cloud mud

Chapter 4

Chu Tan choked with sobs, hugged Xiangxia's neck tightly, wiped his tears on his shoulders, his body was slowly embraced by both hands, and patted on his back lightly, Chu Tan was like a comforted child, even more sad and wronged , crying louder.

"Okay..." Xiangxia hugged him with one hand, and patted him on the back with the other to comfort him, "I'm wronged, my lord."

Chu Tan didn't say anything, he couldn't say anything, he had to pay the price for enjoying the honor of the royal family, and he deserved loneliness and depression.

Xiangxia felt sorry for him, hugged Chu Tan tightly, put her lips against his hair and said softly: "Don't be sad, you still have me here."

"Another year older," Chu Tan cried intermittently, "Another year less...you are leaving."

"How could I leave? My little master hasn't grown up yet, so the subordinates will leave you alone."

"I said that the weak crown will give you freedom... only three years left..."

"It's cold outside." Xiangxia held down Chu Tan's head, brought her small body stiff in her arms close to her, and wiped away the tears on Chu Tan's cheeks with rough fingers, "Let's go back and say, stop crying."

He carried him back to Chu Tan's dormitory, closed the door, put the wimpy little prince on the bed, held Chu Tan's face and coaxed him: "I don't want to be subordinate, do you?"

"..."

Chu Tan really wanted to say that he was reluctant, but he really was.But he couldn't bear to let Xiangxia be trapped in this cage with him for the rest of his life. He is such a good person, he could have a wider place to go.

From childhood to adulthood, as long as he said the request, no matter how unreasonable, Xiangxia would do it sincerely, trying her best to make him laugh.He knew that once he said "reluctant", Xiangxia would definitely not disobey, and would accompany him to die of old age in this deep courtyard for the rest of his life.

Chu Tan shook his head, threw himself into Xiangxia's arms, tears streaming down his face, and did not speak.He never asked Xiangxia what was in his heart, because Xiangxia's answers were always to make him happy, and he never spoke the truth.

There was a pair of golden scissors under Chu Tan's pillow, and it had been there for ten years.At first it was to prevent Xiangxia's traitor from hurting people, but gradually it became Chu Tan's comfort. He often woke up in the middle of the night, touching the golden scissors under his pillow, thinking that in a few years, the day Xiangxia left, it would be nothing if he was alive Meaning.

Because, even if he died peacefully in the mansion, no one would find out, and even if someone found out, it would be a pity at most.

Some people live without concern, belief, or meaning—he is just born uncontrollably, and then lives in pain and loneliness.

He has everything but the lover he wants.

Xiangxia hugged him quietly, pressed the shivering Chu Tan into her arms with both arms, gently stroked his hair, her eyelids drooped, her heart ached from the beginning, and she gradually lost in her heart.

Every time he tentatively asks Chu Tan if he is reluctant to part with him, as long as he answers that he is reluctant, Xiangxia will give up everything to be with him for the rest of his life.

But Chu Tan never answered.

He couldn't figure out what the boy at this age was thinking, or whether Chu Tan wasn't so reluctant, there shouldn't be any entanglements between master and servant.

But even so, he won't leave after three years. His little master hasn't grown up yet, and no one will protect him to make him laugh. Xiangxia knew that he would never let it go for the rest of his life, but what made him suffer even more was his dirty thoughts about his master.

Chu Tan, who is as simple as a piece of white paper, both relies on and trusts him, but he has a second heart.

Chu Tanwo fell asleep in Xiangxia's arms, with a tired and pitiful expression on his face, and his whole body was warmed by his body, making him temporarily numb and forget all the troubles.

Looking at the defenseless sleeping face of the person in her arms, Xiangxia lowered her head and kissed Chu Tan's smooth and cold forehead.

The difference between cloud and mud, the difference between heaven and earth, how dare a shadow guard have unreasonable thoughts about the royal family and nobles, if he can be his shadow for the rest of his life.

When Xiangxia coaxed Chu Tan to fall asleep, she quietly left the dormitory. There were two shadow guards in black, a man and a woman kneeling in the courtyard, and Qiu Chan and Jian Guan were waiting outside.

"Sir, it's done." Qiu Chan reported in a low voice.

Xiangxia nodded and smiled: "Efficient, who is the result?"

"I don't know yet, but the queen mother's cousin and niece have already settled."

"That's good." Xiangxia heaved a sigh of relief. The queen mother has a little cousin and niece who will be married next year. I heard that she has been spoiled and spoiled, and has developed a violent and domineering temperament. Chu Tan just likes to be clean. If this girl marries into the Zhennan Palace, In a few years, Chu Tan will definitely be able to make a splash.

Jian Guan whispered: "A few days ago, you had a drink appointment with the Second Young Master Ning. The Second Young Master Ning knew each other. When he heard that you don't touch meat in the mansion, he specially chose a little beauty to honor you."

"Is my father short of beauties, no need, let him appreciate it." Xiang Xia walked away, "If you have time, why not think about how to please our master."

"……Yes."

The days are still clean, the mansion is as usual, Xiangxia still watches the guards in the mansion practice every day, and the times of harassing Chu Tan in his free time are gradually decreasing.

Until the imperial decree of marriage came to Chu Tan.

