16 years

Chapter 126 "I won't listen to your chapter anymore."

Liu Ruosong never thought that Fu Yan would appear here at this very moment.

His itinerary was completely different from Liu Ruosong's - according to the scheduled plan, he should first take a detour to the Shencheng Research Institute, and then return to Yancheng with the small equipment he got.

And returning from Shencheng to Yancheng, even in peaceful times with good road conditions, still requires more than ten hours of driving.Although the "four days" Fu Yan said before should have taken into account his actual combat experience in his previous life and the time limit given after leaving aside the rest time, but in any case, he appeared here at this time, and the time was too tight.

He must have...he must have never rested at all, and he had to keep on driving so that he could reach Yancheng earlier than Liu Ruosong during the rest time of the evacuation train.

After the last "farewell to life and death", Liu Ruosong was not ready to meet Fu Yan for 24 hours, and when he saw him unexpectedly, his whole body felt stiff under stress.

The appearance of Fu Yan seemed to remind him of everything in the past. Those nightmares, regrets, pains and self-blame were entrenched in Liu Ruosong's heart, absorbing his love and growing up, growing into thick and sharp thorns.

Those malicious and uncontrollable thoughts burst out at this moment, but because of Fu Yan's presence, they retreated into the corner without a trace.

Fu Yan had seen Liu Ruosong a long time ago. He waited for two seconds, and saw that the other party was just standing on the stairs in a daze, and had no intention of coming towards him at all, so he put down his work and bent slightly to follow him. The sentry sent a few words, and then "leaved without authorization", left the job, and walked over to meet Liu Ruosong.

Liu Ruosong's fingers tightened slightly, he looked at Fu Yan, but his mind was full of the scene when they said goodbye in the previous life.

——He really couldn't imagine how painful a person like Fu Yan would be to give up his life on his own initiative and seek relief under his pleading.

Liu Ruosong didn't dare to delve into it, his hanging right hand twitched convulsively, and then was wrapped by Fu Yan's warm body temperature.

Fu Yan held his twitching fingers, didn't ask him what's wrong, but gently inserted his fingers into his fingers, and rubbed his convulsed muscles little by little.

"Does it hurt?" Fu Yan asked.

Liu Ruosong shook his head in a daze.

I don't know if it's because he came back from the dead too many times, Liu Ruosong didn't realize a little bit of sweetness from those complicated and frantic emotions until now.

He tried his best to catch the lucky tail to make himself look happier, but unfortunately it didn't work. In Fu Yan's eyes, his smile was still forced, like some kind of mechanical template.

This is obviously not a normal state. Fu Yan pursed his lips, held Liu Ruosong's hand without rejection, and then led him down the stairs, through a long underground passage, and finally stopped in a small temporary compartment. room.

There is no one around here, and it is not on the path of the evacuation passage, so it is a very private place for talking.

Liu Ruosong seemed to have recovered from his initial stupor, he was dragged away by Fu Yan quietly, and he was even in the mood to care about him.

"Why are you back at this time?" Liu Ruosong said softly, "It's too late."

"I didn't go to Shanghai." Fu Yan said.

"What?" Liu Ruosong was stunned: "Why didn't you go?"

"I'm on sick leave, so I'm not suitable for delicate tasks." Fu Yan said: "Because the analyzers of the Shencheng Research Institute are too expensive, and my physical condition is not good, there is a risk of bumping and damaging the instruments, so I have applied for a replacement. Executed."

Liu Ruosong was stunned for a while, and subconsciously reached out to touch his forehead.

Fu Yanshun lowered his head obediently, and pressed it against the back of Liu Ruosong's hand.

There was a slightly hot touch from the part where the skin was attached, and it felt that it was indeed hovering on the dangerous line of a low-grade fever.

However, Liu Ruosong knew that this kind of injury was far from the standard of "voluntary reporting" for Fu Yan.

"...Tell the truth." Liu Ruosong said, "Don't worry me."

"I don't trust you." Fu Yan stretched his arms around his waist, lowered his head slightly, looked into Liu Ruosong's eyes seriously, and said word by word: "Plus you said you wanted to see me very much, so I will came back."

Liu Ruosong opened his mouth, almost speechless.

He is in a very chaotic state now, and he hasn't fully adapted from the "novice protection".In addition, in the many years of getting along with Fu Yan, there has never been such a situation of "giving up the task to take care of the mood", so that Liu Ruosong didn't even know how to face Fu Yan's "selfishness" for a while.

"But." He stumbled and said, "Shencheng——"

"There are many people in Shencheng who can take over the task - special police, exercise troops, and other brother troops passing by. No. [-] asked me to go, just caught me and said casually, it doesn't matter if another person goes to get things. I It is not the only option for the mission." Fu Yan said seriously: "But it is for you."

