white lie

Chapter 12

一

May has come, and the epidemic has not receded, and continues to wreak havoc in the city.

The epidemic has not subsided, and the resumption of classes is of course nowhere in sight. Everyone is still hiding at home and not going out.

So far, the epidemic has infected more than 20 people and nearly 5000 people have died.

There are almost no pedestrians on the street, even on weekend nights, the situation is the same, there are more cockroaches on the street than people.

Huang Qingmei, who had been hiding at home for nearly four months, felt that she was going crazy.

"It's so boring... I've been hiding at home for almost four months. When will this damn plague end? People are going crazy at home every day! I want to go out to play!" She protested desperately with disheveled hair. He collapsed on the table with an expression on the verge of crying.

"I'm so bored too... When will we get out of the abyss of the epidemic? It's like this every day, it's really boring..." Huang Zhiqi frowned.

Hearing that Huang Zhiqi finally agreed with her words, Huang Qingmei was shocked and couldn't believe it.

"My God, even you, who hate group life so much, agree with me. It seems that the sun will come out from the west tomorrow!" She exclaimed in surprise.

"People really want to have a group of friends and girlfriends to play with... I'm just not good at socializing." Huang Zhiqi said aggrievedly.

"Actually, what happened to you? How did you get post-traumatic stress disorder?" Huang Qingmei asked her.

"I'm sorry... I don't want to think about what happened that time, so let's stop here, okay?" Huang Zhiqi pressed her temple.

Huang Songjiang came out of the room and handed them a five hundred yuan bill.

"You guys said that staying at home is so boring, and I really want to go out to breathe fresh air... It's just right now, go to the supermarket to buy a week's worth of vegetables and come back, and use the rest to buy snacks or buy your hygiene products! "He said to Huang Qingmei and the others.

They happily agreed, after all, they hadn't set foot outside the house for four weeks.

two

The sun was fierce and the heat was unbearable, and the road surface of the street was boiling enough to fry eggs.

There are almost no pedestrians on the street, just like a dead city.

Huang Qingmei and the others felt like walking in the desert on the street.

"It's so hot...it seems better to stay at home." Huang Zhiqi complained.

"No... Isn't it great to finally be able to walk on the street? I want to go shopping for a while before going home!" Huang Qingmei's face was full of spring breeze, and she was filled with energy instantly.

They went out together, not only because the two of them stayed at home for too long, and they would go crazy sooner or later if they didn't go out for a walk, but also because they could take care of each other when they were together, and they were not afraid of being targeted by bad guys.

"Since you don't plan to go home so soon, can you go to the beach with me?" Huang Zhiqi asked.

"I didn't come here in a swimsuit... I can't swim." Huang Qingmei said awkwardly.

The two walked and soon reached the beach.

They sat down on the dead wood on the beach and looked towards Tolo Harbor ahead.

"It's nice to have trees for shade in this place. It's cool and comfortable. You won't get sunburned after sitting for a long time." Huang Qingmei said happily.

"Huang Qingmei..." Huang Zhiqi rarely looked at her directly, Huang Qingmei thought, she is really beautiful, "I have something to tell you, can I?"

Huang Qingmei nodded.

"I've been thinking about it for several months, wondering if I should tell you what happened to me...but I never had the chance to say it...Actually, it's not that I didn't have the opportunity to say it, but that I didn't have the courage to talk about it in front of you In the past... now it's just me and you, I want to take this opportunity to confess to you..." Huang Zhiqi said.

"In the second half of the sixth grade, those bastards did not know where they learned about my parents' divorce and Zhijun's long-term hospitalization. Discussing loudly in front of them how loving their parents are, how healthy their younger sister is, how happy their own family is..." she said.

"They bullied you because your parents divorced? They are too much!" Huang Qingmei said through gritted teeth.

"I've always been a quiet child, never getting angry, because I don't like their hobbies, and I rarely pay attention to them, so they think I'm easy to bully..." Huang Zhiqi deduced.

"After more than two months, I finally couldn't hold it back anymore. I scolded them angrily, saying they were too much... This is my private matter, and I can't accept that they treat my family's situation as a joke..." Thinking of this, Huang Zhiqi Can't help crying.

Huang Qingmei comforted her, and at the same time she was angry that her elementary school classmates did such a thing.

