[Call for Papers] Fan Notes

Chapter 19

Chapter 19 Once upon a time

A person's world is undoubtedly lonely, until I catch another man's eyes, his eyes always look into the distance, as if there are endless fallen leaves in his eyes, but when you look closely, there are pieces of leaves. Bai Yun, drifting towards the place he was looking at, and this man is my brother-in-law and the most educated person in Baijia Town, but he must have a lot of secrets hidden in him.

That was the first time I drew so seriously, I didn't even know when the person being painted left the shore, because his figure had already been imprinted in my mind, and this feeling was very fast.It can be said that he is like a different person in the water. On the shore, he has a melancholy atmosphere. In the water, he seems to have become a swimming fish, and seems to have become a lonely bird, but he is still him, and no one can replace him. He, he swims with the sunset, and the autumn water is the same color as the sky.

Until he crawled onto my boat with his wet naked body, until he stood behind me, if he hadn't talked to me, I would not have known that this man's cheek was so close to mine.

"The painting is so beautiful, as if I am living in the painting." This is a mature and sad voice of a man, but it knocks on the door of my heart.

Only then did I start to look at the man in front of me. He has a very high degree of education but is willing to be ordinary, has enough charm but looks indifferent. It is such a man that women dare not flirt with. It is such a man who only meets others when he meets. Say hello, but everyone almost knows his name, Bai Shanyun, a top student in Baijia Town, also my brother-in-law.

"Brother-in-law, do you like it? If you like it, I will give it to you."

"Well, I've never thought I was so good-looking. It seems that people who are drawn look better than real people."

"Brother-in-law, you scared all my fish away."

"Really, then I'll help you lay a net, and you help me draw another picture."

"What painting?"

"Draw a picture of my back in police uniform."

My brother-in-law picked up a string of fishing nets and jumped into the river, splashing the waves and my desire. That was the first time I jerked off to a man's painting.

When he came back, the painting was basically finished. It was his back, wearing a police uniform.Of course, I painted the body first, and I also forgot why I chose this way to paint, and then added clothes one by one, but this time I only painted the clothes on the upper body, and my brother-in-law came back and left the painting Well, it’s good to say that, but he didn’t want the painting that I drew seriously, he must not have taken himself seriously.

Brother-in-law likes men, which man is so lucky?At that moment, I suddenly felt so happy that I was not alone.

It was a beautiful day, because someone finally told my heart.

"The men you draw are prettier than the women."

"I can't look at women carefully, or the gang of old and young men will kill me with knives."

"The men you draw have charm. Almost every picture has men, especially their genitals. You draw them beautifully."

"Brother-in-law, what do you want to say?"

"You like men, don't you?"

"You like men, and so do I. The person I like is where the white clouds drift. Where is the man you like?"

"On the painting."

He smiled, never seen him smile so happily.I also laughed, never laughed so sadly.The person I like is him, but I dare not say.

Later, when I approached him, I was always rejected by him, and I was even beaten up several times by him, which made me hate him, even my sister, and the man named Xiaoquan. Such a good man, why didn't he walk into my arms sooner, but ended up being my enemy.

On every full moon night, I began to like sleeping on the river. I even believed that it was not my brother-in-law who came to me that night, but a mermaid transformed by the moonlight. She knew the pain of my missing and came to comfort me. I am honest enough to wait, he will come again.

In the end, my brother-in-law had an accident. At the beginning, I was excited, thinking that it was the biggest mistake in his life that he missed me, because if I was with me, I would do everything possible to protect him.It was only later that I realized that I was wrong. It turned out that the man he loved the most was not me, and the man who loved him the most was not me, but the man named Xiaoquan.

Everything can't go back, the wound in my heart has long been a scar, but I still want to continue my life, I have my family, I can't be ruined like my brother-in-law.It's ridiculous for me, as a comrade, to harm my own kind with those who can't accept it.

Maybe I also look forward to love in my heart, as my brother-in-law said, his favorite place is Baiyun Mountain.Baishanyun, what a nice name, you are the mountain, I am the cloud, okay?

I don't know if I came to Luoyang because of the story my brother-in-law once told, or because I believe that he is still living in Baiyun Mountain?But I'm still here, like I can't control my feet, I don't expect anything to happen, I'm not afraid to face anything?Because no one here knows me.