not as lingering

Chapter 15 Chapter 15

15.

When people are in extreme anxiety and frustration, talking and sex are the best soothing agents.

Du Peng has done a great job in both aspects.He often came to Guangzhou from Shenzhen to visit Mo Yunfei.He is not good at words, but he is a good listener.Du Peng thought carefully and arranged everything very carefully, never revealing any flaws.

It was after Du Peng's relationship that Mo Yunfei cheered up step by step.Slowly her life is on the right track.

When it comes to lovers, Mo Yunfei has never been ashamed.It's just that she knows that sooner or later, she will come to an end with Du Peng, and she will also come to an end with Fan Zhi.Where is the end of this, she has not thought about it.But one day last month, Mo Yunfei saw the end of her and Du Peng.

One day last month, she and several writers jointly signed a book in Shenzhen.The book was not popular, and she didn't mention it to Du Peng beforehand.

However, that day, in the bookstore, Mo Yunfei was at the book signing place when he suddenly saw Du Peng, his wife and daughter. The three of them were talking while walking, and the daughter was holding Du Peng's arm as if acting like a baby.Du Peng smiled and patted his daughter's head. Mo Yunfei was very familiar with that expression.

At that moment, Mo Yunfei knew that the end of her relationship with Du Peng was now.

And where is the end of her relationship with Fan Zhi?That's the next step.

Kou Yan'er slept restlessly all night, she kept dreaming.

Little Button stood in the distance, complaining to her constantly, talking a lot, but Kou Yaner couldn't hear clearly.She tried her best to get close to the little button, and suddenly she heard the little button say, "I'm very hungry, you won't make me breakfast." Then she turned and ran.Kou Yan'er was in a hurry, but couldn't catch up.Then the little button disappeared, and Kou Yaner looked around but couldn't see anything.At this time, Xiao Button's voice came from behind, "You are so annoying, I don't like you anymore."

Kou Yaner woke up with a start, the surrounding was very quiet, a glimmer of light was revealed through the gap in the curtains, and she turned on the screen of her mobile phone, it was 05:30, it was not time to get up, and it was enough time for the little button to wake up at [-] o'clock to make breakfast.

Kou Yan'er lay on the bed, trying hard to recall her dream.This dream was so clear, she thought, does she need to analyze this dream?

Kou Yaner did not trust Freud's dream interpretation theory so much. Most of the time she couldn't remember her dreams clearly, or vaguely remembered them when she woke up, but then forgot them.

According to Freud's theory, dream interpretation seems to be able to analyze only one's own dreams, not others, because dreams often express personal desires, how many people can know the real desires of others?What's more, there are many disguised dreams.A disguised dream, more complex and indeterminate, fulfills a repressed desire.What desires do we have that are repressed, do we know it ourselves?The reason why we want to suppress some desires is that we don't want to face them, don't want to be remembered, and don't want to think.

Kou Yaner turned over, she felt a little stuffy, so she stuck her right foot out of the quilt.The cool feeling from the back of her feet made her more awake.

The material of the dream is often taken from one or more recent experiences which have some psychic significance.Kou Yaner easily thought of Sophie. Yes, the running in the dream was obviously related to Sophie, but the dream moved the running to the little button.

So what's the matter with not making breakfast?Kou Yaner was obviously wronged.She didn't miss Button's breakfast, it could be said that she never did.

No breakfast, no breakfast!At this moment, Kou Yan'er knew exactly who the plot in the dream was pointing to, Xu Xiaomai!

From Sophie to Xu Mai, Kou Yaner can find this logical line.She heard a song "Sofia" a few days ago, maybe because she just met Sohpie, Kou Yaner listened to this cheerful song several times, and looked at the translation of the lyrics, just glanced at it, Kou Yaner turned off the screen.Now she knew what she was avoiding.That song reminded her of a person, Xu Xiaomai.

"If never separated

i won't miss you so much

don't want you so much

tell me what's on your mind

i never understood

i have lost myself

look at me sofia"

The comfortable coolness of the feet outside the quilt has passed, and Kou Yaner feels the cold.She retracted her right foot under the covers and rubbed it on her left leg, she needed a little warmth.

As for breakfast, how could Kou Yan'er forget it.It was Xiao Button who suggested Kou Yan'er to make breakfast for Xu Xiaomai.And the only breakfast that Kou Yan'er made for Xu Maimai, Xu Maimai didn't eat it, but slammed it on the wall angrily.That was the real end of them.

Xu Xiaomai didn't appear in the whole dream. This was a disguised dream, which meant that he might have some repressed desires.what is that?

First of all this is a self-justifying dream.

Kou Yan'er has never missed the breakfast of Little Button, and she also wants to express that she has not let down Xu Mai, and she has not stopped working hard.After Xu Maimai left, Kou Yaner still insisted on getting a divorce.Xu Xiaomai never believed that Kou Yaner was really emotional, nor did she think that she would abandon her marriage because of this emotion.

On the second level, Kou Yaner blamed Xu Xiaomai in the dream, expressing her anger or resentment through the dream.Xu Xiaomai ran away without a trace.Kou Yan'er could not forgive.She felt wronged for herself, not because she lost her marriage, but because she felt that what she had done for Xu Maimai was not worth it at all.

So, the last sentence of Xiaokouzi "I don't like you anymore." Was it what he said to Xu Xiaomai?Could it be what Xu Maimai said to herself?

Kou Yaner is not sure about this, she is not sure what is this part of the disguise?Is it my resentment towards Xu Maimai?Or is Xu Maimai indifferent to her?

At this point in the analysis, Kou Yaner must move towards the ultimate goal. What kind of desire is he revealing?