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After dinner, Qi sent us back.My seat belt got stuck and I couldn't untie it for a while, so Ah Qing got out of the car first.Qi leaned over to help me, and muttered, "You're so stupid, how can such a stupid person, Ah Qing, bear it." I felt guilty and felt that her words had puns.Unbuttoning the seat belt, Qi squeezed my cheeks with both hands, gave an ambiguous smile and said, "Fool, come on." What kind of oil to add, this time I feel more guilty, get out of the car like sleepwalking, but can't find Ah Qing.
Standing at the bottom of the building and looking up, Ah Qing, who went up first, turned on the lights on each floor, and the feeling of going home gradually came to fruition.To be honest, I'm really afraid to go up, I'm about to be alone with Ah Qing, what should I say?Am I really ready?What will be the result after spit out.Excitement and fear are intertwined, making the brain dizzy for a while, unable to calm down, and can feel the beating of blood vessels on the wrist.
come on.It turned out that Qi had known for a long time.
But on the fifth floor, it seemed like I had climbed for a century.Ah Qing had already changed into her pajamas, saw me say "Go to bed early," and went back to the room and closed the door.Well?I have imagined countless possibilities, but I have never thought about this one. Before I have time to react, I still maintain the posture of opening the door.The courage accumulated with great difficulty is fading rapidly.
Slowly walked to her door, took a deep breath, went in or not, raised his hand and put it down again.Time ticks by, and I am always hesitating.Just walk over quietly.Today will pass quickly.Today will pass quickly.Today will pass quickly.Today will be over soon, repeated in despair, every step seems to use a lot of strength.This life is still so long, is it impossible anymore.
Heartbroken, she slammed open the door of her room, shouting with all her strength, Ah Qing.
She sat at the desk, turned her head quickly, and looked at me in amazement.
My mind was blank. At this moment, I felt like I was split. The inner one was panicked and panicked and didn't know what to do. The outer one seemed calm and knew how to close the door.
Trying to suppress the trembling, he said quickly without logic or organization, "I know it's not appropriate to say this now, and I didn't think about the consequences, but if I don't say it, I think I will probably go crazy or explode. Well, I have always been very Willful and selfish, I also know that you have been tolerant, so if you feel disgusted and want to alienate me, I can accept it." The inner me is begging not to say any more, these are very excessive words, a lot of me , only starting from himself, cunningly pushed the choice and responsibility on Ah Qing, and let her bear it.The external me couldn't stop. After years of suppressing and avoiding, I finally found an outlet to vent.I hastily and blankly faced the turbulent feelings and a despicable but real and strange self. "I have liked you for a long time, but I never dared to think about it. Try not to think about it. Because it is impossible to be together. I also tried to give up, but it seemed to be stronger. I also tried to be more mature and responsible, and take it seriously. I did it, and it seemed like a failure. I don't know what else to do?"
At this point, he couldn't continue talking, and his throat was choked with great disappointment and resentment towards himself.What a joke.What else can I do?rhetorical question.Great question, how to do it.I am no longer a 12-year-old girl, looking up and asking Ah Qing how to do this question.Saying this, I really admire myself to death.No matter what he continued to say, it was a pale and feeble attempt to conceal his fatal cowardice.The past that has never worked hard, the future that has not been experienced, and the anxiety that cannot be sustained now.So what if I'm in love, I can't afford it, I can't give her a happy life, I overestimate my ability, and I can only face the mess of fragments all over the place.
I think my current expression must be very hysterical and crazy. I finally admit that I am just a naive thing who is indecisive, afraid of being hurt, and unwilling to bear, but who wants to grab what he wants.Close your eyes, waiting for the death sentence.
"Yang Yu." Ah Qing said with difficulty, "Do you think I will definitely refuse, if I say no, will you disappear again?"
His chest seemed to be pierced by thousands of needles.That's right, this is what I imagined, the pressure and discomfort I couldn't bear, thinking that if she refused, I wouldn't be so sad and selfish.
I am speechless.Ah Qing sneered.
There was no sound for a long time, maybe I thought it was a long time, I couldn't help but look up, but I saw Ah Qing bursting into tears.Immediately, his hands and feet were in a mess, and he knelt down in front of her, anxiously trying to help her wipe away her tears.Ah Qing seldom expresses her emotions, since she was a child, even if the big grievances are with her, she can only see that the wind is calm and the clouds are light.She blocked me who was leaning forward to approach with one hand, covered half of her face with the other hand, turned her head away and wept silently, the hand that pushed me trembled slightly and had no strength at all. "Don't come here." The sobbing voice was barely audible, and I instantly understood that Ah Qing didn't have the strength to hide her fragility at this moment. This feeling of powerlessness was embarrassing to her who was always calm, self-controlled, proud and introverted.
As dull as I was, I finally realized a hypothesis I had never thought about.When I struggled with lonely thoughts, did she have the same confusion?We are too close and familiar, she is very good to me, and she is also very good to Qi, there are too many habits and neglects, have I seen her properly?In a daze, he turned over her body, pulled her hand down, and covered her cheek.Her red and swollen eye sockets were full of tears, which flowed more violently, but she stubbornly lowered her eyelids.
sorry.The lips are printed on the corners of the cold eyes, licking the tears, little by little, I hope you can understand the feeling of wanting to cherish.Pressing against her forehead, unconsciously, she slowly stroked her almost bloodless lips.Ah Qing finally opened her eyes, she was so close, her facial features were all blurred, and the only thing that was clear was the eyes with unclear meanings.Have you been looking at me like this?The muttering disappeared between the entangled lips and teeth, the rapid snorting stirred up the cock, the clear eyes made me hot and crazy, I no longer studied the meaning or thought, all the senses were under the control of instinct.You are mine, I just want more of you.After waiting for too long and suppressing for too long, we have all reached the limit of unbearable, either destroyed or perishing.