Reborn Cheng can't bear it

Chapter 231

In fact, he knew that it would be troublesome for him and Shen Qinglian's child to stay. If that child stayed, Shen Qinglian's situation would be very dangerous. He might still be able to escape, but Shen Qinglian couldn't.

So Shen Qinglian didn't want this child, but he could understand it.

But what he couldn't forgive was that Shen Qinglian didn't want this child, so she could tell him directly why she lied to him...why she fantasized about their happy life with him...although it was just a fantasy at the time, even though they knew at the time that it would definitely not come true True, but since she has no idea at all, since she is so ambitious, why did she lie to him?

Qi Bai has a feeling that his whole life has been ruined by others.

Because of Shen Qinglian, he ended up being chased and killed now, but his child is gone. What is he doing for it?

He felt that he deserved it too, and he deserved it.

If he didn't agree to this at the beginning, how could he do it now?

That night, Qi Bai still went to look for Shen Qinglian.

In fact, he was already a little hesitant. He felt that since this was the case, he might as well just break up with Shen Qinglian and not see anyone.

But he can't leave the palace now, once he leaves the palace, he may be discovered by Mr. Shen, and then be hunted down...

He has now reached the point where he can only hide in the palace, otherwise his life will be in danger.

Since he will stay in the palace in the future, he might not see Concubine Lian with his head up and down, and it would not be appropriate to get into a stalemate.

And he had a thought in his mind.

Since Shen Qinglian used him and even lied to him, why couldn't he treat him in the same way?

Now he has nothing but hatred for Shen Qinglian.

like?Hehe, now he feels ridiculous just thinking of these two words.

"Lian'er, I'm here."

Shen Qinglian hugged Qi Bai: "Why are you here now? I thought you wouldn't be here today."

"How is it possible? Where else can I go if I don't come here? After all, His Majesty is not here, and I have enough time to be with you. Otherwise, after His Majesty returns to the palace, it will be difficult for me to see you."

"Yeah, then why are you here so late?"

"There's something wrong with me. I'm afraid of being discovered, so I'm a little late."

"Oh, that's right." Shen Qinglian didn't think too much about it, "Your complexion doesn't look very good."

"One of our people was sick, and I stood guard instead of him. I stood for a long time and didn't take much rest. I was too tired."

"So it's like this..." Shen Qinglian feels sorry for Qi Bai, "If you are so busy and tired in the future, then don't come here. After all, you have to leave early from me, and you don't have time to rest at all. It's been hard work, and I feel sorry for you."

"Thank you for your distress."

Shen Qinglian undressed Qi Bai.

"Since you are tired, take a rest."

"it is good."

The two lay down, Qi Bai didn't sleep, but looked at the woman in front of him with his eyes open.

"Why have you been looking at me? Aren't you tired? Take a rest when you're tired."

"It's okay, I just want to see you. I think I miss you now to the point where I can't bear not seeing you for a few hours. What about you? Are you the same as me?"

Shen Qinglian nodded: "I can understand your feelings, because I feel the same way. In fact, I didn't think so before. We used to only meet at night, but I didn't miss you so much. But now I can't, I now I miss you during the day, I miss you all the time."

"What about our children?"

Shen Qinglian was taken aback: "What?"

"I said our children. You can think of me every day, so can you think of our children?"

Shen Qinglian's complexion was not very good.

"The child... yes, the child is gone. Of course I miss him, but he didn't leave before he was born."

"As a mother, what happened to the child in your womb must make you very sad, right?"

"Yeah, I'm very sad, and I still can't let go of it."

"Then do you regret it?"

"Regret what?"

"Don't you regret that we had that child?" Qi Bo laughed, "Actually, if you don't have that child, maybe you don't have to suffer so much now, because if you don't have it, you won't lose it, and if you don't lose it, you won't suffer any more. You said Right?"

"That's not the case, after all, there used to be."

"Actually, you once wanted that child in order to gain His Majesty's favor. Now that the child is gone, don't you feel it's a pity?"

"These are two problems." Shen Qinglian paused, "I am very sad that the child is gone, and I also feel that it is a pity. I hate myself very much, I hate myself for not being able to protect the child. Mother's dereliction of duty. But if it's a pity, I don't think it's a pity. That child is not His Majesty's, and it is wrong to use a child who is not His Majesty to try to get His Majesty's [favor]."

"So now that the child is gone, for you, isn't your pressure gone?"

