I will accompany you until the age of 25

Chapter 12 [An De and Jun are farewell to each other, so as not to teach life and death to be lovesi

[Ande and the king will say goodbye to each other, so as not to teach life and death to be lovesick]

00

My name is Lin Yang.

I am 24 years old now.

However, I am leaving this world soon.

01

I'm not such a hypocritical person, but I still miss him very much. I can't understand why he can give up on me so easily.

Yes, I am in love with a man.

Even though it's been almost five years since he dumped me.

I remember he once said to me... "I only have you, and there are so many people robbing me."

At that time, I thought he was very childish, but after getting to know him for a long time, I realized that he was not as serious and calm as he appeared on the outside.

Seven years ago at that time, I was 17, and so was he.

He would panic when I was lost, and even memorized the roads of N City because of this, just to find me conveniently.

He will be anxious when my stomach hurts, and then he will start to learn how to cook, and he will take care of my breakfast, lunch and dinner.

He doesn't like to talk, but he likes to quarrel with me and pull me out to bask in the sun.

He doesn't seem to like me talking to others very much, and every time he chats with other classmates, he just ignores me with a gloomy face.

At first, I didn't think there was anything wrong.

Until a girl found me and quietly asked me if I was dating him.

I was surprised and asked her, "Why do you think like this?"

She said: "You two get along very much like a couple, don't you?"

"Is it like this...?"

So in the eyes of others, do we look like a couple?

But wouldn't it be strange for two men?

I can't confirm.

When winter came, my father suddenly asked me, would I be willing to take a break from school to get medical treatment?

Naturally, I don't want to. It's just a genetic congenital heart disease. If I pay more attention, nothing will happen.

"I'm just telling you, you have to cooperate." Dad suddenly became tough. He was worried about me, and I knew it.

Well, then there was a quarrel, and he asked me to go back to the room to reflect.

I'm not negative and pessimistic, it's just a genetic congenital heart disease, and I don't necessarily die. If I have to be hospitalized because of this, it's really a bit of a loss.

The most important thing is... It will be very uncomfortable if you don't see that person.

Thinking of this, I didn't know when I walked into the street.

Probably because of the Chinese New Year, there were very few pedestrians, so I ran out like this, and I didn't know where to go.

02

Just when I didn't know what to do, he called me...

He says……

he misses me...

Thinking about it now, maybe I started liking him at that time.

After sitting in the terminal all night, I thought a lot about the next day's flight.

I even thought about what to say and explain when I saw him.

It's just that I didn't expect...he is an evil local tyrant.

How should I put it, when I saw him... I was able to see his face clearly.

Bad image...

So I laughed heartlessly.

03

For almost three months, we have been together.

The process... Can I not talk about it?

In short, it is a memory that makes me feel good when I think about it, but it is just a memory.

One day without warning, I was waiting for him by the basketball court, but he didn't come.

And what greeted me was bad news.

If this news was put before, I wouldn't have any worries... It's just that I have him now.

What should I do when I'm not there when he needs me?

I didn't expect this to be a problem...

His father came to talk to me. He was a very old middle-aged man...very serious, with a very stiff expression, which seemed very unnatural.

"I've heard about you and Mu Yu."

When he saw me, he didn't greet me politely.

"...?"

Who is Mu Yu?

"He is going to the United States for further studies, and he must inherit my career in the future."

"...is he... voluntary?"

I opened my mouth cautiously, acquiescing that the "Mu Yu" in the man's mouth is him.

"..." He paused for a while before answering "Yes."

Speechless, I could only stare at my fingers in a daze.

"He just thinks you are fresher. Young people are like this. When the energy passes, everything is empty. Letting go earlier is good for both of you."

There is a tingling feeling in my heart, is it just for fun...

Is it all just for fun...?

I tried my best to recall all the past, if it was just a game, he didn't have to do it so well...

I tried to convince myself of him.

"impossible."

"I knew you would say that. Here is a letter from him to you."

"..."

"Here's this empty check for you. Just write down the amount. And you, don't provoke Mu Yu anymore. Stalking is ugly. You are very smart. I hope you can understand."

"..."

"It is impossible for two men to have a future."

I didn't have time to care about being polite, I didn't care when he left, I just looked at the familiar handwriting on the paper...and felt chilling.

"I'm sorry, what my father said is right. I'm going abroad, I'm sorry for you, but I can't give up my future for this relationship, maybe it will be sad at first, but time can heal everything, right? ? Don't come to me again, I don't need you to wait."

I don't believe he wrote it.

