The head of the Yuan family does not want to be reincarnated in the Chanyuan

Chapter 154 The Long Torment

"...In short, that's it." The male voice on the phone said, "I really don't know what you want these messages for."

"It doesn't matter to you." Chan Yuan Shi Er sneered, "You still ask so much for money, you really should let your 'clients' know what kind of virtue you are."

"Don't, don't, don't." The male voice said in a panic, and then seemed to realize that he had exposed something, and said with a smile, "Isn't this just for a living... If you give me more, I can still ask you In more detail, I just don't know...?"

"Don't even think about it." Chanyuan Shier hung up the phone without hesitation, then stood at the door and looked at the crowds in a daze, standing there for a long time, as if not feeling tired, watching without blinking Looking at a tiny stone in the distance, trembling under the blowing of the wind, it took a long time to barely turn it over.

Zenyuan Shier lowered his eyes, realizing that he had been standing here for a long time, but somehow he didn't want to move.

What to do?Zenyuan Shi Er looked up at the sky in a daze. It was an incomparably clear blue, and the space was a bit scary. There were no clouds, no birds, and no signposts to guide him where he should go.

There is nothing left to do.

The aroma of food was wafting in the air. He looked back at the ramen that had only one bite and was covered with a large piece of char siu. There was nothing in his stomach, but it seemed that something had been stuffed in, which made him almost hard Only then did the ground squeeze out a place for survival along the gap in the throat.

Chanyuan Shi'er is even a little used to it, no matter how hard he searches, he can't find any news about the other "him" that Chanyuan Shuo said... Sometimes he can't help but doubt himself when there is no one around Did you get scammed?misremembered?Is it the wrong direction?Was there something else he hadn't noticed?Otherwise, why can't I find anything?But thinking about the Zenyuan family who has been kept in the dark until now, and thinking about the identities that no one knows except for a few high-level people, does he feel that he deserves to be you?Even if it is the most precious gem in the world, if it is hidden in the deep sea, if you want to be discovered, maybe you can only wait until the ocean is evaporated, from the endless sand and stones, under the sunlight, and through the reflected light. Glittering into people's eyes...

Zenyuan Shier laughed at himself, moved his stiff legs, swayed against the flow of people, walked endlessly, until he reached the safe house he set up, and threw himself into the safe house without saying a word. Sitting on the sofa, he stared blankly at the snow-white ceiling, and then blocked his eyes with the back of his hand.

Wanting to close his eyes, wanting to pass out simply, wanting to be able to control his breathing and heartbeat, wanting a night without dreams... But the spirit is extremely resistant and rejects all these things he wishes for.The night was astonishingly long, and nightmares filled his whole world, flowing on the ceiling, reflected in the mirror, and standing everywhere his eyes could reach, so that he could only fall asleep and wake up repeatedly in the darkness all night long, but The morning sun refused to enter the house through the window with curtains.

Zenyuan Shier sometimes feels that he may be crazy, just like he obviously doesn’t like eating oranges that much, but he always buys a few when the boss says oranges are very sweet. He peeled off the white stems, but every time he put them in his mouth, the taste buds on his tongue gave him an astonishingly sour feedback, and the final result would always be thrown into the trash can to rot;

Just like when completing the bounty, he would sometimes have a sudden whim to use pain, blood and wounds to prove that he was alive, but his body always avoided it at the last moment disobediently, as if someone was in his body. Talking in the ear, pulling him, preventing him from leaving a fatal wound;

It was as if he had already destroyed and removed all the decorations in the house, leaving nothing but the necessary supplies, and he could always feel that someone was sitting behind the desk under the half-opened curtain, and the desk was placed on it. Reading a book and a cup of tea, I looked towards him after hearing his footsteps...

But what can he do?He could only escape in a panic on the surface calmly, trying to find a place where he would not be "tortured", but he was stuck in place by the shackles of "killing 'me'", as if there was an invisible circle for him He drew boundaries that made it painful every time he tried to get out.

But just like a rubber band is constantly stretched, there will always be a moment when it breaks. After completing a certain bounty, he suddenly felt a vulture falling from the sky, staggering and slowly following behind him, with wings spread Staying in his pupils seems to block out the sun.He tried to drive it away, tried to break its neck, but it always followed him like a shadow behind him.He finally chose to stop one day, picked up the knife and aimed it at his chest, cut a long wound on his chest, pulled out the still beating heart, and threw it far away, like this vulture His eyes would not be chasing after his back, but would stay where he was, leaving him far behind and never remembering him again.

His chest was empty, it would stop beating, and he seemed to be finally able to sleep peacefully.Listening to the sound of the racetrack, he rushed in laughing, and the zeros were erased one by one, as if he could finally abandon himself and choose what kind of life he wanted to live.

Compliments, ridicule, the projected lights, the cups of wine that seemed to glow with golden light, and the thousands of people coming and going in this radiant and extremely dark world, he only felt the empty joy, and the dream finally except Nothing exists any more outside of himself.

However, when the morning light was twilight, the moon was fading, and the sun was rising, he clearly heard the sound of ding ding dong dong ringing in his half-dream and half-awake ears. The things he threw away seemed to mock his willfulness, his overreaching, Relaxed and self-satisfied, they returned to him in an instant.

Ah, yes, he thought vaguely, how could I have forgotten?

[Still like it? ]

No.Zenyuan Shier muttered to himself.

[Acquisitions should have started a long time ago...]

Do not talk.

[…It turned out to be free recently. ]

...please...don't talk...

