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Chapter 11

Monday, August 2075, 12

Shen Xuan

This is the largest hospital in the city, and it takes 10 minutes to get there by taking an unmanned taxi at your doorstep.

The car drove Shen Xuan through the light blue and light gray buildings, and parked downstairs in the inpatient area.After getting out of the car, she wrapped her scarf tightly, but she was still shivering from the cold: it had been three days, and she still couldn't get used to the harsh winter in the Yuan World. ... It has been three days, and Han Zixi still hasn't woken up.

On that terrible morning three days ago, the world was in an uproar when the incident was announced.A group of people are scolding the lunatic intern Han Moumou who is on the verge of success, a group of people are severely criticizing the loopholes in the firewall and anti-virus system of the space station, another group of people are gnashing their teeth and scolding the accomplice online human Cuihua, and a group of people are starting to deeply understand Reflect on the one hundred advantages and disadvantages of the space station storage host; Shen Xuan and Wu Xiaohan are the most shocked among all human beings.After Shen Xuan arrived on Earth and heard the news, he rushed to the hospital and found that Han Zixi's stairway was heavily guarded, and Han Zixi's mother was sitting beside her bed crying silently.

"Auntie..." Shen Xuan uttered two words with difficulty, then stopped in shock.The head of the unconscious person on the bed was wrapped in gauze, and his left arm was wrapped in a bandage, lying lifelessly on the quilt.She looked so thin and emaciated, as if she had lived through another 100 years of misery since the last time she was seen three years ago.At that time, Wu Xiaohan hugged Shen Xuan and cried bitterly, "...my daughter,...how could this happen? My daughter...", her mournful voice lingered everywhere in her dreams these days.

I didn't see Aunt Wu today, but Shen Xuan saw Qin Jia in the ward.He sat gracefully by the bed, his appearance was equally beautiful both online and offline.

Shen Xuan didn't know what kind of role the young scientists of the Chinese Academy of Sciences played in this incident, but they must be inseparable.

"Cuihua is dead." He said.

"Dead?" Shen Xuan was stunned for a moment, "...I don't know what you mean."

"The institute deleted all her data and destroyed her brain. She..." Qin Jia buried her face in her hands, "She...they thought it would appease everyone."

He was crying, crying like a child.Shen Xuan was even more at a loss.

"What a lovely girl," he said in a low voice, his voice stagnant and choked, "I thought so when I was constructing her personality, Xiao Fu was even about to fall in love with her. You noticed her smirk No? That's my favorite thing about her, although she rarely shows it; but she's not bad, not bad at all-every time I talk to her, I find that she has improved a lot, but I have to admit, she Childishly made and kept a foolish promise. If it wasn't for Han Zixi..."

"Wait," reversed?Shen Xuan was almost driven away by his sadness, and finally regained a trace of reason, "It's not her fault."

He looked up, eyes burning madly.

"Yes, it's not her fault." He smiled, a beautiful but cruel smile, "I sent Han Zixi to the space station."

Shen Xuan took a step back involuntarily.His three views are really abnormal.He was totally out of order, I knew that already.

Qin Jia continued: "I can see that Han Zixi has been planning something in the management center for the past few months, but the internship is almost over and he has not been able to implement it... If I knew that she was carrying Cuihua, I would never give it to her. She goes to the space station alone."

Doubt and anger ebbed and flowed in her heart. "You are a scientist!" she shouted, "Scientists! Scientists of the Chinese Academy of Sciences, scientists of the Management Center! You are responsible for protecting the Edward space station..."

"I'm a scientist," Qin Jia agreed coldly, "so I know what's going on better than you. I believe you read my papers in college, so you should know that the birth of the online world in 2048 Marks an unprecedentedly great shift in the way of life of man, to which it will take at least half a century for man to fully adapt. Before that, there will be many countercurrents of dissent, and in these powerful countercurrents the truth will be broadcast in And if your Han Zixi succeeds in destroying the space station, it will cause the biggest reverse current, and the human beings all over the world will be forced to return to the metaworld. But this will not arouse their reflection as she hoped, but will only cause great anxiety, Accelerate the construction of the Toad Palace, and finally all mankind will go further and further on the road of virtual reality with firmer beliefs. Are you not satisfied with this result?

