not as lingering

Chapter 80 Chapter 80

80.

Kou Yan'er was very tired from sitting, and the flow of time seemed extremely slow. She checked the time on her phone many times, and it was only half an hour.Why is this half an hour so long?She wanted to lie down, but she didn't want to lie down in front of her mother at all.

Kou Yaner's so-called staying alone is not correct, she wants everyone to leave, and then she can let Sophie come.Kou Yan'er didn't know why she suddenly wanted to meet Sophie.

Kou Yan'er twisted her body, her brows furrowed even tighter.She was really tired, and she had to save a little energy to see Sophie. Even if she was sick, she couldn't be limp in front of Sophie, and she still had to maintain her basic posture.

Xu Xiaomai finally told the old lady about Kou Yaner's condition and treatment and examination.Only then did the old lady realize that Kou Yaner's illness seemed to be more serious than she thought, and she was a little panicked.

"Auntie, don't be nervous. Tomorrow's operation is not a major operation, it's just a lymphatic examination." Xu Maimai comforted the old lady.The old lady's worried expression comforted Xu Xiaomai a little, and she finally saw the expression of family affection.Many people's true emotions can be masked by eccentric personalities.This may be the case with the old lady.

"Auntie, I'll take you to the doctor to sign, and then you can go back to rest early." Seeing Kou Yaner's discomfort, Xu Maimai hurriedly took the old lady away.

Xu Xiaomai leaned over and rolled down the back of Kou Yaner's hospital bed, and settled Kou Yaner to lie down, "Yaner, take a rest. I'll take my aunt to sign and send it home. You don't have to worry. Then I'll go back and make dinner. We'll go straight home Home, don't come here, you and auntie are both tired."

The old lady was a little worried, and wanted to come back to accompany Kou Yaner, but Xu Maimai dissuaded her.

Kou Yan'er had to marvel at Xu Xiaomai's speech skills. He couldn't say any of the polite words that Xu Xiaomai said casually.Similar to:

"You take good care of yourself, which is the greatest comfort to Yan'er."

"Your health is more important than anything else."

"We are too busy to take care of you right now, please forgive me. When Yan'er recovers from illness, I will show filial piety to you."

Etc., etc. . . .

The old lady was dazed by Xu Maimai's kind attitude.Although the old lady is indifferent, she has also learned from her daughter who has always had a cold attitude for many years.Suddenly being respected by such an affectionate auntie and auntie was quite useful, so that they didn't immediately realize that Xu Maimai's attitude was quite problematic, as if Xu Maimai was the closest person to Kou Yaner, and the old lady It seems to be an outsider.

Sophie came to Kou Yaner's hospital bed so fast that Kou Yaner was lying down to welcome Sophie's arrival.

Sophie is very familiar with the scene of Kou Yaner lying down waiting for her, but this time it is different.

Sophie felt distressed.She never thought that Kou Yan'er would get sick. Sophie has seen Kou Yaner's athletic ability.People often confuse athletic ability with physical fitness.

Kou Yaner wanted to sit up, but was stopped by Sophie.

Following Kou Yaner's instructions, Sophie raised the head of the bed slightly.Sophie frowned dissatisfiedly when she stuffed the pillow behind Kou Yaner's back.The stiff and rigid pillow looked extremely uncomfortable.

Sophie understands Kou Yaner's attention to pillows.Probably because of poor sleep, Kou Yan'er is always picky about the pillow's height and softness.Kou Yan'er must not be able to sleep well with such a pillow.

When Sophie was helping Kou Yaner arrange the pillow, Kou Yaner smelled the familiar perfume on Sophie.Kou Yan'er suddenly had the urge to cry.

Kou Yaner didn't realize that she wanted to see Sophie because of her inner fear, and a powerful Sophie could give her some kind of psychological support.

It is impossible for Sophie to ignore the panic and dodge in Kou Yaner's eyes, even though Kou Yaner has already checked his face slightly, so as not to meet her eyes. Sophie stared intently at Kou Yaner's every expression, which was a habit, and even more concerned.

But Sophie was not sensational, and the empty comfort was meaningless.Everyone has a fear of uncertain risks, and there's no shame in that. Sophie is more concerned about specific problems, and her most urgent thing is to find a feasible solution.

Sophie quickly obtained some useful information, the course and symptoms of the disease, the information and diagnosis and treatment of the attending doctor, the intention of surgery tomorrow, and so on.

Kou Yaner stopped narrating wearily.Miraculously, this kind of exhaustion gave Kou Yan'er a feeling of relaxation.

"Sophie, will I die?" Kou Yaner suddenly asked quietly.

"Yes, we are all going to die, but not now." Sophie carefully pulled Kou Yaner's hand hanging on the quilt, and there was still a needle on the back of the hand, which was said to be used for hanging the needle, which could save the pain of needles every day. Sophie gently stroked the veins on the back of her slightly bruised hand. "I'm older than you. If I die, I will die first, right?"

Kou Yan'er smiled softly, this was the first time she laughed these days, the smile was a bit tight, but it was a smile after all. "Of course not. Who is closer or farther to death than the other? Is it farther away from death when you are young? There are many forms of death, so everyone's distance from death cannot be determined."

"Okay, even if what you said makes sense, I don't think it's a big deal for you to be sick this time. Not being diagnosed doesn't mean it's terminally ill. Not being diagnosed may be a problem of medical level." Sophie replied with affirmative tone.

"I didn't expect that I would be so afraid of death." Kou Yan'er smiled again, this smile was unnatural and a bit nervous.

"For humans, the only thing that is absolute is death. None of us can escape, so this fear is eternal and absolute. I still say that, we will all die, but not now." Sophie suppressed the emotion in her heart Uneasy, speaking with his usual firm tone.

"The doctor has been hinting that it may be terminally ill. It may also be that the so-called uncertainty is just to get solid evidence." Kou Yan'er replied helplessly.

"Can I talk to your attending doctor? After tomorrow's operation, if necessary, I can find a doctor in the United States. There are many people who are misdiagnosed."

"Thank you for your comfort. I have been thinking, if tomorrow's surgery test results are really cancer, should I treat it? At first I thought, I will never treat it, I will accept my fate. But then I thought, I am not ready yet " Kou Yan'er's eyes were red, she bit her lip, unable to speak.She couldn't say the three words "little button".

Sophie didn't answer, but held Kou Yaner's hand tightly with her hands.At some point, language will seem pale and redundant.as it is now.No words can relieve the fear of death.Silence is often more comforting.

When we discuss the topic of death in ordinary life, we can be very rational, open-minded and fearless.But when we face death for ourselves or our loved ones, we are always helpless. We don’t know whether to encourage others to fight or appease them to accept their fate.

Because we know that we can never be ready for death.We know a lot of truths, but we still can't live a good life.We have sought various methods to resist the fear of death, using religion, writing, and a life of drunkenness, but all failed.

Sophie's silence and the warmth of her palm gave Kou Yan'er a little confidence.

"It doesn't matter, at least I won't die tomorrow. Tomorrow is just an operation and an inspection. Before the results come out, there is still a chance. It's like on a gambling table, the last card has not been turned, so don't let me die." despair."

Sophie stood up, leaned over and hugged Kou Yaner, and then gently pressed her cheek against Kou Yaner's face, "Yaner, I will come tomorrow. I love you."