The child is a pain in Shen Qinglian's heart.

Because she had a child and lost it again, and it is impossible to have another child in the future.

But now Qi Bai doesn't know what's going on, one mouthful of "children", this is adding salt to her wounds, and then digging out her wounds.

"Qi Bo, what happened to you today? Why do you keep talking about children?"

"No, I just thought of it suddenly." Qi Bo sighed, "The elder brother who was on duty with me today said that his wife is about to give birth, and he will go home to see his wife after a while, and then he told me how cute the baby is. ...I was thinking about our children..."

Shen Qinglian understood, that's why Qi Bai was so strange today.

"But our child is gone. I beg you, can you stop talking about children in front of me? You know, I will never have children in the future. You tell me this now, you know my heart How uncomfortable is it?"

"Uncomfortable? Is it because of guilt?"

"what are you saying?"

At this moment, Shen Qinglian suddenly felt that Qi Bai in front of her was terrifying.

"I mean, you are very guilty of being a mother, but you did not protect the child in your womb. In fact, I am also guilty. What I am guilty of is that as a father, when you and your child had an accident, I did not take care of you." I feel guilty for being by your side. So I think you should be guilty too, right?"

Shen Qinglian's heart trembled when Qi Bai said it, she felt that she couldn't listen anymore.

Shen Qinglian hugged Qi Bai: "I'm sorry, it's all my fault, I'm incompetent, I'm not a good mother. You're right, I feel guilty, can you stop mentioning this matter again? Because Every time you say it, I feel guilty, and every time you say it, my heart feels sad."

"Okay, I won't mention it, it's just a pity for our child..." Although Qi Bai said earlier that he would not mention it, he still said it later.

Qi Bai could feel Shen Qinglian's body tremble every time he talked about the child.

So in fact, Shen Qinglian is also afraid and guilty, but it's too late for her to feel guilty now, and the child is gone.

"Qi Bo, do you feel that the child is gone and you are very angry? Although you keep saying it's okay and you've been comforting me, you still care about it in your heart, right?"

"Yes, I care. You are my woman. Since I met you, I have never thought about being with other women. I thought it was our child. Even if it will be raised in the palace in the future, even if it will be Calling His Majesty the Father, I also recognize it, after all, it is my blood. But now my blood is gone, and there will be no more in the future..."

"So? So are you looking for other women?" Shen Qinglian looked at Qi Bai nervously.

She is not a magnanimous person, she can't accept being jealous because of her status in the palace, and then she finds someone she loves, and still has to continue to be jealous, it's too tiring.

So she can't accept that Qi Bai has other women, absolutely not!

"Don't be so nervous, I haven't said anything yet."

"Then what do you want to say? You have this expression when you come here today, and then you said these inexplicable things to me, so what do you want to say? Do you want to say that you actually have an idea, and you want to find someone People who can give birth to you are together?"

"No."

"You said no, do you mean that you haven't found that person yet, or that you don't have that idea?"

"You know, we can't stay like this forever. Now His Majesty hasn't come back yet, I can still come to you, but what if His Majesty comes back? How do you know His Majesty won't come when I'm with you?"

"No, Ye Haocheng is the only one in His Majesty's heart. As for the harem... For Your Majesty, the harem is a place of right and wrong, and he will not come if he can. Besides, I am like this now... Your Majesty is considered a [favorite] Fortunately, the harem will not do it because it likes someone, but to spread the leaves. Obviously, I can no longer spread the leaves for him, so I am the one who deserves to be abandoned. Since His Majesty abandoned me, then I and you……"

"It's as if you won't abandon me." Qi Bai sneered, "You are the emperor's woman, you are in the palace, you have to protect yourself. I can imagine that one day you will do nothing to protect yourself, maybe you Even children can be abandoned."

"Qi Bo!" After Shen Qinglian yelled out, she was frightened by herself, because she was worried that her yelling would call everyone over.

"It's okay, I don't have any other thoughts, but seeing people have wives and children and a happy family, I feel a little uncomfortable. You just think I'm crazy..." Qi Bai put his arms around Shen Qinglian, "Go to bed, it's getting late , I'm tired too."

Shen Qinglian looked at Qi Bai, and Qi Bai had already closed his eyes and fell asleep...

Shen Qinglian didn't sleep well that night.

It may be because she slept too much during the day, or it may be because of what Qi Bai said just now, anyway, she basically didn't sleep much that night, even if she fell asleep, her mind was full of bad dreams...