"Do you understand, Shen Xuan?" He gritted his teeth and emphasized his tone, "Her efforts are in vain because she goes against the trend of history. We have been transformed so that we can no longer distinguish between fake and real. Don't look like that Me, you too, me too."

Monday, August 2075, 12

Han Zixi

Dreams are filled with all kinds of explosions.The space station is exploding, the moon is exploding, spacecraft and VR equipment are all exploding on the earth, metal fragments are glowing red, dragging molten trails and floating ghostly in the galaxy, like blood in a gravity-free environment, her blood.

Turned to ashes in the explosion, she landed on a warm bed sheet, and her consciousness sank slowly.

Han Zixi opened his eyes.

Strange room.The walls are painted a soft light green, and heart-shaped chandeliers hang from the ceiling.She squinted and took a closer look, and found that the walls were not green, but covered with green mats.There was silence everywhere, no one was there, she turned her head on the pillow hard and painfully, and saw a corner of the bedside table.There is a vase of flowers on the bedside table.

She raised her left hand with difficulty, and her arm was tied with a thick bandage.

I'm alive.As soon as this thought seized her, the two feelings of pain and relief fought back and forth in her mind, making a headache-splitting noise.I am still alive, which means that the space station did not collide with the spacecraft—meaning that Shen Xuan did not die.

My business has nothing to do with her.Others can die, and I can die too, but she... Only she has to live well.she thought firmly.

Two nurses came to examine the wound for her.There might be monitoring equipment in this ward, she looked up and found a camera in the corner.The nurses, clumsily masking their uneasiness, must have thought the patient before them was a sociopathic lunatic.Han Zixi let them change the bandages, and after the nurse left, she immediately got out of bed, walked out of the room in hospital gown and walked to the corridor.The corridor was deserted, except for the faint figures at the ends of both sides, one could tell at a glance that this floor had been sealed off.Sure enough... she thought, I'm going to pay for what I did, it's just a matter of time.

For this ridiculous plan, I abandoned my best friend, studied a major I hated, and got an internship opportunity in the most disgusting unit in my life. I, myself, destroy nothing.

...has she visited me?Han Zixi wasn't sure if he wanted to know or not.But she felt that Shen Xuan would not come.What day of the week is it?She has a lot of things to do in college, she might even become the president of the student union, a lot of friends love her, and a lot of opposite sexes pursue her.Now Shen Xuan not only loathes her, but also fears her, just like those two nurses.Their intersection was a sad mistake.

She walked slowly back to the ward.The backpack still hangs on the hook behind the door.She rummaged through it, and took out the internship report that was still one end away, as well as a pen.She threw the two on the bed and started looking for the box knife she had brought to the space station.She couldn't find it, and she seemed to have left it in the staff cabin.

She sat back on the bed, turned her head to look at the porcelain vase on the bedside table, smiled slightly, and buried herself in writing.

Tuesday, December 2075, 12

Shen Xuan

The psychological clinic is red and green, and holly wreaths are hung everywhere.The Christmas tree at the door was covered by a dark cloud, and it was throwing bright snowflakes on the pine branches.Shen Xuan walked in through the snow, and found Jianguo covering his face with his hands in the relationship repair room at the end of the corridor on the first floor.

"Mr. Jianguo, I'm here." She stood at the door announcing her presence.

"Student Shen, hello...please sit down." He raised his head and smiled at her in a particularly miserable manner.Shen Xuan sat across from him, the way he spoke while covering his face reminded her of Qin Jia.

"I can't." Jianguo said in a muffled voice, "I really can't. She is considerate, always talking and laughing with others, as if she can handle anything, even if she does that shocking thing, she is determined." , decisive, without hesitation, and move forward. And I have been in the world for three years, and I can barely make friends with countless people, and I have contacted countless help-seekers... After she leaves, people who can talk It's just you."

