a late moon

6-10

6 dignity

As I said, I am a calm and introverted person most of the time, but will suddenly go berserk.That day, Qiqing and I went crazy for some reason, bought more than a dozen stationery knives, and found a place to sit and lean on each other to self-mutilate.

I leaned against her back and she sat against me.None of us spoke, just silently took the knife and slashed at our arms.Drop by drop of blood dripped out, and I didn't even feel afraid.The pain gave me pleasure, and I laughed wildly, softly, and giggled like an idiot.I don't think pain is unbearable, but I think blood and violence are very cool and can make me excited.Perhaps, it is already numb.In this way, can it prove its own existence?

In this way, I don't know how many bloodstains were drawn on the arms, and then I started to cut the flesh of the thigh with the knife.The skin was broken, hot blood flowed out, the piercing pain made me feel the heat, it was the temperature of the sun!Enough to warm my heart.The pain in my leg offset the pain in my heart, and I felt less uncomfortable.The mood has a relaxed feeling.I looked up at the sky, the midday sun was shining in my eyes, and I closed them in pain.

Qiqing asked me before, shaking hands and hugging each other to keep each other warm, is it warm? I said it was cold.Is it better, I said no.But now, through the self-mutilation of my own body, looking at my own blood and feeling the tingling pain to the bone, I actually feel warmer and feel better inside.

After playing self-mutilation until it was dark, we used the cloth of our clothes randomly to stop the blood from all the wounds, and then went back.

That night, I received a call from Wen Xuan who had been away from the nightclub for a while.It was the little drug girl who flew to Thailand for surgery.As soon as she called, she began to cry, and her tone seemed to have a thousand things on her mind that she wanted to confide in, and she had no one to confide in except me. She was in great pain.There is such a feeling.I calmed her down, and then she calmed down and told me her thoughts one by one.

It turned out that Wenxuan went to Thailand for an operation, took a part of the rectum and cut it into a new vagina, and put it in the front, spending all her savings.After returning to China, she was penniless and only had a female body.But she really didn't want to use her body to make money anymore. She went to look for a job, but the identity card was still not changed, and it was still written as male. No job would hire her.After the operation, there are many sequelae: when the wind blows down below, the pain will be overwhelmed.Artificial vaginas do not have an immune system and lubrication, so inconveniences are inevitable.She also has to bear the eyes of the people around her, which makes her very painful.

In the meantime, she met a man, and she fell in love with that man.Yao Niang has been depressed for a long time, the first and only capital is her beauty, not the capital of revolution - her body.In fact, their internal organs have been completely damaged.Therefore, it is easy for Yao Niang to fall in love with a man who treats her well, and then be deceived into her feelings.Wen Xuan was like this, she was deceived by that man.It turned out that the man had a real woman, and he was married to that woman long ago, and had a half-year-old son.

And what about Wenxuan?She has no fertility, no marriage, no money, and no offspring.That man wanted her to be his second wife, and he never planned to be serious about her from the beginning, let alone tell his parents.Wen Xuan naturally didn't want to be the second wife, so the man abandoned her without saying a word.Her beauty is really worthless in front of women and sons.

I have no choice but to comfort her and let her find a stable job and take care of herself.She is also really poor.Blame only the heartless daughters and heartless men in this world, there are too many of them!

Two months later, a big event happened in Yueye Nightclub: Mr. Jiang and his mistress, the hottest number one, Shui Lan, held a grand drug-taking party.This is Shui Lan's peak period, and the whole nightclub listens to her alone.Whatever she said, Mr. Jiang paid for it.She likes taking drugs the most, so the theme of this party is drug taking.

At the party, the dark hall is full of feasting lights.Shui Lan tested the poison first, and was so excited that she fell on the ground and rolled, laughing wildly all the time.Then everyone was given drugs, either in powder or in pill form.It is useful for sucking and swallowing.There are all kinds of K powder, methamphetamine and so on.Everyone is taking this kind of drug that excites the central nervous system of the brain, wandering and dancing like ghosts, forgetting love between lights and music, and going crazy.

My work here is just to clean the table and tidy things up, drug use has nothing to do with me.

