white lie

Chapter 10

一

Sure enough, on January [-], in response to the current raging red snake epidemic, the Education Bureau announced a one-week suspension of classes and an early Lunar New Year holiday.Zhang Yaqi, who heard the news, couldn't wait to visit Huang Zhijun in the hospital.

Zhang Junqi's cold is still not healed, so she still has to stay in bed to rest.Therefore, Zhang Yaqi went to the hospital to visit Huang Zhijun without her.

Zhang Yaqi once promised that Huang Zhijun would visit her, and on the first day of school suspension, she couldn't wait to fulfill her promise.

However, the notice posted on the door of the ward disappointed her so much that she fell limply on the ground.

In order to prevent the spread of red snake virus, the ward refuses any visits.

Why...why...why did God make such a joke, it was only a little bit...tears were streaming in her heart.

When she was downcast, the elevator door opened.

A girl came out of the elevator, and when she saw Zhang Yaqi, who was hopeless, she couldn't help being shocked.

The girl came up to her condolences and asked her what happened.

Zhang Yaqi pointed to the notice on the door, she immediately understood, and asked Zhang Yaqi if she was disappointed.

Zhang Yaqi choked up and said, why did she insist on refusing visits on this day? Is it true that God will prevent them from meeting.

lover?When the girl asked Zhang Yaqi, she was taken aback and said falteringly that she was visiting a friend.

When Zhang Yaqi looked back, she found that the girl in front of her seemed familiar, as if she had seen her a few days ago.

When the girl saw Zhang Yaqi's appearance, she also seemed to be taken aback.

Zhang Yaqi spoke first: "I am Zhang Yaqi, and you are...?"

The girl said, "I'm Huang Zhiqi. My sister once mentioned you. Are you her friend?"

"Huang Zhiqi...your sister, is Huang Zhijun?" Zhang Yaqi asked her.

Huang Zhiqi nodded, "So, are you here to visit my sister?"

Zhang Yaqi nodded, and Huang Zhiqi said to her: "It seems that we still won't be able to see Zhijun today, have you eaten yet? If you haven't eaten, let's have dinner together!"

Zhang Yaqi came to visit with a hungry stomach. She was already starving, so she readily agreed.

two

Zhang Yaqi and Huang Zhiqi were eating at a chain dumpling shop. When Zhang Yaqi was about to make a wish, Huang Zhiqi asked her a question.

What do you think of Zhijun?

When Huang Zhiqi suddenly asked her such a question, she was stunned for a while, and the soup dripped onto the bowl.

"What's going on?" Zhang Yaqi asked her.

"You are willing to be friends with my sister... I am really happy. This child has been living in the hospital and has no friends for more than seven years. You are the first friend she made. In fact, this child met After seeing you, I feel more cheerful..." Huang Zhiqi said emotionally.

"She finally found a suitable bone marrow transplant. It is expected that she will be able to undergo surgery in March and be discharged from the hospital during the summer vacation..." she said.

Zhang Yaqi was inexplicably excited when she heard that, and immediately shook hands with Huang Zhiqi to congratulate her.

"But..." Huang Zhiqi expressed her worries, "Zhijun has not been in contact with the society for more than seven years. I am worried that she will not be able to cope with this dangerous society. She is too pure and naive. If she is caught by those with malicious intentions I'm worried that she won't be able to pull herself together..." As she spoke, she choked up.

Zhang Yaqi remembered what Huang Zhijun had said to her.

When Huang Zhiqi was in the sixth grade of elementary school, because of some disputes with her classmates, she suffered from bullying in the last three months of her primary school career.

According to Huang Zhijun, she endured with difficulty.However, the sequelae have always troubled her. According to Huang Zhijun's testimony, Huang Zhiqi became reticent in the future, and even developed PTSD or something.

From Zhang Yaqi's own point of view, Huang Zhiqi showed no signs of stepping out of the shadows at all, she often hunched her shoulders, and hardly looked at her directly, her eyes flickered.

"Where's your dad?" Zhang Yaqi asked her, "I was killed last night. Dad hurriedly asked me to go to my uncle's place to avoid the limelight yesterday afternoon. I just had dinner when the news came that he was killed. The murderer was grandpa... Said it was revenge for his misfortune to his mother..." Huang Zhijun said in a trembling voice with a pale face.

"My sister doesn't know. I don't want her to know about it for the time being. If she finds out, her body will definitely be affected and the progress of her recovery will be affected. After all, finding the right bone marrow is a once-in-a-lifetime thing. I don't want to worry about everything." Back to the original shape, I have worked so hard for so long, and I was defeated at the door, I don't want this to happen, absolutely not..." She burst into tears, and Zhang Yaqi immediately handed her a tissue to comfort her.

What a tragic family.She thought to herself that Huang Zhiqi's worries were absolutely justified. In order to avoid affecting the progress of her recovery, this lie was very reasonable. However, if Huang Zhijun knew that they lied to her, the harm would be even greater.

Circling in this moral vortex made Zhang Yaqi feel in a dilemma.

three

Zhang Yaqi returned home with complicated thoughts.

