his plaything

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You slapped me and said "I love you".

I will definitely let you hit me one more time.

Because I still want to hear it.

Maybe I'm just stubborn.

Shen Ze'an fell in love with his half-brother, Qin Cheng.

Why use the word love?

He said that the simple word "like" is not enough to express the pain he desperately endured at the critical moment of his feelings.

His brother was only three years older than him, but in his childhood memories, his mother became a woman who cheated and quarreled.

When she remarried to Shen Ze'an's father, she had no choice but to take him with her.

Qin negative's father had no money, and encountered financial difficulties, so he was fired by the company.If Qin negative was allowed to follow him, not to mention going to school, even eating would be difficult.Seeing that Shen Ze'an felt sorry for him, he simply took him back to live with him.

Before Shen Ze'an was born, Qin negative was the most beloved child in the family.

After he was born, the status of the family changed instantly.

Qin negative is like a passer-by in this family, no one cares what he thinks.

However, Shen Ze'an liked to play with him since he was a child.

From the very beginning, I envied Qin negative's freedom.

Turned into wanting to enjoy this freedom with him.

From the moment Shen Ze'an was born, his life for the next 17 years was clearly arranged.

He has become someone else's child, excellent, careful, gentle, and good grades.

Qin negative is his negative example.

But this didn't affect Shen Ze'an's attraction to him at all.

"Brother, are you back? Mom and Dad are going to see grandma, and it may take several days to come back. What do you want to eat?"

Before Shen Ze'an changed his school uniform, he skillfully tied an apron on himself. He stood at the door of the kitchen and looked at Qin Ling smoking a cigarette. There was a wound on his face. He must have just finished a fight, and his whole body looked scary.

He ignored Shen Ze'an, but sat on the sofa and smoked another cigarette.

He hates Shen Ze'an.

Very nasty.

Even if Shen Ze'an treats him well, he will still loathe him from the bottom of his heart, wishing that he would disappear immediately.

Shen Ze'an was not used to this kind of scene, so he took out alcohol and cotton, and carefully cleaned Qin's wound.

Qin negative looks very good-looking.

He is not like his mother at all, but like his poor father.

Relying on some good looks, he managed to make his mother follow him through hardships for several years.

"hiss……"

"Does it hurt? I'm sorry, let me take it easy."

Seeing Shen Ze'an's obedient and obedient appearance, Qin negative just wanted to tear it up with his own hands.However, every time he spoke ill of each other, Shen Ze'an accepted everything and even apologized to him.In this way, Qin Lu felt like punching the cotton with a punch, which was meaningless.

Qin negative didn't eat dinner.

He only stayed for less than 10 minutes before leaving, and it was already one o'clock in the morning when Shen Ze'an received the call.

It was also very noisy outside the nightclub. There were a group of gorgeous men and women standing, enjoying the nightlife.

Qin negative was helped out by his friends. He seemed to be drunk and kept making trouble inside, and his friends almost couldn't stop him.The people in the nightclub asked them to pay compensation, otherwise they would not let them go. Hearing this, Qin Ling made that phone call as usual.

"I'm sorry to trouble you, how much is the compensation?"

"It's you again, brother, hurry up and tell your brother to stop making trouble, it's the second time this month."

"I'm sorry, I'll go back and talk to him."

Shen Ze'an came out after giving the money, and saw Qin negative and his group of gangster friends continuing to drink inside.He checked his watch, it was almost two o'clock, and he was waiting outside for them to finish.

Qin negative came out at 02:30.

When Shen Ze'an saw him, he walked over cautiously.Qin negative was taller than him, so he had to raise his head and asked softly, "Brother, have you gone back?"

Then, he saw the hickey on Qin negative's neck.

Hands, clenched involuntarily.He didn't let go until his nails sank into his palm and started to feel pain.

He is angry.

"Qin Ling, is this your pet brother?" A bold and sexy woman put Qin Ling's shoulders naturally, seeing Shen Ze'an, she couldn't help but tease her: "You are so good, you are always on call, I will wait for you to play enough before picking you up."

"He's not my younger brother." Qin Ling gave Shen Ze'an a cold look, "He likes to be mean, I don't care."

In the car, Qin negative squinted at Shen Ze'an next to him.

Others said that he had an impeccably perfect younger brother, and his family ignored him, but Shen Zean took care of him, so Shen Zean would clean up the mess for him every time.

God closed his door, but opened the window for him to breathe.

Back home, Qin negative pushed Shen Ze'an away and went back to the room alone.

Shen Ze'an took a warm towel, knocked on the door, and asked tentatively, "Brother, are you asleep?"

There was no sound of banging on the door, which meant that his brother was still awake.

"Brother, are you hungry? Or I'll make you a pot of tea to sober you up, okay?"

The door opened, but Qin negative roared: "Are you annoying!"

"I'm sorry, I just..."

"Snapped!"

Shen Ze'an only felt that his left cheek was burning hot.

He had known for a long time that his brother would smash things to vent after drinking, and he also knew that if he disturbed him at this time, he would be beaten.