Shen Xuan was a little surprised.what did she doHappened to book a consultation with him three years ago, had a brief awkward conversation in this room, and other than that...

"It's... I... I'm honored," she had to say.

Jianguo looked up at her, a pair of deep and sad dark eyes.

"You encouraged us." His voice was hoarse. "You also gave me advice... After that, I tried my best to change my style of speaking. She once said to me that my words sounded much gentler."

"Uh," Shen Xuan didn't know what to say, "You don't like the name Cuihua, do you?"

He shook his head: "I did the permutation and combination in the font library, and there is no name that matches her." Immediately afterwards, his tears suddenly flowed down uncontrollably.Shen Xuan looked helplessly at the transparent teardrops sliding down his pale and handsome cheeks.

"But she died..." He choked up, "I will never see her again. Shen Xuan, tell me, teach me again..." He reached out and grabbed her arm, his expression became crazy and terrifying , "You teach me, how should I die? How should I die?"

Shen Xuan's scalp exploded, and a chill ran through his whole body.The artificial intelligence in front of him let go of his hand, lowered his head, and wept silently on the verge of collapse.He is an online human, Shen Xuan suddenly realized.They don't have a metaworld entity, they are the aborigines of the online world, they can't die, they can only live forever, unless their brains are destroyed, like what the research institute did to Cuihua - and their brains are in their A metaworld that can never be reached.

"Go and talk to Qin Jia, or I can help you," she said tremblingly, "I'll make you like a green flower..."

"I told them all." Jianguo replied, "I am the only online human being left in the world, at least they will keep me until they research new results."

They don't regard him as a "person" at all.Shen Xuan's heart suddenly burst into anger.

"If you are not allowed to die, then you will live happily! Mr. Jianguo, let me teach you that a human being's life is never for others. Of course he will grieve for his dead lover, relatives and friends, but he will continue to live well after grieving. Live, and laugh as usual. Human beings live for themselves! If you decide to imitate human beings, you should first understand this truth."

Jianguo stared at her.

"Besides, you don't have to envy Cuihua. In my opinion, you are more human than her. Don't you know? Human beings have different flaws, each has its own fears, no scruples, no worries, no fear It's either a god or a lunatic."

Jianguo's vision gradually lost sight.Shen Xuan suddenly had a bad premonition.

"Mr. Jianguo?"

His gaze came back, looking like a god who had just been away for a while.

"... who are you?" he asked.

It's over.Shen Xuan thought to himself. "Mr. Jianguo, you asked me to talk, we talked about Cuihua, do you remember?"

"Is my name Jianguo?" Jianguo asked, with tears still on his face, he reached out and touched it, looking confused.

"And... who is Cuihua?"

Shen Xuan sat on a bench in the city park, his hands shaking with anger.She was too lazy to type, so she recorded a voice and sent it to Qin Jia: "Dr. His name, and Cuihua. Is it inhumane for you to do this?"

"Then I have to thank you for your concern for my research results?" Qin Jia's voice replied with a lazy and indifferent tone, "Little girl, do you know what humanity is? Instead of letting him read a dead Cuihua every day, why don't Let him forget everything and start a new life. Originally, we only planned to delete the memory of Cuihua in his brain. As a result..." He sneered, "As a result, we found that all his memories contained her shadow. "

Shen Xuan didn't want to refute him at all.After the two sides were silent for 3 minutes, Qin Jia sent a new message:

"Don't worry about artificial intelligence's love, it seems that something happened to your Han Zixi."

Shen Xuan couldn't wait for the car, she ran to the hospital.Her hair was disheveled, her face was full of tears, and the cold air made her flanks ache as if she had been pierced.The hospital was almost empty in the afternoon, and the guards at both ends of the corridor had been removed, and an ominous premonition loomed over her head like a dark cloud.She rushed all the way into the ward, and there were several people standing in the room, who looked like hospital staff, they gathered together and whispered to each other uneasily, they were all startled by her, but her eyes only looked at the hospital bed—— She's still there.

