It's not good at all for the monitor to be a boyfriend

Chapter 8

My idea of ​​writing this letter actually started when I saw the words you wrote.

I've never been good at expressing myself, and I haven't explained many things to you, which makes some things seem unfounded to you.

I'm sorry, my incomprehensible style has caused you a lot of grievances, and thank you very much, you have always insisted on loving me in the fog.

In writing this letter, I actually want to tell you that love is mutual, that the fact that we are together is not just your wishful thinking, and you are not the only one who pays for those things.

In this love, I am like you, I also have heartbeat, I also feel confused, I also experience fear, I always ask myself, I also feel eagerness, but I have the most, the most emotion is love Sweetness and peace of mind when I turn my head and see you.

Now I realize that I used to use unnecessary words as an excuse to hurt you and disappoint your expectations.

Nan Nan, I hope you can know how much I love you after reading this letter.

The first time I noticed you was also on the day of class placement, you jumped in like a little bunny, really cute.

It looks like a peacock in your mouth, but I actually thought it was your leg that was injured.I'm really sorry. (I picked up a pen and wanted to erase these two sentences, but it would be ugly if I erased them, so I gave up.)

Later I found out that you often go to the playground, so I always go to the playground to exercise.At the time I thought I was just doing it for exercise, but I didn't know it was called Heartbeat.

When I accepted your homework, I said too little, but it was just because I was at a loss and didn't know what to say.I always feel like I didn't make a good impression on you if I wasn't fully prepared. When I left, I simply ran away.

Hmm... your homework search is not what you describe it to be.You are so cute, like a little hamster.

After that I was always introspecting and hesitating.I conceived scenarios again and again, listing the possible results one by one, trying to figure out my future with you.

I always want to ask for the most perfect answer, but I forget that love can't be calculated.

All my ideas and modeling are inferior to your sentence "I like you" that day. Your straight ball threw me into a mess.

I can't wait to respond to you, to accept everything you have said.

I said "OK", I tried my best to suppress my happy expression.If I added a modal particle, it might be that I am too happy.

I have never been in a relationship before, and this is the first time I have met someone I like.

I don't know what to do, and in my area of ​​expertise, I can only teach you homework.At that time, I didn't think so much, I just wanted to be closer to you and stay with you longer.

If this incident made you angry, I apologize to you, and I will not be so uninterested in the future.

As for changing seats, it's just that I think you'd really like to sit with me.Then I went to the head teacher and, uh, tried to convince him.

When I went to find you after class, I really just wanted to spend a little longer with you two.

I've always found it interesting to have your whimsical ideas.Maybe I'm not so obvious, but I really like the way you are full of vigor and bouncing around.

So Nannan, I understand your weirdness, can you always be my cute love?

You said that I still have a one-month trial period to find a boyfriend, but this is not the case. From the moment you became my boyfriend, I wrote you into my life.

It's just that before that, I'm not sure if you want to go to the same university as me, and I'm not sure if you can persevere in the daily boring study.

After that, I found out, Nannan, you are a very persistent person, you are also very smart, you can go anywhere you want.

Then I decided to ask you "Which university do you want to go to", in order to determine your goals and facilitate planning, and I also wanted to know if there is me in your future.

I admit that I like to be jealous, but Nannan, as your boyfriend, do I have the right to be jealous?

I also have a deep memory on the day of winter vacation in the third year of high school.

I remember you said that I will definitely be admitted to the university I want, at that time.

My Nan Nan almost forgot about himself, this young man with bright eyes, sincere and firm.

You said that I would comfort you when you were depressed, but in fact you also gave me strength.

Two months before the college entrance examination, I seemed to be very free, but in fact, it might be one of the most stressful periods for me.

I can only read since I was a child, and I don’t understand the games you are familiar with. During those two months, I can only do my best to learn how to play games.Because I also want to find a common language between you and me besides studying.

Whenever I am anxious, I will secretly look at you.Seeing you, my heart is at peace.

I don't know if you have noticed, but you are always careless, so you should not notice these things.

There are many, many things that I draw strength from you.You are like a little sun, exuding blazing light, warming me.

You are where my heart belongs, Nannan.

I seem to have forgotten that I have never said a word to you, I love you.

I love you, Nannan, do you hear

As I said, I'm not very expressive, and I can't always know what you're thinking.But as long as you want to hear, I will tell you, as long as you want to know, I will tell you.

Nannan, if you want to hear me say I love you, I will tell you for the rest of my life. If you want me to explain to you what you don’t understand, I will explain to you over and over again until you understand.

Nannan, I don't know how to fall in love, so when I do something wrong, can you tell me, let me understand where I did wrong, let me explain, let me correct, let me continue to be perfect, Then love you all the time.

Nannan, no matter what mistakes I made, don't take away my right to love you easily, okay?

Of course, Nannan, I will try my best not to make mistakes, not to make you sad, not to make you sad, not to let you have the opportunity to give up on me.

Nan Nan, if you break my defense regardless, can you please not back down and accompany me on the journey.

I want, my future will have you.You accompanied me through the youthful high school, and I also hope that you can accompany me through the mature university and every moment in the rest of my life.

Nannan, can you give me a chance to accompany you through this splendid and prosperous world.Can you give me a chance, let me start from the moment I met you, and I will have you in my life from now on.

Earlier, I only knew that I was clumsy in speech, but when I didn't want to open my heart, I was also clumsy in writing.This letter cannot express one-tenth of my inner thoughts, and I can only ask you to feel my sincerity in the days to come.

The tired bird returns to its nest, and my heart belongs to you.Nannan, you are my home.