Shanyue doesn't know what's on her mind

Chapter 1 Chapter 1

I know how many times the elder sister and father have fought each other.

In April in the world, the river can turn green, the old trees in the courtyard sprout, and the new leaves fall into the black temples.

That day, the gentle breeze was intoxicating, and when Yu Xia was about to die, I heard my own voice.

I want to enter the palace.

The elder sister who was waiting beside her parents suddenly raised her head, her beautiful eyes were dimmed.

The younger brother, who was ignorant of the world, was hugged by his mother, and asked suspiciously, "Didn't Daddy say to send the eldest sister?"

"Don't talk nonsense," Mother gently pressed the younger brother's head, and said softly, "It's the second sister."

The younger brother looked over, and in the clear pupils like obsidian, I could see a trace of reluctance.

He rarely walks with me.

The younger brother is weak in body and bones, and has been taken care of by his mother as a treasure since he was a child, and he has developed a pure and kind temperament.

Because of her innocence, maybe she will feel reluctance when she hears that someone has left.

My father is the Taifu, and my mother is the general's second daughter.

Relying on a rather prominent family background, the Ministry of Rites added Liu Leiqing to the brochure, and followed many noble ladies into the hall.

The bell rang and the gates of the palace closed.

Every time a name is called, someone will move out, bringing a burst of fragrance.

The incense is different, some are like pearls and jade, and some are like Qinglian.

I looked down at my embroidered shoes. The blanket under my feet was as soft as a brocade quilt, and stepping on it was like stepping on clouds.

The carpet was embroidered with clusters of flowers, which spread upward along the texture of the largest peony, spreading out of the crowd, and stopped on a pair of exquisite phoenix clogs.

Looking up, there is a dark golden phoenix robe and peacock feathers.

Inadvertently, he saw the queen's face.

She was born gentle and dignified, with delicate features.There is only a phoenix hairpin pinned in the bun, but it is difficult to conceal the elegance and dignity of the whole body.

On the other hand, Concubine Li Gui, who was beside the empress, with a furong face and eyes wide open, was dressed up grandly, and she was lazily leaning halfway on a chair and squinting at the people in the palace.

Everyone in the world knows that my sister is the most beautiful woman in Beijing. I looked at the queen for a long time before I realized that the queen's appearance is much higher than that of my sister.

She sits gracefully, with a beautiful posture and a moony charm, and her whole body is elegant, covering the spring scenery of Concubine Li Gui.

Whenever a beautiful girl stepped forward, she would look at her with watery eyes, or ask some questions in a soft voice, and gently twist the collar flower on her clothes with a slender hand.

I mixed in with the showgirls, and subconsciously imitated her flower-sharing movements with my hands.Unexpectedly, he didn't learn half a bit of nobility, but he caught the attention of Concubine Li Gui.

"Which beautiful girl doesn't know etiquette, but dares to imitate the queen in front of the palace?"

As soon as the words fell, many people searched for her gaze, which pierced like a sharp knife.

I immediately knelt down tremblingly, and looked down to see the embroidered shoes around me retreating away as if avoiding evil spirits, isolated like a flood of beasts.

One of the beautiful girls suddenly said, "That's the granddaughter of the great general, the daughter of the Taifu, Liu Leiqing."

No one in Beijing knows that Concubine Li Gui was born in the general family, and her mother's family was incompatible with her grandfather's.

Sure enough, Concubine Li Gui squinted her slender eyes when she heard the words, and looked up and down contemptuously. Although the embroidered clothes were added to my body, I felt that I was exposed in the crowd without clothes.

Concubine Li Gui smiled, "It turns out that she is also the granddaughter of the great general. Your eldest sister is quite famous in the capital, but I have never heard of Liu Leiqing before. She really lives up to her name and deserves the word "lei"."

The nails are deeply embedded in the palms of my hands. I hate others to compare me with my sister, and I also hate myself for being nothing but a shadow.

Her name is Liu Qingqing, and my name is Liu Leiqing.