The hand that Liu Ruosong was holding with Fu Yan unconsciously pulled back a little, and Fu Yan gently held it down.

"You've been very wrong all day." Fu Yan tightened his arms slightly, lowered his voice, and asked him softly, "What happened?"

"...What?" Liu Ruosong didn't want to say. The distance between him and the current Fu Yan was far from a simple life and death. There were two failed attempts, two world lines, and more than eight years of gap between them. .

Eight years is already the best youth for many people. If you count it day by day, it should be a very long axis.

There's so much fear and support and a need for each other that only the two of them can understand.

But now Fu Yan doesn't remember those things, so Liu Ruosong is the only one left in the whole world who holds those folded times in his heart, even if he can't tell Fu Yan.

Fu Yan easily saw Liu Ruosong's evasion, he looked at him quietly for a while with a tolerant gaze, and suddenly asked: "Ruosong, have you come back too?"

Liu Ruosong was startled suddenly.

In the first restart, Fu Yan tested him several times, but never asked this question so clearly.

Ever since Liu Ruosong restarted for the first time, they have always observed a certain tacit understanding, and when the time comes, they will naturally hold hands again and enjoy the secret reunion.

This was the first time that Fu Yan asked him—but it happened after Fu Yan's "first restart" and after Liu Ruosong's "determination to change".

One is about to start, but the other has already seen all the passive options.

Liu Ruosong suddenly felt the absurdity of a dislocation, but he also felt a vague sense of joy, as if he finally had the opportunity to make up for the long road that Fu Yan walked alone when he restarted for the first time.

His silence gave Fu Yan the answer, Fu Yan felt guilty and guilty, he stretched out his hand hesitantly, and touched Liu Ruosong's face carefully.

"It's not the first time." Fu Yan said, "Isn't it?"

Liu Ruosong was surprised by Fu Yan's keenness, Fu Yan seemed to see through his thoughts, and explained first: "I know how I died, if that's the case...you wouldn't react like this."

Fu Yan's eyes became very sad for a moment, he wiped Liu Ruosong's face with his thumb, and said sadly: "I know you very well, I know how strong you are in your bones - so something worse must have happened Things will become like this.”

Liu Ruosong felt that he was being delayed by his eyes.

"Don't ask, bro." Liu Ruosong said softly, "I don't want... I don't want to tell you this."

"Why?" Fu Yan asked.

"I know it's not your fault, but—" Liu Ruosong tried to pick out the rational part from his chaotic and uncontrollable emotions and spread it out to Fu Yan: "But I may not be able to control myself. "

"You can blame me." Fu Yan interrupted him: "If the source of your sadness and pain is me, you can blame me whatever you want - you have this right, and I am willing to give you this right."

Liu Ruosong fell silent.

"There is no right or wrong in many things." Fu Yan said: "I once told myself that I would treat you well for the rest of my life, love you, protect you, and respect you, so that you will never be wronged - but I didn't do it .”

Fu Yan paused, and added: "I haven't done it since the first time."

"...Do you have to say this?" Liu Ruosong's voice became slightly colder.

He seemed to have finally escaped from the "normal state" disguised by his subconscious mind, and his whole person was somewhat gloomy.

"Don't criticize yourself, and don't transfer my responsibility to yourself." Fu Yan said: "I am willing to bear your emotions, good or bad. I don't know what will happen in the future, but I am confident that this One thing never changes—”

Before he finished speaking, Liu Ruosong had already rushed forward and bit his shoulder fiercely.

Fu Yan hissed in pain, he subconsciously hugged Liu Ruosong's waist, staggered a step back, and lightly knocked his back against the concrete wall.

Liu Ruosong bit hard, and through a thin layer of training uniform, he even tasted a little bloody smell, but he didn't know whether it came from Fu Yan or himself.

Fu Yan's breathing paused for a moment, but he held it back.

"You insisted on mentioning it yourself!" Liu Ruosong gritted his teeth and mumbled, "I don't agree, I never want to agree!"

Fu Yan could feel some kind of warm liquid running down Liu Ruosong's cheeks and onto his shoulders, which made him tremble all over.

His shoulder hurts, but his heart hurts even more.Fu Yan didn't dare to guess what happened to cause Liu Ruosong to collapse like this, but he knew clearly in his heart that all of this had nothing to do with him.

"Why is it you?" Liu Ruosong didn't look like crying, and didn't smile like laughing, only the ruthlessness in his tone was shocking, he didn't seem to intend to ask Fu Yan to answer him, but decided everything on his own: "...I won't hand you over to anyone again."

"I won't listen to you anymore."