not peaceful

21 ~ 25

21.

In the evening, I made an exception and cooked a plate of mushroom dish, which was a little salty.I thought my parents would hate it, but I didn't expect them to eat more than Ji Qian, and I was the only one who took a bite and never touched it again.

I went to rest early after the meal, and felt that I was not particularly energetic all day today. Although I had made up for sleep, I was still a little tired.I sent Ji Qian a WeChat message saying "see you tomorrow", and Ji Qian sent me a good word.I sent the goodbye emoji again, and Ji sent me a voice message back. When I clicked on it, it was "Brother, good night". I listened to it twice before turning off the phone.

I went to work in the company as usual on Monday, and I made an appointment with them for lunch, but I saw Qiu Lan but could not see Hu Eryu.I was puzzled for a while, and asked Song Lele what was going on, Song Lele let it go, and didn't say much.I had a hunch that something was wrong, so I sent a message to Hu Eryu, but he didn't reply me.

Qiu Lan said: "He claimed to have a bad stomach, but he doesn't know if it's true or not."

Song frowned and said, "Whether it's true or not."

After all, I was the one who asked Hu Eryu to come out that day. I was the first to feel sorry for him when something happened. When I heard that Song Lele's tone was not particularly good, I asked, "Why don't we go and see after get off work? He is so honest, he won't lie."

Qiu Lan looked over, gestured to me, and roughly told me that Hu Eryu was just pretending.Song Liao was busy ordering food, and didn't have time to see us winking, so I made gestures to him and asked what happened.

Qiu Lan raised his index finger and put it on his mouth.

I was bored and didn't move anymore.Song ordered a good dish and passed the menu to me. I saw that the order was almost done, and I had nothing to add, so I passed it to Qiu Lan.

Qiu Lan touched my hand and said, "Your hand is quite warm."

I said, "Your hands are quite cold."

Qiu Lan opened the menu amusedly, looked up and asked me: "Then would you like to give me a warm?"

I was so embarrassed that I couldn't answer, Song Liao already stared at us with a surprised expression, she said: "Male god, my hands are also quite cold, please give me some warmth."

The waiter gave me a meaningful look, I coughed, and said, "It's not winter now, there are long prickly heat coming and going."

Song Liao suddenly realized and said yes, even I couldn't help but want to help my forehead.

I'm not stupid, and when I got in touch with Qiu Lan, I realized that something was wrong. He sometimes avoided the two of them to ask me out alone on WeChat, but I refused them all.I really can't imagine what it would be like for people other than Ji Qian to think about me, and I hope that I will be wrong in my heart.

It's hard to say whether there will be a wrong meaning, but there is always no harm in staying away.

But here Ji Qian realized at the speed of light that he was going to fail in the exam. After several small exams, his grades dropped little by little.

Dad suspected that he was entangled with his little boyfriend again, and reminded me to have a chat with him.I was also worried and had no choice. I was blocked by Ji Qian when I just started a few times.Not depending on him, not depending on him.With such a dilemma, I began to implement a soft policy.

I even let Ji Qian take the last step for me.

When Ji Qian took off my clothes that day, I was still persuasively persuading him, and I didn't care about the shame. When Ji Qian bit my ear, I completely lost my ability to speak.It felt like the ears were itchy, and then the itching went to the heart.

Ji Qian kept nibbling my ear lightly, and I was so itchy that I groaned hopelessly.

With that sound, I regained my shame.Ji Qian hooked my waistline and walked down, with the same sound, his lips that had let go of my ears moved back again.

There was clear desire in his eyes.

I asked him intermittently: "Did you take my words to heart?"

Ji Qian said, "Yes."

He pressed me to keep me from moving, looked at me seriously, and said, "Brother, you never said you liked me."

Obviously I was asking him, why did he turn into questioning me.I didn't speak, Ji Qian suddenly bent down and engulfed my penis, and in an instant an electric current spread from there to my brain.I yelled uncontrollably and shoved him tremblingly, but of course I didn't push him away.

He raised his head and said softly, "Brother, say you like me."