Even if every stroke is so familiar, I don't believe it...

can not believe……

04

I haven't seen my brother for two months.

Brother Jingliang came to see me, and he also looked worried. I know, I can't ask.

I no longer have any position to interfere with my brother's affairs. In other words, if I take care of myself, it is the greatest help to my brother...

In the past six months, I have seen my father almost every day.

"In the past, I used the excuse that I was busy with work and couldn't go home... because I didn't dare to see you..."

I tried not to interrupt Dad's narration by making any noise, and lay on the bed pretending to be asleep.

"Every time I see you, I think of your mother...you are so similar to her..."

"I regret it...why I listened to your mother and insisted on giving birth to you."

"I even... even wished that you never existed. I even thought that without you, she would still be able to stand by my side now."

"But I know I'm wrong... I shouldn't think like this. When you grew up under my neglect, I realized that you always occupy a big place in my heart."

"Back then, after abandoning you, I immediately regretted it... But I looked back and searched, but I couldn't find it. Finally, when I saw you lying on the sofa with some blood on your body at the [Harmony] police station... I It's just about to collapse."

"It can be said that over the years, I have never fulfilled my responsibilities as a father to you. I have been escaping from reality, ignoring you, not seeing you. I thought I could forget those things..."

Dad talked for a long time, it turns out that he has always faced me with such complicated feelings... I don't hate him, he is my father after all.

"Yangyang, I don't ask you to forgive me, I just hope that you can let me spend this time with you..."

"I never hated you, Dad."

I squeezed Dad's rough hand.

A smile appeared on his tired face.

"Yangyang, Dad will never leave you again, nor will he abandon you again. Do you believe in Dad?"

"Ah."

I didn't tell Dad, I knew everything.

Knowing that he wrote my name on the back of my mother's photo, knowing that he told his brother to take good care of me no matter what, knowing that he never forgot my birthday.

I know, Dad, you're just in too much pain.

I know, Dad, you have always cared about me.

Dad, thank you.

05

After Dad fell asleep, I remembered one thing.

It was when I was a child that he took me to a place far away from home and asked me to stand there and wait for him.

He left in a hurry, afraid that his heart would soften.

When I was six years old, I didn't know that I was abandoned...

My legs were numb from standing, and I felt very cold. The wind was pouring into my jacket meticulously. I timidly looked around, but there was no one I knew.

It was so cold, I could only go to the narrow alley next to me and squat there waiting for my father.

"Hey, kid, don't you know this is my place?"

Not long after, someone blocked the only light, and I couldn't see that person's face clearly.

"Brother, he seems to have ignored you."

"This kid is too arrogant!"

There are three people...

"Hey, our boss is talking to you! Head up!"

The cold and rough things pressed against my head, and I realized that they were full of pungent wine smell.

The nose will be frozen, and the sense of smell will become dull.

I didn't dare to speak, even though I knew that if I didn't speak, it would annoy them, but my throat seemed to be blocked by chewed bones, and I couldn't utter any meaningful tones.

"Boss, this kid is very annoying, he won't talk."

"Hmph," the yellow-haired boy known as the boss snorted coldly, "then beat him up."

There was a sound of glass breaking, and the shards splashed and scratched the back of my hand. I didn't feel any discomfort except for a little pain in my hand. Didn't it hit me?Feeling the thick liquid flowing from my forehead, I opened my eyes in a daze, and blocked my sight with one hand.

"madness."

It was very blurry in front of my eyes, and I vaguely saw the silhouette of a person with his back to me. He was not one of the three people, because there was a scratch on his hanging arm, and blood was still coming out.

The sudden tinnitus made me very uncomfortable. I couldn't hear their quarrel just now. I could only see them fighting... I don't know who has the upper hand.

God knows how long, the cold wind made me numb, but I couldn't sleep...

"Hey, are you okay?"

The surrounding temperature rose, just like a match ignited the firewood. I rushed towards the hot object, and the other person's body became obviously stiff.

I remember my brother said that he should thank others for helping him.

"Thank you..." I whispered, "My dad and I got lost, can you help me..."

The man didn't speak or move, just looked down at me slightly.

"Can you?" I thought he didn't hear, so I repeated.

"what's your name?"

"Lin Yang."

Maybe when I was a child, I didn't speak clearly enough, and that person heard "Lin Yang".

"My surname is Yang."

"Eh?"

"What a coincidence."

"..."

Didn't understand what he was saying...

Yes, I didn't understand.

In the end he sent me to the [Harmony] police station. His hands were wrapped in layers of bandages, like an active mummy.

