you are my nightmare

Chapter 309 Leave

If there is still tomorrow, if we still have tomorrow, I will never let you bear such a heavy burden alone, let alone let you bear it alone, and I will never let you face it alone So much exhaustion and helpless pain...

But everything will not start again, you didn't even give me a chance to apologize, and you didn't even give me a chance to say goodbye...

If you can give me another chance, I will definitely return all the guilt and debt I owe to you...

Even though I know that you are not rare, even if it is clear that you don't care about everything you have done for me and get my rewards, I still don't want you to have regrets, or I should say I don't want to face myself with regrets for you. your death...

I have always wanted a warm home, and then I met you, and I wanted to form a warm home with you that only belonged to the two of us, and then the two of us came together so naturally, both of us yearned so simple and ordinary The love mode of the two people has always been so happy, and there has never been a quarrel. It should be said that the two people are caring for the relationship between the two and protecting each other, but no matter how careful they are, the identities of the two are unchangeable. Unable to change the environment, unable to adapt, let alone create a new world, so that two people can really start over...

They all try their best to protect in the fields they are good at, and try to hide everything, just for the road of this life to walk together...

Wan Qiyi didn't believe that someone in this world could end Xie Xiaoyou's life without his own consent and without Xie Xiaoyou's permission.

Although the facts were so cruel and merciless in front of her eyes, her lover really died in her arms, and once again her body covered in blood was cold, her heart stopped beating, and her body became stiff...

Wan Qiyi still believes that Xie Xiaoyou is alive, but he just lost his temper with him and doesn't want to see him, that's why he just fell asleep like this, refusing to wake up, no matter what he calls her, he doesn't want to talk to him.

Feelings are always involuntary, too powerless, too tired, too helpless, too much pain, too much heartbreak, too much reluctance, too much letting go, too much Do everything you can, ask for too much but get it, ask for too much but get it...

When the reality is in front of us, when making a difficult decision, the final choice is often not made from the heart, but the answer that is made because everything has been considered and considered.And this answer seems to be the best in the eyes of others, but it may be painful for me...

Xie Xiaoyou is the kind of person who can be cruel to herself, but can't be a little bit cruel to Wan Qiyi.She can use her own life to protect, she can use her death to protect Wan Qiyi, or she can use her death to not embarrass Wan Qiyi anymore.

I would rather spend the last time of my life, let myself fall into the darkness, raise my daughter for Wan Qiyi, and guard from afar... There is a kind of love, not getting, not having, not being with, but not getting, not having, not being with, but no matter how uneasy the heart is. No matter how painful it is, I have to hold back my tears, clenched my fists, let my nails sink into my palms, and smiled at a place close to her that she couldn't see, to be a strong protective shield that she couldn't see, no matter she Do you need……

As long as she is well, it will be sunny.

In the years to come, maybe something happened, someone met, and suddenly a familiar picture appeared in my mind, but those only belonged to the past and would never appear again.The important person in my life will never appear in my life again, and I have completely disappeared in the other party's time...

With tears falling, I have never had any contact with the one I love so much in this life. From now on, I will always be with you at night, derailing your life.

The pain in my heart is gone, I can't feel the pain, I have frozen the fate, I don't admit that I still love deeply, I don't admit the life and death of the person who cuddles with me to warm each other day and night, and it will be a farewell from now on...

He covered his face with his hands so that no one could see his frail appearance.

Allen looked at Xie Xiaoyou clenched his fists tightly with both hands, biting his lower lip and turned his head, his clenched hands tightly blocked his eyes, forcing himself not to look at that As long as you stand and turn your head slightly, you can see that she even outlines the outline in her dreams. She spends her life and all the light in her life to watch and protect the people, but she firmly refuses to have any nostalgia. .

Ai Lun's softly shining eyes were distressed, and he lowered his eyes. He touched Xie Xiaoyou's clenched hand with his own hand. He wanted to say something comforting, but he opened his mouth a few times, but he couldn't say anything. Allen sucked his delicate nose.

"Fool, I'm fine. She will meet someone better, someone who is more suitable for her. There will be someone who loves her more than me and is more worthy of her, and she will live the rest of her life with her." Xie Xiaoyou keenly noticed Reaching Alan's mood, she finally let go of the hand she had been holding tightly, and patted the back of Alan's hand, which she originally wanted to comfort herself.

He didn't know whether to comfort Allen or comfort himself.

Allen twitched the corners of his lips, forcing himself to reveal a trace that was more distressing than crying, and the appearance of weeping was very endearing.

