rushed out now, it would be useless. He squatted down stupidly, waiting for fate to do whatever he wanted. Sending, Yoo Hyuk, how can I say the first word to you?

"What are you doing?" You Hyuk didn't realize that the person with black hair dyed back was Shenghao, he was very curious about what this person was hiding with his head in his arms in the middle of the night.

"..." What should he do?No, the ears are still exposed and will be found.

"You are... Shenghao?" The pair of round ears did reveal his identity, Yoo Hyuk squatted down and looked at the dark hair in disbelief, "I've been looking for you for a long time, what's wrong with your hair, why are you here?" This is squatting?"

"I...I want to leave you..." Shenghao finally showed his face, but he didn't have the courage to look him in the eyes.

"..." Youhe was stunned for a full minute. He stretched out his hand, lifted Shenghao's chin with the index finger of his right hand, and said word by word: "You, say, what, what?"

"I...don't ask, I'm sorry, Yuhyuk, I... really want to leave you." Shenghao met his eyes, and the night wind blew Youhyuk's bangs into a mess, through the silver With gray hair, he could clearly see You Hyuk's frown.

"Get up, let's go back and talk." You Hyuk picked up Sheng Hao who refused to move, and without saying anything, he dragged Sheng Hao into the corridor and stuffed him into the elevator.

Sheng Hao knew he was wrong, so he held his breath and didn't dare to speak out. He took a peek at You Hyuk, and found that he was staring at the air in a daze, his heart tightened a bit, and his chest felt tight.

To tell him the truth or to make up a perfect excuse to say goodbye?

Shenghao took out the key and wanted to open the door. He was absent-minded, and his thoughts had already drifted to a foreign country. The key was not properly inserted, and finally fell to the ground in a futile way. The key hit the concrete floor and bounced for a short distance. , as if the only trace of fantasy left in my heart was smashed to pieces.

When he went to pick up the key, Yuhyuk also happened to help pick it up together, and accidentally touched his finger. Shenghao retracted his hand instantly, and finally Yuhyuk opened the door with the key. He could see that Yoo Hyuk is enduring something.They have done more intimate actions before, not to mention just touching their fingers.

Entering the room, Shenghao collapsed on the sofa as if his bones had been pulled out. He was paralyzed there like an idiot, not knowing what is the right thing to do in the next second, or in other words, no matter what to do. Nothing has the slightest connection with being right.

You Hyuk didn't sit next to him immediately, but went into the kitchen, obviously he kept turning over all kinds of terrible pictures in his mind, wanting to rush over and shake Seung Ho's shoulders to ask what all this came from Shit reason, however, he can't do that, he loves Seung Ho, and for that alone, he can't force Seung Ho.

He made a cup of mandarin duck-flavored (two flavors) milk tea for Sheng Hao, put it on the tea table, sat down next to Sheng Hao, and looked at the cup of milk tea, 1 minute, 2 minutes, 3 minutes, Yu He couldn't help opening his mouth: "Talk to me, anything is fine."

"You Hyuk... let's not meet again..." Sheng Hao was still paralyzed in place, neither raising his head nor opening his eyes.

"Why, what is it for?" He saw Sheng Hao snuggled up on the sofa, feeling as if the sky could fall at any time, and You Hyuk felt that he was about to fall too, but in front of his lover, he Must hold on.

Sheng Hao didn't say anything, and loosened his neckline, revealing that bright red hickey.Why isn't today the end of the world? If it were the end, Shenghao wouldn't be afraid or worried about anything.

"What is this?" Yoo Hyuk knew he was asking a question