I bit my lip, restrained myself from making a sound, and refused to look down at Ji Qian, closing my eyes.The pleasure surged up and down, I instinctively reached out to touch Ji Qian's head, and rubbed it.I can hear his hesitant voice, knowing that he is doing his best to make me feel happy, waiting for my words of liking.

Ji Qian pried open my mouth with his fingers, and pressed my teeth inside, I opened my eyes suddenly, and resisted the finger with my hand, but I had no strength.Let those shameful voices come out.

After a while I started to tremble, and as soon as Ji Qian left, I vented.Something was on his face, I was panting, he got up and pressed against me, pubic bone against pubic bone, I wiped away the things on his face with my hands, Ji Qian was very close to me, his eyelashes brushed my face side.

He seemed to be begging me, "Brother, can you say you like me?"

I paused and said, "I like it."

He asked me again: "Who do you like?"

I broke the jar, put my arms around him, and said, "I like you."

Saying these three words was not as calm as I imagined, and even seemed to be overwhelmed.I buried my face in Ji Qian's neck, I could feel the shaking of his Adam's apple very clearly.With Ji Qian's slight movement, I buried my face even deeper.

Because it was attached too tightly, I had another reaction not long after it was released.And Ji Qian's reaction was to keep going.

Ji Qian hugged me and sat up, the hot penis stuck to my groin, the front was wet, obviously he couldn't take it anymore.I just raised my face, didn't look at him, and wanted to slide off him, but was held down by Ji Qian and couldn't move.

I suppressed my shame and said, "I'll help you bite."

Hearing that Ji Qian pressed me harder, I couldn't find a way to make him happy, so he struggled anxiously, but suddenly felt the dick under his buttocks swell even more.Ji Qian also held back and sighed in my ear, I was almost stunned immediately, and when he kissed me, it suddenly became clear, and he rubbed his shoulders up and down, left and right.

Ji Qian stared at me silently, and I closed my eyes again.Suddenly a pair of hands touched my eye sockets, moving them back and forth repeatedly, as if urging me to open them, and when I didn't open them, they traced my eyebrows again.I stopped and threw my face back, avoiding his touch.

I said vaguely: "You don't care about me, I have to do it quickly, and my parents will come back later."

Ji Qian was still struggling with my eyes. I was really worried, so I reluctantly opened my eyes, but I didn't have the nerve to look at him more, and kept looking away.

I lay back on the bed, and Ji Qian gave me a condom and said, "Brother." The meaning couldn't be more obvious, he wanted me to put it on for him. I don't know how many times I have used it.

When I actually entered, I dared to look at him. To be honest, I really didn’t feel any pleasure at first, but as soon as I saw Ji Qian’s abstinent face stained with the aura of sex, I felt very satisfied and thought everything was worth it. of.

Pain in the butt is not as important as pain in the younger brother.

Later, when the pleasure came up, I couldn't care less about observing Ji Qian. I comforted my forehead with one hand, and clung to Ji Qian's waist with the other hand. Ji Qian asked me if I was comfortable. I wanted to say I was comfortable, but I didn't say anything. Then he slammed into it hard, and the two words changed into out-of-tune notes.

Did a total of two times.At the end of the last time, Ji Qian buried himself in my body for a while.

22.

I was so tired that I didn't want to move, I barely managed to lie back on the bed after taking a shower, the quilt was stuffy, covering my eyes, and Ji Qian pulled me down to reveal my whole face.I put the quilt back again.

Ji Qian said: "Brother, don't get bored."

I didn't listen to him, turned around, and said, "I'm not bored. When Mom comes back at night, tell her that I won't go out to eat, because I don't have an appetite."

Ji Qian dragged me over with the quilt, and pulled the quilt away again like peeling beans. I looked at him helplessly, and took the initiative to take his hand and kissed him to show my closeness. I did what I had to do. Well, why didn't his stickiness fade away, on the contrary, there was a tendency to intensify. It would be horrendous for me to connive, and I couldn't even take a breath.

Ji Qian took a breath, intertwined his fingers even more crookedly, and grabbed my hand as if disgusted enough, and brought it to his lips, kissing fingertips one after another.I shrank my hand, and he clasped it even tighter.He used to love to shake my hand all the time, but now he is getting worse and worse.

The soreness in the lower body was as clear as the touch in the hands. I recovered from the mist, tapped his lips with my fingertips, and said, "You can go out now."

