【Ja Dun】Don't love me if you have the kind

Chapter 11, Don't Cry

Nakahara Nakaya drove the Cayenne that Osamu Dazai bought last year. The berry purple body was stained with garage wall dust before departure. Nakahara Nakaya brushed it with dust a few times and wiped it off. It looked like it had just come from the store It's the same as opening it.Osamu Dazai praised by the side, shook his head and sat in the passenger seat, Nakahara Nakaya got in the car a few seconds later, all the windows were opened, the sound of the car audio was turned to the maximum, and he got on the highway in a hurry.It seems that there is a slight sign of slowing down at the place where the checkpoint automatically punches and pays, and the rest of the time is light and smooth. Along the snow-blue highway, buried under the glowing blood-colored sunset, it seems that you can drive straight into heaven.

Zhong Yuanzhong also lit a cigarette and held it in his right hand, with his right arm resting on the side of the car window, and the fingers of his left hand tapping on the steering wheel following the electronic music.Osamu Dazai played with his mobile phone for a while and thought about it for a while, not knowing what he was doing.

"Zhongye, do you remember the little fairy I told you about before?"

"Which one? Fairy?" Zhong Yuanzhong also frowned.

"I told you, that's the girl I met when I was not officially acting, when I was doing a talk show tour with an entertainment company in a national famous school." Osamu Dazai chin while playing with the phone Resting on the center of the collarbone, with the voice tucked in, there is a feeling that she is about to be stuck, "She seemed to like me a lot before, and she took photos with me, exchanged email addresses, and often sent me emails."

"...Then why don't you make a move?" Zhong Yuanzhong didn't understand why he was nostalgic now.

"..." Osamu Dazai turned off the phone.In fact, it is not a question of whether to make a deal. When he realized the shining friendship, he thought about developing it, but suffered from no fixed income, and could only write talk show manuscripts to make ends meet. The mobile phone workshop had not yet been established at that time. After being famous, he would actually feel inferior in front of that gentle and strong girl with fluttering hair.Later, I entered the circle and met my ex-girlfriend, and gradually I seldom contacted that girl.

"You said that if I call her now, will she answer?"

Zhong Yuanzhong also turned his head to look at him, the mysterious and eccentric man's face was a bit tired.The car guy used to think that Dazai had more nonsense than culture, and he had a strong desire for self-expression, but in fact, he knew in his heart that most of the time, funny and tricks were his tools to protect himself and define himself.The two have been arrogant since childhood, and while hating each other, they understand each other clearly.The more I hate him, the more I pay attention to him, from the duration of this guy's first love, the record of fights, to the scores of homework, morning scan, reading aloud, and now the comparison of the two people's respective incomes.This is a situation that no one has thought of: in fact, love and hate will deepen one's understanding of another, but the emotional color is completely different.

And after a long time, you will no longer hate, but have a sense of sympathy for runaway brothers, just like Addison is to Ma Xiao, and Hannibal is to Clarice.

"Hello, little fairy?" Osamu Dazai deliberately pretended to be drunk.

Zhong Yuanzhong also snorted from his nose.

"Hey, I'm Dazai. I haven't contacted you for a long time. You should have graduated from graduate school by now, right?"

It was at this time that the car guy noticed a certain situation.

Osamu Dazai held his mobile phone and greeted his former admirer, his eyes didn't seem to notice the strangeness in the rearview mirror.Zhong Yuanzhong also found that there was a white Bentley walking behind him obliquely behind him, and there were three or four sports cars behind that Bentley.Chuya Nakahara stared at the rearview mirror with his ice-blue eyes for a while, making sure he had seen the person on the white Bentley.

Margaret—that's what it's called.

"Hung up the phone." Zhong Yuan Zhong also said in a low voice.

Osamu Dazai glanced at the rearview mirror, then said something hastily to the other party and then ended the line.King Cobra didn't say anything, just reached up and grabbed the handrail with the hand next to the window.The skills of the car guy for so many years are going to be shown on the highway today.