Knowing that my parents just hope that I can be as good and dazzling as my sister, but the similarity can only be the similarity, after all, I can't be her person, I can only end up like a tiger dog.

There was a fishy sweetness in the throat, but it was swallowed alive.

Just as he was about to speak, he heard the soft but unignorable voice of the queen above, "Earlier, when Mrs. Liu was ill, Liu Leiqing ate fast and recited Buddha for half a year. His filial piety was a good story in Beijing. I still remember it."

"Don't be afraid, Lei Qing, come forward and let Ben Gong take a closer look."

She beckoned gently, and in a soft tone, I slowly got up and moved to the center of the hall.

The Queen looked at it carefully for a while, and the Yingying Qiutong reminded me of the sky turning white like mist before dawn.

I am afraid of the dark, so I often spend long nights slowly, waiting for the morning light to break through the diamond window on the bed.

"Well, the appearance is handsome, although it is not as bright and charming as your eldest sister, but the appearance is quite beautiful."

The queen folded off the narcissus in full bloom on the table, and the palace maid handed it to me. The fragrance of the flowers was immediately fragrant, delicate and elegant.

I was originally presented with flowers, and I thought I was a loser, but the queen still kept me and made me a talented person.

Talented people say it's not big, but there are beauties, concubines, concubines, noble concubines, and empresses.Joking but not small, the position is still pressing Chang Zai, choosing servants and picking girls.

In short, just entering the palace is completely enough.

Before leaving, Mother prepared a lot of treasures and servants as compensation, and I only brought the peace and joy of serving.

She was still graceful and luxurious, standing at the door watching me go away, until she got on the palace sedan chair, she never called me by name, or said a word of personal affection.

The last sliver of anticipation disappeared with the wind in silence, the car curtain fell, and my mother-daughter relationship with her came to an end.

The nanny who led the way couldn't help but tell her that the palace is so dangerous, and everything must be done wisely to protect oneself.

I should nod.

It is precisely because it is sinister that I am coming.

I live in Changqiu Hall, the entrance is a high platform facing the sun, with copper bells hanging from the corners of the eaves, which ring with the wind at dusk.

It's a bad fate, the person living in the same hall is Sun Cairen Sun Feiqing, she lives in the east hall, and I live in the west hall.

She revealed my identity that day, and when she knew that I was left behind, she sighed in disappointment.

I don't know her well, but I know her grievances with the elder sister.

She was jealous of her eldest sister, which hurt others.

Not long after entering the palace, everyone probably understood the situation in the palace.

The emperor was in his prime, but the harem only had the prince born to the queen and the second prince born to concubine Li Gui.

The queen's mother is the current prime minister, so she is close to my father.

Concubine Li's mother's family is the General Hussars. Because of the honor and favor, her mother's family has risen.

The grandfather looked down on them for not having great achievements but having high official salary, so the two sides were incompatible.

But the Li family has developed into a force that cannot be ignored. I often hear my father sigh and worry about the stability of the court.

I guess the emperor regretted giving too much power to Mrs. Li.

After Grain Rain, the south wind is getting warmer, and there are night rains from time to time.

There are always new raindrops hanging outside the curtain, like crystal dotted in the black tiles.

I strolled around Changqiu Hall, and saw the palace people in the East Hall were very busy.Pingan reminded that Sun Cairen's family brought a lot of things into the palace a few days ago.

Standing on the high platform and looking at it for a long time, the wind blowing near the height is even colder, and it can wear through the thick Chinese clothes.

These days, concubines who have just entered the palace frequently give gifts to the nobles, and stand in line quickly, hoping to get the emperor's favor first.

After entering the palace for one month, the newly promoted concubine, the emperor, is mostly lucky. She is safe and happy to see that I am not in a hurry, thinking that I have left behind.

After returning to the palace, I started to prepare gifts, Xi Le thought I had figured it out, I was going to give gifts to Concubine Li Gui, looked at it for a long time, and said, just now I saw Sun Cairen prepared a table full of gifts, there are only three, isn't it too little?

