Give you 1000 million and leave your son

11

That evening in May 2012 always pops up from my memory suddenly, with the strange beauty of a movie flashback.

Li Ping's 500 million has arrived in the account. I never thought I would have so much money. 500 million consists of several pieces of bank information, which are piled up in the mobile phone, which makes me unable to stand upright.

I started running from Exit No. 800 of Line [-], running faster and faster, the flashing neon signs were rushing backwards, the hustle and bustle of the street was suppressed into a roar, and the roar wrapped in the wind pierced into my ears. In an instant, I found that I had an illusion: I thought it was a sports meeting, and I could see you after [-] meters.

But no, He Yuchen, I ran farther and farther in the direction without you, carrying a heavy 500 million.

For many years to come, I thought of that evening countless times in a foreign land.Regardless of time, regardless of occasion: Ding, the memory is here.So the lights and sounds flooded me again, and then I would remember the illusion, then the games, then you.

You stand in the crowd at the finish line, talking to other people, laughing until you bent over and hugged your stomach, so happy and open.When you smiled, I almost laughed too, but no, I have the last lap left in my 800 meters.The surrounding scenery was receding, and the refueling script on the radio could not be heard clearly.

I think of you, the end is you.

"Su Pei! Su Pei is the number one! Pass the water, pass the water... hey people around you help me!" the female squad leader greeted angrily.

"No...it's okay." Actually, I was a little dizzy.

Surrounded by the crowd, I glanced back and saw that you were still not far away, playing with your mobile phone with a smile on your face.So I laughed too, that's great, did you see it?I ran No.1.

The sports meeting is almost over, I got away from the crowd, and I was going to go back to the classroom to sit for a while, but you appeared out of nowhere and put an arm around my shoulder: "Why is our champion alone again!", and then you held on Jumped up on my shoulder and touched the basket, grabbed my clothes corner and ran without any explanation.

The greening of the school is so good, I didn't notice it at all before.

We sat cross-legged on the lawn and looked at the sky without words, and there was no cloud in the sky. I remember it very clearly, because there was no cloud to cover my shame and ecstasy-when you confessed to me.

"Su Pei," you glanced at me with a smile, and then still looked up at the sky, "You must like me, just right, I like you too."

At that moment, you were shining brightly, my heart was blocked in my throat, and the sweat gushed out from my back.

"Which... which one do you like?" I closed my eyes in vain, and as soon as I asked this question, I gave up all my heart.

"It's the way other boys like girls, but I don't like girls, I like you."

Your voice was getting closer and closer, I opened my eyes suddenly, and saw your bright smile, I subconsciously held my breath.

You stretched out your palms and said cheerfully: "Make a seal, and we will officially fall in love from today on."

I carefully covered your palm, feeling itchy, and slid down my arm into my heart, numb and warm.

Later I asked you, when did you start liking me, and you slyly said it was the same time as I started liking you.I asked you why you confessed that day, and you said: "Because I liked you so much that day, I couldn't help it."

So I can't help it anymore, He Yuchen.

I'm coming back to you.Don't care about shitty companies, shitty financing, shitty domestic market.I just want to see you.Even if I lose my entire family, I will tell you my heart; even if you abandon me like a shoe, I will try my best to save you.Anyway, anyway, when I met you in the past, I was in a panic with nothing, and I didn't dare to face the monster in my heart in a panic.

That monster is called: I like boys, I like He Yuchen.

But you wrapped my heart tenderly and told me that it was not a monster, but a special little beast, which was shy and mischievous and grew up eating love.

I love you.

The fact that I love you became clearer after my shameful escape.When I wake up from a dream, I always ask myself: what did I do?What did I do?I actually took 500 million and gave up my favorite person.

I'm an asshole, He Yuchen, but I can't lie to myself, it's been seven years, and I still love you.

我 很想 你.

do you still remember me?

do you still remember me?

do you still remember me?

Su Pei

2018. 7, 13

on the voyage home