Margaret's trip today is to press for the evidence held by Morimu Holdings that can bring down the Sanei Party. She knows that the Yokohama car guy is sitting in this Cayenne, but she still drives the car with a few men coming.

What she didn't know was that this was tantamount to courting death.

Nakahara Zhong also drove this car for less than 10 minutes, but it feels very good in the hand. Almost a new car has no memory, and it is easiest to be tamed and modified by the driver.He stepped on the gas pedal and rushed forward, racing wildly on the open and deserted highway.Osamu Dazai's wild brown hair was blown all over his face, covering his cheers like he was riding a pirate ship.

There are quite a few people who pick on Chuya Zhongya on the highway, and they have been injured before, but after the age of 27 or [-], they are all missing arms and legs, and Zhongya Zhongya hasn't broken his skin for a long time.Women are more emotional when driving, and when Margaret rushed forward, she met Nakahara Nakaya and suddenly stepped on the brakes. Bentley's head almost hit the rear of Cayenne's car.

Zhongyuanzhong also drove swaggeringly, bending left and right on the expressway more than ten meters wide, and sometimes drove along the side, making it difficult for people to find a direct contact point.Osamu Dazai was shaken to fasten his seat belt. "Hey, I'm going to throw up Chuya."

"Pit, it's not my car anyway." Nakahara Chuya's voice was full of ruthlessness when he was pushing hard.The car guy unlocked his phone, found a phone number, and threw it to Osamu Dazai: "Call him, let him get on this expressway, and say to help block people."

Osamu Dazai picked up his mobile phone and made a call: "Hey, I'm Dazai, we're here..." Nakahara Chu also squeezed the steering wheel tightly and rushed down.

Margaret's hair was wrapped into a watermelon head, and the thin-soled leather shoes under her feet had a painful feeling of strips on the soles of her feet when she stepped on the accelerator hard.Zhongyuanzhong no longer let go of his car, but went down the steep slope, and disappeared all of a sudden.She waited for the car behind for a while, and rushed down after that, but Zhongyuan Zhongya's Cayenne changed direction directly on the one-way lane and rushed straight towards her.

"Hiss—" The woman turned around hastily, and Zhongye's Cayenne disappeared again, replaced by five or six racing cars with flamboyant flame graffiti.The cars weren't fast, but they kept pushing her to death until the Bentley's head finally hit the green belt.The airbag popped out, pressing down on her head, and the stinging pain after the contact lens pressed the eyeball was like a knife piercing a needle, causing her tears to burst out directly.

"Give me the phone again."

Zhong Yuanzhong also turned his head and glanced at the scene of the accident, ignoring the sirens and police cars as if nothing had happened, rolled up the windows, and turned on the air conditioner.Osamu Dazai handed over the phone, and the driver dialed the number just now again:

"Losing some money, the eyes of foreigners are like glass beads, it's a pity to be blind."

Not long after Akutagawa Ryunosuke turned on the computer this morning, the customary small window in the lower right corner popped up, skipping over the large-scale photos of porn stars and the disputes between the stars, he saw the fire at the bottom of the Xinzuru Orphanage that lasted for eight hours The news that they were all wiped out.The Japanese wolf stood up, smacked his lips hard, and used the internal line to get through to the computer room.

"Give me a firewall to block all the small window push functions of the news software on all computers in the company, and no one will be allowed to watch this kind of news in the future."

The Japanese wolf who hung up the phone after hastily giving instructions did not expect that his intentions and reality were the opposite. Atsushi Nakajima was on the road to the underground garage at the same time as he left the house at the same time, and his white tiger He just sat down in front of the computer.

Half an hour later, Atsushi Nakajima, who clicked on the hyperlink in the small window to read the entire news report, found himself staring at the computer screen expressionlessly until the screen turned off.The shock almost outweighed the sadness.Xinhe is like a high mountain. On the sunny side are pianos, nursery rhymes, flowers and plants, and playmates.And since his escape, he has been alone.Those playmates around the age of ten are his second relatives, his ivory tower.At that time, the sensitive little white tiger always felt that the orphanage was weird, but his friends could give him strength.Xinhe is more like a token of him and his crippled childhood.

