They say it's sick

Chapter 68

Li Xuan was cautious and suspicious as expected, Yun Zhi and the others found out after inquiring around in Li's residence, after the new year, Li Xuan changed the servants around him.

These few people only took care of his daily life all day long, and they didn't even enter the door of the study a few times in the past half a year, and they didn't even know whether Li Lingshou had received any letters from outside.

Few people in the Li Mansion knew where the former servants had gone. According to Li Yao's character, it is estimated that he would be able to survive. Not too possible.

As for Mrs. Ru, although Li Xuan loved her a lot before, it was only reflected in various small things in daily life.

Li Xuan has always been a big and cold-blooded person. Even Mrs. Zheng, who was born in an aristocratic family, was never really taken seriously by him. It was just a whim for the young and beautiful Mrs. Ru, and it was just a matter of coaxing him. It's not even a sinking if you want to have fun, and you won't entrust any secrets, and you won't show any abnormalities in front of her.

Or even if there was, Mrs. Ru who was only thinking about how to keep Li Ling in her room would not find out.

Therefore, Yun Zhi and Li Yan stayed in Mrs. Ru's courtyard for a long time, and heard nothing but crying and complaining——

Since Li Xuan's accident, Mrs. Ru has been staying in her courtyard because she has to take care of the child.

Except for the maid beside her, she had never seen anyone else, and she was full of grievances and panic about the unknown future. The inexplicable arrival of an eldest son who had a genealogy made her think something else.They even tried to win over Li Yan to compete with Mrs. Zheng's mother and son for the property of the Li family.

When she came out of her courtyard, Yun Zhi couldn't help but let out a long sigh of relief, feeling that the quiet outside was very precious.

Seeing him as if relieved, Li Yan couldn't help laughing: "It's the first time I've seen you like this. Your house in the Hou Mansion is peaceful, have you never seen this kind of world?"

"Indeed, I haven't seen much. My family seems to be a noble place, but the actual population is very simple. My father has spent most of his life in the army. It is rare to go back to the mansion when he is free. He just wants to be quiet and be able to be with me. Mother is enough to just sit and drink tea, read a book and chat for a few words, so she has no time to deal with these messy things. As for my brother and sister-in-law...I didn't understand until now why my elder brother insisted on letting my sister-in-law stay in the army..."

Yun Zhi's thoughts were a little wandering, and she looked back at the lady-like courtyard, her tone became emotional, "This inner house looks peaceful and peaceful, but it is actually a place where people are imprisoned. Only when you have a wider world away from here, can you really live in peace." be yourself."

After Yun Zhi finished speaking, she looked back, met Li Yan's eyes, couldn't help reaching out and hooking the other's fingers, and said softly, "You've been looking at me without speaking, what are you thinking?"

"It's nothing, but I always thought that the upbringing in the Hou Mansion should be very strict..." Li Yan held his restless hand, intertwining his fingers, "Now I understand that there is no need for deliberate upbringing. Those kind of parents and elder brothers can only raise you like this through precepts and deeds, and by being influenced by your ears and eyes..."

He looked at Yun Zhi's bright and expectant eyes, and suddenly stopped talking.

"Why did you only say half of what you said..." Yun Zhi looked at him and raised her eyebrows lightly, "What brought me up like this?"

"I couldn't think of it for a while... Actually, it wasn't for a while, I didn't know what words to use to describe you..." Li Yan rubbed his nose in embarrassment, "Maybe because I haven't read too much, or It's because you are so special, it's the first time I've met someone like you when I grow up."

"So you can't help but fall in love with me?" Yun Zhi couldn't help laughing, and said without humility, "This shows that you have good eyesight."

"I really have a good eye..." Li Yan also laughed, and he couldn't help feeling a little bit emotional, "Before, even when I didn't...didn't dare to show my heart to you, I couldn't help but think, You were born in the Marquis Mansion with loving parents, loving brothers and sisters-in-law, and you are young and handsome, both civil and military, and have a good character. When you were in Youzhou, there should have been many people who came to ask for marriage. If you don’t like those, how could you like me. "

"So you hesitated back then and never dared to speak?" Yun Zhi curled her lips, "You have to ask me if I like you or not, right?"

Li Yan looked down at him: "Then why do you like me?"

"Maybe it's because I have good eyesight?" Yun Zhi shook the hands they held, recalling Li Yan's previous words, "The Yun family is quite famous in Youzhou, and I'm used to pretending in front of people. So the reputation is not bad. In the past two years, there are indeed some people who want to get married. There are daughters from famous families, talented women from scholarly families, and daughters of generals who are family friends with my family like my sister-in-law. Naturally, they are all good, my parents don't have any objections, and one of them almost got married."