Today is Xie Xiaoyou's Panax notoginseng, which means that Xie Xiaoyou has been dead for 21 days.The wound near Xie Xiaoyou's heart also tended to heal.

Since Xie Xiaoyou's death, Wan Qiyi will buy Xie Xiaoyou's favorite snacks every night at 04:30 to come to Junle Gate to worship.

Wan Qiyi came too frequently, Xie Xiaoyou was worried that some clues would be revealed after a long time, making Wan Qiyi suspicious.Resolutely decided to follow Alan to the cemetery to worship the car, leave Junlemen, and go to Alan's biological research institute.

Alan's car slid out of the underground garage of Junlemen beautifully, and passed by Wan Chengyi's car.

Xie Xiaoyou, who was hidden behind the window curtains, still couldn't help getting closer to the car window, and looked out through the gaps in the window curtains. She thought that there might never be such an opportunity to look at that person so closely. .

When I just got in the car, I told myself not to look at her, the relationship between me and her was over, completely over.There is only the past, no present, and no future between two people.She was already dead to her.

The difference between the living and the dead is that the life of the dead has come to an end, while the life of the living continues.The dead will ignite the hearts of the living, until one day the living also become the dead...the dead are really dead...

But now, Xie Xiaoyou can still say with a satisfied smile that she is a happy deceased, because she lives in the heart of the living Wan Qiyi, and as long as Wan Qiyi lives, she is living in another form.Wan Qiyi will live out her part, but Xie Xiaoyou doesn't know that she is as indispensable to Wan Qiyi as the air she breathes, or it is white water, which is ordinary but a part of life. It is easy to ignore the existence that is usually invisible, but when it is lost, it seems that people's life suddenly stops at that scale.Without warm water, Xie Xiaoyou, who would always be smiling at her when she turned her head and looked sideways, just stood where she could see it but was not eye-catching, Wan Qiyi's world collapsed.

"You are the best. No one is better than you." Allen held back his choking, and made himself laugh as much as he usually does.But even though she controlled her emotions extremely, she still had tears in her eyes that would fall out of her sockets at any time.

"Fool, why are you crying? You can see that your pretty face is crying. It's really okay. I still have you and the child, and I haven't lost her. It's just an early curtain call in her life. Put me Keep the best side, including my best face, the best years, in her memory I will never be old, and will always be that calm woman who will smile and say nothing no matter what happens." Xie Xiaoyou With a slight sigh, he raised his hand with some difficulty, and wiped away the tears that did not fall from the corners of Alan's eyes.

Allen covered Xie Xiaoyou who was lying on the back seat of the champagne-colored business car, and shook his hand vigorously, letting his manicured nails sink into the palm of his hand, and refused to let go.Xie Xiaoyou has been together for more than ten years and has liked her for many years. She even got used to her bad habits and inherited them.Of course, when Xie Xiaoyou wanted to calm himself down, he would like to bite his lip, bite his own tiger's mouth, or make a fist until his nails fell into his palm before letting go...

Distressed, sometimes you don't have to say something, and you don't need to show it, so that everyone knows, but silently guarding by your side, let the other party know that no matter what happens, no matter what happens, you will always stand by her. over there.When she needs it, no matter when and where, I will do my best to give her the support she wants.

For many years, Allen has been guarding and watching Xie Xiaoyou unchanged for more than ten years.As long as she is good, as long as she is happy, no matter what you do for her, it is worth it.As long as I see her smile from the heart, I will feel that it doesn't matter even if I throw away my life, at least she is happy.

As long as it is what she wants, even if it is a star in the sky, she will turn the star into a meteorite and fall to the ground, so she can hold it in her hand and play with it.

Allen didn't sit in the co-pilot, but sat in the back seat. In order to make Xie Xiaoyou lie down more comfortably, she carefully looked at Xie Xiaoyou and let Xie Xiaoyou pillow on her lap. Through the news of Xie Xiaoyou's death, And the burgundy one-shoulder long dress that she put on brought Xie Xiaoyou's body temperature, and the tip of her nose was filled with Xie Xiaoyou's unique hair fragrance.

Allen held Xie Xiaoyou with both hands distractedly, so that Xie Xiaoyou would not shake his body because of the start of the car.

Although Ellen still had a gentle smile on her face, she was a little excited in her heart. It was the first time she had loved someone for so many years, guarded someone for so many years, and protected someone for so many years, and it was the first time that she was so quietly in her arms. Let yourself hold, the whole body exudes gloom and dependence...