Just as I was cleaning the table, suddenly, a hand on my back put my shoulder.Afterwards, he pulled me over, but it turned out to be a tall, savage, ferocious old man with two beards and lewd eyes, "Little handsome guy, my brother invites you to eat, eat this!" said Well, I stuffed the pill in my hand into my mouth.

Hold!There was a click in my heart, and I was shocked.I was terrified, and even though I was terrified of the consequences of disobedience, I knew intellectually that drugs should never be swallowed.After becoming addicted to drugs, you will have to transport and sell drugs, and then everything in your life will be controlled, "——No!" I immediately spit out the pills.That wretched man still wanted to stuff it in my mouth. In desperation, I accidentally bit his hand and fingers.

"Fuck you shit!" The next second, a slap hit my left cheek.He scratched me with the eye knife in disgust, and spat on the ground.

I stroked my left cheek and squatted on the ground injured, like a wounded rabbit.In this place, there is no human rights, no dignity, only the trampling of the weak by the strong.Here I am, the spittle on the ground, too humble to be worth mentioning.

The wretched man looked angry and kicked me aside, "What a disappointment! Damn it, find someone and hit me! Teach me a lesson on how to behave!"

As soon as the words fell, I was already tightly grasped by several tall and strong men, unable to move.They caught me.I secretly thought something was wrong, I was so scared, I didn't know how I would be hurt by them.But no matter how I struggle, it is always in vain.I subconsciously shouted into the distance: "Help! Help! — Sister Shui Lan! Help me!"

In the distance, Sister Shuilan was rolling on the ground, unconscious.

I shouted again in a panic: "Mr. Jiang! Help!"

No one would have expected that Mr. Jiang, who usually loves me so much, turned his head to the wretched man and said at this time: "This coquettish boy has spoiled your interest, so you should drag him out and beat him well." The words were cold Without a trace of emotion.

I don't understand, why is this happening?why? ? ?Mr. Jiang has always shown pity for me before, why is he so heartless today? !Do not save me, add insult to injury? ? ? ? ?

I will always remember Mr. Jiang's expression at that moment: it was the expression of looking at a weak puppy and saying take it out and stew it to eat! ! !

Before I was allowed to think about it, I was already captured by those thugs.They took me to the alley outside the nightclub. It was [-] o'clock in the morning. How could someone pass by to help.I was beaten on the ground by them, punched and kicked vigorously, and three or four tall and strong men treated me like a sandbag for fun.

pain!it hurts!

--ah!Ah ah ah ah ah! ! !

No matter how much I yelled and begged for mercy, they continued to slap me, hit me on the back, kick me in the stomach, pull me up and throw me against the wall, and I heard my head hit the wall.All I saw was a line of blood on my forehead, and then I fell into a pool of blood.Their punching and kicking seemed to never end, one kick followed by another punch, the pain of bruising, I can no longer describe with words.

There is no skin on the whole body, and I no longer feel the pain of bursting and bleeding.The blood flowed all over the ground, and I felt that my vitality was being lost, and I would never see the sun tomorrow.Life energy is constantly being lost, and I feel that my internal organs are all broken, injured, and exploded, turning into moors of blood that flow out, passing away bit by bit with the sound of boxing.

At the last second of unconsciousness, I felt a huge, mallet-like blow land on the knee of my right foot.

Then, I passed out.

7 destruction

……

I'm dying.

I don't know how long it took, but when I regained consciousness, the sky was already dark.Beside me is someone I never thought I would see again in this life.A boy supported me and kept shaking me vigorously. The boy wore thick round glasses.Seeing me open my eyes, he smiled and said, "Are you awake? Han Zihao, you're finally awake!" Isn't this just Li You, the male student in our class when I was in school?

"Li You?" I recognized him at a glance, after all, I just didn't go to school for a year.Looking around, I found myself in a hospital ward, "It was you who saved me? Thank you so much." I have mixed feelings at this moment, some are touched, and some are sad.

Li You looked at me and said, "Do you know that you frightened me! I happened to see you on the road, passed out in a pool of blood. I thought, isn't this Han Zihao who left suddenly before? How could he be beaten like this?" ? They sent you to the hospital."

