To Sutta

【001】

2031 years.

It's winter.

Modern cities stand firm against the wind.

The cold wind hit the tempered glass, making a muffled sound.Suta sat upright in front of the desk, clenched his hands, looking a little nervous.He glanced at the wall clock on the wall, and then set his eyes on the back of the man in front left working, feeling very anxious inside.

It's been 10 minutes since get off work, and the man is still writing code quickly on the virtual keyboard as if he didn't hear it.

This is a game company, and they are responsible for the development and maintenance of the game.

Nowadays, the rapid development of electronic information technology, as mentioned in science fiction and animation, games have changed from having to be attached to computers more than ten years ago to being independent of a blindfold device, and people connect brain waves with the virtual world , you can enter the game, so as to achieve an immersive effect.

And they are responsible for the settings of the game details.

There were only a few people left in the office, and another computer shutdown sound sounded. The colleague put on his coat and said to Suta, "Suta, are you still not off work?"

Su Ta was still staring at the man's back. Hearing the words, he came to his senses and quickly replied: "Hurry up, I still have something to finish."

The colleague nodded and left without saying much.

Su Ta watched his colleagues leave, but his inner anxiety calmed down a little.He silently recited the words he had thought up over and over again in his heart, for fear that his tongue would get stuck when he spoke tonight.

After about 10 minutes, the man leaned back in the chair, stretched his powerful arms, and stretched himself.

Suta stood up almost immediately, and accidentally moved the chair making a long noise, and the man turned his head when he heard the sound.

"Lin Lin Lin Ling—" Su Ta ignored the embarrassment and uttered an inarticulate cry, his face was already blushing.

Seeing his appearance, Lin Ling raised his eyebrows slightly in surprise: "Su Ta, what's wrong with you today?"

Su Ta stabilized his breath, and said word by word: "You haven't eaten dinner yet, I know there is a good restaurant, how about we go together? I invite you." He waited for Lin Ling's answer, his heart beating extremely fast .

"Have you finished your work?" Lin Ling asked.

"Done, done." Suta nodded.

Lin Ling smiled when he heard the words: "That's fine."

The two took the elevator to the company's underground parking lot, and Su Ta got into Lin Ling's car, feeling a tizzy in his heart.

Lin Ling is his college classmate, and the two have known each other for a long time.

At that time, they both majored in the Department of Information Technology, and they often met in the classroom, and they were very familiar. After a casual conversation, the two became friends.Lin Ling was very handsome, his hair was cut very short, and he looked neat and tidy. Su Ta remembered him the first time he saw him.

After the two got acquainted, Lin Ling invited him to dinner every now and then, and Su Ta naturally had to invite him back, so the friendship between the two lasted for three years.

Lin Ling treated him very sincerely, and he also regarded Lin Ling as a true friend.It’s just that since when, Suta’s feelings for Lin Ling have been mixed with other unknown things. Lin Ling’s smile, the way he looks when he is angry, the way he eats, and the way he falls asleep, always exists so clearly in his mind.

He didn't notice it at first, but as this worry about gains and losses became more intense, Suta also began to feel strange. For example, he always felt close to Lin Ling, and his heart beat faster when he was close to him. girls feel lost.

It wasn't until one night that Suta dreamed that he was kissing Lin Ling, and finally realized it suddenly.

He may have fallen in love with Lin Ling.

When Suta realized this, he was very at a loss. He never thought that the one he liked was actually a man.He searched for information on the Internet, used the money he had saved to secretly meet with a psychiatrist, and learned that his sexual orientation was not necessarily of the same sex, but maybe it was just some vague idea, or it was a sign that he cherished this friendship.

Suta managed to calm down, but couldn't help avoiding Lin Ling. He deliberately sat far away from him in class, and the number of times the two of them ate together decreased.Within a few days, Lin Ling took the initiative to ask him if something had happened recently, but Su Ta didn't answer, but Lin Ling didn't chase after him, and only said that he must come to him if necessary.

This made Su Ta feel guilty, but his heart was full of contradictions. He found that during the few days when he was hiding from Lin Ling, he missed Lin Ling more and more.In those few months, although Lin Ling often came to see him, the relationship between the two was finally not as close as before.

After three years like this, Su Ta's feelings for Lin Ling not only did not fade as he imagined, but became more and more intense. Several times, Su Ta almost pulled Lin Ling to confess to him.