When she came back, Zhang Junqi was eating porridge in her seat.Seeing Zhang Yaqi coming back, she asked where Zhang Yaqi had gone.

"Visiting friends... I talked too happily about the old days, so I talked for a long time, but I didn't leave you alone. The preserved egg and lean pork porridge you are enjoying now, but I cooked it for you this morning! "Zhang Yaqi said proudly.

"I'm not blaming you, it's just that... when I was sick, I stayed at home alone to recuperate, and no one listened to me. It seemed that I was the only one fighting the disease alone. It's pitiful..." Zhang Junqi said embarrassingly, playing with her fingers.

Zhang Yaqi was thinking about her sister's words, thinking that Huang Zhijun might be thinking the same thing now, although she should be used to being alone, but facing the raging plague, she might feel very scared.

"Sister, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have left you..." She hugged Zhang Junqi tightly and apologized.

In fact, during the more than ten months since their mother's temperament changed drastically and they quarreled, the two of them could be said to be close to each other, and the other was their only relative.

During the more than 40 days of the cold war after the quarrel, every day was very difficult, as if a part of my life was lost.

After that quarrel, they became more cherished and considerate of each other.

"No need to apologize, my sister is very grateful to you for thinking of me so much, cooking for me personally, and cooking my favorite porridge. In fact, I really want to thank you for taking care of me, a wayward young lady. My sister can't lose You..." Zhang Junqi burst into tears, thanking her with tears.

four

Zhang Qihui had just finished his day's work, and he thought to himself that the recent business has suffered a lot.

As the epidemic rages on, the flow of people on the street is getting less and less day by day, pedestrians are also wearing masks and rushing past, and the business of car dealers has also deteriorated with the spread of the epidemic.

Just as he was about to close the door, Zhang Yaqi went to the garage door and waited for him.

"Yaqi? Why are you here? Don't you have to take care of your sister? I'm about to close the door. If you have anything to say, wait until the door is closed!" Zhang Qihui said to her.

"My sister is completely recovered today... I still go out with my friends today! Actually, I have something important to ask for your advice today..." Zhang Yaqi responded to his question.

All right!come in!Zhang Qihui waved readily, and after Zhang Yaqi entered, he pulled down the iron plate.

"What do you want to consult?" Zhang Qihui asked her, and Zhang Yaqi faltered.

"Dad... I want to ask you, what would you do if you confessed to a friend... and it ended up screwing things up?" she said.

Zhang Qihui was taken aback, and hurriedly asked her what happened.

Zhang Yaqi frankly explained about Huang Zhijun, Zhang Qihui was so surprised that his jaw almost fell to the ground.

He didn't expect that his youngest daughter was only 12 years old, and she would have to face these difficult problems that adults might not be able to choose.

And what Zhang Yaqi said just now made him very concerned.

"By the way, what did you just say... What is liking Huang Zhijun? Is it friendship? Or love? Dad is really curious..." Zhang Qihui asked her.

"It's love...I'm sorry dad, I like girls..." Zhang Yaqi said awkwardly.

Zhang Qihui was shocked when he heard his daughter's declaration. He had mixed feelings. On the one hand, he was relieved that his daughter recognized her sexual orientation early. On the other hand, he needed time to accept the fact that Zhang Yaqi was gay.

"I always thought that the relationship between me and her was just that of fellow patients, and this relationship would naturally fade away after I was discharged from the hospital... But I couldn't forget her, and it became stronger and stronger. I have never had such a relationship before. Whether it's a friend, sister, or dad, it's the same, every time I think of her, I feel itchy in my heart, I'm sorry, I seem to be in love with her..." Zhang Yaqi confessed her feelings embarrassingly.

"No no no, no need to say I'm sorry, there's nothing wrong with you liking girls, but I'm relieved that you can be so frank, if you don't like men but just find a man to marry to avoid us worrying, then it will be even worse, It's not good for everyone, if a girl can give you happiness, as a father, there is no reason to object..." Zhang Qihui said with a sigh.

"Thank you for accepting me as a different kind of child..." Zhang Yaqi threw herself into his arms and burst into tears.

Zhang Qihui admired his daughter's courage and was proud of her daughter.

After Zhang Yaqi calmed down, she asked her father what to do about Huang Zhijun.

"In my opinion, it's better to keep it from her... Her sister is right, the opportunity for bone marrow transplantation is very rare. Although this is not a trivial matter, the trauma caused by her father's death may be immeasurable, and it is still The one who was killed... I can't accept it if she is. I will think about how to answer her when she recovers!" Zhang Qihui answered her.

Zhang Yaqi nodded.

五

It was the seventh day of the Lunar New Year, and Zhang Qihui took his daughter to Cheng Meihua's home to pay New Year's greetings. Cheng Meiling happily accepted them when she saw them.

"I miss you so much! The last time I saw you was at the funeral. It's been a long time since you've grown up again... As for Ah Hui, the last time I saw you was four years ago? You lost a lot of weight, I hardly recognize you." Cheng Meihua looked at them and said.

"I'll gain weight again in a few years. I'll be forty next year... By the way, haven't you visited them?" Zhang Qihui asked her.