And even this was not left to him.

My hands trembled and touched the table, my eyes wanted to follow, but they were always covered by something wet, and after wiping it off, it continued to fill my eye sockets.After he found the internal number, he called the director's office without thinking.

"Hello." Akutagawa Ryunosuke answered in seconds.

"……what……"

"what?"

"……why……"

"Atsushi Nakajima, sit in the office and wait for me."

"Why, Akutagawa..."

"Calm down." Akutagawa Ryunosuke was about to hang up the phone, and then rushed over.

"I'm going to Xinhe."

"Hey, Nakajima..."

"Come with me, Akutagawa."

"..."

"Come with me. I'll meet you in the parking lot."

Akutagawa put down the phone, turned off the computer, picked up the phone and left.He planned to join up with Osamu Dazai and Chuya Central Plains tonight, and together they would infiltrate the Sanei Party, and collect evidence of the man-made fire in the Xinhe Orphanage.But now it seems to be going ahead of schedule——Akutagawa Ryunosuke took the elevator downstairs, walked outside the company building, saw Atsushi Nakajima wearing the same suit as himself, opened the door of his blue Jaguar, eyes drooping look at yourself.

He had never felt that Atsushi Nakajima was so lost, and realizing this made Akutagawa himself very disappointed.Akutagawa Ryunosuke went to the co-pilot door, opened it and sat in. Nakajima Atsushi followed, fastened his seat belt and drove away.

"I'll drive." Akutagawa Ryunosuke grabbed Atsushi Nakajima's arm, "Sit in the back."

"...No." Atsushi Nakajima's fingertips were all white, and his legs were shaking.

"Go to the back!" Akutagawa Ryunosuke ordered sharply.Atsushi Nakajima bit his lip and pulled out one leg, and Ryunosuke Akutagawa stretched one leg in, and the two switched positions without slowing down.After holding the steering wheel, Akutagawa looked up at the rearview mirror inside the car. Atsushi Nakajima's eyes on the mirror were like the hard shells of cicadas, gray and empty.Baihu pinched his hands at first, trying to pull himself out of the stormy memories of the past. After returning to reality, he began to gnash his teeth again. Ryunosuke Akutagawa saw his face painted with white tiger's stripes again. His mouth and Eyes seem to glow.

"...Did you already know?" Atsushi Nakajima asked.

"..." Akutagawa Ryunosuke realized that he still couldn't tell a lie, he could hide it, but he couldn't lie, "Yeah."

"You lied to me too, we are fair now..."

"Who am I for?" Akutagawa started to speed up.

"Then who am I for?" Atsushi Nakajima originally wanted to increase the volume, but if he amplified his voice, tears would roll down his face.

The Cold War has since ended.

Both of these guys lost.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke was silent, soaring directly to 220 yards, and it took 2 minutes to slow down after getting off the highway. After driving into this county, he used the map route he had found before to drive to Xinhe Orphanage, all the way unimpeded.After getting out of the car, Atsushi Nakajima glanced at the old and desolate streets. The boring, safe and mediocre small town is still exactly the same as before. The water heater advertisement on the untiled side of the house has faded.The signboard of the Xinhe Orphanage had been demolished a long time ago, the vines that covered the low walls were yellowish with malnutrition, the whole building was burned down and collapsed, and the yard was full of water with black carbide floating.

Atsushi Nakajima walked to the backyard according to the route in his vague memory. The flower bed where he and Izumi Jinghua buried the body of the starving little turtle more than ten years ago had been completely dug up. one place.Ryunosuke Akutagawa still kept his hands in his pockets, but his pace was much faster. He followed Atsushi Nakajima and looked at the orphanage where the children's bodies and minds were crushed to pieces.