This impulse ebbed and flowed, and on the night they were about to graduate and had their last dinner together, Suta got so drunk for the first time that he lay still on the table.Under the dim light of the restaurant, Lin Ling stroked his hair and asked him if he was okay, but suddenly the tip of his nose was sore and he shed a few tears.

He found that he really liked Lin Ling.

But until the two parted ways at the subway station the next day, Suta failed to express this love.

Since then, it has been difficult to see each other again.

But what Suta never expected was that three years later, he and Lin Ling reunited in a game company and became colleagues.

When Suta saw him, his head was completely blank for the whole afternoon, and he didn't know whether it was extreme nostalgia or ecstasy.

In the past three years, Lin Ling has changed a lot. The previously flamboyant eyebrows have become calm, the lines of his face have faded, and his eyes are as sharp as pointing at people's hearts. A similar look.

"It's you, Suta—"

"Suta."

The man whispered, passing through a long time, a little hoarse.

Su Ta broke away from his thousands of thoughts, turned his head, and looked at Lin Ling: "Huh?"

Lin Ling stopped in front of the traffic light and looked sideways at him.

Within two seconds, Su Ta's face suddenly became hot: "What's wrong?"

"You haven't said where to eat yet."

When the two arrived at the restaurant, Suta ordered a few dishes and handed the menu to Lin Ling.Lin Ling only said that he had never been here before, so he just ordered, and Su Ta ordered all the ones he thought were good.

The atmosphere of the restaurant is very peaceful, most of them are couples or a family of three, no one is making any noise, which is suitable for what Suta is about to do.

He wants to confess to Lin Ling.

It has been a month since I worked with Lin Ling, and it only took Suta three days from the initial shock to acceptance, because they were replaced by a more vivid feeling, that is, liking for Lin Ling.

It seemed that the seeds that had been buried deep underground for three years finally burst out of the ground when they finally saw the sun, filling Suta's heart in an instant.Between breaths, Suta felt that this emotion was about to overflow from his mouth into words at any time.

I like you.

When the dishes were served one by one, Suta stared blankly at the table, rehearsing the scene of his confession to Lin Ling in his mind, and his fingertips trembled slightly.

When the dishes were all on the table, Lin Ling raised his eyebrows at him: "Why don't you eat?"

Su Ta knew that there were only two outcomes after confessing, if Lin Ling rejected him, then they would really be strangers from now on.But what if Lin Ling accepted it?Even if there is only a one in ten thousand possibility, he doesn't want to miss it again.

So Suta took a deep breath and said softly, "Lin Ling...I have something to tell you."

Lin Ling observed Su Ta's expression, and when he heard the words, he straightened up and folded his hands on the table, which was his expression when he was serious.

"what?"

"I..." Suta summoned up his courage, the words that had been brewing for a long time disappeared without a trace, he opened his mouth, but couldn't utter a single word.

Lin Ling looked at him with calm eyes, like the surface of a lake, with a kind of tolerance and gentleness.

Under that gaze, Su Ta slowly relaxed, looking down at Lin Ling's hand, which was very slender with well-defined joints.At this moment, he no longer recalled those words, he suddenly just wanted to talk to Lin Ling like this, just like before.

"Lin Ling, do you still remember our sophomore basketball game?" Su Ta met Lin Ling's gaze.

"Of course I remember, when we narrowly won, your eyes turned red with joy." Lin Ling laughed: "I was startled, I thought you were injured somewhere."

"I was really happy at that time, because that's what I got together with you." Suta said: "Lin Ling, do you know that you are really a good person, you are very righteous and gentle, do Your friend is a happy thing. But..."

Lin Ling was silent.

Su Ta looked into Lin Ling's eyes, his voice trembling involuntarily.

"Lin Ling, I like men."

"I like you, since college, for many years. I don't just want to be your friend, I want to stay by your side all the time. I like you, Lin Ling."

After Suta finished speaking, he didn't dare to look into Lin Ling's eyes anymore, and quickly lowered his head, his heartbeat was so fast that it would burst into his chest, and he was short of breath.

For a long time, there was no reply.

Su Ta's heart sank to the bottom of the valley slowly, and when he looked up, he saw Lin Ling's hand crossing the dining table and touching his face.

Warm, soft, calloused hands.

Lin Ling's voice was full of laughter.

"It just so happens that I like you too."