I can't say it, I love you

Chapter 1

Liu Ye went to the teacher's office early with a stack of materials. There was a large group of people gathered in the corridor in front of the class. Liu Ye turned sideways and walked through the gap in the crowd with some difficulty.

Suddenly, a familiar voice came from the crowd. "I said that I was very sure, that Mizuki Ryu was just a little gentle to him, and he gave me all of himself. But ah, being with a man is really unbearable." Hirano En's cold mockery caused a burst of laughter from all around.

Liu Ye heard that the sadness that had finally settled down swept him again.

Curling her fingers vigorously, she crumpled the paper in her hand.

"En..." he called secretly, biting his lower lip hard with his white teeth.

"Hirano, your ex-lover is there." The friend on the side teased Yu, and couldn't help laughing.

Liu also hurriedly wanted to leave the place of right and wrong, he didn't want to see that face that made his heart hurt again.

"Isn't this Ruya?" En slowly approached him, and the tall figure formed an invisible sense of oppression.

Liu also lowered his head and wanted to pass by his side, but En's slender legs turned sideways, blocking his way.

"Tsk tsk, don't be so indifferent, at least we were so compatible before, didn't we?" En Fu whispered softly in his ear, and he emphasized the word "before" forcefully.

Liu also trembled all over, trying hard to restrain the sourness at the tip of his nose.

"Please don't say that again, besides, you said it was in the past, didn't you?" Liu also put on a strong expression.

En put his lips close to his neck, the warm breath hit Liu Ye's skin, Liu Ye couldn't help breathing heavily, soft lips moved around his neck, Liu Ye closed his eyes and pushed him away fiercely.

"I don't believe that you really don't like me anymore. After all, that kind of thing...has been done." En's handsome face raised a vicious smile.

Liu Ye lowered his face in embarrassment, he didn't expect that En would openly tease and humiliate him.

Hirano's words reminded Ruya of one afternoon after school.

The afternoon sunset gently fell on the two naked bodies lying on the bed, and Ruya's skin was slightly pink due to lust.En spoke provocative words in a deep voice, and Ruya's whole body trembled uncontrollably.That day was the sweetest moment since the two met.

The heat of each other's skin, the place where En's fingers touched, the softness and hotness of En's lips seemed to remain on the lips.

A chill hit Shang Liuye's heart, and he hung his head heartbroken.

Is that really the person he once liked?

Has such a frivolous En, ever smiled gently at him?

Such a him, really...has he ever smiled and said he loved himself?

Liu also pushed his hand away and left slowly.

Everything is just a gamble between En and his friends, Ryuya Mizuki, wake up.

Liu also didn't want to believe that all of this, everything that happened, was completely just his own self-indulgence.

He walked to the stairs, squatted down, and forced back the choked sob in his chest.But the consequence of doing so is to make my heart more painful and sour.

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Liu also returned home and walked up the stairs with heavy steps.

"Ryuya, would you like some snacks?"

"No, I'm not hungry." He pulled the corners of his mouth with difficulty.He really couldn't even eat a bite of food. "I want to sleep, don't come up yet."

"Are you uncomfortable?" Mother came out of the kitchen worriedly.

"No, I have too many exams today, so I'm a little tired." He waved his hand and gave his mother a reassuring smile.

Back in the room, Liu also locked the door.

Leaning his back against the door panel, he slid to sit on the ground, buried his face in his knees, and gently hugged himself with his arms.

In the darkness, what appeared was En's expression laughing at himself.

Liu Ye resisted the colic in his heart, walked towards the mirror, and forced a smile that cheered him up.However, it was a smile that even he thought was ugly.

He lowered his face, put his hands on the desk, and bit his lips to suppress his sadness.

Suddenly, a gentle voice rang in his mind.

"But if it's something that makes you unhappy, forget about it. Don't let it easily affect your mood."

I want to sit with that person again, like that night, under the night sky, looking at the beautiful starry sky.

But most people shouldn't do this to people they've never met before, right?

Everything that happened last night was so unexpected that Ling Liu had no time to digest it.

But that encounter was also special and healing for Liu.

His concern for himself does not contain any impurities, it is a very simple state of mind that wants to be comforted.

Liu also forgot his name, the only memory of that special boy is his gentle voice and warm smile...

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"Then I'm going out." Liu also squatted at the entrance and put on his sneakers.I took the shopping list from my mother.

"Excuse me, Ruya."

"No." He grinned and closed the door.

He tossed and turned all night last night, and closed his eyes tiredly in the morning, but because of his shallow sleep, he was woken up by the voice of the morning paper sending students to work.