The white tiger circled back to the front yard, followed by the Japanese wolf.The house was so burned that it was impossible to enter, the local fire station cordoned off, and the few materials and photos that were finally found were sorted out by the staff and pasted on the rusty bulletin board.Atsushi Nakajima lost his soul. He walked to the bulletin board like he was floating, and looked for the faces he remembered one by one. The face of small teeth with decayed black after much.The eyes went down to find the last one, which was a black and white photo of him and Quan Jinghua making small clay figurines together. It was taken in 2002.

He suddenly remembered that after pinching, he and Quan Jinghua entrusted the little clay figurine to a child who he could no longer remember its appearance, and they ran away that night.

Atsushi Nakajima turned around and sat on the bench under the bulletin board, his legs were raised together, and his fingers were twisted and placed on it.Akutagawa Ryunosuke didn't feel anyone crying in front of him, he didn't feel it on the surface, and he didn't feel it in his heart, as if crying could solve the problem.But he couldn't see Atsushi Nakajima crying the most, as long as the latter shed a little teardrop, he would have nothing to do.After all, he can't comfort people.He watched Atsushi Nakajima twitching his nose and moving his lips, thinking he should do something, but he couldn't.He really can't fall in love.Atsushi Nakajima was the first and last he loved.Before going to bed with Atsushi Nakajima, he was a real virgin, and he couldn't say that for the rest of his life.

Now he finally understands a sentence that other men said. After substituting Atsushi Nakajima, this sentence is like this——

Whether it was his fault or not, no matter what he did, as long as he cried, it was all his fault.

Atsushi Nakajima blinked, and large strings of tears fell one after another, pooling on the tip of his chin and dripping along the curve of his neck, and some dripped on his suit and trousers. The small beads stuck to the fabric and continued to seep, spreading out wet marks .That was also the scar of the boy back then.

First shed tears, and then cried while smoking. These two steps were actually within the range that Ryunosuke Akutagawa could bear, but Atsushi Nakajima finally sat on the bench and cried loudly. After wiping his eyes with the back of his hand Dry it directly on your pants, then go on to wipe your tears.

……

Come on, what else can I do?

Akutagawa Ryunosuke raised his face: "Don't cry."

Atsushi Nakajima buried his head in the arms of Akutagawa who was standing there, and soaked all the tears on his suit for so many years after escaping from the orphanage, trying to control it, but he couldn't stop crying.Atsushi Nakajima pulled Akutagawa Ryunosuke's clothes with both hands, and continued to cry.

"Don, don't cry."

Akutagawa Ryunosuke spoke again in a blunt tone.He hugged the white tiger's head, and stroked his chin soaked in tears.It's okay not to say, as soon as he said "Dun", Atsushi Nakajima suddenly remembered that he hadn't called himself that in a long time, and the pain and grievances during the Cold War surged up, and then he started crying again.

"Don't cry!" Akutagawa Ryunosuke finally started yelling directly. He thought that this move should be useful, and he shook off the hand holding him, making Atsushi Nakajima hang his head again.Nakajima Atsushi was stopped by his yelling, and after two or three seconds, the crying sounded from small to loud again.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke pulled the person across from the bench, pulled him into his arms and kissed him.When Atsushi Nakajima's lips hit each other, the salty taste came over, it was very bitter——Akutagawa Ryunosuke held his face with both hands to make him bring his head closer to his own, separated his tongue and pushed his small lips into it , comforting him with lips and tongue.Atsushi Nakajima made a fuss at the beginning, shaking his body in his arms trying to break free, and greeted him with heavy fists.Akutagawa Ryunosuke was beaten until his chest echoed. The Japanese wolf put one hand around his waist, and the other wolf paw pinched his face and kissed him, rolling the tears from his mouth. Both of them lick dry together.