"Then... I complained to the teacher that I was being bullied, and those bastards immediately changed their faces, saying that they cared about me very much, and then pretended that maybe their way of caring about me was too special, which made me misunderstand their "good intentions"... The teacher actually believed Kill them!" Huang Zhiqi clenched her fists and said angrily.

She said the matter was not over.

Later, those classmates even accused Huang Zhiqi of bullying them.They produced a bunch of "personal evidence" and "material evidence" to prove that Huang Zhiqi was the real bully. Since their evidence was sufficient, Huang Zhiqi could not refute it even if it was all false.

In the end, the teacher punished Huang Zhiqi for the three crimes of reporting a false case, bullying classmates, and deceiving the teacher.

Fortunately, her father sided with his daughter and did not blame her.

In the following month, she continued to be bullied, and the bullying behavior escalated.

Her workbook, stationery, and sanitary napkins were hidden, and she was doused in cold water when she went to the toilet. The only monitor who supported her was also forced to leave sadly.

When her only backer was lost, her classmates bullied her unscrupulously, which hit her hard.

"...Do you want to listen to what I say next?" Huang Zhiqi asked warily.

Huang Qingmei nodded anxiously.

"I will never forget that day, May 21st of that year... On that day, when I went home, I was attacked by those bastards, they said I was a stinky, and they said they would send me back to where I should go where..." Huang Zhiqi recalled painfully, with tears in her eyes.

"I... was stripped of all my clothes, my limbs were tied up, I was thrown into the men's bathroom, and I was photographed..." Thinking of this, she threw herself into Huang Qingmei's arms, crying like a child.

"Where did you get thrown into the toilet? Did you get violated? How did you solve it?" Huang Qingmei asked her in shock.

"The elementary school I went to was a girls' school, and there was very little traffic in the men's room. I was thrown to the toilet on the first floor...but because of this, no one found me..." Huang Zhiqi wept weakly.

"I'm really scared. Do you know how scary it is to be alone in a dark toilet? The water from the faucet dripped drop by drop in the washbasin. I listened to it all the time in the toilet. I was really scared...they still They threw me into the men's bathroom, no one could save me, I was very scared, they would find boys to rape me..." Huang Zhiqi cried out her fear.

Huang Qingmei asked her in horror how the matter ended in the end.

"The next morning... You heard me right, I spent the whole night in that terrible place, listening to the sound of water droplets, in fear... The next morning, the squad leader received a secret message that the bastard in the class Send her my ID, and she immediately flipped through all the school's bathrooms, and finally, she found me after ten o'clock..." Huang Zhiqi cried.

"When I saw her, I really felt so warm, my savior, my angel... she saw me lying next to the toilet, she didn't feel sick, she didn't abandon me, she immediately hugged me and cried Apologize to me, saying that she was late and not qualified to be my friend... In fact, she was willing to risk everything to rescue me, I am really grateful to her, at that moment, I felt that everything was okay..." She Say with emotion.

"Since the matter is settled here, what is your PTSD about?" Huang Qingmei asked after hearing this.

"Did you forget? That's the men's room..." Huang Zhiqi cried, "The class monitor walked into the men's room, and the students who were ambushing nearby took photos and threatened her. She broke up with me immediately. She refused decisively, and those photos were taken immediately. It was put in the discussion area... The matter of the squad leader saving me was immediately changed to a pervert breaking into the men's bathroom..."

"That's not enough, they also spread the news that I had an affair with her, saying our relationship was a sadomasochism, she locked me in the men's bathroom on purpose to make me cum, she couldn't bear the pressure and gossip, she dropped out of school... . . . " she continued to recall painfully.

"I'm really guilty. If I could be stronger and speak up for her, she might not suffer like this. Why can't I do anything when she protects me... I feel really useless... I can't protect my family, I can't protect myself, why, I can't even protect my angel..." She sobbed in shame.

"Actually, it's not just that...One night, when I got up to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night, I saw the water from the toilet faucet dripping, I immediately screamed hysterically, fell to my knees, and peed my pants...I was there It was only after a moment that I realized that I had left a shadow... What made me even more sad was that I was already 12 years old at the time, and I was still incontinent. After a complete examination, he diagnosed me with post-traumatic stress disorder..." Huang Zhiqi recalled painfully.