"welcome."

Walking through the automatic door of the supermarket, Xiang Liu was also greeted by the voice of the machine.

Liu also took the shopping basket and walked into the supermarket.

"Scallion... I bought it, orange... I bought it too..." He stared at the shopping list, checked the contents of the basket, and walked towards the checkout area.

"The total is [-] yuan. Thank you for your patronage." The cashier lady handed him the bag sweetly.

"thanks."

On the way home, Liu also stumbled across a bookstore, which instantly caught his attention.

The exterior is made of wood, the wooden windows are painted with red paint, and the extended window sills are filled with potted plants. The whole building exudes an old and relaxed atmosphere.

Liu also pushed open the wooden door, and the wind chimes tied to the door made a crisp sound.

He strolled and swayed, and walked to the red window just now without knowing it.

On the window sill, there is a potted flower, the white petals are in full bloom, soft and weak but full of strength.

Liu also stretched out his fingertips to touch its soft petals.

"That's Margaret." A magnetic voice came from behind Ruya.

Liu was also surprised by this voice!

He turned around, and a smiling face came into view.

"It's you!?" He looked at the person in surprise.

"Ryuya?" Kazuki was also taken aback for a moment.

After a few seconds of silence, Kazuki broke the awkward atmosphere: "How do you know this place? Few people will notice this bookstore."

"It's just passing by on my way home." He changed the bag full of things into his hand.

He Shu took the initiative to take the things in his hand, and smiled from the corner of his mouth: "Since you are here, let's take a rest."

"That's fine." Liu Ye looked at the vicious sun outside the window, and agreed to his invitation.

"Here, this is the fruit tea I made myself. I don't just brew it for others." He Shu handed him a cup of cold tea.

Liu also took the glass, his eyes resting on Kazuki's hand.

"Your hands are beautiful," he said softly.

"yes?"

"It would be nice to wear a ring or something." Liu also drank the contents of the cup in one gulp. "Mmm...it's delicious."

"As long as it tastes good. This is my special apple tea." He poured another cup. "It's just that I don't have the habit of wearing jewelry on my hands, so I don't wear what I have and what I don't."

"If someone you like wants you to wear it, will you agree?" Liu also asked.

"If she wants me to wear it, I will." He Shu said softly.

"You are really nice." Liu Ye said in a low voice, picked up the cup and drank the drink.

Kazuki took his cup away, went to the sink to clean it, and joked, "I thought you wanted to confess to me just now from the look on your face. I was shocked."

"Hehe... how is it possible, I don't like boys." He lowered his eyelids, and for some reason, he felt powerless when he said this.

"I think so, you are so cute, how could you like boys."

"That's to say..." Even though he was afraid of getting hurt, Ruya mustered up his courage. "Let me ask you, what do you think of homosexuality?"

"No comment." The four words hit Liu Ye's heart heavily.Meaning he neither hates nor likes it?

Looking at Kazuki's light brown hair and the back view of doing things, a feeling of healing swept over his whole body.

"I'm leaving."

"Well. Be careful on the road." He Shu pushed the door open for him and waved to him.

"goodbye."

"Break." When Kazuki was about to close the door, Liu Ya turned back.

"Did you forget to take something?"

"No..." Liu Ye scratched his head, slightly embarrassed, "I forgot your name."

Hearing this, Kazuki couldn't help laughing: "Hayase Kazuki, my name is Hayase Kazuki." As he spoke, he took out a stack of post-it notes from his pocket, tore off one, and wrote his own Put the name on Ruya's forehead. "Remember."

"Hmm..." Liu also took down the note paper, looked at his neat handwriting, unconsciously a touch of sweetness came out of his mouth.

Seeing him tidying up in the store, Liu unconsciously deepened his smile.

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"Why is it so late?" Mother asked when she got home and went into the kitchen.

"I met friends on the road and chatted until I forgot the time." He smiled and put back the things he bought, and stood by the counter to help wash the vegetables.

"Ryuya, I'm not talking about you. I always feel that you have been emotionally unstable recently. What happened?"

The hands washing the vegetables paused for a while, then smiled and said, "No, what's the matter?"

"Nothing is fine."

Liu Ye gave her mother a reassuring smile, put the vegetables in her hand on the cutting board, and cut the vegetables quietly.

Although the wound in my heart has not fully healed yet.But give him a little more time, and he will definitely be able to get out of the low tide that made him hurt.

Certainly possible.

Because people cannot always live in the past...

The past is already a memory.

Now, going through.