Atsushi Nakajima whined, this was the second time Akutagawa Ryunosuke kissed him in public, occasionally someone came into the yard to look at the ruins, and some staff members walked around, but Akutagawa didn't care about it, he opened his mouth and kissed him once enough.After kissing for a long time, I felt it, and the other party's heart was conveyed. After the crying stopped, Atsushi Nakajima's tongue would not move, and his back would tremble when he was hooked up by the other party.

"Hmm... Akutagawa... Akutagawa..."

Atsushi Nakajima pushed him with his hands, because an uncle just walked by with an unacceptable expression on his face.In order to punish him for not paying attention, Akutagawa Ryunosuke bit off a wolf tooth after reaching his tongue, causing Baihu to whimper in pain.It doesn't matter if he restrains himself from screaming, or he punches Akutagawa Ryunosuke again, he grunted so aggrievedly, and drew out the dirty thoughts that the two of them hadn't touched for a long time.Finally reconciled—the two hugged each other, and Nakajima pulled out his tongue when he got tired of chewing, pulled Akutagawa's tie back, sat down again, and continued to chew on his neck with the wristband.

Of course, Ryunosuke Akutagawa couldn't let him take advantage of it. He leaned on the back of the bench with one hand and grabbed Atsushi Nakajima's collar with the other. point of view to continue.When he stretched out his tongue and licked it almost to the position of the palate, he protruded the tip of the tongue and went deeper. Mr. Atsushi Nakajima, who had never been kissed so deeply, was stimulated to end the kiss, but was caught by Akutagawa Ryunosuke goon.

"Do you know what's wrong?"

When Akutagawa Ryunosuke was a little dizzy himself, he slowly slid his tongue out of his mouth, and after pulling out the silver thread, he put his forehead on Atsushi Nakajima and asked.

Nakajima Atsushi now wants to kill Akutagawa Ryunosuke.

"Where did I go wrong?" The white tiger was fierce, as if it was about to bite directly into Akutagawa Ryunosuke's main artery.But with those purple-gold eyes foggy, his face blushing again after crying, his lips and jaw all drenched, he can't be fierce, okay?After staring at the handsome face in front of him for a long time, Atsushi Nakajima realized that the facial features carved with axes and knives were really good-looking, and he leaned his lips against it again in a silent confrontation.

How could Akutagawa Ryunosuke not know what he wanted to do? If you want to kiss me, I won't let you kiss him. He tilted his head back, but the tie was caught again, and his neck tightened and he was pulled back.The Japanese wolf clicked his tongue, and the white tiger's tongue blocked the doorway of his lips for a long time, and he couldn't get in. Seeing the other party's persistence, Akutagawa Ryunosuke tensed for a while, but finally the old face couldn't tense up, so he let him go.

The depression and fatigue during this period were washed away by tears, and the obscure and gloomy past could not be completely forgotten, but he could cheer up again and again.

Atsushi Nakajima was amused again after being kissed for so long.After the two decided to get married, he and Ryunosuke Akutagawa went to Fukuzawa Yukichi's house for a meal as a meeting with their parents.When eating at home, two people serve their own rice, or Atsubo Nakajima Akutagawa Ryunosuke serves.After arriving at Fukuzawa's house, the younger generation would of course have to feed the older generation, but Ryunosuke Akutagawa never had this habit when he was a child in the Mori family, so the Japanese wolf usually sat on the seat with his arms folded and waited for Atsumori Nakajima.

At that time, Atsushi Nakajima finished Sheng Akutagawa Ryunosuke's and went to Sheng Fukuzawa Yukichi's, and then served his own.Fukuzawa Yukichi has strict requirements on everyone including himself. He doesn't like pampered sons very much. He didn't recommend Nakajima Atsushi to marry him before. At that time, Fukuzawa Yukichi looked at the meal of the three of them and said in silence for a long time, " Let's eat."

Akutagawa Ryunosuke and Nakajima Atsushi looked at each other. After the Japanese wolf read the air, he reached out and stood up when Fukuzawa Yukichi was eating the second bowl: "Let me do it."

