love too early

Chapter 95

Fu Zhiheng grabbed my hand reflexively when he fell, and his cheek hit my knee, making a muffled sound.I hurriedly bent down to support his shoulders, seeing that his face was pale, and he grabbed the coat on my body with difficulty.

When I realized something, I fumbled for the pocket of my coat, and finally found a familiar medicine box. I opened it and found that it was mostly empty.

"Is this it?" I didn't realize that my voice was also crying.

Fu Zhiheng raised his eyes and nodded slowly.I helped him sit on the chair and gave him a pill. After a while, his face began to look better and his breathing became less difficult.

"Zhiheng..." I was still afraid, and only now did I realize how well I was usually protected.This happened and I had no idea what to do.

"Why are you crying..." Fu Zhiheng slowly raised his hand to touch my face, wiped away the tears from the corners of my eyes, smiled weakly and said, "I'm fine, I'm just too tired."

His face was ugly, his eye sockets were sunken, and his eyes were dark blue. He didn't know how long he hadn't rested.I hugged his waist, leaned on his chest, and heard his steady and powerful heartbeat, and the uneasiness in my heart was finally relieved.

Fu Zhiheng kissed my forehead, patted my back lightly to comfort me, and said, "It's really fine, don't worry."

I raised my head to meet his gentle and quiet gaze, remained silent for a long time, and said, "I'll accompany you abroad, okay?"

Fu Zhiheng was startled, and didn't agree to me right away.

"You need a quieter environment and better treatment." I said as calmly as possible, "In any case, life and health are the most important."

Fu Zhiheng's expression was touched, he frowned lightly, and said, "Baby, have you made up your mind?"

"Ah."

"Is it for me, or to prevent me from embarrassing Shen Nanyu?"

I lowered my eyes and said, "For you."

Fu Zhiheng stopped breathing, then hugged me tightly, and asked in a low voice: "Then what should he do?"

I shook my head and said, "I don't know."

It was the first time I saw the word immortal in a person. Shen Nanyu's paranoia made me suspect that he was just ready to separate, but he never thought of giving up.

But can it be said that it is his fault...

"To be honest, I wish I could kill him." Fu Zhiheng's voice was low, with nervous indifference, "During the few days you disappeared, he has died in my heart a thousand times or ten thousand times."

My heart tightened, and I grabbed his clothes unconsciously: "Zhi Heng."

Fu Zhiheng paused, stroked my hair, and his voice softened a little: "I'm not willing to touch my baby, but he bullied me so much, I... If it wasn't for fear of scaring you today, I really can't promise what will I do."

After he finished speaking, he was silent for a moment, looked down at me, and said, "But just now I felt that killing him or destroying his future is nothing compared to the pain that your words brought to him. .”

My words... I didn't intend to hurt Shen Nanyu, but now it seems that I was the one who hurt him the most.

"I even thought of myself." Fu Zhiheng showed a bitter smile, "I think, you never cared what I did, and you never pursued my right or wrong. Is it because... you have no feelings?"

"I..." I opened my mouth and found that I couldn't answer this question either.

"Maybe I'm the same as Shen Nanyu." Fu Zhiheng's voice was so calm that I almost couldn't hear his sadness, "They're both people who can't be loved."

I didn't speak any more, neither did Fu Zhiheng.

We were both tired, and his nerves had been tensed for so long, and now he was suddenly relaxed, and it was easier to be overwhelmed by the accumulated exhaustion.

I am tired too, but my tiredness comes from some ulterior motive.

Fu Zhiheng was still worried about my health, so we didn't go home and went directly to the hospital.

I still couldn't walk by myself, Fu Zhiheng helped me out of the car, and held my knees and hugged me horizontally.My weight was nothing to him at first, he could even throw me up and catch me firmly when he was messing around, but today he carried me and walked very slowly, even stopping for a few steps to slow down.

"What to do with it," he joked with mock lightheartedness, "it's useless before you're 30."

I know it's all because of me, huge self-blame and guilt surged up, I hugged Fu Zhiheng's neck, buried him on his shoulder and whispered: "I'm sorry."