I was very panicked, and I was so afraid that if I hadn't met Li You at that time, I might have died by now.My whole body trembled, "Li You...thank you..." Tears welled up in my eyes and burst out.

Li You patted me on the shoulder, "Don't cry, what are you crying for. I'm fine now, don't worry."

My tears stopped a little, and after a while, I calmed down.Did not continue to cry.I asked, "What does the doctor say about me?"

"The injuries on your body are all just skin injuries." Speaking of this, Li You lowered his head sadly, "But the doctor said that the knee of your right leg was hit hard by a mallet-shaped object. It may not recover in the future." .”

"What do you mean?!" I felt unacceptable, "Can't my leg move?!" I tried to move my right calf, but found it extremely difficult, and there was great pain when I moved it.

He shook his head and said, "It's not that I can't walk, but I may not be able to run. Even if I run, I can't run very fast."

God!Isn't that the equivalent of breaking my leg? !Am I no longer able to run and jump like a normal person? ? ? ! ! !

For a split second, I felt hopeless.

Li You adjusted his glasses, and said to me: "Han Zihao, you are in a sad mood now, I know the reality is difficult for you to accept. I have something to say to you, and I will talk to you after a while when you calm down. Let's talk." After finishing speaking, he got up and went out.

I was left alone in the ward, crying crazily, as if I was about to cry out all the tears of my life.I have never cried like this in my life. I feel that I have been greatly wronged, and I am all wronged in my heart.My heart hurts so badly, my heart hurts, poking and poking, I'm going to be strangled to death.What am I doing wrong?Doom always befalls me.I don't know why this happened, why did such a bad thing happen to me?Why does my life have to be trampled over and over again like ants?

I couldn't stop crying, and when I finished crying, I threw things, and after I fell, I hit the bed under me, punching and punching.Why is it my flesh and blood that others punched, but I can only vent on the bed?I feel so wronged and wronged, so sad that my whole heart is full of pain.Why is my life so miserable, and I can never see the light and the future?

After a day and a night, I finally vented all the emotions I could vent in various ways.When it's over, I calm down.I was so tired that I fell asleep.

When I woke up the next day, Li You came to see me.I feel that there is nothing unacceptable to me anymore, and my heart is very strong now.This time, he finally sat in front of me and said seriously: "Han Zihao, I want to tell you something. Do you remember Ye Shiling?"

When I heard the name Shiling, my heart ached again.That's my favorite person. "Why don't you remember? Of course I do."

Li You helped his glasses and said, "After you suddenly disappeared last year, Young Master Ling was very anxious. He looked for you everywhere, asking people everywhere if they had seen you. His family blocked the news on purpose to prevent him from finding you, so he just I ran to each class at all levels, in front of all the students in the school, and asked: "Where did Han Zihao go? Where did Han Zihao go? Have you seen it?" None of us have ever seen the panic-stricken appearance of the common male god. He hasn't been looking for you for a day, his whole person seems to have changed, and he is going crazy looking for you. Now that I can see you, he can finally get his wish. "

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After hearing this, I sneered a few times, "Heh, heh..." It turned out that this was the secret that Zhichao didn't want to tell me at that time.I should be thankful, does Shiling still care about me?Maybe he likes me too?But until now, I have been hurt so much, and I have been reduced to what I am now.What's the point of his little liking?too late, too late...

"Han Zihao," Li You looked at me seriously, his eyes were very firm, "You still want to meet him? He's been hard for you to find."

I didn't say anything, just said one sentence, ignoring his stunned expression - I said: "Okay, I'll see you soon, I'm afraid of him, my leg is broken. Wait for me to recover Alright, let him come to see me at Yueye Nightclub. I’m selling it! You have to pay for seeing me.”

For a while after that, I stayed and recuperated.At the nightclub, Sister Shui Lan helped to speak up. The boss knew that I had offended someone and was beaten up, so he let me go and didn't say anything about me.With nothing to do, I was suddenly more free than I had ever been before, and I was spending time connecting with friends.

I don't have many friends, just a few who come and go.Only then did I know that on the day my accident happened, it turned out that Qiqing also had an accident.She was raped!