After the memories were over, she buried her head in Huang Qingmei's arms and cried bitterly. Hearing what happened to her cousin, Huang Qingmei couldn't help crying.

"You are so pitiful... So, what happened to you? How was your middle school life?" Huang Qingmei asked her.

"My primary school career was over at that time... That incident had a great impact on me. I suffered from aphasia for more than two months and was unable to say anything... When the police came, I couldn't record any statement In the end, the whole thing was over..." Huang Zhiqi said with tears, "After that, I stayed at home to recuperate for more than a month, and I didn't return to school until the day when I was promoted to middle school. As for life in middle school...that photo was widely circulated. According to rumors, my classmates avoided me as if they were serious, and there were only a few of my classmates who were willing to approach me..."

After hearing what happened to her cousin, Huang Qingmei felt sour in her heart.

She felt so pitiful for her cousin, her life was ruined just like that.

She also resented those who ridiculed her cousin, thinking that their childish behavior was just adding salt to Huang Zhiqi's wounds and causing her indelible pain.

Speaking of bullying, she thought of one person.

three

"Harumi? What happened?" Zhang Yaqi asked when she received a call from Huang Qingmei when she was studying.

"Are you okay?" Huang Qingmei asked her, "It has been four months since the school was suspended. How are you? Nothing happened? I miss you so much..."

"Don't be so nasty...you're disgusting." Zhang Yaqi sneered, "Actually, people miss you very much. It's great that you're still alive...I haven't called me for so long, and I'm worried about you too."

"Actually, you're pretty much the same. Why do you still have the face to laugh at me as disgusting..." Huang Qingmei said with a smile, "Okay, okay, let's get down to business, how is your sister?"

"My sister...? Is she doing well? What's the matter?" Zhang Yaqi asked her in surprise, "It's nothing... I'm just curious, she seems to be bullied, is she okay?" Huang Qingmei said.

"This matter is really turning around... I can't finish talking for a long time..." Zhang Yaqi responded to her, and she was thinking about how to explain this matter to her.

When Zhang Yaqi learned the ins and outs of the whole incident from her sister, she was dumbfounded and couldn't believe the truth of the incident.

The reason for breaking up the couple was because she liked her sister and had evil thoughts.Those love dramas on the Internet will not have such bloody plots.

Feeling that Huang Qingmei was on the other end of the receiver, she seemed to be curious about what happened, so she had no choice but to convey to her verbatim what Zhang Junqi said.

Huang Qingmei was also taken aback when she heard this, she was amazed that this kind of thing happened in this world, which can be said to have refreshed her cognition.

Even so, she breathed a sigh of relief when she heard that Zhang Junqi's matter had been resolved satisfactorily and that she had gained a new friend.

Knowing that Zhang Yaqi met her second cousin when she was hospitalized, she asked her a question.

"Yaqi..." Huang Qingmei asked, "Since you know about my second sister, are you interested in learning about the past of my eldest sister?"

"The eldest sister you are referring to... is Huang Zhiqi?" Zhang Yaqi deliberated, Huang Qingmei smiled and said that she got the answer right.

"I've always wanted to ask what her PTSD is. Do you know something?" Zhang Yaqi asked her, and Huang Qingmei said coldly, "You got the answer right again, and her smile has gradually disappeared.

Then, she told Zhang Yaqi completely what happened to Huang Zhiqi at that time.

Zhang Yaqi was shocked when she heard this. She couldn't believe that her classmates would do such a thing. It was obviously too much.

"So... is she okay now? What about the monitor who helped her?" Zhang Yaqi asked in panic.

"What about you? After going through this kind of thing, do you think she can still live as if nothing happened? Why is there always some psychological shadow!" Huang Qingmei asked her back, her words were a little angry.

"I'm sorry, I just asked a stupid question, don't be angry..." Zhang Yaqi apologized hastily when she realized that she had said something wrong.

"Stop asking these stupid questions... Forget it, judging from what Zhiqi said, it seems that the squad leader still greets her now, and the relationship is still very good!" Huang Qingmei said.

It is reported that they seem to develop a same-sex love.Judging from Huang Zhiqi's statement, their relationship has reached the level of friendship, but not lovers.

"Yaqi..." Huang Qingmei said embarrassingly, "I like you...do you like me?"

