[Call for Papers] Fan Notes

Chapter 17 Take a Bath

Chapter No.17 Bathing

Maybe it was longing for a long time, or maybe it was physical and mental exhaustion. Uncle Li didn't tell me the story of my father, but hugged me to take a bath to wash off the smell of sweat all over my body.

"A person of this age doesn't know how to take a bath. Can you sleep at night if it smells so bad?" Uncle Li blamed and nagged.

"I can sleep, I haven't learned to endure myself just to wait for you to take a bath." I smiled, because I was too tired after climbing Baiyun Mountain this time, and I didn't even want to take a bath. No matter how gentlemanly you are dressed, who will you show it to?

"Uncle, where have you been all these days? Did you come here to handle the case? I thought you were a monk?"

As I was talking, I almost cried again, these days are so painful.

"Become a monk? Uncle actually wanted to become a monk a long time ago, but..." Uncle Li sighed and looked at me with reluctance in his eyes.

"Just can't let go of me, can you?"

Uncle Li was stunned, as if acquiescing, "Uncle met you two, this life doesn't belong to me anymore."

"Uncle, you are much older." I didn't ask about Uncle Li's father, I was afraid that he would run away from me inadvertently like last time, maybe when he wanted to say something, he would say it himself up.

"Uncle is young, forever 25 years old." Uncle Li smiled, and his smile was so pretty, "If it's you, you will have gray hair after a few days."

Uncle Li took a hair dryer to help me dry my hair, and also dried my own hair.

"Uncle, my foot is crooked, you can carry me to sleep."

Uncle Li was taken aback, smiled, and hugged me all the way to the bed. The two of us returned to our previous life, just like childhood, I could sleep unscrupulously in his arms.

"Shan Yun, when you grow up, you don't have to ask Uncle any questions like before, and you must ask Uncle to give the answer. Some questions, Uncle doesn't know how to answer; some answers, Uncle doesn't know how to say."

"Uncle, do you know that I know something that I shouldn't know?"

"You come to this hotel, you choose this room, there is a reason for everything, do you think Uncle knows?"

"Uncle, if you don't want to tell me, I won't ask. Let's go to sleep, we can't sleep well without you sleeping beside us."

Uncle Li didn't sleep, but picked up the mobile phone by the bedside, and saw the song I was listening to, and seemed to be unable to hold back the tears all of a sudden, hugging me and crying.

It turns out that Uncle Li has been living around me all the time. He is afraid that I will be overwhelmed. He is worried that I am the only one in this world and I will leave without any attachment. However, he does not want to appear in my life. This is very important to him. A torment of contradictions.So when I got on the bus to Luoyang, he followed quietly, but how could I notice that Uncle Li was right behind me when I was in a hurry, besides, I was followed by a policeman who was good at tracking.

Uncle Li saw my every move, he didn't find it ridiculous, it seemed that he had done this before, thinking that a person could walk out of the temple in Baiyun Mountain, hold his hand and run to the side of the big rock , just sat quietly, didn’t say anything, looked at the sunset of Baiyun Mountain, and looked at the dusk that belonged to two people, but the cigarette butts all over the floor could only show that this was Uncle Li’s wishful thinking.And now he comes here, I think it is more because of my factors, he doesn't know how to choose, he may not know whether he likes my father or me now, but there is no doubt that my The confession shocked him, and even made him flustered, not knowing what to do.

He found my uncle in Baiyun Mountain. Although I didn't know my uncle and my uncle didn't know Uncle Li, Uncle Li knew my uncle. He was even afraid that my uncle would hurt me because he didn't know me. Determine how much Zhang Jingtao knows about me.It’s just that he later discovered that Zhang Jingtao came to meet his friends, which is the so-called 419 kind of feelings. He couldn’t forgive a person who persecuted my father, my mother and me so much, so he couldn’t help but take advantage of this. The opportunity gave Zhang Jingtao a good lesson.

Maybe it was really a coincidence, or maybe it was fate, the local police station took action to crack down on whoring and prostitution that night, and Uncle Li and the local leaders were old, so they also participated. When there was passion in the room, I took them to my room.

My uncle has a family. I don’t know if his family is happy or not, but what he has done makes me feel that if there is no such a person in this world, maybe my mother would be much happier, and maybe my mother would not say anything. Don't go back to Baijia Town.It's just that if we go back to Baijia Town, will there still be nostalgia for my mother and me?Will there still be my nostalgia now?

"Uncle, I read the notes left by my mother, the fan notes written by my father, right?" I finally couldn't help but tell the truth.

"Your mother agrees to you watching?" Uncle Li seemed not to ask a question, but to ask my mother's thoughts.

"My mother was a great woman, even though she made mistakes." My mother was great, at least in my heart at the time, she was great.

"No matter what your mother has done, do you forgive her?" Uncle Li was asking, as if there were still some unknown things waiting for me.

"From my mother's point of view, I agree with her approach. After all, people like us are not understandable by ordinary people. She is not wrong." In my eyes, my mother is not wrong, even if she makes mistakes, It is also a mistake made because of love.

"Your mother was indeed a remarkable woman."

Uncle Li didn't say much. The relationship between him and my mother seems to be like an enemy and a friend. I can't figure out how that kind of intricate relationship can be maintained until now.

"Don't think about anything, just spend a few days with your uncle, okay?"

"Well, as long as you are by my side, it's the best."

Uncle Li was tired, maybe he didn't want to mention the past, but I looked at the alarm clock on the wall, it was already two o'clock in the morning, looking at Uncle Li beside me, he was obviously sleepy already.Some memories are things that I dare not touch easily, and maybe they can only be forgotten through a sleep, and what I want at this moment, maybe Uncle Li can lie next to me, I am satisfied, and I already know , this seemingly insignificant requirement at ordinary times has become very high and high now.

It's just that I don't want to go to sleep just now, looking at Uncle Li who is sleeping soundly, it's been a long time since I looked at the wrinkles on his forehead so carefully.My heart is still afraid that Uncle Li will leave quietly again. Maybe Uncle Li can help me take a bath for my body. It is just a bath for my soul. How can I wash away the dust of the world with that struggling love? Get rid of the obstacles between the heart and the heart, and wash out the desired future?