Cat's eye

Chapter 8

The next morning, Su Haotu woke up before Lin Mao. Lin Mao hugged him tightly all night, making Su Haotu smell of alcohol all over his body.Su Haotu quietly stared at this beautiful sleeping face, which showed an expression of satisfaction that he had finally obtained the warmth he had longed for.

Su Haotu used to be fond of imagining the scene of them embracing each other and falling asleep like this, but after he had to learn the only truth of "impossibility" from reality again and again, he gave up such a dream like drinking poison to quench thirst.He looked at Lin Mao in his arms, his lips parted slightly, his flirtatious eyes were tightly closed, his slightly curly hair was messed up in sleep, the movement of hugging Su Haotu tightly was a coquettish and possessive gesture .Su Haotu roughly guessed what happened from Lin Mao's drunken nonsense last night. He is not a person who is good at comforting others. He even felt selfish and wickedly grateful for Lin Mao's experience. At least it gave him another He returned to his side, and it allowed both of them to confirm that Su Haotu is still the most important thing to Lin Mao.

Lin Mao gradually woke up, and in a haze, he tightened his arms hugging Su Haotu again - this is not the warm and fragrant nephrite that he has long been accustomed to, this is firm and hard to the touch, it belongs to a man's body.Lin Mao rubbed his eyes. When he finally saw the person in front of him clearly, Lin Mao let go of his hand as if he had been electrocuted, and sat up stiffly, "...rat."

Su Haotu also sat up calmly. From what he had imagined countless times, Lin Mao's current reaction was not the worst one. He didn't punch himself again like last time, nor did he appear as if he had eaten Flies, stepping on the stool, but he can still see his fear, there is a kind of panic that can't be avoided, Su Haotu has no reason to blame him, but he can't sincerely forgive him, "It's you He ran to me when he was drunk, and he insisted on hugging me."

"I know, I, I don't mean anything else, I was just now, I was..."

Su Haotu interrupted him coldly: "I don't have any other intentions." Then he got off the bed, "Go back and take a shower first. Whether you want to go to work or not is up to you. I'm ready to go out now."

Lin Mao was startled, then lowered his head and said with a bitter smile, "You don't want me anymore."

Ever since he was sure that he fell in love with Lin Mao, Su Haotu's whole body was full of weaknesses. Even at this moment, even if Lin Mao put on a joking tone as usual, he was not sure whether he could still maintain such a cold expression. Lin Mao's expression looked It made his heart ache, and he wanted to deny Lin Mao's words immediately, but he still had a question, which he wanted to figure out no matter what, "Then do you want me? What kind of me do you want? "

This was a question that Lin Mao couldn't answer properly even when he was fully awake. He tilted his head, which was muddled after a hangover, with a confused and dull expression.Su Haotu didn't continue to wait for his answer, maybe he was also afraid, afraid that he would get an answer that would make him completely disheartened, so he turned around and stopped looking at Lin Mao, only said: "You go first .”

Lin Mao got out of bed, put on his coat and opened the door to leave. He walked in the early morning autumn wind, feeling like a cut appendix.

Just when Lin Mao thought that his fate had reached the lowest point of the parabola, his landlord ruthlessly pulled the lowest point down another notch on the Y axis.The landlord's relatives are going back to China recently, and they plan to temporarily live in Lin Mao's rented house. At the critical moment, blood is thicker than water and love is more important than money. The landlord restricts Lin Mao to move out of the house before next week and find another place to live.Today is Thursday, and moving is imminent. Lin Mao excluded every same-sex friend in the city who had his own residence and was neither married nor living with a lover, and found that only He Cong and Su Haotu were left in the end.

He Cong asked: "Why don't you go to Senior Brother Su's house, how good is your relationship?"

Lin Mao rubbed his hair irritably: "You don't understand."

He Cong is not very old, but he is very smart. Since Lin Mao asked his buddies the question of confessing to him last time, combined with today's situation, he has already guessed the matter completely. After hesitating, he He suggested: "Brother Mao, I think you are quite familiar with our department manager. I heard that he doesn't have a girlfriend yet. Why don't you go to his house for a few days and move out after you find a house."

"Brother Ding?" Lin Mao was shocked. "Of course he doesn't have a girlfriend. He's just a man. If I live with him, I won't be able to keep my ass!"

