most young and lonely

Chapter 12 Han Fei

Holidays always go by quickly, and Yi Can starts her regular and happy campus life again.

After gradually letting go of his longing for Ah Bing, Yi Can felt that he seemed to be more "free".

It turned out that those who restrained themselves were really just their own obsessions.

She discovered that some boys in the class were also very different, some were humorous and unrestrained, some were gentle and sunny, and some were maverick. In Yican's eyes, they were just passers-by, A, B, C, D, and she had never cared about.

If someone already has the most important position in a person's heart, no matter how good other people are, it will be difficult for him to gain his insight; if this position is finally vacant, it will be like taking off the sunglasses that he has been wearing all the time , Seeing the world's pink, willow, green and colorful again.

Yi Can gradually made many boy friends, including her admirers.

One of them, Han Fei, was pretty good, and he fell in love with Yi Can at first sight while listening to a lecture.The first thing he noticed was Yi Chan's bright smile, his eyes looked joyfully and confidently in one direction.Oh, what a happy little girl!

Perhaps, love itself is so simple, Han Fei will fall in love with Yi Can because of her happy eyes; Yi Can will fall in love with Ah Bing because of his dazzling earrings.

But no matter how hard Han Fei tried, Yi Can still didn't care much about him. She even felt that the scarf Han Fei sent was not as warm as Ah Bing's distant eyes.

This is probably the difference between likes and dislikes.If you like it, you don't need to say anything, you will have all kinds of enthusiasm and tolerance; if you don't like it, even if you give her your whole world, she won't care.

Although, Yi Can is usually a very sympathetic person, always sympathetic to others.But in the face of feelings, she was so cold back then.

But Han Fei did not give up lightly, he tried his best to give Yi Can the best care.This made Yi Chan feel ashamed.But Han Fei still insisted. He said that he did all these willingly. If he didn't accept it, it would only hurt his heart even more.

Yi Can somehow thought of her care for Ruoqing before, and understood Han Fei's words.

However, if you like someone, why are you willing to just be friends?

Han Fei responded exactly to this sentence.Not long after, he asked Yi Can out, prepared candles and red wine.He knows that every girl longs for romantic love.They went to the movies together, and then came back to sit on the lawn of the school playground, with the evening breeze blowing, he poured her half a glass of red wine.

Yi Chan gradually felt the thickness of the atmosphere, and became inexplicably nervous.It's not the first time that she has rejected others, but those boys are not as hardworking as Han Fei, and most of them express it half-jokingly and half-seriously on Facebook or WeChat.Yi Can also refused half-jokingly and half-seriously, and then there was nothing to do with it.Yi Chan is also relaxed.

But what should we do now?Yi Chan was a little at a loss.

In fact, Han Fei was even more nervous, because he knew that if he failed to confess his love, he would not even be able to be a friend.

He took a sip of the wine, taking advantage of the half-bitter and half-sweet taste on the tip of his tongue, finally made up his mind, and said, "Yi Chan, in fact, you have always known that I like you, can you, can you promise me, be me?" girlfriend?"

Yi Can didn't dare to look into his affectionate eyes, lowered his head and looked at the grass, and said vaguely: "Is this a bit too early? I——I haven't figured it out yet."

Han Fei was not satisfied with the answer, he stretched out his hand to hold Yi Can's hand, and begged, "Give me a chance, please?"

Yi Chan was taken aback by this action, and hurriedly wanted to withdraw his hand.But Han Fei was so strong that Yi Can couldn't pull it out.

He went on to say: "Yi Can, I know you have always had someone in your heart." Yi Can was shocked when he heard this, how could he know?Only An Ran knows about Ah Bing, could it be that An Ran told him?

There are no secrets between Yi Can and An Ran, they will share everything with each other and talk about everything.But An Ran will not tell others about these things, Yi Can is quite sure of this.

Yi Can pretended to be calm and asked, "How do you know?"

Han Fei sighed and said, "During the lecture when I met you, I saw you were looking in one direction with a smile on your face. You must be looking at him, right?"

that time?That time I was watching Ruoqing!

Yi Can's heart skipped a beat, but he said, "No, last time I was just looking for a good friend."

When Han Fei heard it, he said happily: "Great! I thought you were looking at some boy! Yi Can, you can be my girlfriend! I really like you, and you know it too. Since you don't like it in your heart Why don't you give me a chance? I must..."

Yi Can's heart became more and more confused, and she didn't even hear what Han Fei said later, she suddenly broke free from Han Fei's hands, stood up, and ran back to the dormitory.

As for what happened to Han Fei later that day, Yi Can had no idea.She was confused by a very important question.

How could he think that I was watching someone I like?Still have a smile on your face?Is it really that obvious?Am I really in love with Ruoqing?Haven't I always liked Ah Bing?Why did you "transfer love" so quickly?How can I be such a person?Too bad, Ruoqing, does she know?What would she think?Will she ignore me?

Yi Chan was lying on the bed, suffering from insomnia for the first time since she was a child.Thinking of three or four o'clock in the morning, she realized that she had left Han Fei alone on the playground and hadn't answered him yet, so she couldn't help feeling guilty.

The next day, An Ran saw Yi Chan with two huge dark circles under his eyes, and couldn't help laughing: "Hey, didn't you go to bed early yesterday? Why are you like this today?"

Yi Can was abnormal and didn't say anything, but smiled helplessly at An Ran, feeling heavy in his heart.She apologized to Han Fei on the Internet early in the morning, but there was no reply.She really didn't have the courage to see Han Fei again and apologize in person.

Of course An Ran felt Yi Can's strangeness, but she was very considerate and didn't ask anything, just gently touched her shoulder.She thought that if Yi Chan wanted to say something, he would take the initiative to tell her.

Yi Can suddenly felt that he had failed to deal with it: he hadn't sorted out his thoughts; he also left Han Fei alone on the playground, without knowing it, and hurt him in this way.Perhaps, he will never forgive me.

At this time, she suddenly thought of Xiaoyan, how sad she was when she was only fourteen or fifteen years old!

Yi Chan also wanted to make amends, but she always made things self-defeating, making the relationship between her and Han Fei even more awkward.Later, Yi Chan also gradually gave up.Thinking back to the past, since she was a child, she always did things neatly and everyone was satisfied, but now she has dealt with this relationship like this, she is so unwilling.

Later, Yi Can gradually understood:

Some things, if you don’t do it well, you will never be able to remedy it; and some feelings, there is no such thing as "handling well" or "not handling well". When the feelings of two people are not equal, the so-called Handle it well, but make yourself feel less guilty.The harm to the other party is already doomed the moment you reject him.

After a long time, Han Fei sent a message to Yi Can:

Yi Chan, don't blame yourself anymore, I have forgiven you.I believe that one day, you will also meet someone who makes you desperately want to love, just like I met you back then.Remote wishes: Be sure to be so sunny and happy forever!