I looked at the two gifts, one big and one small, on the table, and slowly smiled and said, quite a lot.

Going out when the rays of the sun dissipated, Ping An walked ahead with the palace lantern in hand, but he didn't want to almost collide with someone at the corner just outside the Changqiu Palace.

It is Sun Cairen.

When she saw me, she opened her mouth and wanted to sarcasm, and my antagonism with her had already been brought to the fore.Facing her bad words, he didn't care much, and didn't want to get too entangled here, so he left directly.

After walking far away, Ping An realized that there was one gift missing.

I was walking in the direction of the Queen's Palace of Changle, Ping An thought I was going wrong, because the one who was really favoring her was Concubine Li, and most of the newcomers who attended the bed were Concubine Li's people.

I asked the palace guard to report, saying, Liu Cairen from the Changqiu Hall came to greet the queen.Not long after, an aunt hurriedly ushered me in.

The Hall of Changle is located in the center of the hundred halls of the harem, grand and magnificent, but much simpler than I imagined.

The empress was hugging the young prince to read books before the case. I felt that I was disturbing the warmth of others, so I waited obediently in the outer hall.

The layout of the hall is elegant and exquisite, the only abrupt thing is a huge carved gold phoenix attached to the back of the main seat, which is a symbol, a symbol of status.

The phoenix was lifelike, as if it had been sealed here, still spreading its wings.

But what it faces is not rebirth from the ashes, but the imprisonment of eternal life.

I was engrossed in watching, and the queen's soft voice sounded beside my ears, "Sit down quickly, why is Liu Cairen looking for me?"

A palace official came forward to pour tea, and the amber liquid gathered in the jade cup, reflecting the pensive eyebrows, and I realized that I had lost my composure, and presented the gifts one by one.

Precious is worse than a coincidence. The queen often suffers from waist injuries when she sits for a long time. I smiled and said, "This is a belt sewn by my concubine. I hope the queen will not dislike it."

The belt has a slight fragrance, and medicinal materials are added in it, which can relieve soreness.

The queen watched carefully, "The embroidery is exquisite, and it is rare for Liu Cai to be skillful."

The eldest sister is proficient in all kinds of piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, and the only thing I can do is embroidery.Hearing the queen's praise now, I couldn't suppress the joy in my heart.

Compared with Concubine Li Gui's Changxi Palace, Changle Palace is somewhat deserted, so quiet that you can hear the sound of the wind passing through the corridor and flapping the roller blinds.

The next one, "This is a special Zihao brush from Huizhou. The prince is still practicing calligraphy, so I think the concubine should be able to use it."

Hearing the crown prince, the queen's brows and eyes melted like water waves with a bit of tenderness, and there was a bit of sincerity in my eyes, "You have a heart."

The prince who was practicing calligraphy in the inner hall heard himself being mentioned, so he poked his head curiously, and happened to meet my eyes, then shrank back, practicing calligraphy obediently.

I smiled with crooked eyebrows, but I still had to answer the queen's words, "The prime minister has taken good care of my father. Before entering the palace, my mother asked me to visit the queen's mother more often."

Although the words are nonsense, the truth inside is clear.The Li family is too arrogant, the Liu family and grandfather have always supported the prince, so I naturally want to get closer to the queen.

The empress is a smart person, she immediately understood the meaning, and gave me some rewards, and asked me to walk around more before leaving, she was a little tired in Changle Palace.

Her almond eyes were full of sincerity, as if she was really lonely.

My heart twitched, and I quickly nodded in agreement. This feeling has always been with me for many years.

It was the crown prince who probed curiously, wanting to see what I looked like.I smiled at him, and he smiled back at me in a tiger-headed and tiger-headed way, with a bit of delicacy on his white and tender face.

With the matter of the draft hall, everyone knew that Concubine Li Gui didn't want to see me, and they all wanted to distance themselves from me.Sun Cairen lived in the same hall with me, and even asked the maids in the east hall not to pay attention to the west hall.