She was at that party, and she was in exactly the same situation as me.But she didn't have my stubborn temper, and she didn't have the courage to resist, so she downed the drug with beer.After that, she was raped, and a video was filmed and posted on social networking sites.On the same night, she agreed, but I refused; as a result, Qiqing was raped, my legs were broken, and the sun and the moon lost their light at the same time.

Later, I found out that because of the rape, she was pregnant.Went to the hospital and aborted a child.What a pity.

Qi Qing had left the nightclub since that night, and Sister Shui Lan also resigned shortly after.Originally, she was Mr. Jiang's lover, but now she was redeemed by Mr. Jiang justifiably, and the contract was terminated.He even put forward extremely generous conditions to take care of her, give her money, and give her a big house to live in.But I know that something will happen to her sooner or later. Jiang is always an extremely sinister and vicious person. He used to pretend so well, but in order not to save face for his companions, he not only refused to help me, but even worsened me.

Sure enough, later, Shui Lan's mistress was discovered by Mr. Jiang's wife.Mr. Jiang and his wife are both from a wealthy family, killing a person is as easy as playing with an ant.It turned out that Mr. Jiang's wife went back to her mother's house and sent someone to beat Shui Lan to a disability.The entire left leg was cut off, half of the face was cut and disfigured, the eyes were seriously injured, especially the genitals, which were randomly cut open by the knife, bloody and bloody...

This is the first time I've heard of such a terrifying thing.The moment I heard it, my feet were weak and I fell to my knees, trembling with prostration.I was very scared, if I hadn't been greedy for money and rejected Mr. Jiang's request for support, I would have been the one who fell into such a situation today.I finally understood why Mr. Jiang refused to save him at the party at that time: we people were nothing to him, a plaything, a thing, how could he have any real pity for us? !

After that incident, Qiqing and Shuilan left the city.I hope they go to other places and live a new life!I never saw either of them again in my life.

The two people mentioned above are just not dead.Two people died: one was Zhichao and the other was Wenxuan.

8 broken

Let me talk about brother Zhichao first. After he left the underworld to become a good man, he planned to start a business, make a lot of money, and marry a wife.The ideal sounds very plump, but the reality is always very skinny.He spent most of his life on vendettas in the rivers and lakes. In terms of emotional intelligence, dating, and mixed civilized society, he was so childish and innocent that he looked like a child who had never experienced the world.

He was 30 years old and fell in love with a young and beautiful girl in her early twenties.Although it was a bit unreliable, he didn't think much about it.Unexpectedly, that woman was only with him to cheat him of money.The woman first asked him to buy all kinds of cosmetics, and then said that her father was sick and needed an operation, crying, and Zhichao believed it.As a result, after the woman cheated him out of all his money, she got together with a tall, rich and handsome young handsome man, and stretched Brother Zhichao far away.

Unwilling to give up, Zhichao borrowed a huge sum of money from the bank and cooperated with others to start a business. He said he wanted to start a business, and vowed to make a lot of money in one fell swoop.Who knew that Zhichao, who came out to fight at the age of 14, didn't know a lot of big characters, and he didn't understand the law. He didn't even understand what was written in the contract. Learn to do business.As a result, the man who partnered with him ran away with the money.It turned out that the man had a background in the officialdom and had known people in government agencies for a long time. From the very beginning, he had prepared all plans to deceive him, and ran away after everything was settled.

The man ran away with the money, and Zhichao had to bear all the remaining debts!Zhichao was at a loss, went to ask the lawyer, and shouted at the murderer, making a scene, saying how could there be such a reason, that person obviously asked me to borrow the money!It's unreasonable!The lawyer told him, "Are you a partnership? If you set up a limited corporate legal person that complies with the provisions of the Company Law, you don't need to bear joint and several debts. But are you a civil partnership? The partners bear unlimited liability for debts. This is stipulated by the national law." After hearing the lawyer's words, Zhichao didn't understand a word, and he realized that he was completely desperate.

This is what happens without knowledge, without education.Returning from a hooligan to a civilized society, it is destined to be impossible to have like other people.

He tried to run away, but the bank had already recruited a lot of thugs to surround his house and came to collect debts every day.He had no money to pay back, couldn't even pay the rent, and was homeless.Walking and walking, I walked through every intersection, every street and alley outside, and I saw the whole city and went shopping.Walking around, the feet have already walked to the rooftop.He jumped, jumped down, jumped to his death.