Shen Ze'an was used to it.

Qin Ling accidentally hit him once, but he didn't say a word, he just packed everything silently and continued to treat Qin negative.

His brother, it was like discovering a new game.

Throwing things will cause noise, and parents will not like it when they hear it.But if the target is Shen Ze'an, he will be silent, and he will clean up the traces for you so that no one can find out.

How interesting.

Even if he found a bruise or a wound, he would hide it from his parents.

Said it was accidentally obtained in physical education class.

Seeing his tense expression pretending to be calm, Qin negative felt pleasure for the first time.

He wanted to see this man whose parents were proud of suffer.

He wanted to tear off his disguise and see his truest side.

Shen Ze'an lowered his head, Qin Ling didn't know how to slap his face before, maybe his parents didn't come back these days, so it doesn't matter if he slaps his face.

"I'm sorry, brother."

"Go to the stairs and kneel."

"Yes……"

Qin Ling didn't think much about it, and as soon as Shen Ze'an knelt down, he kicked him down from the stairs on the second floor.

Fortunately, the stairs were not long, Shen Ze'an only felt that the world was spinning before his eyes, and the bones of his whole body were bumping and bumping, as if they were falling apart.Then the severe pain came over and over again, and even his strength to stand up was taken away.

"Do you know it wrong?"

Qin negative walked down step by step, Shen Ze'an raised his eyes and looked at him with difficulty.

I don't know if my heart is beating wildly because of the weightlessness of falling down the stairs or because of him.

The skin on the forehead was scratched, and the blood flowed out slowly, stopping at the corner of the eye.

Qin negative stepped on Shen Ze'an's face with his toe so that he could see him clearly through the light.

His younger brother is really like his mother.

Especially eyebrows and eyes.

All kinds of styles, flattering but not vulgar.

It reminded him of the past of his father and mother, how sweet and happy they used to be.

"sorry."

Shen Ze'an struggled to get up, he didn't care about his injury, and instead knelt down at Qin Ling's feet.

What a shame for dirty poses.

But he is like a devout believer, dedicating himself to his faith.

Qin negative felt that he was sick.

A normal person would definitely not be able to accept his behavior.

Shen Zean endured it, and regarded it as a reward.

"you like me?"

Unexpectedly, what Qin Ling said casually made Shen Ze'an tremble.

Interesting.

The younger brother who had always been hated by him actually liked him.

"you're disgusting."

Shen Ze'an knew that if Qin negative knew his feelings, he would feel a hundred times disgusted.

But I really heard him say that.

My heart still throbbed uncontrollably.

"I'm sorry, brother doesn't like it, and I won't show it in the future."

"what do you like about me?"

What do you like about Qin?

Shen Ze'an didn't remember clearly.

In his impression, his elder brother was always very smart when he was a child. He had good grades and a good personality. Everyone liked him very much.

Later, for some reason, his outstanding brother started to stay out at night, and his grades plummeted.He became irritable, willful, and unreasonable, and his relationship with him went to extremes.

But once.

It was raining heavily, so he went to pick up Qin negative.

Qin negative stole his father's ID card and just came out of a bar.He didn't bring an umbrella and was completely submerged in the rain.

Shen Ze'an stood in front of him, and he passed him without seeing him, but he saw his brother's tears.

At that time, Qin negative had celebrated his 17th birthday and received the news of his father's death the next day.

"Why can't all you have be me?"

Qin negative grabbed Shen Ze'an's neck and asked him with confusion and pain.

That face is more childish than now, but in Shen Ze'an's eyes, it is the most beautiful boy he has ever seen.

Beautiful and sharp, but also so lonely and helpless.

Shen Ze'an couldn't understand at that time, he hugged Qin Cheng, he just wanted to save his brother from such pain.

Qin negative seemed to be comforted, he kissed Shen Ze'an.

Shen Ze'an didn't break free, instead he fell into this drunken kiss.

Even though Qin negative went back with a serious illness and couldn't remember that he had done such a thing, Shen Ze'an's mentality had undergone an earth-shaking change.

"Please forgive me." Shen Ze'an curled himself up into a ball, "Brother."

"stand up."

"……Yes."

Qin negative pinched his chin and licked the uncoagulated blood in the corner of his eyes.

Such a close distance, and the rapid and warm breath linger between each other.Shen Ze'an watched him helplessly, unwilling to miss every move, every minute and every second.

He remembered the touch of those soft lips kissing her.

Sad and ambiguous.

"how?"

Qin Negative's tone seemed to be mocking him, Shen Ze'an followed his gaze and saw that he () reacted.

"Just like this, can't you bear it?"

While listening to the cynicism of my beloved brother, the irrepressible desire is accumulating.

Shen Ze'an finally recognized himself.

He wants his brother's love.

"Give me a mouth."

Qin negative sat on the sofa, his expression was cold and heartless, but he kept luring Shen Ze'an to commit crimes.

"Don't you want it?"

Shen Ze'an crawled over on his knees.

His elder brother seemed to be the embodiment of the seven deadly sins.

lead him to hell.