We sat on the couch, waiting for them to contact Dad, and he said, "You go to bed first."

"...?"

"..."

Oh, I see, it means that it may take a long time for Dad to come over. It's late now, let me go to bed first.

What a strange child, the speech is very strange...

"I can't sleep..." I answered honestly.

"Then sing a lullaby for you."

My first reaction was not to ask what a lullaby is but... Wow, there are seven words.

After I nodded, he hummed very lightly.

In a trance, I felt that his voice was very nice...

Also very gentle.

Fell asleep in a daze, the last impression is that my head fell on his lap, and then woke up at home.

Everything was like a dream, and I lived my life as usual, through primary and junior high school.

Spent high school by his side.

In the end, I spent the remaining five years of my life with my family.

06

In the first month of hospitalization, the hospital assigned me a nurse in this ward.

Very cheerful trainee nurse.

Her name is Blue Point, and she didn't have much impression at first.

Until one day when I went out for a walk with her, the big white dog she brought—Dabai.

"Dabai likes you very much~"

"...it looks familiar."

"Yeah, yeah, he threw you down as soon as he saw you a few years ago, do you remember!"

Blue Dot looked very excited, Dabai looked even more excited, and kept flicking his tail.

"How many years ago did we meet?"

"...Didn't you forget me?!" She changed her expression in a second, and lightly kicked Dabai's ass, "He has no conscience, he even forgot about you, and you are still so happy !"

I was very happy that afternoon, I wrote a note, stuffed it into Dabai's collar, and patted his head, "Dabai, do you like me very much?"

"Wang Wang!"

"Then don't flick your tail at anyone but me?"

"Wang Wang!"

"puff……"

The blue dot on one side looked very angry, grabbed the big white tail and shouted, "Stupid dog who eats inside and outside! I am your master!"

"Wang Wang!"

"Don't dump it!"

"Wang Wang!"

"..."

The tail continues to swing at high speed.

07

The hospital has issued a critical illness notice, but he is still a few months away from turning 25.

Blue Dot was also arrested by her family and went on a blind date abroad, but she insisted on staying with me to the end.

My brother was even more tired than me, as if he was the one who was sick.

In fact, I am not a hypocritical person.

I've always thought so too.

But looking at the mobile phone in his hand, looking at the number that he wanted to call countless times but hesitated...

I promised his father.

08

Today, I feel a change in my body, which is not good.

After hesitating again and again... I still dialed that number.

I was very nervous, and my palms were sweating.

It doesn't matter, I'm going to die anyway, why should I listen to his father?

My hand trembled, the phone hung up, I was a little uneasy, my fingers had already opened the contact and quickly edited the text message, I don't care if there is incoherent speech... I just want to tell him... I'm sorry.

Whether he remembers me or not.

It doesn't matter if he changed his number or not.

He called me back.

but--

After a long silence, his first words were...

"Hello? Are you..."

I hung up.

Although it was much deeper and hoarse, his voice was correct, and his number was correct...

He didn't change his number, but he really doesn't remember me...

I should be happy, and I should also be happy for him. He can be so free and easy, and he can forget this shameful memory for his future as soon as he turns around.

I should be happy...

I should have let go easily too...

I...should not hang up the phone so quickly but tell him happily, long time no see.

I... Shouldn't I feel that if he doesn't remember me, I don't have any guilt?

I should be happy. Fortunately, he forgot that there was someone like Lin Yang.

I should be happy, he doesn't remember me, so he won't be sad for my departure.

But, why am I crying more than...?

09

When I woke up in the morning, I was in good condition, except for the red and swollen eyes that were a bit annoying.

I said I wanted to go for a stroll in the park, but my brother easily refuted my words. After repeated requests, both sides took a step back.

He went to the park with me.

We walked to a small arch bridge, some old marble, and old willow trees full of signs of time.

Except for the vicissitudes that time has stained them, they are the same as in memory.

I walked to the bottom of the small arch bridge, and my brother told me not to get close to the lake, but when he reacted, I still got through.

I saw my name there.

Carved with a knife, my name.

I walked away like I was running away.

There is no turning back.

10

The moment I stopped breathing, I remembered what you once complained to me.

"You are the only one I have, and there are so many people fighting against me..."

I didn't know the answer then, but I do now.

"I only have you, but you don't even want me."

Now I can no longer bother you, and I can no longer interfere with your life.

But, no longer bother you, no longer contact you.

This is how I, finally love you.

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The author has something to say:

Well, here is the end of Yang Yang's perspective...

Next is someone Yang's perspective...

Well……