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Chapter 53 Chapter 53

53.

Some people like to talk about vulgar and superficial love as extremely nasty, but some people insist on disguising their greatest affection as a mutual benefit.

"The last time you came back from hiking in the Gobi Desert, you said that Little Button didn't understand what I said. You thought you understood, but did you really understand? If you understood, you wouldn't be so entangled."

"We learn how to be human and understand life in the competition?" Xu Maimai blurted out.She wanted to show that she had really thought about it, that she really understood.

"No matter how you explain it to Little Button, from the perspective of competition, you lost to Sophie. You understand and I understand. But why do you act so complacent? Because there are factors other than results in the competition. Do you really understand?"

"Of course I know."

"Is me among the factors you understand?" Kou Yan'er asked persistently.

"Yes, your devotion to me, your love for me, your expectations for me..."

"It's not these, so I say you don't really understand. You never thought about what I got from your competition."

Xu Xiaomai was stunned, she really didn't think about it, what she thought about was what Kou Yaner paid, she didn't think Kou Yaner got something.What can Kou Yaner get?A word of thanks?Or that worthless medal that will end up in the trash someday when you clean up the clutter?Yes, Kou Yaner didn't get anything.

"I get presence and participation, I'm part of your struggle. You come back unscathed, you go the distance beyond yourself, you achieve your dreams, you maintain your dignity, all of that, and I Participated. Do you understand this feeling? I am included in your achievements, your struggles, and your dreams." Kou Yaner said a little excitedly.

"Sophie can give you glory, but I don't." Xu Maimai didn't keep up with Kou Yaner at all.

"Yes, Sophie shared her glory with me. She has always been willing to share her success and glory with me, but I have never had the opportunity to participate in it. Just like this hike, she does not need me to guide her training, she No need for me to prepare any equipment for her, she is even more professional than me. I know she can protect herself, I never need to worry about her walking to death in the Gobi Desert. So I was excluded from her competition .She also came to share her joy and feelings with me with the medal, but I didn't realize the happiness we had that night. It was an honor that had nothing to do with me. The same is true for success in career. Sophie met me She was already quite successful when she was struggling, and I didn’t even know how to participate in her future. I don’t know what else I can give to Sophie except to enjoy her achievements.”

Xu Xiaomai was dumbfounded.She hadn't thought about it from that angle.

"You keep asking me about the flower crown. You ask me who I really like. I remind you, I want you to think about what the flower crown really represents? You don't seem to think about it at all. You think the flower crown is Those things. You keep telling yourself that you don’t have money, you don’t have a good job. You’re worthless, you’re not worth mentioning.”

"However, you have been hesitating. You were not as determined as you are now. You just made the choice. Why? Why did you suddenly decide?"

"Beautiful things are attractive to all people. I am also a mortal, and I also have material desires. I also often desire to get something for nothing. I also admire excellent people, so I hesitate. Moreover, it is not her fault that Sophie is excellent. I don't know how to reject her, should I say, you are so nice so I want to break up?"

"Then what are you going to tell Sophie now? Is there anything else to say?"

"Before I tell Sophie, I have to confirm your attitude." Kou Yaner said bluntly. "I don't want to be fooled. I've already been scammed once. Three years ago."

Xu Mai felt guilty for a while.Kou Yan'er really understands her, Xu Xiaomai feels that she is actually the same as she was three years ago.If Kou Yan'er did not come to Shanghai after him, Xu Xiaomai might still run away.

"Of course, when you make a decision, you have to think about one thing, Sophie's reaction. If you choose to follow me, you have to take a risk that Sophie will retaliate against you at work. It's just a risk. I'm not sure what Sophie will do. It may be that we are too petty, but it is possible for Sophie to spread her grievances on you. You still have a choice now. Love and career."