"I'm busy with work... I have no time to take care of those three girls. My husband visited them and said they were fine, so I didn't go into it..." Cheng Meihua said in a low voice, "I don't want to see your sister... "

"It's been so long...haven't you let go?" Zhang Qihui sighed.

In other words, Zhang Xiaoya once argued with her classmates in middle school, and then got into a big fight. The assistant of the Discipline Office at the time judged that Zhang Xiaoya was the first to provoke after reviewing the students' confessions, and punished her for a minor demerit and a thousand-word repentance letter.

The assistant of the training department at that time was Cheng Xiaohua.

Later, when they got together at Zhang Qihui and Cheng Meiling's wedding, Zhang Xiaoya didn't say anything, Cheng Meihua thought she had let go of it, or had forgotten about it, but she was so naive.

One day a month later, Zhang Xiaoya called her and said that she had something to clarify.

"I finished that letter of repentance with tears and resentment...Cheng Meihua, don't think that I will forget this matter. This is the imprint of my life, and I will never forget it. Don't think that your sister and I If I get married, I will give up because of that, I will have you, let's see!" Zhang Xiaoya said unceremoniously.

Cheng Meihua, who was only 27 at the time, said bluntly that a waste of both mind and brain like her would fall into the trap of her classmates, bluntly saying that she deserved it.

Zhang Xiaoya is very sensitive to body issues, and Cheng Meihua's words made her even more angry, resulting in a big quarrel, which was almost made into a video and posted on the Internet.

Fifteen years have passed, and the arrogance of both sides has subsided a lot, but the road to relief and reconciliation is still long.

"Stop talking, come in quickly! Don't let the children catch cold outside the door." Cheng Meihua urged them to go in.

六

Zhang Junqi and Zhang Yaqi played with their cousins, while Zhang Qihui discussed with Cheng Meihua and his wife about the aftermath of his wife's funeral.

"There is no need to refund the expenses for the funeral. Now is an extraordinary period. Let's save ten yuan and eight yuan for emergencies!" Zhang Qihui planned to pay the silk money, but Cheng Meihua's husband flatly refused.

"Thank you... By the way, how did Jun Qi and the others behave at the funeral? Did anything important happen?" Zhang Qihui asked them.

Their memories are roughly the same as Zhang Xiaoya's testimony, they all praised Zhang Junqi for being strong and reassuring.

"But..." Cheng Meihua recalled, "Meiling seems to have beaten them before. When the corpse was identified, Jun Qi had a bandage on her left hand. From her expression, it looked very painful...According to Yaqi, Zhang Junqi seemed to protect her. , I got a stick on my left arm..."

"Meiling was under a lot of pressure at the time. Shortly after she was promoted, the company encountered financial problems. She couldn't increase income and had to cut expenses. She fired many old officials, many of whom were her comrades-in-arms and partners she had known for more than ten years... This made her suffer psychologically. There was a lot of pressure, and Yaqi was at the time of the sub-examination period, and she was very worried that Yaqi would not be able to enter a good middle school, which would affect her future academic level, so she broke out under the double pressure..." Cheng Meihua analyzed.

Zhang Qihui sighed, his wife is really unfortunate, and at the same time, he felt guilty that he was not by her side at the time, unable to share her worries, and said that he was an unqualified husband.

"Don't blame yourself like this... Take good care of your daughters, so that Meiling will feel relieved to see her in the sky." Cheng Meihua comforted him.

"Thank you..." Zhang Qihui thanked her for her understanding and enlightenment.

Seven

That night, Zhang Yaqi called Huang Zhijun.

"Hello..." A familiar and friendly voice sounded from the other end of the phone, "Are you Yaqi? I miss you so much, I want to see you so much..." Huang Zhijun said weakly.

"I really want to see you too...Why did God make such a joke, let us meet and not let us meet? It's really cruel..." Zhang Yaqi cried and complained.

"Don't cry, Yaqi...I don't want to hear you cry, I feel so bad for you..." Huang Zhijun choked up.

"You should be happy for me...I finally have hope to leave the hospital. Did you ask me who I want to see the most after I leave the hospital? Now I have the answer, you have to wait for me!" she said.

Zhang Yaqi was very moved after hearing this, and said happily that she would definitely wait for her, no matter how long she had to wait, she would not empathize with others.

However, the next words pushed her into the abyss.

"...I will formally date you, and then I will see my father. He has worked tirelessly to support me in this battle. I must thank him very much!" Huang Zhijun said excitedly.

On the other end of the phone, Zhang Yaqi's face was blue with fright, and she wanted to tell the truth, telling her that her father had been reunited with her mother in heaven.

However, telling the truth would bring her huge psychological trauma, and she might not be able to accept it, but the difficulty of concealing this matter was far greater than imagined, and she felt very uncomfortable.

"What's the matter? Yaqi? Did you hear that? Why didn't you speak?" Huang Zhijun asked anxiously.

"Zhijun, I'm sorry...I'm a little uncomfortable, I'm going to hang up..." Zhang Yaqi said with a pale face.

Huang Zhijun said uncomfortably to take care of himself and hung up.

After hanging up, Zhang Yaqi ran to the toilet and vomited frantically.