Zenyuan Shier lowered his head and crushed the armrest beside him with his fingers. Amidst the screams, he stood up slowly, and Choubao climbed onto his shoulders silently.

The vulture's feathers were flying in the air. He knelt on the ground and picked up his gnawed heart, stuffed it back into his chest, and used needles, thread, and everything that could make him feel that he was still alive to seal the wound tightly. Sew it up firmly, and cover your bruised body tightly with clean clothes, as if nothing has happened.

hold on a little longer...

try again...

Let me feel my presence again...

Zenyuan Shier laughed out loud, feeling the blood passing through his incomplete heart, beating hard, and suffering from pain, he sat up from the sofa, picked up the mobile phone that was put aside, and dialed the phone that was about to be thrown away by him. number on the back of the head.

The phone rang twice and was connected, but no one spoke, either inside or outside the phone, only the sound of shallow breathing from inside could be heard.

"I guess, you guys must be checking where the phone call is." Chanyuan Shier said with a low smile. In a trance, he saw Chanyuan Shuo sitting opposite him and staring at him intently, and then next The second disappeared like a bubble, "Don't waste your energy, do you want to tell you a message?"

"...Why should I believe you?" Shui Guling's calm voice came out, "Leave with the news privately, avoiding the search personnel... How can you prove that what you said is not fake news?"

"Who knows?" Zenyuan Shier stood up, walked to the refrigerator, took out several bottles of wine and placed them on the table, "Anyway, the news has been given to you, so you can read it as you like."

Zenyuan Shier said something on the phone, then hung up, he reached for the bottle and poured it into his mouth without hesitation, the empty bottle fell to the ground with a bang.

"If it is said that long-term obsession will generate a curse... what is my curse?" Zenyuan Shier looked at the blank ceiling in a daze and muttered to himself.

Is it miss?Is it hatred?I always feel that everything is disgusting, or...

Is it the word that I abandoned and crushed by myself from the very beginning, as if it never existed from the very beginning?

"Unfortunately... there will never be a curse in 'Heaven and Curse'." Zenyuan Shier lay on the back of the sofa and slowly closed his eyes, "It's like I can't even get drunk now , it’s really useless, isn’t it?”

朔…

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Shui Guling put down the phone on the other side with a dignified face, his eyes wandering, he was a little hesitant, wondering if he should believe Zenyuan Shier's words, after all, what he said was a little bit beyond his expectations, but if it was false, he wouldn't believe it at all. There's no need to make up such absurd lies, so...

"Chanyuan Shier is calling?!" The door was slammed open, Yamada Mei rushed in, followed by Bayer with the same serious expression, "Did he say anything?"

"He told me what the young master said before he fell into a coma, but..."

"But what? You said it!" Mei Yamada turned around anxiously, "Don't always stop halfway, I don't want to guess here and there!"

"Miss Mei, calm down." Bayer grabbed Yamada Mei's shoulders from behind and pressed her on the chair, "It's useless to worry now, let's listen to what Mizutani has to say."

Yamada Mei took two deep breaths, clutched her skirt tightly with both hands, and barely suppressed her ecstasy and anxiety after hearing Zenyuan Shier's call: "Sorry, I was too anxious."

Shui Guling nodded towards Baier, and hesitantly said the words of Zenyuan Shier: "He said that before the young master fell into a coma, what he told him was 'find me and kill me'."

Bayer and Yamada Mei's breathing stagnated at the same time. They never expected that the last news they got was such an ambiguous sentence. After a short silence, they also thought of the same problem as Mizutani Ling. If they were lying to them, Why not make up a lie that sounds more plausible?So... is this true?

"...Does this sentence mean...is there a second young master?" Mei Yamada asked a little at a loss, "Could the current situation of the young master be caused by him?"

"I can't rule out this possibility..." Baier thought for a while, and finally got a clue, no matter whether it is true or not, they must not let it go. There must be his intention to draw attention to this aspect, "... let's take a two-pronged approach. The Chanyuan Shier still can't give up searching. On the other hand, no matter what kind of result we want to achieve in the end, we must first find this. This 'he' in the sentence."

Ling Mizutani nodded and agreed with Bayer's idea, "In this case, I will mobilize the personnel of the intelligence department. It just so happens that the current situation has basically stabilized, and I can spare some energy for the time being. As long as you are careful, you will not What is the problem."

"Turn over the part of the work you are in charge of to me and Ms. Mei for the time being. I will notify you later. If you need anything, come to me. Nothing is as important as this right now." Baier said after a moment of pondering.

"Then I'll trouble you and Ms. Mei. It's a pity that Takahashi still can't be contacted, otherwise we will have another intelligence line." Shui Guling thought that Takahashi Kazuhiko was disappearing for him again, although he also understood that according to the current situation It was necessary, but the thought of this guy just made him inexplicably annoyed.

"This is something that can't be helped. Although we can maintain a balance with the magic world for the time being, the inside of the magic world, especially the high-level people, is still jittery. Even if there is any important news from Takahashi, it will not be released for the time being. The risk of exposure is too high." Bayer rubbed his forehead to comfort Mizugu Ling.

Shui Guling let out a breath slowly: "I'll go and sort out the work I've done, and I'll leave the rest to you for the time being."

"I hope it will go smoothly in the future."

"Anyway, it can't get any worse." Bayer looked at the sun outside the window, feeling that there was finally a glimmer of light in his heart.

Soon...Master...

Mizutani Ryo stroked his heart, as if he felt an invisible call, please forgive us, wait a little... wait a little longer, you will return to us soon.