"If it's on the level of friends, I like you very much..." Zhang Yaqi said with flushed cheeks, "If it's on the level of love, I'm sorry, please find another job, I have a sweetheart..."

"Is your sweetheart... Zhijun?" Huang Qingmei's face darkened, and she asked in a suppressed voice.

Zhang Yaqi was taken aback, the child's intuition was really accurate.

"Why... why do you like her? What can I do better than her? I don't want... I would rather you like boys... so that I can give up completely. Why are you so cruel?" Huang Qingmei cried.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know you liked me, I made you wait like this for nothing... I'm really sorry, don't leave me... Continue to be friends, okay?" Zhang Yaqi begged her forgiveness ashamedly.

Huang Qingmei cursed in her heart, her mouth was pure and Pan Dao yelled

Her heart hurts like a knife, and it's really hard to like someone but be rejected.

When tomorrow dawn comes, they will still be friends, but their relationship will not be the same.

She mustered up a lot of courage to confess, she had already thought that Zhang Yaqi would reject her confession, and she was already mentally prepared.But when it did happen, she still had a hard time.

If Zhang Yaqi likes boys, she can still consider herself unlucky and fall in love with someone who can't like herself.

However, the person Zhang Yaqi likes is her relatives, a girl whom she only met in the hospital, and who she has known for less than a month.

She felt very unconvinced, why did she start dating after a month of acquaintance?Is Zhijun really that good?What can I do better than that long-term hospital patient?

There are a hundred thousand reasons in her heart, and she doesn't know where she lost.

What made her more painful was that Zhang Yaqi said that they were still friends when they got up tomorrow.

She risked everything to confess to her because she was not satisfied with being Zhang Yaqi's best friend and wanted to develop a further relationship.

However, Zhang Yaqi's response can be said to be a denial of her efforts.

What's more, the phrase "continue to be friends" is comparable to Chuhe Hanjie, which means that their relationship can't go beyond friendship, but they can't break up friendship. This kind of ambiguous relationship makes her feel very hard.

She felt that Zhang Yaqi was so selfish, yet wanted to reject others and wanted to maintain the status quo. There was no such thing as the best of both worlds.

"I'm sorry...you should calm down, I'm hanging up." Zhang Yaqi said helplessly, Huang Qingmei tried her best to say it didn't matter, she sighed and hung up after hearing this.

At the end of the conversation, Huang Qingmei burst into tears.

four

"Xiaojun, how are you? I haven't seen you in four months! I miss you so much!" Huang Zhiqi said to Huang Zhijun on the other end of the phone.

"I'm fine. I'm fine. I should be discharged from the hospital in August... But, I heard that a serious infectious disease broke out! Have you been infected?" Huang Zhijun asked her in fear.

"I'm fine... On the contrary, it's you who have low resistance and have to stay in such a high-risk area. Are you okay? Before worrying about me, why not worry about yourself!" Huang Zhiqi asked her back.

"By the way, what's wrong with Dad? He hasn't called me these days! Did something happen to him?" Huang Zhijun asked worriedly. When her sister suddenly got to the point, Huang Zhiqi turned blue with fright and stammered speechless.

Damn, that pot doesn't open and lift that pot...

"What happened to him, just tell me, I'm ready for the worst..." Huang Zhijun said with a suppressed voice.

Dad is dead, and he was reunited with his mother in the sky... Huang Zhiqi really wanted to say this, but she couldn't say it.

She didn't know if Huang Zhijun could really bear it.

In other words, when she was told that her mother had passed away, she said it was okay to be brave, but she was depressed for several months and her physical condition went downhill.

Now is a critical moment, and there is no room for her to be depressed.

"Father...he's healthy now, he just went on a long trip, and he wished you a speedy recovery!" Huang Zhiqi tried to fool around.

She felt ashamed to deceive her sick sister, but there was no other way.

She didn't want to cause extra problems at such a critical moment.

"Why, both you and Yaqi kept it from me, so that I wouldn't know what happened to Dad... If something really happened to him, I would never let you two go..." Huang Zhijun warned her not to try to deceive She, give her one last chance to tell the truth.

Huang Zhiqi still hasn't told the truth.

Huang Zhijun didn't respond, just said to take care of himself and hung up.