Fukuzawa Yukichi seemed surprised by his concession and savvy, and passed the bowl.

It was at that time that Atsushi Nakajima decided to be with Ryunosuke Akutagawa forever.His body, which has been tortured by injuries and has been tempered like steel, has been beaten and beaten, and he is also good at beating others hard. The only few soft corners of his body have been relied on by himself.Akutagawa Ryunosuke seemed to have the power to calm himself down without saying a word.

Atsushi Nakajima recalled, completely unaware that Akutagawa Ryunosuke's wolf claws had touched his body, as if he had been waiting for this opportunity.From the neck to the collarbone, then to the waist, and finally...

"Wow!"

Atsushi Nakajima really didn't intend to continue this time, "What are you doing?"

"..." Akutagawa Ryunosuke kissed his swollen lips, then reached into his shirt directly, touching his own body that he hadn't touched for 20 or 30 days.

"What am I going to do... Shouldn't you ask yourself this?"

……

Aren't we the Cold War? When did he learn this? !

Why is this tone so similar to the bad idol drama Dazai played ten years ago? ? ?

My God, it's so earthy--

Atsushi Nakajima, who completely forgot what he said on the night of the wedding, had black lines all over his face.

After coming out of Xinhe, Akutagawa briefly explained his plans with Chuya Nakahara and Osamu Dazai, and then took Atsushi Nakajima to a five-star family.After parking the car, I took the planner, who was probably hungry and crying, to the restaurant on the second floor for dinner.After ordering the largest set meal, Ryunosuke Akutagawa and Atsushi Nakajima sat down at the table.Warm golden lights poured down like stardust through the gaps in the small lights, and hit the table of the two of them.Atsushi Nakajima was indeed hungry. Before he had time to eat the sandwich he bought last night, people rushed here.

After the stewed octopus in sauce, stir-fried seasonal vegetables, roast beef and bird's nest were served, Atsushi Nakajima ate them directly.Akutagawa Ryunosuke didn't tell him the contents of the menu, and our simple and easy-going planner didn't know that the viscous soup mixed with seaweed and eggs in front of him was a beauty care product worth tens of thousands of yuan per gram, and it was right to be seaweed egg drop soup Take a big gulp.At this time, Ryunosuke Akutagawa felt that he couldn't tell him that it was a bird's nest. The frugal planner would definitely eat it all after he knew it, so as not to waste it. It would be bad if he had a stomachache——

Gut health can be a big boost to sexual health.

Ryunosuke Akutagawa picked up a piece of fish, and after eating it slowly, he found something was wrong.He ate a little more, and found that the outside of the fish was hot and the inside was ice. His cold and resolute face turned black in a second, and he grabbed Atsushi Nakajima's arm that was about to extend his chopsticks to the fish.

"...why?" Atsushi Nakajima was baffled by Ryunosuke Akutagawa who suddenly lost his face.The Japanese wolf is a director at any rate, and his aura has been cultivated since he was a child. As soon as he pulled his face down, a waiter next to him had noticed it. He glanced to the side with his pair of gray eyes. Before Jinkou opened, the lobby manager had already left. come over.

"Sir, what's the matter?"

"This fish is ice." Akutagawa Ryunosuke pouted.

"Isn't it ice?" Atsushi Nakajima put his hand close to the plate of fish to feel it.

"It's ice inside." Akutagawa Ryunosuke said to the lobby manager.

The lobby manager immediately took the fish away, and after a while, the chef of the restaurant came back with the manager and brought a new plate of fish and a plate of sushi: "I'm really sorry, we will heat it in the oven after we finish it , did not notice this problem. This plate of sushi is for you."

Akutagawa withdrew his gaze, his face softened a lot, and slowly lowered his hand holding Atsushi Nakajima, expressing his acquiescence.After the manager and the chef left, Atsushi Nakajima glanced at the Japanese wolf secretly, and then continued to eat, but there were little bubbles in his heart.

TBC.