Seeing that he didn't speak, I added some strength to my hands, straightened up and looked at him.Just looking at the reluctance in his eyes makes me feel like I did something wrong.

I thought for a while and asked, "What else do you want?"

Ji Qian said: "You."

After hearing this, I smiled and said, "I've given everything I can, and I won't have anything else you want."

There was another emotion in Ji Qian's eyes. I don't understand that emotion very well, but I just watched him lick my fingertips flatteringly, and said bluntly: "Brother, I have greed for you."

I was taken aback, retracted my hand, and asked, "Am I money? Need you to be greedy for me?"

Ji Qian still looked at me frankly, his fearless appearance made me not know what to say, even if I want to be greedy, I can be greedy, who can live without greed?It's just that Ji Qian's greed is a real person, it's me.

What will happen to him if I can't take it anymore?

Until now, I finally paid attention to this question, but when I wanted to ask him, my throat seemed to be filled with lead, and it was very difficult to open my mouth several times.Anyway, dumb.

I don't want to face it.

Ji Qian helped my shoulders to lie down again, and wrapped me tightly with a quilt, and then he said, "Brother, I'll tell mom to eat later." I frowned, and he stretched out his hand to smooth No doubt, said: "It must be eaten."

I closed my eyes, listening to his footsteps and the sound of closing the door.Then, after an unknown amount of time, Mom's voice came from outside the door again, it must have just come back.Ji Qian and Mom said something, and Mom even sighed, I guess she was saying that I was becoming more and more lazy.

Actually I was awake all the time.At eight o'clock, the door of the room was pushed open, I was chatting on WeChat with my mobile phone, Ji Qian came over with a bowl of porridge, stood by the bed and looked at me, not letting go.I took the time to raise my hand to signal him to put it on the bedside table. He pursed his lips tightly as if invisible, and continued to stand there dangling.It wasn't until I put down the phone that Ji Qian put down the porridge, moved a chair to the desk and sat next to me.

I said, "You don't feel sore when you hold it, so why don't you let it go."

After he sat down, he picked up the porridge again, took a sip and blew it to my mouth.Seeing this, I was also happy to enjoy it, and picked up the phone again to chat with the seniors I rented with before.From the corner of the eye, I saw Ji Qian handing over the spoon, and I opened my mouth, but I didn't wait for him to feed me for a long time, so I raised my head to look at him.

His gaze stayed on the screen of my phone for a moment, and he said, "Brother, concentrate on eating."

The senior over there sent me a lot of photos, saying that he had the honor to speak on behalf of successful people back to his alma mater a few days ago, so I must appreciate it.I didn't even look at it and replied "It's a good shot", and hurriedly put the phone away.

The temperature of the porridge that Ji Qian fed me was controlled just right, and it melted warm and soft in my mouth.It's even more delicious than anything I've ever eaten before.

I said, "Mom's craftsmanship is really nothing to say."

Ji Qian hummed, scooped up the last bite for me to eat.

23.

The notification sound of the mobile phone kept going, I actually felt a little guilty, I sat upright and looked at Ji Qian.

Ji Qian lowered his eyes, only one ear was exposed in front of me, which made my heart tremble.I was afraid that he would be bored again, so I wanted to drag him to sit for a while, but I knew that the conditions did not allow it.Mom is outside.

I said: "I was chatting with my senior in the north. He is a very nice person who has helped me a lot over the years. Although we may not see each other in the future, this is the relationship. There is always something to talk about."

Ji Qian said: "I understand."

There was nothing unusual in the voice, but I could only look at his ear alone.I just stared at it jokingly for a while, and pretended to say casually: "Just understand."

Fu picked up the phone again to reply to the senior, and put the phone on Ji Qian's lap after replying.

Ji Qian looked at it, raised his face indifferently, I reached out and pinched his ear, his eyelashes trembled visibly.

I asked, "Is this what you call greed? Don't want me to chat with other people? Think I'm yours alone?"

At this point, Ji Qian has already bit his lips to watch me. Those lips have kissed me many places today, and now I feel distressed immediately after biting them like that.As soon as the line on his lips loosened, I breathed a sigh of relief.Seeing him stand up with an empty bowl and go out.