In desperation, Lin Mao could only choose to join Su Haotu temporarily.He was in a delicate mood at this time, while despising his own shamelessness, after inflicting harm on the other party, and on the premise of not knowing whether he could respond to the other party's love, he could still beg him to take him in with a shy face. With such a thick skin, Lin Mao also felt a little overwhelmed.At the same time, he was slightly rejoicing that after such a long stalemate, he finally had an excuse to get closer to Su Haotu and save him. He has not yet reached the point where he has nothing, so he will not be open-minded to laugh it off. He needs to Su Haotu needs him with considerations of gains and losses. His feelings for Su Haotu are not the same as Su Haotu's feelings for him, but no matter how different they are, this can still be regarded as a kind of love.

Lin Mao swallowed, and finally pressed the speed dial button. The voice from over there was very calm, which made Lin Mao even more nervous, "Wow, mouse," Lin Mao's voice was trembling slightly, "My garbage dump Confiscated."

Su Haotu accepted him without any surprises. Lin Mao's stammering appearance made him gloat. Lin Mao chose to live under the same roof as him, which was more or less a sign of goodwill. Even if he didn't want to accept him, at least It also meant not seeing his affections as electrified iron grids, or worms on a rotten apple.

Except for those that should be thrown away, Lin Mao didn't have many things. He Cong offered to help, and the three of them moved all the things in less than an afternoon.Lin Mao insisted on a treat at night, but He Cong refused with a sweet face: "I chased that girl, we agreed to have dinner together tonight." Su Haotu was going to buy vegetables for dinner, and went out with He Cong. Lin Mao stayed at home alone and continued to organize things.

When he walked to the gate of the community, he saw that the girl had come from the school, and was waiting at the bus stop sign. He Cong said goodbye to Su Haotu, and trotted over to hold her hand. The girl was a little shy, and so was He Cong. Trying his best to be brave, Su Haotu stood across the road and looked at these two shy and sweet boys and girls, suddenly envious in his heart.

He is different from them, their love is a delicate bud that never lacks sunshine, but his love can only grow in a dark corner that no one can see, he carefully covers it, and with his greatest enthusiasm and persistence to water it.This corner is very cold and empty, but his love has grown into a towering tree here, it stretches its branches upwards desperately, uses his pain and sourness as nourishment, and strives to grow taller, thinking that it has reached its peak High enough to touch the sun.Having supported it for so many years, Su Haotu was already too tired, but he still felt sorry for it. Even at his most presumptuous age, he was never brave enough to fight for a little sunshine for his love.Su Haotu's eyes gradually moistened, his thin lips were tightly closed, but it seemed that there were countless words about to burst out. He took out his mobile phone, found Lin Mao's number but failed to dial it, he put the mobile phone next to his ear, as if he was on the phone. As if someone was really listening, he said: "Lin Mao, I really don't know why I like you so much. I always feel that I have lost money, but you have gained a huge advantage. My buddy is a good person. I'll give you a chance to make up for it today, you hold my hand, let's count it, ten seconds is enough. If you still don't want to, my buddy will give you a discount, five seconds, okay?"

After Su Haotu said these words to the phone that he didn't dial, he also felt bored, put away the phone, and continued to walk forward.Standing behind him, Lin Mao looked at the man who was striding forward, feeling a surge of emotion in his chest, unable to control himself.Before Lin Mao found out, Su Haotu, who was two years younger than him, had already grown taller than him. He was a man with a hard mouth and a soft heart. He always used bravado to cover up his tenderness. What he wanted was not Not much, but never really dared to speak.Lin Mao gently followed behind him, until he was sure that Su Haotu had put away all the emotions that he didn't want to be noticed, then he pretended to be out of breath and ran up, "I thought about it just now, you took me in, not only did you not Ask me to pay the rent, and buy me vegetables and cook with my own money. Isn’t it a big loss for you? My buddy is a good person, and he came here specially to give you a wallet. Take it, you dare to spend a penny on your grocery shopping today , we two will break up." Lin Mao held Su Haotu's hand tightly with one hand, and stuffed his wallet into his hand with the other hand.

Su Haotu snorted softly: "Who said I won't let you pay the rent?"