Seeing Li Yan frowning at this point, Yun Zhi couldn't help laughing, and then continued: "Of course it didn't work out in the end...I've always been arrogant, sometimes I have a sense of innocence that the whole world is turbid and I am alone, so I always like to do something unique.

Everyone in the world wants to get married when they get old, but I don't.Of course, it's also because I really don't have any idea about that young lady, and I can't even remember her appearance. She may not like me all that much, even if she does, she likes the young and promising Hou Fu in the eyes of the world Young master, you are different. "

Li Yan pursed his lips slightly, and then said, "Why am I different?"

"You know who I am, and you've seen all my unbearable faces to the world, but you still think I'm indescribable..."

Yun Zhi rolled her eyes and said slowly, "At first, I thought we were the same person, but then I found out that you are actually much better than me."

Li Yan's eyes flickered: "Where is it?"

"A grievance must be repaid, but the kindness and resentment are clear. As long as others give a little kindness, they can remember it in their hearts and repay it regardless of the cost; they are weak and weak, but their hearts are strong and firm. They have walked alone for so many years without self-pity, past hatred, and suffering. Well, we can all face it calmly.

I have thought countless times that if I were in this situation, I would not be able to persist until today.For me, you are also unique, and it is so easy to fall in love with you.

In the past, I always liked to follow behind my brothers and sisters-in-law, watching them connect with each other, and I always felt that their kind of affection was really precious, and I probably would never meet them in this life.Until that day when the fireflies were all over the mountains and fields in the woods, but you only had me in your eyes..."

Yun Zhi took a step forward, bringing the two of them very close, her warm breath almost fell on Li Yan's face, "I know, I met."

Li Yan's throat choked slightly, he opened his mouth but didn't know what to say to respond to Yun Zhi's confession.

Long before he fell in love with Yunzhi, he always thought that this boy was the best.Even if he saw the unbearable faces that Yun Zhi said later, he didn't think it mattered.

Yunzhi is good, but he is not a saint, and he does not need to be constrained by the rules set by those saints. He should live in this world with flesh and blood without restraint.

As for himself, he always felt that he was living on his last breath, and being able to reach this day was considered as God finally opened his eyes.

But she never thought that her usual struggles were also precious in Yunzhi's eyes.

"You don't need to say anything..." Yun Zhi opened his mouth in a timely manner, and gently tapped Li Yan's eyes with his free hand, "It's best not to cry, although I don't mind, I still want to see , but at this moment and occasion, plus your status as the eldest son of the Li family, if people see you, they might think that you are crying for Li Xuan, so you are somewhat sorry for what I just said?"

Li Yan opened his eyes slightly, and then couldn't help laughing: "Then why did you choose this moment and occasion to say what you just said?"

"I didn't mean to say it..." Yunzhi said, "I can't help myself after talking here."

"Then I can't help it, but it's okay, I can control it." Li Yan rubbed his eyes and looked around. There was still no one in the back house, "Go back?"

"Hmm..." Yun Zhi responded, and the two of them held hands and continued to walk forward, "The Li family has asked all the necessary questions, and it's useless to stay any longer. Go back to the inn to clean up, and go straight back to the village?"

"Leave just like that?" Li Yan hesitated for a moment, and glanced at Yun Zhi's face, "No matter who the real culprit behind the scenes is, Li Xuan is the one who directly killed your elder brother, so he died so easily. Is it too cheap for him?"

"It's quite cheap for him, but he's dead. No matter if I destroy his mourning hall now, or just burn his body and burn his bones to ashes, the embarrassment is for the living. He killed Kill my elder brother, he is dead now, so it’s not worth my trouble for him.” After Yun Zhi finished speaking, she looked at Li Yan again, “But you are different from me, he not only killed your mother, but also Ruined her life, and ruined yours even more, if you want to..."

"I really thought that one day I would crush him to ashes..." Li Yan shook his head with a smile, "But like you said, he is dead, but I am still alive, and there is no reason for that A dead person will delay my current life. What's more, he hasn't ruined my life ability, after all, I still have a long life in this life. "

Yun Zhi looked at Li Yan and rolled her eyes.

When we first met, the young man in front of me was withdrawn and somewhat indifferent, but unconsciously, he gradually reconciled with the past and became more cheerful and open-minded.

This may not mean letting go of hatred, but obviously, Li Yan let himself go.

"Yeah, it's long..." Yun Zhi nodded, "So walk slowly, don't rush."