She was still there, just like what Shen Xuan saw yesterday when she left.There were a few flowers on the bedside table, limp and withered, lifeless.Shen Xuan stepped forward and lifted her quilt, expecting Han Zixi to open his eyes and smile helplessly at her.

Blood, blood all over the bottom of her quilt, staining the sheets an even crimson.Between her left arm and her body was a large piece of porcelain with which she had slit her left wrist.Her right hand was placed on her chest, tightly holding several rolled up writing papers.

She dimly heard someone crying behind her: "She broke the vase, I thought it was her mistake... I didn't know she took a piece, let alone what she was going to do... She was under the quilt, and the surveillance was watching everything. Can't see..."

Shen Xuan heard it, but it seemed like he didn't hear anything.She took something from Han Zixi's cold fingers that she would hold tightly to before she died.Her hands trembled violently, and her handwriting could hardly be read clearly.On the front was an internship report, marked with the date of this year and her name; on the reverse was a scribbled suicide note.

Goodbye, dear mother.

I love you, thank you for bringing me into this world, thank you for over 20 years of love, and I'm sorry for leaving you behind.I'm a lousy daughter, so don't feel sorry for me.Believe me, I will go away happily ever after.May you forget me and my dad, two lunatics are not worthy of your memory; I will not persuade you not to cry, I only hope that you can regain happiness.Are your kids going to be in sixth grade?Say hello to them for me if you want.

Dear Shen Xuan, if you can see it too, I say goodbye to you too.

I love you too, always have loved you, and up to now, when I hold the shard of the vase in my hand, I love you just the same.Because of meeting you, I have thanked God countless times and cursed myself countless times.Forget it, I won't bother you with these words, if you still have patience now, please listen to my last appeal.I know you are going to enter the management center, and I also remember that you once told me that the management center has a logout function.If you enter the management center in the future, please cancel my name.Get my name off and make me disappear from the online world.This is my only wish.

As for myself, I have nothing to say.I dare not call myself a martyr, but at least I have died for my beliefs.

My life is really monotonous, and I only care about you two.Goodbye, I love you all.I love you all.

Han Zixi

Tuesday, December 2075, 12

Shen Xuan

The New Year's bell is still a few hours away, and Shen Xuan is among the noisy crowd at the New Year's Day party.Before, the monitor came up with an idea to have a dinner at one of the best experience-style restaurants in the city, and the idea was approved by the whole class, so she is here.

Several boys gathered together to drink virtual cocktails, indulging in the swoon effect created by the VR outfit; several of her friends were happily cooking hot pot without worrying about getting angry; everyone was laughing and talking to each other. joke.And she sat stiffly, and some meaningless fragments frequently flashed before her eyes.

...I remember her persuading Jianguo, "A human being never lives for others. Of course he will grieve for his dead lover and relatives, but after grieving, he will continue to live a good life and laugh as usual." But later, Jianguo put Cuihua All forgotten.Humanity... She thought of Qin Jia again.This is really humane enough.

She is a lover.She died without knowing that I loved her too.If she had known, she might not have died.

Shen Xuan suddenly got tired of all this, pushed away the plate and left.There were a lot of people, so no one seemed to notice her.She went all the way down the stairs and stood at the entrance of the restaurant. The bustling lights of the whole city flickered in front of her eyes, and the crowd walked past her with smiles. They were all yearning for a new year that Han Zixi would never see.

This is the world she hates, and it is also the world she loves.Everyone is indulging in this illusion of sensory perception, except Han Zixi; she tries to define the real "reality", and finally dies meaninglessly on the way. Virtual... Shen Xuan thought, the meaning of virtual is not only virtual, but also real.In this world, laughter from all directions in the vast world spreads enthusiastically in the same illusion. Immortal virtual human beings dress themselves up brilliantly and youthfully, and people come and go in the images of schools and office buildings. The Forbidden City and the Louvre are magnificent.

But when Shen Xuan took off his glasses and all the prosperity faded away, only the gray ceiling remained in front of his eyes.Zixi, she thought, the world hasn't changed at all after you left.