I often went to visit the empress, I came and went, and the relationship gradually became deeper, and the concubines in the palace naturally turned me into the empress's person.

One day I was drinking tea in Changle Palace, when I suddenly heard the queen ask, "Has my sister not gone to bed yet?" I almost spit out a sip of tea.

Seeing me shaking my head, the queen's tone was a bit worried, "There are only a few concubines left in the palace who have never served in bed, and most of them are in poor health. But you are in good health, but you have never been summoned. Maybe someone has tampered with it. "

At first, the queen might just want to win me over, but later she developed some genuine affection and treated me like her own younger sister, protecting and taking care of me everywhere.

I also like this Changle Palace, it is quiet and comfortable.

As for who is doing this, he must have great power in the harem and have a grudge with me.

Not long after returning to Changqiu Hall, I heard a sound from the East Hall.

After a while, an aunt came to the west hall and reminded, "Don't be disturbed by talented people. Sun Cairen's intention to frame the noble concubine has been found out by the noble concubine. I hope Liu Cairen will pay more attention."

I stood on the high platform and watched Sun Cairen being dragged away by two burly maids. I struggled and yelled unwillingly, "I was wronged, someone must have framed me! It must be Zheng Meiren! She must be Zheng Meiren!" Jealous of the noble concubine supporting me..."

Before she finished speaking, a dirty veil was stuffed into her mouth, and her writhing figure disappeared into the heavy palace walls.

"Where will she be taken?" Seeing this, Xi Le couldn't bear it.

I shook my head, "I don't know."

After Sun Cairen left, Changqiu Hall became much quieter and more at ease.

The next day, while embroidering and wiping the crown prince's forehead, Ping An came back mysteriously and asked, "Do you want to know what happened yesterday?"

I put down the embroidery work in my hand, stared at her, and continued safely, "I heard that Concubine Li Gui used the rouge sent by Sun Cairen, and her face was red. Now I can't see anyone behind closed doors, and I will vent all my anger on Sun Cairen." body."

Xi Le was straightening the thread, and said in surprise, "Could it be that Sun Cairen didn't know that Concubine Li Gui is allergic to pearl powder? I know that even if I'm in the palace, I will avoid it."

What the truth is is no longer important.

Pingan suddenly remembered the missing gift box, his eyes flickered, but he didn't ask anything after all.

The sun is shining outside, let Xile find me a kite.

Xi Le is fast and efficient, and soon brought a swallow-shaped kite, which is brand new.

I hold the slender white thread in my hand and the kite in the other hand, when the wind blows.After trotting for a while, the kite quickly flew up.

Xi Le happily jumped up, and clapped her hands, "Get up, get up." Ping An thought she was too extroverted and reminded her, "This is the palace, not our courtyard, so don't shout."

Looking at Ping An's mature appearance, it was a little funny, but also a little sad. It was I who brought them into the tightly sealed imperial palace. If you are not careful, you may fall into the abyss.

So I have to become stronger so that I can no longer be a shadow, no longer be ignored, and be able to protect happy people.

Sunset on the west mountain, Yuxia sprinkled on the palace willows, golden brilliance in the green, rolling the withered yellow of the leaves.

The night wind was blowing slowly, and the kite was blown wildly, swaying left and right.

Knowing that some things could not be kept after all, I tore off the thread in my hand with all my strength.

The kite fluttered and fell amid joyful exclamations, and landed outside the Changqiu Hall.

"No need to pick it up, let's go back."

Clap your hands, return to the hall, and continue to pick up the embroidery work just now.

I got closer to the empress, and I gradually got acquainted with the prince.Last time I embroidered a pair of shoes for the queen, he didn't agree with it, and pestered me for an embroidery.

Clothes and shoes, etc., the queen prepared by herself early on, and I embroidered and wiped his forehead for him, which was considered dismissal.

After a while, a thin voice sounded from outside the hall.

"Did your lord lose the kite?"