I was deeply saddened to hear the news of his passing.I couldn't help crying, but I felt that crying had no meaning for the deceased.Rest in peace, Zhichao.go!

Let's talk about Wenxuan later.After Wen Xuan was abandoned from beginning to end, she suffered from cerebral thrombosis.Originally, although taking hormone drugs would shorten lifespan, they would not die in their 20s; but if they take drugs indiscriminately, their internal organs will basically be ruined.

It turned out that when she was 15 years old, she went to the Yaoniang forum. At that time, few people understood it, and they all ate indiscriminately.It is easy to suffer from liver failure and kidney failure.He has no money, and a box of Sepulong three boards costs several hundred yuan. How much money can he have in his pocket if the student party deceives his parents?You can only eat spironolactone, which has more side effects and is much cheaper.

At the age of 15, she bought spironolactone online and took too much spironolactone without even knowing it herself.It's really like eating candy.As a result, the side effects are now occurring, and she has a cerebral thrombosis, which is a complication of the side effects of spironolactone.

Now, cerebral thrombosis can be cured, but treatment requires a lot of money.She was penniless, and the cerebral thrombosis worsened in her body, leading to pathological changes, and the cerebral thrombosis turned into cerebral infarction.Once the brain dies, the nerves of the whole body stop functioning, and a person's life is over.

Just like that, Wen Xuan died suddenly in the residence.

I sigh for her in my heart.If there is an afterlife, I hope she can reincarnate and become a healthy girl!

Also, my roommate, Xiao Jun, is moving out soon.There was a rich woman named Mrs. Shen who fell in love with him and was willing to pay a high price to keep him, and was going to take him out to live.

"Why are you willing to agree to her?" I asked, "That old lady Shen looks like she is 60 years old, with yellow spots and wrinkles all over her face. How can you swallow it?"

Xiao Jun, a young man, folded his hands easily behind his head, and smiled with white teeth showing, "Hey, she looks eight times like my mother. I'll take it as if I'm married to my mother."

I looked helpless, "Okay. Speaking of which, recently, some high-ranking official was exposed for pornography. Judging from the pictures, that lady belongs to our nightclub!"

"Isn't it?" He rested his chin on one hand, gossiping authentically, "I've heard a lady friend say that she used to be a 'swallow'. The official government or some high-ranking officials secretly have an intelligence organization called the National Security Bureau. Kind of like that. These departments have secretly trained and used sexual spies. Sex spies in the former Soviet Union were very powerful. The females were called 'swallows' and the males were called 'crows'."

"Oh?" I asked curiously, "Then how did she receive training?"

Xiao Jun covered his mouth and smiled, "Haha, that's amazing! She said that pornographic spies have very hidden training places, usually on dozens of floors of very remote buildings. Men and women will have sex with each other, learn The best position and angle allow the camera as small as a mosquito to take a 70% clear picture of the sexual intercourse with them. Women need to practice arousing the sexual desire of men in their 70s, and men should also practice seducing them. They usually work in nightclubs and only carry out their tasks after receiving instructions. Some are used to seduce foreign government officials, diplomats, and some domestic factions infighting broke out scandals about political enemies. There are also pornographic photos of celebrities. In short, they are useful There are many, and it is hidden so deeply that no one knows."

"It's really powerful." I sighed.

Since that day, I have never seen Xiao Jun's cheerful smile from the bottom of my heart again.He moved out of the dormitory, Mrs. Shen picked him up and gave him a villa to live in.It turned out that Mrs. Shen's husband also likes to play. Her husband is also 60 years old, and he is as perverted as she is.The couple took turns playing with the young Xiao Jun, who was their common plaything.

Later, once, Mrs. Shen brought her "pet" Xiao Jun back to the nightclub to show off. All the guests present were her distinguished guests and friends, and she specially gave out her wallet for the entire private room.I covered my mouth in fright, I couldn't believe the scene before my eyes: the Xiao Jun I am most familiar with, that high-spirited, cynical young man wearing a silver earring to play handsome; Sluggish, expressionless, lying on his stomach like a puppy, wearing a black collar around his neck, the collar has a silver chain connected to Mrs. Shen's hands.

