After the rebirth, the white moonlight of the actor turned black

Chapter 110 I want to be better for you

Gu Huayan leaned against the door panel, dazed.

His dark heart seemed to be suddenly illuminated by a ray of warm sunshine, filling it up in an instant.

Really, Brother Ting, does he really think so?

Even though he has the perspective of God, he has seen the scene where Brother Ting was jealous of him, but he has no way of knowing what is going on in his heart.

Most of the mental illness patients have an inducement.

Gu Huayan may be fine at ordinary times, but when all the good things are spread out in front of him, it will trigger his self-pity.

The happier he is, the more painful he is, and even more serious.

In his bones, he hoped that he would be unlucky, in order to punish himself for the stupid actions he had committed.

This state was soothed by Shen Xiangting's warm words.

Shen Xiangting finally let go of his hands, and then, like hugging a child, put one arm on his back and the other on the back of his head, hugging him into his arms.

Gu Huayan was buried in his heart, this warm and powerful hug had a strong healing function for him.

Coupled with his gentle words: "Ah Wan did a good job today, made progress, and is very obedient."

Gu Huayan's eyelashes were still wet, and his hands hanging by his legs were a little weak, but the corners of his mouth were slightly raised.

very nice.

In fact, he was the same age as Brother Ting in this life, but he was still treated as a child with this body.

This feeling of relaxing, not having to think about anything, and pretending to be a child, is so good.

It would be good for him to forget everything, so that he would no longer be a sick man, and would not have that feeling of being always on the verge of death.

But if this kind of forgetting makes it possible for him to repeat the mistakes of his previous life, falling in love with someone who shouldn't be loved, and hurting someone who shouldn't be hurt, then he would rather live with this pain for the rest of his life.

It is already a great forgiveness from God for him who has committed a lot of sins to have such a chance to be reborn, and he shouldn't ask for more.

"Brother Ting." His voice was muffled.

"I'm here."

"If my illness is never cured for the rest of my life, I will be trapped in the haze of my heart again and again. From time to time, I will want to push you away and escape the status quo. In this way, will you continue to be with me?"

Shen Xiangting's calm and magnetic voice whispered in his ear: "If you push me away, I will hold you; if you run away, I will chase after you; it doesn't matter if you are sick, I will cure you; looking at you. Is such a promise enough?"

Gu Huayan smiled: "Enough."

Then, he will work hard.

Gu vainly said: "I will do the hypnotherapy that Dr. Rong said."

Shen Xiangting was slightly taken aback: "Have you really decided?"

Rong Huan had vaccinated him, saying that if Ah Wan received hypnotherapy...

Whether hypnotherapy works is not clear. First, the patient will re-experience the painful events.

This effect varies from person to person, some people can bear it, and some people can't.

For a serious situation like Ah Wang, Rong Huan is not sure whether it will get better or worse after treatment.

He couldn't make an accurate judgment, so he told Gu Huayan and let him make this decision by himself.

"I've decided, I want to try."

Desensitization treatment alone is not enough, even if he is immune to Brother Ting in the end, he is still a patient who will get sick at any time.

If he pushed Brother Ting away once, he might not get hurt, and he could bear it twice, but if there were too many times, who could guarantee that Brother Ting would not be hurt by his words and deeds?

People's hearts are made of flesh, and it will inevitably break the defense if there are too many times.

Sometimes the words spoken by a loved one are the most hurtful. Once the wound is made, it may heal later, but the scar will always be there.

The best way is to not create scars in the first place.

"I want to try, Brother Ting, I want to be better for you."

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If Ah Wan's words hadn't impressed him deeply last night, Shen Xiangting would even wonder if it was just a dream he had when he woke up the next day.

When the camera was framed, Ah Wan was already acting like a normal person, no one could see that he was a depressed patient who was struggling between life and death.

Gu Huayan in front of the camera, he can't see any problem either.

Even if he knew about it and was deceived by him, let alone other people who didn't know?

What Rong Huan said was right, he really pretended too well, he had disguised himself as a normal person since he was a child, even Grandpa Gu and the others didn't find anything wrong.

His indifference and indifference to people are actually his own defense mechanism, afraid of being seen through his heart, afraid of being found out that he is not a normal person.

He didn't know why, but this kind of Ah Wan opened his heart to him, unreservedly showing the "dilapidated self" he thought was in front of him.

In his heart, is he such a trustworthy person?

"Brother Ting, you're up, do you have breakfast? I prepared a western breakfast."

Gu Huayan was preparing in the open kitchen early in the morning. The camera teacher came early and set up the camera, and took pictures of Gu Huayan making breakfast.

At this time, the live broadcast had already begun.

Everyone came to watch this young chef of the new century.

[Ahhh, the words are too virtuous! !Tingshen is so blessed! 】

【Everyday I want to steal Word Treasure!But I can't beat Tingshen! (╥╯^╰╥)】

[Open your eyes and I will watch the live broadcast!My God, this is really the visual sense of filming "My Home"! !It smells so good! 】

[One thing to say, "My Home" can invite them to go!Didn't say that opposite sex must live together [狗头]]

[One blood book! 】

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Both of them were wearing loose home clothes, Gu Huayan was preparing breakfast in the open kitchen, and Shen Xiangting walked slowly down from the second floor.

No matter how you look at this scene, it looks like the first day of cohabitation after marriage. Netizens hold their faces and call it too sweet.

The fans said, the theme song of Bai Chi Xing Chen, laughing to death, is not important at all, don't spoil the scenery, we can watch [-] episodes every day if you two take pictures every day!

The program team also started work. Hearing that Gu Huayan was making breakfast, the chief director hurriedly sat over and praised: "Gu Huayan looks like a young master with delicate skin and tender meat, but he can actually do this? It's really unexpected."

The female assistant director smiled and said: "Director, "My Home" next door excitedly contacted me this morning, asking if Shen Xiangting has a rumored girlfriend, why their official blog was trampled by netizens last night, and they were asked to go to "The Stars" "Invited Shen Xiangting to participate in "My Home" hahaha!"

"Are all netizens this crazy?"

"Isn't it? They were so enthusiastic that they were confused. They wondered why they came to our show to invite Shen Xiangting, and asked me, isn't our Bai Chi Xingchen a male talent show? Why did Shen Xiangting shoot a CP? Could it be a mentor? Song Ying? I laughed and told her that the rumored girlfriend is gone, but there is a rumored 'boyfriend', if you want to ask them to take a photo, I can ask for you hahaha..."

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Guiding [Baili Chacha], I made a small super (CP) talk [Xin Xiang Wang Zhi] to play, I need the help of the babies (*?▽?*), the more people help, the faster it will come out? -(?▽?)/??(?▽?)-?