Chu Tan knelt quietly, and after listening to the order announced by the visitor, he took it with both hands, calmly and politely, without showing any emotion in his heart.

In fact, Chu Tan didn't have any emotions, and being at the mercy of others was the ending, he knew it, and didn't care about it, he just took a strange girl to live here.After all, he has no hope, and when he loses hope, everything is relieved.

With a relaxed smile on Xiangxia's face, she knelt down beside Chu Tan on one knee, nodded and said, "Congratulations, my lord."

Chu Tan pushed the imperial decree to a corner of the case, and asked him casually, "Where does the joy come from?"

"Second Miss of the Duke Huguo's Mansion, Miss Yunting is proficient in all kinds of piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, she is also quite knowledgeable, gentle and magnanimous, she is a perfect match for you."

Chu Tan looked up at Xiangxia: "How tall is she?"

"Ah?" One sentence choked back Xiangxia's plan to boast, and hesitated for a while, "Ah...then, that must be the beautiful flowers shining in the water, the weak willows, the willows and the wind, and the little birds relying on people..."

"I like people who are taller than me." Chu Tan glanced at him.

Xiangxia smiled awkwardly on her face.

"It's better to have arms like yours, with muscles and not too thin, as well as legs and waist." Chu Tan held his chin in one hand, and gestured in the air with the other, "Otherwise it's not easy to hug me."

"...Ah." Xiangxia suddenly felt that her heart was not feeling well.

"Go down, let me stay by myself for a while." Chu Tan waved his hand and threw Xiangxia out.

Xiangxia had no choice but to resign.

"Second Miss Yun Family..." Chu Tan picked up the imperial decree and glanced at it again, caressing the brocade silk of the imperial decree boredly.

"Lianjiao." Chu Tan suddenly called out.

"The subordinate is here." Lianjiao suddenly landed in front of Chu Tan, bowing her head and waiting for orders.

"Let's take a walk in the capital for this king." Chu Tan casually threw the imperial decree, called Lianjiao to come closer, and whispered a few words in his ear.

Lianjiao's face turned pale: "My lord! This is a serious matter, please think twice..."

"Go." Chu Tan got up and went back to the dormitory.

Xiangxia didn't go anywhere, just sat on the roof of Chu Tan's bedroom until evening, looking at the shattered and waning moon above the willow branches.

Another woman fell on the roof tiles.Qiu Chan took two cups of wine, put them next to Xiangxia, and pushed them all to Xiangxia: "The wine you want."

"Let's put it here." Xiangxia glanced at it, but didn't move.

"Yeah." Qiu Chan hummed coldly, "Second Master Ning said, tonight I will send you the beauty I said I would give you as a gift."

Xiangxia was silent for a while, then raised the corners of her mouth and smiled: "Okay. It just so happens that I am in a good mood today. Stay for the rest of the night for me. I'm tired, so I'll go back first."

"Ah."

Xiangxia saw that the night was getting dark and the candles in Chu Tan's bedroom were extinguished, so she jumped off the roof with a drink in her hand, and stood in front of Chu Tan's door for a long time, with mixed feelings in her heart.

Finally, my little master grew up and got married.

He smiled reassuringly, turned and left.

Qiu Chan sat on the eaves, looking coldly at the back of Xiangxia's departure, the back is lonely and desolate, the sharp edges and corners of the past have been smoothed, and the unruly barbs are now full of gentleness.

She watched Chu Tan quietly.

In the middle of the night, there was a coughing sound in the bedroom.Qiu Chan quickly fell into Chu Tan's room along the beam, lit a candle, and poured a glass of warm water for Chu Tan.

Chu Tan rubbed his eyes and drank with her hand, he became more sober, and saw Qiu Chan standing beside him, he was a little surprised: "Xiangxia is not here?"

"Going back to the room to drink." Qiu Chan said truthfully, "Sir, the spirit is not good today."

"Drinking?" Chu Tan's eyes widened immediately, and his brows were furrowed, "When did you develop this bad habit?"

Qiu Chan quietly served Chu Tan and drank water without saying anything.

"This king went to talk to him personally." Chu Tan put on his clothes and hurried to Xiangxia's residence.

Xiangxia was lying on her desk, she had drunk so much that she didn't know what time it was, there were scattered wine bottles piled up on the table and the room was full of alcohol.

He held the two paper cranes tightly in his hands, and held them in the book for too long, the paper became yellow and limp, not as beautiful as before.Xiangxia kept it.

In the past, the prince often rewarded him with things, but only this one was made by the prince himself and specially given to him.

Xiangxia rubbed her eyes, she drank too much, she couldn't see clearly, everything she saw had a double image.

The door was pushed open with a whoosh, Chu Tan walked in frowning, snatched the flagon from Xiangxia's hand, lowered his head and asked him coldly, "What are you doing?"

Xiangxia raised her eyes slowly, and saw a little beauty standing in front of her, she was taken aback for a moment, then raised her hand to embrace her.

"Second Master Ning has a good eye." Xiangxia smiled vaguely, "I know I like this."

"Ning Zhizhi? It's none of his business..." Before Chu Tan could finish speaking, he suddenly felt dizzy, Xiang Xia put his arms around his waist, carried him on his shoulders, and threw him onto his bed. Before Chu Tan could react, Xiang Xia He had already held down his hands and pushed him up.