Fu Zhiheng smiled, rubbed the back of my head, and said, "Fool."

I didn't know until I saw the doctor. On the day when Fu Zhiheng learned that Shen Nanyu and I were missing together, he had fainted once from anger. No wonder he didn't find me until today...

"Why didn't you tell me?" I asked Fu Zhiheng.

He dared not look me in the eyes as if he had made a mistake, and said, "I'm afraid you're worried..."

The doctor sighed and said, "I'll do another test later."

Fu Zhiheng didn't dare to say no, and said sullenly: "Got it."

When he came back from the examination, I was lying on the hospital bed hanging on the nutrient solution in a daze.

When I heard the door open, I turned my head and asked, "What did the doctor say?"

Fu Zhiheng still looked like he didn't care when the sky fell, he smiled at me and said, "Let me rest more. It's fine."

He came over and sat on the edge of the bed, took my hand that was not hung with water, rubbed it in the palm of his hand, and said, "Don't worry."

It's impossible for me not to worry.

It is because his health has always been very good, and he has almost never suffered from other illnesses except for fever and cold. Now I am even more at a loss when encountering this kind of thing.

"Okay, baby, don't be so sad." Fu Zhiheng pinched the bridge of my nose like coaxing a child, and said, "If you do this again, I will suspect that you are in love with me."

I know that he said this on purpose to make me happy. I don't know how much hope and fluke he saved on purpose.

I looked at Fu Zhiheng and said seriously: "You are a very important person to me."

Fu Zhiheng was stunned for a moment, raised the corner of his mouth unnaturally, and asked: "Aside from the important...is there anything else?"

I lowered my eyes, and scenes of the past appeared in front of my eyes. In every stage of my life, Fu Zhiheng was the person closest to me.

After a long silence, I said softly: "Maybe I liked it a little bit... When I was a teenager, you accompanied me to paint in the studio. At night, everyone left, and you waited for me to fall asleep. At that time, I thought to myself, If I marry Zhiheng in the future, it will be very good..."

After finishing speaking, I looked at Fu Zhiheng, showed a shallow smile, and said: "Sometimes I also wish that my feelings are clearer or more intense, but this seems to be all I can touch. So I also I don't know if I really liked you."

Under the pale light of the ward, I saw Fu Zhiheng's eye circles were red, he lowered his head, covered his mouth and rubbed it vigorously.

When he raised his head again, his nose and eyes were red, and he opened his mouth and let out a deep breath, as if he was trying not to let himself cry.

For a long time, he looked at me and asked word by word with difficulty: "So I... missed it forever, right?"

I didn't answer.

If you want to say miss, each of us is missing.One step earlier or one step later will not be perfect.

Fu Zhiheng's tears finally fell down, and a big one hit the back of my hand.

He cried silently, but I seemed to hear the sound of something breaking, like snow being run over by a car on the street.

Snow... I turned my head and looked out the window, and it was snowing again.

This year there has been a lot of snow, it seems to have been falling since the day I was taken away by Shen Nanyu.Thinking that I might live in a place with more snow in the future, I suddenly began to miss the excitement of summer.

Fu Zhiheng interrupted my thoughts: "...What about him?"

His voice was low and rough, I turned around, he looked at me deeply, and asked: "It's been so long, have you ever liked him?"

The air was silent for a moment.I smiled and said, "Yes."

Even now, if I say no, I may not believe it myself.

"At least I was moved. I also wanted to be together forever." I said softly, "But it doesn't matter anymore. Like you, like him, like others, it seems that there is no difference."

boom.

The door of the ward was pushed open vigorously, and Shen Nanyu stood at the door panting heavily, as if he had just been through a tug and fight, his clothes and hair were messed up.

The two bodyguards behind him chased after him, Shen Nanyu only had time to look at me, before he could stand still, he was thrown back into his uniform on the ground, his head hit the floor with a shocking sound.

"Shen..."

I opened my mouth, and heard Fu Zhiheng say indifferently: "Let him in."