Before leaving, he suppressed his voice and said, "More than that."

I suddenly felt a sore nose, and sent Ji Qian a WeChat message saying "It's not just what, you tell me".After waiting for a long time, I didn't get anything, but my chest felt a little uncomfortable.Ji Qian's feelings pressed me hard, I wondered if he felt the same way, when he liked me but didn't get a response, when he said more than yes.

And reason reminds me that this kind of feeling is deformed, whether it is the feeling itself, or me and him.

So the loss became uncontrollable, and I pressed the message to withdraw.After successfully withdrawing it, I suddenly realized that I didn't wait for a long time, less than 2 minutes.I thought I had waited a long time.

The above one is the voice of Ji Qian saying good night, I opened it and listened to it again, and saved that voice.

I am not at all open-minded.

During the five years in the north, I once felt that I was very open-minded. I experienced things that others could not experience, and I had to bear the consequences that I should not have to bear. I had complaints, but no objections.But after careful recollection, there is really nothing to complain about. Dad sent me living expenses on a monthly basis, which was never too much. Mom also called me from time to time to care about me.

It was as if the whole world had abandoned him.

I sniffed my nose, it was full of sour water, my eyes were also astringent, tears came down before I could react, it was very bitter.I sent good night to the past, thought about it, and re-sent it again.

I said, "Ji Qian, good night."

My eyes were red and I went to the bathroom to wash up. When I came back, I was caught by my mother. My mother called my name.

Mom asked: "Didn't Ji Qian say that you had a bad stomach? You can't even speak well because you have diarrhea, and your eyes are so red."

I hurriedly said: "It's okay."

Mom glared at me and poured me a glass of water.I drank it and stood at the door of the room silently for a while. Mom reached out to take the cup, and my hand was empty, and I reflexively held onto the door frame.

Mom urged me, "Go in and rest."

I couldn't help coughing and said, "I'm still a little thirsty."

Mom turned around and went into the kitchen to pour me another glass of water. This time I put the glass to my lips and took a sip. Standing face to face with Mom, I was about to confess, but Mom said, "Don't talk. , I don’t feel comfortable listening to the broken voice.”

I nodded, raised my head and drank the water.said nothing.

The next day my throat got worse, and I basically had difficulty speaking. I stopped by a pharmacy and bought two boxes of Golden Throat when I went to work.I swallowed half a board in one morning.

I write to communicate with my colleagues about work. Originally, he told me to write, but in the end it became him who wrote and I also wrote.There was a problem my colleague couldn't figure out. I used two sheets of paper just to explain it. The moment I put down the pen and stopped thinking, I didn't feel relaxed and continued to do my own thing with a tense expression.

There was a phone call at home at noon, and the loudspeaker should be turned on. First, my mother asked me how I was doing, and then my father said that he was already that old. I struggled to say yes, I am that old.The sound was silenced a few times in the middle, and it was hard to complete the speech.

Mom said: "What's the matter, it's not a disease."

When Dad heard that my voice was really bad, he said worriedly: "Ji Xian, why don't you go home first."

I wanted to say no, so I heard Ji Qian say, "Brother, go home."

There was a soft gap in my heart, a bit sweet and a bit painful.As soon as I said yes, the other end hung up the phone, as if afraid of what I would say.

In fact, I only have the strength to say yes.

24.

I took time off with my manager and I drove home.Coming out of the parking lot, I saw the news broadcast on the TV through the anti-theft window from a distance, my father and mother sat on one side, and Ji Qian sat on the other.The door was ajar, and when I came in and closed the door, Ji Qian was already standing behind me unknowingly, looking at me with reproachful eyes.

As soon as I moved my lips, he immediately frowned, probably thinking that I was going to speak, but I just pushed my golden voice in my mouth to the tip of my tongue and showed him.Indicates not to worry.

The house smelled of traditional Chinese medicine. I walked into the living room and saw that my mother had unknowingly added a pot of herbal tea in her hand. The lid of the pot was open, and the teapot was steaming.

Dad said: "Drink after eating, and let it cool down."