"Hee hee! What do you think, this is my new toy, isn't it good!" Mrs. Shen laughed and slapped Xiao Jun's ass.

Xiao Jun shrank his butt in pain, and immediately a lady friend in her 50s pointed at it and said, "Wow! It's so cute! It looks like a real puppy."

"He's better than a real puppy!" Mrs. Shen, with curly hair and red nail polish, patted Xiao Jun's head and laughed.

I was very angry in my heart, but when I turned around, I found that the nightclub service staff next to me were all surprised. They never thought that their former colleagues would become a pet of a rich man today. They all found it weird and disgusting, which was unacceptable.But no one complained for him.

I can't say anything.After all, this is Xiao Jun's own choice.

"Slap!" Mrs. Shen casually slapped Xiao Jun, and Xiao Jun fell down, with tears in his eyes, touching his smooth face.Xiao Jun was wearing revealing black erotic lingerie, a collar around his neck, iron chains on his legs, and nothing else.With teary eyes, looking at her pitifully, I feel pity for her.

Mrs. Shen took out an anal rotating rod, inserted it in his back hole, and twitched it up and down, and he just moaned and screamed "Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!"The others watched cheerfully, and asked Mrs. Shen: "Is this little slut so cool?" Mrs. Shen said, "Yes! Let's have fun together!"

At this moment, Xiao Jun has no dignity, he is just a sex toy for every guest here.Mrs. Shen invited a group of friends to play with him. These friends were both male and female, and they all gathered around and looked at him bewitchingly.Mrs. Shen even asked him to give mouth to her friends, which he did one by one.

After playing like this for a long time, Mrs. Shen finally had the most fun, and asked Xiao Jun to bark a few times obediently. "Woof!" Xiao Jun barked obediently pretending to be a dog.He looked very inappropriate the whole time, as if he had committed a drug addiction or something. It is estimated that Mrs. Shen brought him out at this time.Guaranteed that he is obedient, does not lose her face, and accepts everything.

"Hey, give me the candy." Mrs. Shen fumbled out a pack of powdered medicine from her bag and sprinkled it on the ground. Xiao Jun squatted down like a puppy to suck it.That's not dog food, it's white powder!It is estimated that there are also medicinal powders that control people's minds, and psychedelic powders.It was only then that I realized that Xiao Jun had been addicted to drugs early in the morning. When he opened the room, he was randomly held down and poured a few pills into his mouth, and then he was controlled.So he had to be submissive and obedient. He was also penniless and unable to earn a living. If he was not a rich man's puppy, he would not be able to stand up and walk.

After that day, I basically never saw Xiao Jun again.He has never been to a nightclub again, and has lived in the villa given to him by the Shen couple for a long time.I visited him once, and his appearance made me almost not recognize him!

Xiao Jun's hair was long and dyed red. Mrs. Shen picked the color because she liked it after seeing it in a magazine.His chest was tattooed with Old Man Shen's name.The face has undergone plastic surgery many times, and the item and size were personally selected by Mrs. Shen.His hands were handcuffed for a long time, and he had to go through security checks when he left the gate of the villa.The eyes are dull, like a real puppy that can no longer resist.

He has countless money, and all the things he uses are top-notch, and each one is worth tens of thousands of yuan.I don't feel distressed at all when I buy things worth tens of thousands of yuan. Except for spending time with Shen and his wife every day, I have all my time to myself.But what's the point?Lost freedom, even the body is no longer their own.

Sooner or later, the Shens and his wife abandoned him, or they had no money to play and went bankrupt.At that time he will be abandoned, I think he will have no other way to go except Huang Quan!

9 pure white

Two months later, Ye Shiling finally came to see me.

A colleague came to tell me that there was a seventeen or eighteen-year-old tall and good-looking boy who came to the nightclub. He came to me specifically and said my name.The colleague asked him to wait in the room and let me go there now.I knew in my heart that it could only be Ye Shiling, so I said, okay.

He opened the door with a heavy heart, and under the black wallpaper, between the deep red sofa, a teenager was sitting there nervously.Clean short hair, black pupils, reddish lips, and white gown, which are incompatible with the environment of the nightclub. Everything shows the innocence and purity of this young man.That's a face I'm all too familiar with, the face of the person I love the most in this life - what is this but Ye Shiling?