I nodded, with my golden throat still in my mouth, I chewed and swallowed quickly, leaving a cool taste in my mouth, which was not very comfortable, so I went to the bathroom to rinse my mouth.Maybe it was because I ate too much, and the smell couldn't get rid of it for a while, so I wiped my face with a cold towel to refresh my face, and let it go.

Intuition that Ji Qian will come, and it is true.I imitated the sound of a snake hissed a few times, so soft that only he and I could hear it.I backed up, my tailbone hit the sink, leaned back and looked at Ji Qian, just now the water from my eyelashes fell into my eyes, I blinked, and the water dripped onto my neckline again.

Ji Qian's gaze also fell on the neckline, and then returned to my face.

Maybe he wanted to taste the taste of a golden voice, I opened my mouth, and Ji Qian kissed me, I almost laughed when I was kissed, it is unbelievable that my intuition is more accurate than the other.

We kissed each other secretly for a while, and we went out one after the other when we heard Mom asking where he was.

At the dinner table, Ji sent me a sentence, "Brother, the medicine is three-point poisonous, and the golden voice can't be taken too much."

I almost wanted to say that you ate it when you kissed me, I can't speak right now, I'm not afraid of going wrong.

In fact, I was not sick at all. I took a leave of absence for being late for my lunch break. My father insisted that I take the afternoon leave as well. He took my mobile phone and called the manager.I couldn't stop it from the sidelines, Mom and Ji Qian were eating separately, I alone thought it was a fuss.

I buckled the table with my backhand helplessly, and my mother said, "Eat quickly! The tea will be cold in a while."

Being urged to finish the meal quickly, I poured the herbal tea and finished it, and I saved another cup for Ji Qian, thinking that drinking herbal tea is never harmful.

Dad asked me to go to the hospital in the afternoon. I didn’t think it was necessary. Dad said: "It is necessary. Don’t you still have a stomachache? After seeing your throat, go to the stomach." Seeing that I was not happy, he said: "You don’t want to go. I'll go with you and send me a photo when we get to the hospital, do you hear me?"

I compromised.

On the pretext that there were few people in the hospital during the lunch break, I deliberately stepped on Ji Qian's exit point to go out with him. We should have parted ways when we arrived at the parking lot, but Ji Qian pushed the bicycle and asked me to open the trunk.

I looked at him suspiciously, and Ji Qian said, "I forgot something."

I'm the one who drives this car, he hasn't ridden it a few times, he can forget anything, thinking so, I still opened the trunk, and saw Ji Qian blatantly holding the bike in, putting it in, closing it, we have a deal."

I was stunned, and he said, "Brother, get in the car."

He is going to the hospital with me.I stood still, Ji Qian took the key and pushed me to the driver's seat. This time the bicycle was too big, extending from the trunk to the back seat. I had no position to persuade him to sit back, and he sat in the co-pilot with peace of mind.Although I couldn't persuade him.

I was afraid that the teacher at the school would call my mother, so I didn't drive to the hospital, but went straight to the school.Ji Qian didn't say anything, I couldn't say anything, when we arrived at the fork in front of the school, it happened to flash red, and the red light at this intersection took a very long time, it took [-] seconds.

After waiting for half a minute, I couldn't sit still anymore, turned my face to look at Ji Qian several times, and couldn't help but touch him with my elbow for the last time.

Ji Qian stared straight ahead, staring at the countdown time, and said, "It's not that I don't have legs, you put me down, I can pass by myself."

I opened and closed my mouth in a daze, but I only made a few breath sounds, and I blushed.Ji Qian's side profile looked so firm, he didn't even look at me, letting me babble like a child.There was a burning pain in my throat, and I started to cough again, but he seemed to stay out of it, and never looked at me.

Finally turned around and drove to the hospital.

Along the way, my heart was very complicated, and my back and neck were stiff.

Turning around and meeting the first red light, Ji Qian suddenly said: "I haven't dreamed about you for a month."

I pretended I didn't care, and listened to him go on, "I was afraid that I would never dream of you again in the first week, and I kept telling myself that you were back and it was okay, but I still panicked when I fell asleep. Brother, I woke up in the middle of the night that day. When I see you here, I won't be afraid in an instant."

This time he looked at me, but I didn't dare to look at him.

I clenched the steering wheel, tightening my heart together, and what flashed through my mind was why I couldn't speak, how much I wanted to speak.

I held back my excitement and drove the car to the front and stopped. When my hands left the steering wheel, my whole body was numb to the point of paralysis. My heart was filled with inexplicable pleasure. Panting, I pressed Ji Qian's hand and moved it to the position of my heart.

Jumping there is fast.

Ji Qian covered his hands and said, "What I'm most afraid of now is that you will get sick."

25.

I didn't dare to drive my car, so I had to stay on the side of the road.Originally, he planned to take a taxi, but Ji Qian couldn't help but lift the bicycle out of the trunk, sat up with his hand on the faucet, and stared at me with piercing eyes, which looked unusually radiant under the sun.

He hides very deeply, although his face is expressionless, his eyes are indeed shining.

This car is an old car left over from my dad's retirement. I want to replace it for him when I come back. Ji Qian said that he won't be able to use it when he graduates soon, so he just gave up.

I stood on the side of the road and hesitated for a while, and after thinking about it, I gritted my teeth and sat in the back seat, hugging his waist.

Ji Qian said: "Hold tight." I squeezed harder.

Only then did I realize that Ji Qian was very thin, but he was very thin.It turned out that I didn't have the nerve to look at him more on the bed. I either looked at the ceiling or closed my eyes. Most of the courage was spent staring at the face that somewhat resembled mine.Now I feel it.

I know that this kind of thinness does not conflict with the so-called health, but I still feel too thin.

After arriving at the hospital, Ji Qian asked me to sit down, and he went to line up the registration form. After I got the registration form, I took a picture and showed it to my dad, and then said that Ji Qian was also there.It's hard for me to explain, so I directly pointed out that Ji Qian was worried about me.

My mother called me, and she said: "The teacher called me a long time ago to ask me what's going on, and I guessed that he left with you. Give him your mobile phone quickly, and I'll talk to him. I'll call Give it to him and he won't pick it up."

I looked up at Ji Qian and turned on the loudspeaker.

Mom said: "Ji Qian, the teacher asked you to arrive before the third class."

Ji Qian said: "Understood."

Mom continued to say nothing and he didn't say a word, so I hung up the phone.Ji Qian walked behind me with the registration slip.

I really wanted to ask him why he didn't answer my mother's phone call, but then I thought, I wouldn't answer it if it were me. For me, my parents are the relatives who gave birth to me and raised me. Is that the same for Ji Qian as me?Am I so special to him that I can put aside my family affection?

I thought a little too much, but fortunately, I was about to think about it.At that time in the car, my mother asked Ji Qian if he wanted to stay in the local area. After that, Ji Qian bluntly pointed out my fear, and I admitted it, but now I am not afraid anymore.

Ji Qian said that I was most afraid of getting sick, and what I was most afraid of was not being able to go out with him, and in the end, not being able to bear his greed, not being able to pamper him all the time.

It was found to be acute laryngitis, and the doctor prescribed medicine. When I went back, I asked Ji Qian to ride to school by himself, and I took a taxi back to the parking lot.

After calming down and thinking about it, I suddenly realized that I was a little funny. I was so excited that I couldn't drive because of Ji Qian's few words, and my hands and feet were numb. Is this the legendary sperm on the brain?Regardless of whether it counts or not, anyway, I sat and laughed for a few minutes before I recovered.

Song Liao sent a WeChat message asking me if I felt better, and I said much better.She immediately signed up for voice chat, and I put on my headphones to listen to her while driving.

She said: "There is still half an hour to get off work."

I breathed out weakly and made a sound to show that I was listening, she kept talking to me, and I kept breathing, like a pug dog.

She asked: "Male god, did Hu Eryu tell you anything about me? If you did, you would say hello, if you didn't, then you would say hello."

I let out a huff inexplicably, and Song Liao's tone suddenly became normal. It sounded a bit weird at first, but she said: "Thank you, I understand. Because you haven't paid much attention to me recently, I thought he said something to you. "

The phone was hung up after that.

I pulled off the earphones, and there was a rusty taste in my throat. The doctor said that I would have to take care of it for at least two weeks, and within two weeks I would be speechless.