Shi Ling raised his head, stood up and looked at me.The moment he saw me, his expression was undoubtedly pleasantly surprised; but when he saw my distant and indifferent eyes, he lowered his head slightly and pursed his lips, "Xiao Hao, I finally found you."

His face is still the same, still so handsome.His heart is still the same, he is still that pure and kind boy.But I am not what I used to be. Now I have seen too many dark sides of society in the filthiest corners, and I am no longer his "Little Hao".I said, "Yeah, found me. What's your business?"

Shi Ling approached me and looked directly at me, "Xiaohao, I'm sorry. At that time, my family members did those things to you... I really didn't know at the time. I kept looking for you everywhere afterwards, but they all blocked you. Don’t let me know until Li You meets you. I already know about your broken leg. I also know that you suffered a lot when you were trapped in the nightclub. I’m sorry, it’s all because of me.”

Hearing his words, I undoubtedly had mixed feelings in my heart.There is sweetness and bitterness.The injuries and grievances I have suffered are known to all the people I like, and they feel distressed.This feeling made me very happy, as if all the suffering I had suffered was not in vain.There is still a bit of bitterness in my heart, seeing the person I have been thinking about day and night is in front of me, my longing for the past year is almost collapsed at this moment of reunion, but we can't go back to the past.

"I don't blame you, I only blame your family for protecting you too well." I looked back into his eyes and said slowly. "Do you know? In this world, there are people who can live safely and be innocent. That capital is that someone has done all the bad and dirty things for you, so you can show an innocent and cheerful smile. Pure and spotless. I It’s just that I have fallen into the darkness of this society. I have no one to protect me. I am different from you. During this year, I was trapped in a nightclub. I have seen too much ugliness in society and the sorrow of human nature. We can’t go back to the past I've changed, I'm not the Xiao Hao you knew before."

You can keep a good heart forever, but I can't.I can no longer trust others, nor can I trust happiness and the future.Accustomed to seeing death and sorrow, beauty has become an abnormal thing.I have fallen, sunk, and my heart has been blackened at the bottom of this society, and I will never return to white.

He suddenly held my hand, and said nervously but firmly: "Xiaohao, at that time, I...I really liked you. It was after that crazy night that you suddenly disappeared, and you disappeared completely from my side. Disappeared; when I came back to my senses, I was shocked to realize my feelings for you. I never found out before. Even if you have changed now, I still like you the same. No matter what, I will like you. "

……

I burst into tears.

He panicked and wiped my tears with the back of his hand, "What's wrong with you?"

This long-lost confession has been too late for too long.Such heart-warming, heart-piercing words, who would not melt their hearts after listening to them?Hundreds of refined steel turned into soft fingers?I feel that if I were to die at this moment, I would have no regrets.

But, Shiling, you don't understand.We used to be classmates and classmates, but now we are too far apart.It is impossible for us to be together.You are a son of a rich family who is protected and cherished by everyone, and I am a nightclub kid who is used to seeing heartless people and ruthless people. How can we still have a future?

"It's too late," I wiped my eyes, holding back tears, "because this sentence came too late. From the moment your family threw me into this nightclub, we have been impossible."

He looked at me with regret and guilt in his eyes, "Give me a chance to make up for my mistakes, okay?"

When I saw his appearance, I was really angry and funny, "Do you like me, or are you just sorry for me? If you want to pay off the debt, then you don't need it. I don't need sympathy or guilt. "

He was suddenly annoyed, his eyes became deep and focused, he grabbed my clothes and pulled me over.He said to me: "I really like you, why don't you understand? Do I have to prove it like this?" After that, he let go of his hand, moved his face towards me, and kissed my lips .His face was magnified in front of my eyes, and his eyelashes swept across my face. His face still made my heart flutter, and I still like him so much.It turns out that time can't wear away my feelings for him, it just makes this feeling stronger.

His tongue invaded my mouth and I did nothing but stand and let him kiss.After he finished kissing, he left my lips and said, "Do you understand?"

"I understand," I said.My voice became cold and harsh,